I might be just insane but I thought that people like me more when I talk less and most of the times seems to work, I realized that if I don't start the conversation people will go days without talking to me and makes me feel really worthy and not annoying. I have a past of cutting off friendships and ending up lonely quite easily, might be that I don't take any judgement or disrespect cause all I wish is honesty and true connection and if I can't have that from the people I consider friends might as well cut the bridges. Most of the people doesn't even realize, most of them continue going for weeks or months without saying nothing and some always seems to favourite someone else, at some ridiculous late point they even try to get back to me and I never take them back. I guess I just wonder if my entire life will continue being like that or if I will find something to fill enough space on the time so I will be too busy to even think who''s talking to me or not.

I can't talk about this to people I care about because talking about things to people I care about never made them better, just made their lives worse

I don’t doubt my mom loved me as a child but she certainly had interesting ways of showing it

I always got in trouble when we were alone together and she would scream this after hitting me. I’ll never understand why she openly admitted this knowing no one was around to stop her. I don’t know when I can get over the childhood fear that she might accidentally kill me :,)

Some random 20 year old girl told me I was super pretty last night and it was just so sweet and random and I can’t stop thinking about it 😭