I just went through my 6th miscarriage. Noone but my immediate family and best friend knew. I was so tired of people asking if we were planning on having another kid or asking if we are trying yet. This last pregnancy i was put on progesterone so we were sooooo hopeful. We told family and i recorded everyones reaction and i wanted to find a way to share those as well. I was so nervous about sharing this part of our lives online but had such a good response and everyone was so supportive. Ive even had a few people reach out and share their stories. Anyway i guess im just trying to say, if youve thought about posting and sharing your story, do it! Even if it feels scary. I feel so much better now that everyone knows and people can finally stop asking the wrong questions.

My husband told me that him and his friend talked about getting our kids together for a play date next weekend. That seemed fun and exciting, then I remembered his friends wife was pregnant. I asked my husband if she was still pregnant and when he said yes I started crying out of nowhere. Grief is weird. I was having a good day too. I hate this and I hate that we are all apart this group.

I posted earier today in another subreddit sharing my story about having a recent miscarriage and then having my sister-in-law announce her pregnancy a few days later.

Original post: https://www.reddit.com/r/TryingForABaby/comments/1cuy68t/just_need_to_vent_about_this_impossible/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=mweb3x&utm_name=mweb3xcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button

She did not know about my miscarriage and I let her give her announcement and share any/all details and excitement for a few hours, including watching a video of my MIL finding out she’s going to be a grandma before leaving for the night with a smile and congratulations. At no point did I give any indication that anything was wrong and I was engaged in the conversation. I then cried the whole way home.

After making my post on Reddit and getting so many kind words and support, I decided to reach out to her via text this morning with a very carefully worded message explaining I am so immensely happy for her, but I just had a miscarriage a few days ago and we coincidentally had the same due date. I asked for a bit of space and for her to not share too many details with me during this time while I process everything, and reiterated that I am NOT asking her to not talk about her pregnancy. Just to try to keep “the baby is as small as an orange seed” and conversations like that to a minimum if possible.

I said again how excited I am for them and how sorry I am to ask this - I repeated that I would not be telling them any of this unless I felt it absolutely necessary to protect my heart.

She did not take it well at all. She replied that it is “completely unacceptable for them to share the biggest news of their lives and not even 24 hours later I tell her that she can’t share the details of her pregnancy.” And that it made her “so so so sick to her stomach” that I would text that to her.

I’m at a loss. I feel horrible for ever telling her, but at the same time, I told her because I imagined she would have even a shred of empathy and understanding. I apologized for telling her and offered to call her so we can make sure we get any weird feelings squashed. She said “a phone call is not necessary. Everything has been said. Have a good weekend!” And ended the conversation.

I’m just…baffled? Did I do something wrong by sharing this with her? I have told no one else aside from my best friend, so it’s not like I’m stealing her spotlight. I’m just so disheartened and grossed out by the response.

i miscarried at 6 weeks and the cramping was horrendous. i’m upset because i was so excited, but i know this is for the best considering me and my boyfriend have not been together long, but i know he is the one. I still have not gotten my period and it’s been almost three weeks. I am also still having unprotected sex, is it crazy to hope that i get pregnant as soon as possible again? how soon is that possible?

TLDR: D&C as a result of complete molar pregnancy and now experiencing light bleeding

Sorry for the long post. I hope you bear with me and read to the end.

My husband and I got excited that we were pregnant again and in an unusual fashion had shared with our immediate family at what would have been week 6 of the pregnancy. Fast forward a few days later and I start spotting which will stop and resume. After day 5 we decide to go to Urgent care and after waiting hours an ECHO scan revealed it was a molar pregnancy. I’d never seen a huge mass of clumps in my uterus before

I was scheduled to have a D&C the following day (May 02) and it finally got to my turn after an almost 24 hour wait. The doctor who did the procedure vaguely mentioned that my hcg levels will need to be tested weekly and I’ll get a referral before I was wheeled into the operating room and put under general anesthesia. I didn’t get to see the doctor after and the nurse who attended to me only made mention of just one blood work that I need to get done and my prescription for naproxen for pain to use as needed.

