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I need some advice. My ex and I had a very toxic relationship. I always forgave him and took him back but it was always thrown back in my face. He has this other ex girlfriend that he was with before he was with me. The second he's done with me he runs back to her, then the second hes done with her he runs back to me. He lives with his mother and is almost 34 years of age. He's the type that if something doesn't go his way he immediately shuts down. Treats me and my kids like dirt. And then days maybe even weeks later when he's good and ready, he'll speak to us again. Living with him was horrible. I was constantly walking on eggshells wondering what mood he would be in. I would get really nervous when we were having a good day together because I knew it would all change. He keeps going between me and his other ex simply because 1. We both always take him back and why I don't know. Especially her, he has cheated on her so much and publicly humiliated her. 2. He doesn't want to live with his mother and is using both of us as somewhere to stay. 3. I have a child with him, but the simple fact is, he doesn't care about his child. Because of past behaviour he is not allowed have our child over night, his family all agreed with this too to keep our child safe. He only takes our child for a few hours a week, and that's pretty much just to show his family that he's "being a dad". Doesn't ask for updates on her because he doesn't care. His other ex is very like him. Constantly drinking. No kids so doesn't have a care in the world. I know he'll leave her again and try run back to me. This time the door will be firmly shut in his face and he won't be welcomed back. But what I want to know is, do you think I should text this girl and point out all the obvious signs that he's only using both of us for somewhere to stay?... this "man" is very much an actor. He knows what I want and expect from him and he knows what she wants and expects from him. If he was to meet somebody new, it would take him a while to figure out his new role and he wouldnt get to move in right away, this is why he bounces back and forth. I am a single mother or 2 children and I am really struggling with my mental health because of him. I find it hard to do any task. I'm working, raising the kids, keeping the house paying all the bills and doing it all alone. And everything at the minute just has me angry.
This is my first Reddit post First a little background…I (f27) live in Illinois and used to work at-home hospice and I have been looking for a new job since my patient passed. My apartment was being sold so I had to move somewhere with my dog. Mom said I can’t move in with her. I was in a bind and low on money.
A couple days ago my mom’s friend/neighbor, a single female in her early 50’s., agreed to let me move in until I can get back on my feet. We’ll call her Laverne.
I was moving stuff from the old place tonight while the dog stayed at the new home with Laverne. She sent me a text message update on the dog.
She says the dog is jumping and she just “let him go” because “we all have needs”. Then she says “he’s licking his Johnson” and “at least a man is still turned on by me albeit four legs”.
I appreciate the favor she is doing but this makes me feel very uncomfortable. I feel like I want to set boundaries. Much light can be made of the situation but I assure you this 100% real and just happened.
A couple of weeks or so ago my friend told me and 2 others of our close friends that she was pregnant. We were very supportive of her and the guy she was dating decision to get an abortion. But the way everything played out we feel very sorry for her and hate the way that her now ex is treating her and that he should not be crucifying and demonizing her the way that he is. Here's the story....
When they went to her appointment they learned that she was 5 weeks pregnant and around that time frame they 1. weren't exclusively dating 2. he was on a break from having sex in general. Remember those 2 facts for later.
