Is there an Ayahuasca entity? If so, is it female or male or neither?

Hi everyone,

I have posted on here a few times before about my experiences during the ceremony. ( I ate too many mushrooms over a few days two years ago and felt something possess me, or attach to me, my head started moving by itself, felt a heavy weight on my body, and ever since I’ve had intense pain and movement in my head + the involuntary movements)

I had 3 x weekend ceremonies this month with an experienced elder who I trust whole heartedly.

I don’t really have anyone to discuss my experiences with or for anyone to help me make sense of them…

It’s as though I keep having the same kind of experience, but I am getting better at handling it.

During the first night (first weekend) I felt like I was being killed, or experiencing death. The pain was unbearable and I just wanted to scream but couldn’t because I was in ceremony so instead i was whimpering in pain. ( in my first few ceremonies earlier in the year, I think I was screaming) I felt like i had to withstand it, and I felt and saw some kind and of divine feminine energy trying to guide me and help me through it. Then at certain points I felt like either the medicine or the taita was untangling this evil energy from me. I felt scared, and when the involuntary movements happened with my head I really tried to resist because it felt so unnatural and scary. Second night was much better and not much happened.

The second weekend, not much happened but the taita gave me less. I do also remember being in a pain again but not as much.

Now this weekend, I had a 3 night ceremony. The first night, I entered the realm with the first cup, and again I felt like my whole body was being ripped apart, like as though my heart was going to break through my chest. I just tried to focus and kept praying. Throughout my other experiences I always see or feel some kind of evil entity, like a witch and I felt connected to her again. I felt like something was hijacking my mind, like some kind of malware. The second night was a lot better and I felt much better in the morning. Now the 3rd night after I drank the cup I felt like I was back to square one, first I felt like I couldn’t breathe, like I was being suffocated. I felt like something was working or infiltrating my brain and I didn’t know if I should allow it or not :( then the horrible and painful nausea started and I absolutely hate throwing up and I felt like I really resisted it and held it down. The taita did a healing on me, and once again I really felt him removing this entanglement from around my brain. But it just wasn’t enough.

He said because I have been suffering with this so long it’s deeply rooted and will take longer to remove. I also felt like it had to be removed slowly in order for this witch or spirit or whatever it is not to notice. Kind of like it needs to be tricked.

I will be working with him again in 2 weeks. Then going to work with him on his territory in Colombia in January.

However, right now I am absolutely frightened of what I experienced and what I saw. It’s like something was trying to create the most suffering possible in me, and it currently is now too. Eventhough it’s terrifying, I had moments of understanding and joy, but I quickly forgot about what I learned or discovered… I know he can help me because I can really feel him undoing something. It’s just very difficult for me to be patient right now, especially when I’m suffering so much on a daily basis but there is not much I can do…

Also apologies if this doesn’t make sense, I have probably been able to recall about 15% of what actually happened. It’s just so hard to explain in words.

Has anyone else felt such severe pain, almost like death?

Hi all I have been reading this forum for few weeks and I am surprised how many people can manage to do the ceremony so often. I live in London UK and I have been told that there are not places in the UK where you can do it and most are in Portugal or Spain in Europe.

This means that it is almost one life experience and requires holidays etc. I have found one in Spain near Barcelona very well know and the prices are pretty high like 4.5k Euros for 3 5 days

Anyone has any suggestion for UK. I know the drugs are illegal but I also know that there are places where you can do the mushroom for example.

I'm going to a retreat in January in the Amazon and my local pharmacy has said I'll need injections for yellow fever and dengue fever, as well as malaria tablets. However, the guide at the retreat has told me not to get these; that those diseases won't be an issue and there isn't malaria, plus they won't be good for the body before the retreat.

I'm more so scared about the mosquitos as I seem to get bitten a lot. Looking for some advice on this if anyone has done an aya retreat in the Amazon recently?

Hi all - does anyone have any recommendations for Guatemala?

I can see Kawoq Forest and Forest Path, but struggling to find any genuine reviews on either.

Thanks

Note: I have done aya in Peru and Ecuador. I understand Guatemala wouldn’t be the ideal place to do it, but I will be travelling through and would like to have another experience.