Bear in mind I’m in Canada and healthcare isn’t the greatest. Unless you’re going private you have to wait weeks or longer before you can get appointments. I got an appointment to get a post op. Hcg done may 28. In my mind I’m thinking I should be fine. I’d switched from pads to pantry liners with clear/no discharge. So I’m thinking I’m good, right?

But I’ve started bleeding again (soaking through panty liners) and it’s the same brown color tinged blood that had me going to the urgent care. I’m trying not to freak out to think that maybe the mass wasn’t fully removed during the D&C or that it may have spread. I don’t have any other symptoms and I’ve booked a blood test with a private clinic to test my hcg level

Is there anyone who’s experiencing similar or has experienced something similar?

Thank you

Hey everyone! I started to miscarry at 6 weeks pregnant April 11th. As of today I’m still bleeding. It’s been lighter, but will randomly get a little heavier - red blood and a tiny clot. I’m so over this and I don’t know if it’s normal at all. I’ve had two ultrasounds, confirmed at the second ultrasound there was no remaining tissue. I did pass quite a bit of tissue at home.

Has anyone had a similar experience? My last HcG blood draw was 300 at 5/2. I’m supposed to go back for another in week, but I really am just over it. I don’t want to set foot in that office unless I have to because I feel so traumatized.

I (32f) need some opinions please- I just remembered that when I went for an ultrasound at 6 weeks, which is when we saw the heartbeat, the ultrasound tech said I had a little bleeding, but said it appeared to be from implantation bleeding and I shouldn’t worry about it.

A week later, my baby died. We found out the baby died at my 9 week ultrasound at my OBs office, the baby measured 7 weeks.

I’m wondering if maybe the bleed that was seen at 6 weeks could have caused the miscarriage?

We did genetic testing on each other (my husband and I) a year ago and they didn’t find any major issues. But now I’m thinking maybe I have one of those pregnancy clotting disorders? But wouldn’t it have shown up on our genetic testing?

Hi Everyone,

On Mothers Day morning, which was also my birthday, I started spotting, which was my very first bleeding down there during my entire pregnancy. I was supposed to be coming up on 17 weeks the following Monday. Long story short, I went to the ER Monday night and they discovered no fetal heartbeat and he was only measuring 13 weeks. They are unsure why it happened (but we later on sent in fetal tissue (the umbilical cord) so they can do further testing.)

I ended up waiting a few days before going through with misoprostol to quicken the process of going into labor. I took the medicine Thursday morning and had a day of what felt like a hell with the awful contractions I was having. At 8pm he was born - everything came out in my hand at once, his body, umbilical chord and placenta. He’s about 4 inches tall and has all fingers and all toes. He is currently in our fridge right now and will be with us one more night before we let the funeral service take him to be stored and then cremated next week.

This is by far the most traumatic experience of my life. I’ve donated my eggs in the passed (4 times) and have 5 living biological children from those donations in different parts of the world. I am 28 years old and my partner (28M) are both healthy. With this being our first try for our own child and having a late missed miscarriage I just feel so discouraged. I feel like I’ve failed and we will never get our first child back again.

Has anyone gone through anything similar? How long did you wait to try again? I am having the worst bleeding and cramping of my life, and it’s only been a day and a half. I am having very mixed emotions but just really badly want to be pregnant again. Seeing a tiny baby human come out of me, lifeless, there are just no words for the grief and loss I am feeling. Thank you for reading.

I had a miscarriage this morning. Was only 4/5 weeks pregnant. We have our summer holiday tomorrow and we are flying to Greece. Can I swim in either the pool or the sea? I won’t use a tampon, I always use panty liners and modest swimwear if I’m on my period. People are saying risk of infection but isn’t that only if my pregnancy was further along? Please advise

I really am at a loss. Before my pregnancy this winter, my cycles were gradually getting shorter and periods getting longer. It's an emotional toll to deal with this so often. I don't bleed very heavily, but my period before my pregnancy in February was 11 days including spotting beforehand. I had my d&c 4/19, and three weeks ago from Thursday I passed clots nearly the size of a lemon... I mean I knew my cycles absolutely suck, but I was surprised it came back this quickly. I was hoping on the off chance my d&c could "reset" things a little... but I'm worried I'm right back to these awfully short and somewhat unpredictable cycles and week plus long periods. Does anyone have any experience or advice about this?