When he asked her she said she hadn't been with anyone (which clearly was a false statement). During that time (the time of conception) she recalled going to a friend's party and staying overnight because obviously there was going to be a lot of heavy drinking and drug use. She admitted to rooming with a longtime friend who is a guy. She also admitted to them sleeping in the same bed but has no memory of them having sex together. She doesn't deny it happening she just has no memory of it happening. She doesn't want to accuse him of rape or sexual assault because she doesn't know whether or not she consented to it. Her guy was pissed and dumped her after the appointment. A couple of days later she ended up miscarrying and that has really taken a toll on her mental state. She paid her ex back for the doctor's appointment and has apologized for it numerous amount of times and blamed herself completely for everything that has happened. She loves him and really wants him to forgive her for everything but we feel a bit put off considering..... That the day she told him she was pregnant he admitted to sleeping with someone (although the douchebag was claiming to be celibate and obtaining from sex) during that time which clearly was a lie, and they weren't exclusively dating when it happened. So she doesn't need to be sorry for that. She should only be remorseful for claiming the baby as his because it clearly wasn't. But she should not beat herself up for believing it was his because again she had no memory of her having sex with the guy she roomed with. He recently told her that she "emotionally trapped him and emotionally abused him". We feel like he is holding her to a very high standard and that he shouldn't be on such a high horse because he messed around as well, but hers had a bigger consequence and had very different circumstances that are nowhere near similar. She didn't claim the baby as his with malicious intent and was not trying to be deceitful. We feel like he shouldn't be giving her this much grief and making her feel like she is this nasty villain. We do feel like he has the right to be disappointed that the baby isn't his and that's it. Do you feel like he's being over dramatic and overly cruel to her? And that he's holding her to a very unreasonable double standard? Because we all really want her to be able to move past this whether it's with her ending up with him or not and with someone better with the peace of mind that she is not a bad person she was just put into a bad situation. And that her miscarrying is not her karma for believing the baby was the guy she was dating. Would you forgive her and try to make things considering the circumstances?
A couple of weeks or so ago my friend told me and 2 others of our close friends that she was pregnant. We were very supportive of her and the guy she was dating decision to get an abortion. But the way everything played out we feel very sorry for her and hate the way that her now ex is treating her and that he should not be crucifying and demonizing her the way that he is. Here's the story....
When they went to her appointment they learned that she was 5 weeks pregnant and around that time frame they 1. weren't exclusively dating 2. he was on a break from having sex in general. Remember those 2 facts for later.
When he asked her she said she hadn't been with anyone (which clearly was a false statement). During that time (the time of conception) she recalled going to a friend's party and staying overnight because obviously there was going to be a lot of heavy drinking and drug use. She admitted to rooming with a longtime friend who is a guy. She also admitted to them sleeping in the same bed but has no memory of them having sex together. She doesn't deny it happening she just has no memory of it happening. She doesn't want to accuse him of rape or sexual assault because she doesn't know whether or not she consented to it. Her guy was pissed and dumped her after the appointment. A couple of days later she ended up miscarrying and that has really taken a toll on her mental state. She paid her ex back for the doctor's appointment and has apologized for it numerous amount of times and blamed herself completely for everything that has happened. She loves him and really wants him to forgive her for everything but we feel a bit put off considering..... That the day she told him she was pregnant he admitted to sleeping with someone (although the douchebag was claiming to be celibate and obtaining from sex) during that time which clearly was a lie, and they weren't exclusively dating when it happened. So she doesn't need to be sorry for that. She should only be remorseful for claiming the baby as his because it clearly wasn't. But she should not beat herself up for believing it was his because again she had no memory of her having sex with the guy she roomed with. He recently told her that she "emotionally trapped him and emotionally abused him". We feel like he is holding her to a very high standard and that he shouldn't be on such a high horse because he messed around as well, but hers had a bigger consequence and had very different circumstances that are nowhere near similar. She didn't claim the baby as his with malicious intent and was not trying to be deceitful. We feel like he shouldn't be giving her this much grief and making her feel like she is this nasty villain. We do feel like he has the right to be disappointed that the baby isn't his and that's it. Do you feel like he's being over dramatic and overly cruel to her? And that he's holding her to a very unreasonable double standard? Because we all really want her to be able to move past this whether it's with her ending up with him or not and with someone better with the peace of mind that she is not a bad person she was just put into a bad situation. And that her miscarrying is not her karma for believing the baby was the guy she was dating. Would you forgive her and try to make things considering the circumstances?
