So I've been suffering a lot of discomfort for months. And have been told by my proctologist that I have "pretty decently sized internal and external hemorrhoids" getting rid of them isn't a requirement but it is a quality of life decision, and I really don't want to keep dealing with all of this comfort if I don't have to. Its persistent and only ever goes away for days at a time. It's been 6 months and I'm tired of it if I can do something about it I would really like to.

I went into my appointment today with every intention of saying yes to what ever treatment he might suggest, and he brought up surgery and then went on to explain how damaging it can be and how painful recovery is.

And I would probably still go with that except for the fact that a lot of my sexuality is kind of centered around anal and that is fully not something I can give up. I don't want to do anything that might interfere with that. I can give it up during recovery but I can't do anything that will permanently affect it in any significant way.

So I'm wondering what other people's experiences with recovery was and if anyone out to has similar inclinations to me happens to be willing to share if those inclinations were affected I would be grateful.

And also I no there are other treatment options but I don't know if they are similarly problematic or if I just take time to seek those out actively, I need advice on the matter would be appreciated.

Hope this is okay on the last days of kinktober.

Full disclosure, I own the company that makes this toy. As a trans woman in the adult industry, I had to make sure this was done.

I cant believe my own keyboard called me out so goddamn hard 😭😂. The only lie is that I have more then 1 distressing gay kink 😏🥴.

I actually do have cptsd too 😭

Side note: I love this anime so much omg I hope some of yall have seen it 😭

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So i just watched Rosie and Elana's spanking video, finally used again my big Dildo again and enjoyed myself. It took a bit longer but finally i got two orgasms shortly after each other and after a few secounds a third orgasm, so intense i thought my body explodes! And so long! Like half a minute the last one and all together over a minute of pure heaven!

Sometimes a 2 week spell of depression ends in a lot of cum and suddenly im good to go for another month or so 🤣

Thank God my wife loves spicy food

I just understand the psychology behind them (which yes ruins the mood occasionally 😒) and the thought of someone else knowing me on such a personal level is terrifying 💀 (especially friends, they'll be fine w judt knowing me as asexual 😅).