I’m opting to do a d&c. I want to get this over with. I spoke to another mom yesterday who told me to wait and let it naturally pass and that the surgery is terrible and that they scratch on your uterus.

I know this doesn’t help but I’ve been on social media and watched videos of women saying they kept bleeding and were in so much pain after the procedure, that even peeing hurt.

I’m scared; I don’t know what to do. I want to cry, scream but then I’ll still be here not knowing what to do.

I’ve previously misscarried and the pain and bleeding was nothing compared to this. I am in agony. I feel like crying. I’m bleeding so much too, I have to change my pad every hour/two hours when I pass a large clot. Im using ibuprofen and heat pads but nothing seems to be working😫

Am finally starting to heal after my second MMC as it is now complete, but it has been one tough journey.

I found out at a seven week scan that my pregnancy was more than likely miscarriage (and of two yolks sacs, to hit me even harder). However I needed a follow up scan a week later to confirm.

After that confirmation scan, I got medication to manage from home. That weekend I bled a lot and passed what was the main pregnancy sac.

However a follow up scan two weeks later showed I hadn't passed everything.

I was given another round of medicine and an appointment for the following week.

I barely cramped and knew it hadn't passed because I only faintly spotted.

My next scan confirmed the pregnancy was still there. I actually took a third round of medication because I was so nervous about surgery (I'd had it before for my first MMC at twelve weeks, but the doctor said that on this occasion, because the retained products of conception were so small, I was at an increased risk of perforation)

Again, minimal cramping and no bleeding. I called and booked a D&C.

That was yesterday. The staff were great and there were no complications whatsoever thankfully.

Monday would have been my 12.5 week scan.

So yeah it was just an awful and long process. I feel for this whole community going through the horrors of miscarriage. Just wanted to share my story.

I found out I MC on Monday, the day after Mother’s Day. I was 10 weeks 5 days and chose to take Misoprostol instead of a D&C, as I have a hard time with being put to sleep. 24 hours after taking the misoprostol, I had severe cramping and then a huge gush, almost like my water breaking, and then a lot of stuff came out. And almost immediately, the pain and cramping went away completely. I was too distraught to take a close look at what all came out, but since then I’ve bled about the same as a normal period, every now and then passing small clots and something that I assume was the placenta. It’s been almost week (6 days) and now my bleeding has lightened up quite a bit, it mostly just looks like old blood now and is super on and off.

This is my problem, sorry in advance if this is too TMI. When I was pregnant, I had a SCH and was advised against sex/orgasming. Well, it’s been over a month now since I’ve been able to do either and I’ve literally been having orgasms in my sleep the past three nights because of it. Today, my partner and I had extremelyyyyy gentle sex, meaning he barely entered me (just the tip) and it lasted maybe 2 minutes (we both have been extremely backed up to say the least). My doctor never advised against sex or said anything about when it was safe to, all of the info I was given about Misoprostol didn’t have anything on it about waiting until a certain time or anything. When I look it up, some places say that you just have to wait a week, some places say you have to wait until your check up appointment, some say you can once you feel ready. Does anyone have any insight into this or experience with sex after Misoprostol?

This is a new thread that appears on Saturdays creating an opportunity for members to write about and let out how their week went! whether it was a way to cope, having a good week, or just needing to vent about it.

No discussion of living children allowed in this thread. it can be even more heartbreaking for members who have had a tough week with their fresh loss, seeing comments about the time other members spent with their living children.

I am telling my story hoping it will be cathartic for me, but also as an information source because I was feeling so lost, alone, and confused during this process and could not find any similar stories.

We have been TTC for a year. We had a CP at 5 weeks in our 10th month of TTC. Testing that has been completed has all returned normal so far. My OB gave me the choice between hysterosalpingogram or hysteroscopy, laparoscopy & perhydrotubation. I am booked in for the latter in a few weeks as I initially attempted to book for hysterosalpingogram and was unsuccessful - too impatient to try again next cycle and potentially be unable to book.