About 2 months ago, a friend of my son (18yo) gave us her dog. The dog had bitten her little brother and her mom told her to find a new home for the dog or take it back to the breeder. When we picked up the dog, she gave us his papers from the breeder and his shot records. We were under the impression we were his permanent new home. Now almost 2 months later, the mom of the girl messages my son and says they are going to come pick him up and take him to live with the grandparents. In that time the dog has become part of our family and he is happy and spoiled. She is saying all along that him staying with us was a temporary solution. And she's quite aggressive and got upset when I challenged her. What would you do? Would you give him back?
I was abused since I could remember by a self centered narcissistic bitch that some people/My mother called my "sister" she's not and she never will be a sister to me especially after this. I'm going to call her T because I hate calling this thing my sister. Every since I could remember my life revolved around cleaning I can't remember when I wasn't forced to clean our whole house head to toe every single day and if I missed even a single spot I would be beat. She would punch, kick and all sorts of things if it wasn't how she liked it she would even get her kids to beat me up and if I tried to stop them or anything she would beat me harder because they're younger then me and I should be the bigger person. I don't are about being the bigger person she just scared me so much I couldn't do anything and what can a 5 year old do against a 20 year old anyway? Anyway my mother was bed ridden after a year or 2 of me being born so T took "care" of us. She took care of them. Every thing they wanted they got and all I got was beat and yelled at. She would also get me a pet every other month just to sell it for more money later that week and would justify it as I wasn't taking care of it right. Then why get me 20 other pets? But then she tried breeding and selling hamsters but she quickly found out she couldn't make money much off of them. So later on I got a hamster and then I realized she wasn't taking it away from me so get more and more and more to the point I had almost 30 hamsters all in as big aquariums as I could get. I think I subconsciously realized she wouldn't do anything so I because obsessed with hamsters. My hamsters where the only thing I had that was mine. And I tried stopping but I really couldn't and even now I have about 14 wait no 3 died in the last month so actually I have 11. Miraculously she also left my 2 dogs alone. Probably because when she messed with them I actually spoke up and got mad. I was in the living room because every time I went in my room she would make me do shit because I can't be doing anything for myself right? I mean I wasn't even allowed to eat. I almost died because I wasn't allowed to. Anyway my dogs were out there with me playing and they barked a couple of times and I guess those couple times were enough for her cuz she's stormed in there and yelled at me and them as loud as she could tell me if they didn't shut up she would do something so I said okay and I tried my hardest to get them not to bark or really play or anything so she wouldn't get mad and hurt me or them but as soon as one tiny bark left my puppy's mouth she ran in the living room and slammed them on the floor and smack them and pick them up open my bedroom door and slam them as hard she could on the floor so I ran to my room pushed passed her and slammed my door as hard as I could and locked it and of course she didn't like that so she started banging on my door telling me she'll kick my ass and kill me if I don't open it right now. I didn't open it. She also breeds dogs but she also abuses them in the process she had six dogs here she would breed and she would breed them up to three times a year just to sell their puppies and she would keep them outside 24/7 even in the freezing cold. After she finally moved out at the age of 30 she brought her two dogs with her a boy and a girl and she bred her girl dog as many times as she could I think she had five litters in one year I'm surprised the dog isn't dead yet and as you can probably tell she didn't really treat the puppies very good she will let them run around and lay down and eat in their shit and piss and I guess we're finally getting to the part for the reason I wanted to post this and get it off my chest. There was a puppy that she treated way worse than all the others his paws infected and sore and puffy and red from him living in his own feces and piss his butthole was even infected and he couldn't even poop right and the top at all off his penis was sliced in half oh and his tail was cut off she didn't want to deal with them so she gave them to my mom but my mom didn't want to deal with him either so she gave him to me