Hi Everyone,

the recommendation (Nexus https://www.dmt-nexus.me/forum/default.aspx?g=posts&t=39239) for one dose for:

- Rue is about 3g (5% Harmalas = 150mg)
- Mimosa is about 5g (2% DMT = 100mg)
- Caapi is about 100g (2% Harmalas = 2.000mg)

Later it says: "As a rough guide, 100-150mg of Harmala will be sufficient for most people. 200mg is considered a strong dose.“
With the recommendation above one dose would contain 2.150 mg harmalas, way over the 200mg of a strong dose.

Why is that?

I have mental and physical health conditions so I'm really interested in doing atleast a month long retreat to sit with Aya and do a Master Plant Dieta to really heal. I've mostly seen on here shorter retreats. I'm not looking for anything fancy, just genuinely skilled healers so any personal recommendations in Peru would be very helpful, I'm thinking about going in the April 2025 timeframe. Thank you all so much in advance, hope this helps others too :)

Hi all!

After three years of feeling the call, I'm finally ready for my first ayahuasca retreat. My journey has been marked by struggles with perfectionism, guilt, and the pressure to always be "the good kid." This has left me lost, emotionally numb, and just going through life without peace or purpose.

I’ve tried talk therapy and EMDR, but nothing’s opened the emotional access I need. My goal with ayahuasca is to heal my heart and get back to living fully. I know it’ll be a challenge to let go and flow with the experience, but I’m ready to try.

I’ve narrowed it down to two options: Arkana and Soltara. I’m drawn to Soltara’s approach but concerned it might be a bit too "touristy" and lack the depth I’m seeking. Arkana, on the other hand, seems like a longer, more complicated journey but possibly more authentic.

If anyone has insights on which might offer a deeper healing experience, I’d really appreciate it!

4o

Hi, I am looking for an AYA retreat in central europe and/or Mediterranean, for English speakers. I have only tried OMMIJ but for different reasons I would like to try something else. My budget is under 800 euros. Certified, experienced facilitators only, with group sessions and sharing. Ideally I am looking for a place not too far from Italy.

Hi everyone, I think it's time for me to work with the medicine once again. I live in NYC and have only ventured to Soul Quest on three separate occasions (I don't wanna hear any slander about them). I just wanna know where I can go to have a practical experience with the medicine in the Northeast.

I’ve been listening to a podcast whose host has had multiple experiences with the Biopark Spirit Quest retreat in Peru. I’ve visited their website and they seem to be the “real deal” that I would be looking for in regards to having a consciousness opening journey. However, there is no information on their website in regards to pricing of their retreat. I am a poor, and would need to know the cost of a retreat in order to figure out how long I would have to save up for ahead of time. I suppose I could request their application to apply for approval, but their website says they have a strict screening process and they only accept applicants who are “ready”, and I wouldn’t be ready until I know I have the funds to cover such a trip.

So, has anyone here attended a retreat at Biopark Peru? And if so, how much should I plan on saving up for? Thanks!

My initial plan was to take Aya as early as possible in my trip, but after hearing about altitude sickness, would it be better to spend a few days in Cusco before I start the retreat?

What has been your guys' experience?

Greetings everyone. I come to you with an open heart and mind. I’m a recovering alcoholic in the middle of my worst relapse and rock bottom.

The last 48 hours have been a whirlwind and my girlfriend has finally convinced me to try aya with her. Luckily there was a ceremony happening this weekend that we were able to secure a spot in.

I’ve lost someone very important to me due to my inability to stay sober and now need to work my way back to being with them again. Any words of encouragement and support are greatly appreciated. I just feel like I’m in the deepest hole I’ve ever dug for myself and need to find my way out.

Thanks everyone.

Hey everyone! I recently completed my third ayahuasca retreat, where I drank five times, bringing my total to 13. Aya has been transformative, helping me let go of control (I used to be super controlled) and breaking through emotional blockages. It’s brought me closer to a more primal side of myself that I’d been suppressing for protection (letting go of excessive emotional/instinctual control) and it’s helped me build self-love along the way.

Since my first experience with Aya in 2023, I've grown a lot—being single for the first time in my life has probably contributed too—but I've noticed a big shift in my relationship with sex. I feel much freer, less inhibited, and more connected with my desires. I used to struggle with reaching orgasm with new partners, especially if there was emotional intimacy involved, but I generally feel more open every time I finish a round of working with ayahuasca, and no more shameful regarding sex.