My previous cycle started April 9. I have a very consistent cycle, some normal fluctuations but on average I ovulate between CD13-16 with a 13-14 day LP (cycle 26-30 days long with an average of 28 days). I had a positive OPK the evening of CD16 (April 24), with a rise starting earlier in the day. Based on my patterns when I did temp (had to stop because it was making me too obsessive), I likely ovulated overnight CD16 or morning of CD17. So AF was due roughly May 8 or 9 (CD 30/31). May 7 (~12/13 DPO) I had some cramping (I flagged it moderate in my app) and also came down with a cold (my last CP I had a terrible flu the days before my positive test). I took a HPT (FRER) in the evening of May 7 and it was negative. No sign of my period, no cramps or any other symptoms. I was mentioning to my partner that I did not feel pregnant or that my period was coming. I took another FRER on May 9 in the evening and got a vvvvfl, barely visible. Took another one the next morning (officially considering myself late) with FMU and it was still a vvvvfl, so I figured it was going to be another CP considering how light the line was at that point in my cycle. I felt completely indifferent because I knew this all likely meant late implantation.

I started CD1 later that afternoon (May 10). I had a very typical (for me) cycle. I had mild/moderate cramps for the first couple days. 2 days heavy bleeding, 2 days medium bleeding, 1 day light bleeding, 1 day brown discharge/spotting. It was a textbook cycle for me. I wanted to make sure my tests returned to negative so I took a HPT (easy@home) on the evening of May 13 (CD4) and it was vvvvfl. Of course I can't compare that to my FRERs but I thought that was good and HCG was almost out of my system. May 15 (CD6) I took another easy@home in the evening and it was considerably darker than all previous tests. May 16 (CD7) again I took a FRER and easy@home with FMU. The easy@home was just as dark as CD6 evening and the FRER test line was almost as dark as the control. I noticed it was feeling some pressure/pulling in my lower abdominal, occasional twinges but not really pain.

I thought I might be having an ectopic based on the slow progression and bleeding, but in my searches only light bleeding was reported with ectopics.

I called my GP and OB and could not get seen by either urgently so I ended up going to the ER on CD7 afternoon. I was mostly happy with the care I got, in terms of how quickly they ran tests to make sure I was okay, but they were a little bit dismissive. It didn't really help me get answers. I ended up getting 2 bedside abdominal ultrasounds by 2 different ER doctors (one did one right at triage and the other once I had been processed through to an ER bed). I got bloodwork taken in triage as well (beta HCG + a number of other general bloodwork). The 1st ultrasound the doctor couldn't see anything. The 2nd doctor mentioned something about possibly seeing a fetal pole in my uterus. They reviewed my bloodwork and said my HCG was 102 which obviously was very low at that point (5w2d). They asked if I knew my blood type, I said no and there was nothing in my chart so they sent that off too, to rule out being RH- (I am not, but why did no one check that before?). They kept saying things like "why do you think ectopic and not that you're just pregnant?" When I tried to explain the whole situation they said that the strength of lines on HPT aren't really a consideration (ok-fine) but also that bleeding in early pregnancy is normal (I'm trying to tell you had a full period-like bleeding though).

They did not have a vaginal ultrasound in the ER and since they did not suspect ectopic, I was discharged from the ER with a referral to outpatient medical imaging for a diagnostic ultrasound to be completed within 24 hours. I had no idea what was supposed to happen after that.

I got a call the next morning (May 18/CD 8) to come in for an ultrasound in a couple hours. They did another abdominal and vaginal ultrasound. Then I had to go back to the ER for results (no one told me that and I was not prepared to wait a few more hours so that was fun). A different doctor came to review my results and said they could not see anything in my uterus or tubes, but I did have a cyst on one of my ovaries (corpus luteum cyst, maybe) which they weren't concerned about. I was given a requisition for another beta hcg in a few days, and to follow-up with my GP (or come back to the ER if needed). Later that evening, I went to the bathroom and noticed I was spotting. Some time later, I was cramping very slightly and went to the bathroom again where I saw what I believe was the pregnancy with a tiny bit of blood on my underwear. It was pretty obvious that's what it was because there was so little blood obscuring it. That was pretty traumatic to see. I did not bleed much at all over night, very light spotting.

What I believe has happened is that I had a very late implantation and somehow it implanted and did not get expelled during my normal period. I knew there was no way it could have stuck after that much bleeding, it sucks that I kept being told that "bleeding is normal during early pregnancy".