and I took care of him because I know what it feels like for her to take "care" of you. He was my puppy I had him for 6 months or so I had to wash his butthole every single day in warm water just to make sure he was pooping and even sometimes I had to squeeze it to make sure everything got out and he wasn't completely suffering I made sure his cage was clean he had food and water and I tried to love him as much as I could I even named him I named him Finn. I loved him more than I loved anything I wanted to give him the best life I could but of course she had a mess it up again not just his life but mine. My mom has been sick and not been able to move properly the past couple weeks so she has T to take my puppy to the vet to get them checked out but of course she had other plans and instead of that she gave him away to some other lady I couldn't even say goodbye because I was in a hurry with some stuff I was doing and I didn't even know when he left because her boyfriend just came in and took him I wasn't able to tell him I loved him I wasn't able to kiss him and hug him he was just gone. He's already all the way in California there's nothing you can do. I can't even clean myself properly or take care of myself because I can't stop thinking about him and if he's okay I can't even focus in school all I can do is think about him and nothing else I haven't even been taking care of my other animals properly because of this. That day when she gave him away and I found out I cried I cried way more than I ever have. I cried until about 2:00 in the afternoon to 9:00 and as soon as I woke up I went back to crying but I also had to go to school and as you can probably tell I cried basically the whole day at school I tried to hide it but I couldn't keep it in. My mom keeps saying she didn't know she was going to do that but I really don't believe her and I don't believe that she didn't know T was doing all that stuff to me when I was younger. And now I don't even know what I'm feeling I'll feel sad angry and then nothing I'll even start laughing crying and feeling angry at the same time. I don't know what to feel but all I know as soon as I'm able to I'm going to make sure she feels what I feel. I promise myself that and I think that's the only reason I feel better now because I know I'm going to make her feel how I feel of course I can't make her repent for everything she's done to me but I'm going to make sure she knows how I feel now after what she did to me after she took away my baby. All I have to do is wait a year or two and then her babies will be gone I'll make sure of it. I'll Crush her. I'm going to make her life a living hell
A summoning circle starts to form underneath you, but somehow you have a strange feeling that you have five minutes before you're transported to another world. Within those five minutes, you figure you can prepare yourself for the new world. What do you gather together from your home to help you in the new world?
Ok, so you are the leader of a group of people, and while leadership isn’t hereditary it is lifelong. You have a son and two daughters, as well as a wife whom you love. The leader of a different group gets possessed because an evil guy want to steal his wife (long story). The leader is also your mum’s brother who you had a distant admiration for and were on good terms with.
Your son had a direct role in the possession, but didn’t know he was helping possess someone or who he was helping was bad. Your son has had seizures and visions that were thought to have been caused by god, but it was just the evil guy, and it turns out he can’t commune with god and that’s an important thing for both him and his role.
Additionally, the son has had very long private conversations with the evil guy, that you don’t know what it was about. He was also thrown down a cliff and nearly died by the evil guy, and had to nearly die a few more times to help defeat him. He also went to the miserable place where the evil guy was hiding, had to fight with the only guy who’s ever treated him like an adult, killing him, nearly died himself along with all the other people there who were good. He also saw his friend’s girlfriend die to kill the evil guy, and had to be one of the people to comfort him while still getting other his crush on him which he shouldn’t have had since the friend was in a different group, although only two people know and neither of them are in your family or interested in telling you.
To clarify what I’m asking, how would you feel, how would you feel about your son, how would the wife feel, and how would the son feel. Sorry for the long post and formatting, I’m on mobile.
If you had a vital cancer then what would be your last words
Okay so this is a long story that not many will see but here it goes.
I found out my wife has been exchanging nudes via Snapchat to someone who she met at work.
