Hi sorry to come up outta nowhere but I think I just needed to get this out of me and in to the universe and my therapist says I should let my art out more and I’m stoned enough to think this is a good idea.

Anyway I keep trying to come up with a name for this and it’s like my brain has a song on repeat but that song is just Sylvia Plath’s “Daddy” and that’s no good, hahahaha.

Also I’m terribly sorry that I’m even more terrible at understanding Reddit formatting so please forgive me if I have given you a jumble.

He’s the dad I thought I had. Way back when- When I thought we were friends- And you taught me the morals I still hold within? You’d teach me to learn, teach me to love, teach me how to stumble, stay humble, and purl: How to make pancakes, say sorry and care for the world. Be my hero, my coach and I’m Daddy’s Girl. Something softly changed. Some subtle derangement of my world in a way the world has no words for And I was too young to know. It seemed like a breeze on my soul; I think I will always remember that cold. When fear and pain became hate; an ironic coda- Or maybe I just got to know the you I’d have never considered. My hero gone dark, his heart withered. He’d normalize casualty in a way heroes never consider. But this man? I envy his his kids They have the dad I thought I did.

Anyway I understand if this gets kablammed into the nowhere but, like, thanks for existing, internet strangers.

Uhh five seven five

We still do this in these parts?

I can barely talk.

I never thought being lonely would make me feel so unbelievably abandon, Damn. I ask myself what im i doing wrong for me not to hold someone tight at tonight Damn. In my feeling's again, Damn. I don't want to do this again,Damn. I need a best friend. A good one, better than Her someone that's going pick up when i call someone who's going to text me back when i do. Damn, i can't believe i thought she was the one. Damn, I need a Best friend. More positive than Her. She would lift us both as i do the same she would show me things as i would do the same. Damn, I need some more drank. She would warm the room like a Leo or should I say like me. She is the one I'd wake up to just to smile and go back to sleep. Damn, I need a Best friend. She not going to play with me but she will games with me. She not going to grow old of me she's going to grow old with me. Damn, I need more gram's. She's not going to entertain other's she's and me for them she's going to entertain the fam, Damn. I never thought being lonely would make me feel so unbelievably abandon, Damn. I need a Bestfriend. She would understand the pain and anger I been through she wouldn't fight me over ripped tights she wouldn't mind traveling to stay some night's Damn. It's 3am. I love you best friend where ever you are. I'm not sad am lonely nor am i happy But, Damn i need a bestfriend

The tragedy of
burnt toast, I scrape the surface
We're out of butter

7/10 booze bonus

The devil may care
Devil may care but the lord
The lord gets more hoes

4

That liquid in my stummy

Slosh slosh

That sloshing

(Ps, is this is a haiku?)

life is full of cunts

you just gotta hit it

And smoke some blunts

Bring us back the fools

The naked drunk on the floor

Yet screaming for more

hello world

Stuck between her legs

starts to forget about air

oops now i am dead

Whiskey is my whore

I suck on her perfect nip

drags me to the floor

golden waterfall,

my network has been destroyed,

don't taunt me anymore

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*(shit haiku)*

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**4/3**

The fall I could stand
It was not the shattering
She was oh so young

(So my bubbler fell from my desk yesterday, it fucken shattered, got a new one today; wrote this on the toilet)

[6}/4

Why is this sub dead?
Perhaps you need more highku’s.
Spark that shit, my dude.

(just discovered this sub, will post frequently, idc if you like it or not)

[6}/7

Edit: letter

I am super high

i feel like i smoked 3 blunts

is there any chips?

Plant is a machine
Converting sunlight into
Future T H C

Please don't judge me now
I'm just trying to get by
I need a little help.

Using chemicals
To compensate for lack of
Human affection

Yes I know it's sad
Not asking for charity
Just some privacy

Turns out life is hard
Death is gonna be a trip
What did Darren say?

I think it was,
"I'll see you in the good place."
I'll see you indeed.

4/6

it's seven thirty
well, I wait five more minutes
now it's time to pour

seven thirty six
I won't waste anymore time
I drink the whole bottle. cheers!

seven thirty sev
en what's a haiku
seven more syllables...here?

seven thirty eight
uh
if I put eleven here does that make one?

now i'll try real hard
the cat jumped over the moon
I just want to piss

uh 10 and 0 i'm not woahed I wanna die

Open up my heart

Emotional casserole

Four days rotten, bye

I wrote a haiku Because I can’t write stories. Even these are shit.

I drink you down now; I strangle the notions you Give me. Go away.

inperceptable

unidentifiable

understandable

i hurt her again

but it is much easier

to blame her than me

Often pee myself, Mostly out in public, Shame can suck my dick.

Be proud of yourself, You made it to the dumpster, Do the dry pants dance, motherfucker.

skin filled with freckles like grains of sand and brown like the mud

eyes blue like the ocean but distant like the stars

with a mouth so quiet that they rarely ever speak but a voice so beautiful it'll make your body go weak

with hands so gentle their touch is a gift but still they are shy so their touch is quite swift

with a body so fragile and a mind so far unaware of themselves and how beautiful they are

with a smile so intriguing thats rarely ever show they keep themselves hidden but theyre the best youve ever known

I really hope some drnk lovelies are out here

infinity now
and then moving towards love and
the end of I

*formating with spaces

Full version:

It is my way of touching infinity
momentarily and then
moving

back to the comfort
of everyday in finite
step by step
breath by breath

towards
love and
the end

of
I

i have drank nine beers
but i still have three beers left
who to text tonight

I drank ten and ther's one in my hand.
you do the math

Damn, I am pretty...

Inebriated right now...

Hittin' up Wawa.

5 white wine style

Schlitz Bull Ice wanders

Down my throat like metal shards.

Eight point two percent.

The was once a ham

he was sad cus his dad died

but he had fingers

was a drunk 7