This morning I took another FRER and the test line was ever so slightly darker than the control line. I won't be able to get in for that bloodwork until Tuesday because it is a long weekend here. So now I just have to wait to make sure my HCG drops and I don't have to get a D&C. What a horrible mess. Thank you for reading and I hope this helps someone.

I think I am having my first period 4 weeks after DnC. I was very worried about my first period because I read hear and online that it could be quite traumatic and heavy. However, I’m not having that experience. It started off as spotting yesterday and today there is a light blood flow. Is this cause for concern? Should I be having a heavier period since I had a dnc? Also, most posts have said they got their period 6 weeks after. Is 4 weeks too early?

I was about 6 weeks pregnant when I had my miscarriage (also my first and only pregnancy, I'm 22) and I lost baby on 2/16/24. It's just over three months from that day and I am still struggling with the loss and grief. I'm just as destroyed as the day it happened and I just never feel better about it. It was all very traumatic the day it happened. It gets easier because people stop asking about it or bringing it up but all the pain is very lively inside of me every day. I still feel my lower stomach with my hands and have so much pain knowing I was growing a life inside of me just to be ripped away. I often find myself thinking "I'd be ___ far along" etc and I literally feel delusional like I have a phantom pregnancy like I should still be pregnant and I think about how my body would look and what planning I would be doing rn etc etc. I guess what I am looking for is some support because it does feel so lonely. I am no longer with the father and he was my biggest supporter with the whole ordeal. Any advice or words are very appreciated.

I'm a bridesmaid today, and the bride announced to everyone this morning she found out she's pregnant on Wednesday. I wish she would've called me privately beforehand as she knows I'm still going through my loss (12 week MMC on Easter weekend). I even called her crying when I was triggered by my brothers girlfriend announcing her pregnancy.

I don't want to make today about me, it's the bride's big day, but I'm having so much mixed emotions :(

During my 10 hour shift, bled threw to my pants once and went through a total of 5-6 pads within that shift. Passing occasional clots, no pain, no fever just an occasional woozy feeling ( my appetite could contribute to the woozy feeling) and heat flashes. Been a month since I found out about 3 weeks since the worse of it, had my last check up may 8th and which I was barely bleeding and everything looked good so a follow up wasn’t necessary but I’m starting to question if this is normal and if I should get checked out. I genuinely cannot afford to miss work and I’m kinda freaking out :/

Hi all, I'm just looking for some insight as to whether this is just par the course of a miscarriage. I passed my pregnancy 19 days ago although I was miscarrying for weeks before that. 8 days after I passed the pregnancy my bleeding stopped. I occasionally tested my HCG and can confirm it has been going down over the last couple of weeks.

Today, 1½ weeks after my bleeding stopped, I have been spotting bright red blood. Its not normal for me to start a period with bright red blood, nor have I had any other signs that I was about to get my period, my HCG is also still detectable on a low sensitivity test, so I'm assuming this isn't my period.

I'm unsure if it's normal for this to happen. After I passed the pregnancy I had two ultrasounds to check how much more tissue was left to pass, and they found that I only had a small 16mm clot left, which they weren't concerned about.

Sorry that this is all over the place. I don't know how to navigate any of this.

I’ve been feeling confused about a situation with my work during my miscarriage. I had just started when I found out I was pregnant. It was unplanned. I was almost at the end of my 3 month probation. I had two absences due to having a miscarriage. One was when I went to a&e because of pain on one side and stabbing pain which was concerning. I felt berated for this and forced to have to explain I was having a miscarriage and had begun bleeding and losing tissue that day, as well as severe cramping. There was no understanding and my probation period was extended meaning no sick leave, no days off without it possibly affecting my job and was not given the day off and was made to do a 12 hour busy shift on my feet with short staffing issues and having to go to the toilet constantly due to heavy bleeding and pain. There was also comments made about what contraception i was going to be on going forwards during the back to work meeting. As well as “well, I’ve never had a miscarriage so I don’t know what it’s like” which I found an inappropriate comment as well as others. I feel so angry and demoralised and like I was forced into disclosing my miscarriage and receiving nothing but judgement. I want to hand in my notice because I now feel resentful. Am I wrong for feeling this way? I am also still technically having a miscarriage, expectant management waiting for tissue to pass so I feel emotional and stressed as it is.

