To explain my situation in simple terms, Im 15 and I think I might be a lesbian pr bisexual oe something like that. Homosexuality is a sin. I dont want to go to hell so Im gonna kill myself soon. I think about it alot so I think its my best option

If it is it’s trauma I’ve put myself through. I always kinda thought that trauma was something that happened to you not because of you. If someone were to ask me if I was traumatized I think I’d say no because I have nothing to point to that happened to me. But I certainly fit a lot of the criteria for it.

I had tried to kill my self once and failed, the cut was not deep enough.... I don't know what to do anymore, my thoughts keep on killing me from within so and then I am recently finding out about this subreddit, I wish to get better mentally cause I am physically completely fine

I hate myself I want to die Help Tired of being unstable Tired I’m Helpless piece of shit Everyone is so tired of me Help me

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Anyone?

I really hope I can finally do it. I'm so tired.

im privileged and i wish i could just give my fortunate life to someone who deserves it because i cant appreciate living at all and i just want to throw it away

I just want to find someone like me, someone who loves me and someone that I can love. I want to live away from it all, off grid. I hate this capitalist echo chamber, nothing ever feels real and I've never longed for anything else. With my countries constant state of financial crisis, it looks like it's far away. I live in Australia, it certainly could be worse, but it's never looked so bleak, the chances of me accomplishing what I've longed for.

Can someone talk to me before I do it?

i feel relieved, i can live out this time that i have wisely. maybe happier now that i know when it’ll happen. now i just have to figure out how. preferably somewhere nobody will ever discover my body. out in the woods somewhere. probably with a gun or a rope. i’ve already had this idea of me dying under a tree and just rotting into the earth, fully decomposing. hopefully it comes to fruition. i’m not sorry i’ve decided this for myself, i won’t change my mind. i’ve got a couple good years before it’s time. so it’ll be okay. my family will just have to deal with it, my “friends” will have to deal with it. but i won’t, and that’s easy enough said. but i still feel guilty. i don’t want to cause any trouble to other people, i don’t want to be a burden even after death. so i’ll just hide my body away. it’s the only way honestly and that’s okay with me.

I know this is horrible, but I have been so suicidal lately, but could never bring myself to actually harming myself because I have three kids, with a fourth on the way. However, I keep hoping something will happen to me during child birth so that I don't leave in a "selfish way". I hope I snap out of this soon, because I know my emotions can affect my baby.

Is there anyone I could talk to before I do?

(18 F) Im really not. I already figured by now I will never be normal and deserving of love and NOT burdensome enough for a real relationship. for an actual boyfriend or girlfriend, even though I've never had one. but jesus christ I cant even do casual sex right. I cant stop myself from getting my feelings involved and ruining shit. I cant stop being a fucking stupid piece of shit. I've had relationship type experiences in the past that have left me wounded, hurt and betrayed. the funny thing is, I can really pull. like I could go up and find myself some crappy guy who will treat me like shit quite easily, cause that's all I attract - shit. it's exhausting. my mental and physical health struggles - especially childhood trauma make me such a fucking undateable person and it sucks, so hard. I love love, I love romance. I write, watch, and read romance. I told myself I will wait for love to find me, but I dont even know anymore. maybe I just don't love myself enough to be loved by someone else. but god does this suck, Im too broken for it

Just... thinking about doing it again. I got the means. Still gonna hurt like hell tho. I just lost 600 bucks to a stupid addiction I didnt even have 2 years ago. I failed. I have failed as a human being. I want to completely destroy myself and self-remove from this world. If anyone wants to help me do it, I have enough litium, haloperidol, clonazepam to fuck me up prettty good

Apparently if it’s even a little impure you’ll feel it? So nope not an option

I don't like anything about this life. I hate the food, the entertainment, the music, and all of those tedious hobbies. Nothing genuinely sparks interest in me. I hate talking to people, I hate their stupid personalities and unfunny jokes, their unnecessary small talk, and their uncomfortable reaction towards people who would rather just be alone. I hate the entire concept of love, fuck all of it.

I hate doing chores every single fucking day, I hate my stressful environment at home and the fact that I can't leave it due to nobody giving me a chance to work, I hate my military stepdad who constantly has to make my life a living hell and orders me around like a dog, yelling at me to get out of bed every morning like a fucking sergeant. I hate having to eat shitty food for the sake of being healthy, I hate having to exercise every day, I hate being around nature and how disgusting it all is.

I hate my stupid stature, why the fuck did I have to be short as hell? I hate how unintelligent I am compared to other people who seem to perform way better than me in every aspect, who also get to bully and belittle me like a helpless infant and get away with it, because I am objectively inferior to them.