I last drank four days ago, and while I’m in the integration phase, I recently met a kind, handsome guy, with whom I felt connected. All I can think about is sexually being with him. I'm obsessed. Even though I’m holding off for now, there’s this intense, instinctual desire but I don't really know the guy, so it would not be the love type of sex that seems to be okay after Aya. Has anyone else experienced this kind of raw, primal desire after ayahuasca? I’ve never felt this way post-ceremony before, so I’m curious if others can relate.

Hello! I just booked my first retreat in Colombia in December. I'm quite nervous but excited at the same time. I've been thinking about my intensions ever since booking my retreat. My brother has told me to leave all intensions at the door the day of the ceremony. I'm not exactly sure how to think about intensions if you're supposed to go into the ceremony open hearted. Im hesitant to think too much about making intensions because I don't want to put any expectations on myself or on the medicine. Any advice on how to set an intension? Any insights, guidance?

I recently discovered a local ayahuasca retreat, but it’s really weird in the sense that they only host daytime ceremonies. Has anyone had major breakthroughs during daytime ceremonies? I’ve only done aya at night, and was blown away by its extraordinary ability to transport me to what seemed like another dimension. Daytime seems like it would be a very mild experience by comparison.

Question in title

Question in title

EDIT: I posted this in this sub under a throwaway account accidentally so reposting now.

TLDR: has anyone experienced or is anyone considering purchasing any of the four visions integration program tiers? I don't have a lot of plant medicine friends or community around me where I live and I want a pretty robust integration experience after an upcoming ceremony.

Details: I have done two Ninos Santos (mushroom) ceremonies over the last 2 years where they shaman in Mexico that I have become close with and who I trust. Neither one of the first two ceremonies was followed by very much integration work at all. This time around I'm following a pretty intentional spiritual dieta in preparation for my upcoming ceremony in mid-November. I don't have a very strong community of plant medicine friends and allies where I live but I want to do some serious integration work afterwards. Many of the integration programs offered by plant medicine psychotherapists in my area are extremely expensive.

I discovered Four Visions after buying Rapé from them. I love the podcast and I've been looking at their integration programs which have variable pricing tiers and levels of involvement. I haven't been able to find very much online in the way of reviews or testimonials other than the two testimonials on their website.

Has anyone experienced any of their integration programs and if so could you offer some insight or advice?

Thank you in advance!

I’m attending ceremony this week, and I’m interested to hear anecdotes from sex workers about their experience with Grandmother, and dieta leading up to sitting.

This is my second time working with this medicine, although last time I was simply working at an adult store - since then I’ve become a full time erotic filmmaker.

I’m interested if your experience in ceremony impacted or related to your work in any way? I reckon I’ve done a good job scheduling posts ahead of time so at the very least I’m not seeing sexually charged media 3 days before ceremony, but I’m curious to hear about people’s pre and post ceremony experiences in this field :)

This past summer, I felt drawn to seek out a local ayahuasca ceremony before heading to Costa Rica to sit with the medicine. I knew I wanted a small, trusted group, and after lots of research, the Universe led me to Mark and Chloe Lorello. These two are some of the purest souls I’ve met, and they've been serving medicine for over five years out of their loving home north of Dallas. Recently, they expanded to a new 16-acre property in Krum, TX, which feels perfect for their growing mission. Mark, who trained under a 7th-generation curandero, Gaspar Regrifo, in Peru, brings so much depth and respect to his practice. He returns to Peru yearly to serve medicine with Gaspar and continues his work in Texas, with Gaspar visiting once a year to join him. Chloe, his wife, is a beautiful presence and equally knowledgeable about aya and other healing plants, making them a true dynamic duo.

After sitting with them for three ceremonies this past weekend, I knew I had to share their work. Not only are they Light Leaders who bring deep knowledge and purity to every session, but they’re also committed to making this medicine accessible. They charge $150 per person per ceremony (so $450 for a weekend of 3 ceremonies), which is incredibly reasonable for the experience and care they offer.

My husband, Brandon, and I felt so at peace in their space, even though I was a bit nervous at first. Mark and Chloe held space for us like family and helped us feel grounded and open to the medicine. If you’re looking for genuine Light Leaders in the ayahuasca community, I can’t recommend them enough.