Apologies in advance that this is a bit long. I am generally a bit too much of a realist or even pessimist, but here goes…

I just had a D&C 2 days ago for a loss at 9 weeks into a surprise first pregnancy between IVF cycles. We were devastated. My husband and I had planned a trip to Mexico months ago for my birthday this upcoming week and and were going to cancel. However, at the encouragement of my OB, we have decided to still go for some distraction and normalcy.

As I attempted to pack for this trip and tried on outfits and bathing suits I’d worn just last summer, I didn’t like what I saw in the mirror. Months of IVF hormones followed by my pregnancy have left me a few pounds heavier and with a little tummy where it was once flat. Nothing fits right. My skin that I endured a year of acutane to get clear is breaking out everywhere. My roots are getting long from not colouring my hair while pregnant. All this felt more than worth it when I was having a baby. But now I am not. My baby is gone. Maybe part of me feels that this body in the mirror betrayed me in this thing I wanted so so badly. Did it, though? Even if I will never get to hold this baby in my arms, my body did something amazing - something I was told it couldn’t do. It grew our little baby and kept them safe for 9 whole weeks. It endured more joy, excitement, hope and love followed by more devastation and grief than I ever thought possible or manageable. The fact that this baby could not stay with me longer was not my body’s choosing. I am not the woman who wore these bikinis and dresses 8 months ago. I think I’m glad I’m not. She wasn’t as strong as I am and will have to be. I don’t know if anyone else needs to hear what I’ve been needing to tell myself: your body has done and will again do incredible things. You are facing something emotionally unimaginable and you are managing in whatever way you can day by day. Most importantly, you are doing an amazing job, so be kind to yourself, damnit ♥️

We went in for our 16-week scan last Tuesday, hoping we’d be able to find out the gender of our miracle baby (I have had PCOS in both ovaries since I was a teen). We were excited to see our baby again. It’s hospital policy that husbands can’t be with you inside the ultrasound room. When the doctor did my trabsabdominal ultrasound, I saw our baby not moving. The doctor was silent and called on another doctor. I knew then that our baby was gone. 💔 They did TVS and confirmed there was no cardiac activity. Our baby’s tailbone did not close, and there was a cyst-like structure in between the legs where they suspect brain fluid went. They kept telling me that I should be thankful my pregnancy did not progress further. Tears were streaming down the sides of my face as they continue the TVS to capture more angles of our lifeless baby. I was silent as we walked out of the hospital. I don’t know why I felt like I needed to hide the pain I was feeling at that moment. I didn’t want to be seen.

We went straight to our OB’s clinic and he explained what happened further. He said by the looks of it, our baby passed around 2-3 days earlier — Mother’s Day. 💔

He also said it’s good the pregnancy did not progress, but also wishes the MC happened earlier on so that we weren’t so attached yet. Although I know it would have hurt either way, I do agree that it hurt more now that we’ve gone past the 1st trimester. We were already so hopeful and looking forward to all the things we wanted for our baby. Gender reveal plans were in motion by my sister. Everyone was already so excited for us. Every night, my husband and I would talk about the things we were excited to experience with our baby, like Christmas, upcoming family events, etc. Coming into the 2nd trimester was also when I really felt connected to my baby. I’d talk to him/her every chance I get. I already felt like a mother. And for all that to be taken away so suddenly feels like the end of the world. I would not wish this pain even on my worst enemy.

There’s just so much I’m feeling right now. When we found out I was pregnant, we found out my childhood best friend was also pregnant. Our due dates are 4 days apart. Our other close friend is also due 3 weeks later. The 3 of us made a group where we would send updates and videos and such. We were so excited to be going through our first pregnancies together. Now I have not even had the strength to let them (or anyone apart from immediate family) know we lost our baby. I don’t want them to be scared and paranoid. And honestly, even if I don’t like the idea of it, I know I’d be bitter and it would really hurt so much to see them have their babies when we should’ve also had ours. I want to still be happy and excited for them. I just know it would be very awkward from here on out. I know our other high school friends would also feel really bad for us, and that just adds to my anxiety.