I am THIS fucking close to ending my life and I don't give a shit about how selfish or whiny I am. If you were faced with my circumstances, you absolutely wouldn't be mouthing off cookie-cutter advice like a useless empath. Right now, I'm waiting for the perfect moment to use my Dad's car and asphyxiate myself. The only thing I don't hate is the possibility of a nice afterlife, which I'm betting my life for.

I feel like I’ve lost myself in my job. I work 12 hour shifts but because of the commute I’m 14 hours away from home during work days. I’m also young and new to field. I started off on a work term and got hired as a contractor recently, so I’ve been so terrified of being let go.

I can’t understand why I care so much about my work and why I accept so much overtime. My coworkers are all nice and supportive and help me out a bunch since I’m new to the field. I’m not trying to avoid my family or friends either, they mean everything to me. My boyfriend is so loving and sweet and perfect. I love my job and what I do but it stresses me out so much worrying about making mistakes.

I just don’t understand why I overwork and why I’m so hard on myself. I know I care too much about what other people think but I can’t bring myself to relax. I’m so scared of disappointing people and burdening them and think everyone hates me deep down.

I recently got put in charge of a project at work after the person who originally ran it went to go on vacation. I’ve been shadowing the original person in charge and when he left, it started off great but recently things have gone south. I’ve made wrong calls and mistakes. Just recently I fucked up a procedure and could delay the project even more. I feel so stupid and embarrassed and stressed from everything. I’ve been spiralling and I can’t call it quits. It’s my first ever project but I’ve been told I’m doing a great job so far but I feel like everyone is lying to me out of pity. I’ve had people tell me I should be proud of what I’m doing and for handling the project so well.

I haven’t been eating well or sleeping right. I’ve been crying outside of work and during work. I’m always on the verge of breaking down. I’m slowly losing contact with my friends. It feels like I don’t even see my family or talk to them much anymore even though we live in the same house. I feel like I’m in a long distance relationship with my boyfriend despite living in the same city. I used to love to crochet and bake and play games but I haven’t found the time or motivation to do any of those things. I can’t take this anymore.

The worst part about this is I’m so fucking lucky. I have a great, well paying job, coworkers that like me, friends who care about me, a family who supports me, and a boyfriend that loves me. But I still feel so fucking suicidal despite it all. Im not allowed to want to die when my life is filled with so much opportunity and chances and love. But knowing that makes me feel so much more suicidal.

I just need someone to talk to. 26f from Canada

I feel like I'm cursed to have no one understand me and no one to love me for how I love them I've attempted multiple times but it's never worked I'm thinking of attempting again soon because this world is terrible and no one will ever like me for me I always have to play the clown just to get people to like me and when people do like me for me other people that are close to them ruin it so I can't deal with it anymore so I think within this week I'll say my goodbyes

year after year. I might feel better temporarily, but then fall right back to the lowest, darkest feelings. living is not worth it. anything positive that comes my way is not capable of offsetting all of the misery and agony that I am in. it's so cyclical. over and over. I am living in hell. it doesn't make any sense for me to continue living. no sense at all. I've seen the end many times, where i have considered suicide. but any time that I decide to persevere, there is another, even worse, ending waiting for me. I don't want to be in pain anymore. I don't want to be tortured like this anymore. I don't want to keep revisiting these feelings

El pentobarbital puede servir?(Dónde lo consigo)

I have made all of the necessary arrangements and have what I need to go peacefully. I am still extremely conflicted because I don’t want to hurt the ones who care for me. I haven’t made a permanent decision but I feel like I will soon. Please be kind.