Website: https://aya-waken.com/
Safe Ceremonies: https://safeceremonies.com/listings/the-way-of-light/#reviews

Im 42yo man from tel aviv. 12 years ago i had my first ceremony, that changed my life forever- one day after i found big love, for the first time in my life. It opened my channels! And cleaned my aura. 2 years after I had the second ceremony- this one was disaster! I came spontaneously, without preparing, i had beefburger 3 hours before lol!!! This one was a mess::: i felt death, saw death, 6 hours of horrible disaster. One month after i started to have anxiety issues that kept me going for the one year. Now, i have new call. 10 years after the trauma, im about to be dad, facing new era, and i have old issues like constant weed smoking, and writers block (its my job lol!). I know that aya will help clean me… but im so afraid… there is ceremony every 2 weeks in my city. How can i overcome fear and just do it? Letting the 3rd time to be significant as the first? Or maybe i should quit it, and not touch again what took me through suffering… Thank u! For advices… peace and love

Which retreat in AZ uses DMT? I’ve been called to plant medicine, and opening my third eye for healing. I am actively suicidal as you can see by my posts, and I have been suicidal since I was around age 11. I have MDD, social anxiety, and bpd. I suspect some other things too but I haven’t been officially diagnosed with anything else. No amount of modern medicine has helped me in any way and I’ve tried so many medications/combos & therapy. My ego is overriding my system despite my spiritual understandings. Since DMT is supposed to help heal our hearts and open our eyes to spirit in a very real way, I need to give it a shot. I’ve got nothing to lose by trying. My bday is coming up in early November so I’ll try to go on a retreat for it. Hopefully I can make it another year on this earth with the help of plant therapy.

I'm planning on booking with healing tree in Cusco. Am trying to save money, just curious is 3 days 2 nights enough? or if you would reaallllly reccomend 4 days 3 nights. Thanks!

I had my third experience with ayahusca this weekend. I don’t know way to make of it.

I went in with the intentions of asking mother Ayahusca why is it so hard for me to accept help/gifts from people around me. Why am I so blessed to have an amazing family, friends willing to help without hesitation when others they have nothing. I in a way feel guilty for being more blessed than other because I see other work so hard yet receive nothing. I work just as much 13-14 hours a day 7 days a week (literally) but I still feel bad for all the people who need more help than me…

First shot of ayahusca was very helpful with information I didn’t ask. But after the 2nd shot the energy changed and it made me feel (and this is the best way I can describe it) but it made me feel like a god with all this energy I felt running through my body because it literally lifted me up off my mat to the point where I was standing watching over everyone at a peak of high vibrations.

When energy shifts happened I’d in a way go on my knees and then lay my hands on my mat and would like lightly growl as if I was some sort of beast at the volunteers helping out during the night and I could feel them blowing tabacco and florida water on me and it would keep me down even I wanted to stand up and eventually go back to laying face down belly on mat. Rinse and repeat a good 5-7 times…

I was wondering if anyone would know of a way to find a retreat with a knowledgeable/reliable psychic healer or shaman in Queensland Australia? I do not have the money ( and I have an 11 year old to take care of) to go to Peru! Any advice or info would be really helpful! Thanks

Reddit helped me when I was trying to navigate the world of Ayahuasca centers, so this is my post to hopefully help someone else in the same situation.

Just left Iquitos after my first time(s) drinking Ayahuasca. I stayed at Dreamgladefor x10 days. Solo female traveler with a limited Spanish vocabulary. I was scared of the medicine, but also of being taken advantage of. I had not done much psychedelics at all prior to the retreat. Definitely nothing like this.

My recent stay at Dreamglade was the right time, place and people for me - and it will be for you too when you go there. Clarissa and Wade are open, supportive and there for you. If love were a person it'd be Mair. Thank you shamans for doing your thing! Thanks to everyone that was there making it what it was - perfect.

I will be staying in Yucatan (Merida) until mid-December and I am looking for a retreat (or a single ceremony) with a reputable shaman and facilitators. I heard good things about Arkana, but they are a bit too pricy for me.

Would love to get a recommendation.

In a recent dieta a childhood trauma surfaced, it was a memory of an sexual abuse I had completely blocked out and dissociated from. Has anybody had similar experiences? What has helped you to cope with it? Any tips how to deal with it?

Hey all, looking for a retreat near cusco, what was your guys experience?

Also any issues with the elevation? I'm a little worried about that too.

Thanks!