Now, I’m just riding the waves of grief. Waking up in the morning is extra hard as I have to remind myself that this wasn’t all just a nightmare. This is our reality. I miss our baby so much. I wish I could bring him/her back. We never even got the chance to announce we’re having a baby. And I’m just so sure everyone who did not know we got pregnant will keep asking us when we’ll be having one (a cultural thing), and that will hurt even more.

We’re just at home waiting for things to happen naturally as advised by our OB. He said it’ll take a while before I bleed that’s why he sent us home. I’m so anxious about the wait, and what to expect. We update him constantly, and he reassured us that he’ll give the go signal if we have to head to the hospital.

My husband has been the best support system. I don’t want to be around anyone else for now except him. He’s been taking care of me so well, and I’m so grateful for it. We’ve been together for 15 years, married a year, and we’ve been through so many challenges in life together. However, I can say this is the most connected we’ve ever been. I don’t know what to feel about it — like I’m happy that we’re here for each other, but also stricken with immense grief. I am also mourning the loss of excitement for future pregnancies. I know it would never be the same — there will just be anxiety and fear.

If you read up to this point, thank you, and sorry this got so long. I just needed someplace to share what I’m feeling.

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Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye You were bigger than the whole sky, You were more than just a short time. And I've got a lot to pine about, I've got a lot to live without. I'm never gonna meet What could've been, would've been What should've been you.

I love you, my baby Moon.

Yesterday I was 10 weeks 1 day. Went to doctor, no heartbeat and he couldn’t even really see the form of a fetus anymore. Said I probably lost baby at 7/8 weeks. Anyway, I took Misoprostol at 1:30pm, it is now 10:45pm. I’ve pasted 4 very large clots and lots of bleeding. I’ve miscarried before at 6 weeks and my experience was so different. I think I maybe pasted 1 small clot and bleeding. Is this normal bleeding and clots or should I be concerned? The clots and bleeding are so large I’m changing my diaper every time one passes.

Were you more in tune with your body after miscarriage? I just finished my first period after miscarriage (HCG was below 5 just a week and a half ago) and I’ve had sharp pains a couple days on my left side a few times. I assume it’s where my ovary is. I was/still kind of think I’m just feeling and noticing sensations more. My doc offered an ultrasound to check on things but I’ve spent so much time and money there the past 2.5 months that I’m just not ready to go in.

I took miso one week ago for MMC and (hopefully) I’ve gotten through the worst of it. However, there is a lingering gas pain and it’s pretty severe but only at night. When I was pregnant I also had really bad indigestion but only at night. It actually has been keeping me up at night

Has anyone experienced this? If so, how long did it last? I’ve tried everything short of medication (stretching, walking, no soda , etc.). I’m not having any issues with bowel movements (sorry for TMI). Any suggestions are welcome 🙏

Hi - I has blood work done today after having my first MC almost 3 weeks ago and my HCG levels came back at 1 - the nurse said I’m negative. I thought HCG needed to be 0? Does anyone have any insight on this?

3/29 first HCG test, second 4/1 levels were increasing. 4/10 visited the ER for spotting levels were still increasing ER DR said a miscarriage would happen. The next day I visited my midwife who said the HCG test from the ER were still increasing no concerns. Referred to a MFA visit on 4/16 informed everything was ok take it easy as I had a miscarriage 4/2023. Natural miscarriage 4/17 ER visit following ultrasound saw no baby. This was at 7w 2D

This is where it gets weird…. 2 days ago I was nauseous and threw up took a test it was positive. Advice nurse said there was the possibility of a twin, or a new pregnancy. That we should do an ultrasound and if it showing nothing HCG beta on today and Monday. Today I had a ultrasound showed a thick lining nothing else The DR came in said you have a thick lining why do you think you’re pregnant? I’ll see you back in 4 weeks if you haven’t had a cycle then maybe you are. I asked him at that point wouldn’t I be very close to 7 weeks the magic number of when I seem to miscarry, and that I would want to be on progesterone before then. That I wanted the HCG test today and Monday if my levels are increasing that he would start the progesterone. A little frustrating that I had to advocate for myself but praying for a sticky baby