Ive been feeling like shit for years. Ever since I was a child I was constantly called a failure, and no matter what I did I never felt like I was good enough. Eventually I found comfort in videogames as they were the only thing keeping me sane and they made me feel happy. Over the years I decided to keep living because maybe eventually I will feel like im worthy of been alive. Ever since I was 11 I thought that 16 was the age that I will finally kill myself. I turned 17 a few months ago and honestly I have nothing to show for it.I was always horrible at making friends so when I was 13 I moved to a different continent and so I had to start all over again, I was very desperate in having some friends and so one day I found this one dude and we started dating which lead to me being in an abusive relationship for 3 years all because I wanted to be loved by someone. 7 months ago after multiple times of trying to break up I finally succeeded and after constant harassment he is officially out of my life. I entered into a new relationship 6 months ago but I found out that the dude I was dating wanted to break up for a day so he could get with someone else so I obviously had to end it. I blame myself for it because at the start it all seemed to be going pretty good but like always I had to ruin it by being a depressed idiot whos a pain in the ass to deal with because they are so fucking annoying. I reconnected with this one friend from middle school and because of him I got introduced to my now ex and other people and basically we were a friend group but because I broke up with my now ex, not only did I lose him but I also lost every single one of my friends because that friend group was all I had. A week later I got into a new relationship with this one guy that was introduced to me by a person from the friend group( before I lost all my friends) and I decided to end it because he has aspd and a body count of 5 at 17 and yeah I dont want to date someone like that. I literally have no friends, I lost everything I had and I dont know what to do anymore. I have autism so it has been really hard especially making friends, because everytime they always find me annoying and im tired of this. I dont want to pretend to be "normal" so people would like me, I want people to like me just for who I am but for some reason it seems impossible. I dont even know how the fuck im supposed to make new friends because my social skills are dogshit and even if I get new friends they all leave me at the fucking end. I dont want to keep living anymore, Ive been feeling miserable for years and it never gets better. Im so tired of people telling me that it will get better like bro its been fucking years and I feel more miserable than before. Im so tired of constantly getting shitted on for playing videogames all the time, like if it werent for them I would of killed myself by the age of 10. I dont know how im supposed to keep going like how the fuck am I supposed to find the motivation to not kill myself and push forward if everytime I did that my life ended up getting better but of course everytime I had to lose it all and get back to the starting point. I apologize if its messy idk I just needed to get it all out and I fr dont know how tf am I supposed to keep going man.

I have known that I have wanted to die since I could properly conceptualize what death was (around 5 years old). I have spent over 2 decades waiting for things to “get better” and I have realized that it simply doesn’t for some people, I am one of those people and I fully accept that. I can not justify continuing to put myself through daily torture (vivid night terrors nightly, sensory overload + other psychic pain while awake, being discriminated against for attributes I can not control, etc.) just to make and owe money. I am rapidly becoming more disabled because I am not seen as disabled enough to receive the support I need now and I no longer have the energy to fight the multiple institutions that are actively working to screw me over.

I have attempted multiple times in the past and have only ever regretted failing. Some of the happiest moments of my life were when I was losing consciousness during an attempt and truly felt like I would finally be free. I am confident that these are my final months and I am beyond ok with that.

INB4:

• Yes I am seeing professionals and trying medication; because of my neurodivergence medication often does not work as intended for me and each new drug I experiment with further fucks over my brain chemistry.
• I know there is love and beauty in the world; neither of those are things I live for
• I do not see staying live against my own wishes as “winning” against the people that do not want me to exist because dying is what I want and have wanted basically my entire life

I asked for advice on passing in a in the r/ftmpassing subreddit and all anyone could say was cut my hair and take out all my piercings. It’s bad enough being trans in the USA and in the area I live in but to be told the only way I can pass currently is to change the two things that brings be joy in my physical appearance just makes me want to give up completely, I wish I had a way I could just do it right now but my family is home. My body feels like a prison that I will never escape until I am dead. I literally cannot live my life the I want without fearing for my safety or being misgendered every day.

So everyone has these gut-wrenching stories about how someone abused them or something and I’m just a “normal” person- well actually weird as weird gets since the concept of normal is impossible and doesn’t exist since we are all unique and every matter is different even if it’s molecule for molecule- experience for experience- place for place. It can’t be the same unless it is the literal same object- like if I have a green apple and a red apple- the red apple is the red apple and the green apple is the green apple. Why am I yapping about science now? Anyways I have stress as everyone does but at a different level since not one being/idea can be the exact same. I just am over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I just am over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I just am over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I just am over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I just am over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I just am over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I just am over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I just am over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I just am over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I just am over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I just am over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I just am over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I just am over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I just am over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I just am over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating. I am just over exaggerating.

I’m really close to just giving up, I’m so screwed mentally and life had just been unforgiving for so long, I was in my longest relationship and broke up, then on top of that every job has screwed me over and now I’m left trying to find a job or be stuck with family who actively doesn’t listen to what I need help with or say I’m not trying hard enough. I’m in debt and I can’t even afford my bills or food. No job seems to want to hire me because of things on my background I cant control/ wasn’t even mine to begin with. Please help me I don’t know what to do anymore and I don’t know where to go I can afford any help. Please help me

I made some bad decisions when I was younger I feel my life will be worse later in life I'm almost 40 I don't want to be here i want to jump off the royal gorge bridge but I'm afraid of getting charged with a crime. I know I would end up in hell either way it goes all over 1 bad decision. I wish I could take something to put me to sleep and never wake up