So here’s the background to the story… My wife 23F and I 25M have been married since September. However we have been together for over 4 years now. I have a daughter age 5 who I have majority parenting time with from a previous relationship. We share one child together age 3. When we first got together like maybe a month or two into our relationship I found out she was cheating on me… long story short I was assured it would never happen again and I believed it. Although she has always been the super jealous type and I have caught her going thru my phone multiple times. Not like I have anything to hide from her. Anyway she never has kept a steady job with steady hours In the years we’ve been together. I had a very flexible work schedule until about 2 months ago so that would free up any shift she wanted, that way someone was home with the kids. We broke up for a short time in 2021. I made very bad decisions and moved a high school friend of mine in and started dating. It didn’t work out, so wife and I decide to work things out. So…. In the months following us getting back together she accused me of cheating on her with said high school friend multiple times. (Was a very nasty breakup ending in myself getting an OP on the high school friend) was very obvious that I was never going back to high school friend. So the only way she says she can stop thinking that is if I agree to get married. I was very reluctant and had put it off and even told her before wet got back together that I wanted to be together for a few more years before marriage. But I was dumb and I agreed. Keep in mind my daughters mom left her when she was a baby and my wife was there for her when she needed a mom since age one. I was thinking of the kids and that’s probably why I said yes. So long story short September of last year we get married we move into a bigger house I get this awesome job we are doing great physically and emotionally, could be better financially but at least she’s working… one night I took an early nap, I woke up and grabbed for my phone to see what time it was. I couldn’t find it, my wife was not in the room I saw her phone so I called my phone… is was in the bathroom and she was snooping… again I have nothing to hide and she promptly apologized. It’s whatever I don’t really care. But something about it bothered me that time. So a couple days later when I woke up for work I grabbed her phone…. I was greeted with a Snapchat conversation that ended with a bunch of dong pics. The conversation went back a few weeks… they talked about where they would meet how they would hook up dirty things were said to him that my wife won’t even say to me. So I confront my wife on it after work. She told me that it wasn’t what I thought it was and that she was trying to set up a sexual activity for the both of us… right… not to mention I was never mentioned in their conversation but I don’t want that anyway. She didn’t really cry like she usually does when she messes up or disappoints me. Which I thought was odd. So again. I think we’re going to work it out. Everything is okay for a week or two then yesterday she tells me she met him for coffee. While I was at work and our kids were at school she met him for coffee… she said that she ended everything there and that nothing happened. I don’t believe it. I want to believe it but I also kinda want to get a divorce I’ve worked 50+ hour weeks to make ends meet because she didn’t want to work mind you she’s had multiple job opportunities she just says she didn’t want to do that. Buy I have almost single handed supported my family for the past 4.5 years. I would probably get a divorce but I know I can’t afford child care. I leave for work at 5 am and don’t return until 4-5 pm our kids get on the bus for school at noon and get home around 3:30-4pm I have no family near my that can help with the kids if I do get a divorce. I feel trapped. If we do get a divorce 99.9% chance she moves back in with her mom 2 hrs south. As she can not afford to live on her own income what would you guys do
I work in a company for 2 years 18.25 hourly rate Bi-weekly 45+ hours anything over 40 it’s overtime. 45 minutes from home $800 in the last paycheck of the month 9am-7pm
They are calling me they want me back
The job i have now 21 hourly rate No bonus No overtime 10 minutes from home I literally just stared so i have no sick time or vacations 9:30-6pm
Should i go back to my old job or stay here? HELP!!!!
I have 3+ years worth of graphic and explicit text messages from my ex-husband, who's sent this all to me after our divorce. He's still dating the woman he cheated on me with. Should I send her the transcripts? I'm trying to be the "bigger person" and leave well enough alone but a part of me just wants to watch their world fall apart. What would you do if you were me?
I recently broke my phone, so my bf gave me and old phone that he had when we first started dating, i need Whatsapp for work so i download the app, since he had uninstall it, for some reason even tho i had a new number, his chats showed up, so i got curious and open a conversation with his bff. Thi is where i messed up. I wanted to see if he said anything to hi bff about me when we met. I was surprised to see he said something along the lines with -she doesn't have a pretty face, but she has a nice body- referring to me. Now i'am sad, i know what i did was wrong but i seriously was specting to find something romantic, or that he find me very pretty from minute 1 or something, idk. Now i can't stop thinking about it, why would he hang out and form a relationship with me if he didn't find me attractive?? He also said that he was happy i wasn't looking for nothing serious because he didn't want anything with me,, but as i remember he is the one that mentioned he was only looking for serious relationships. Now i don't know what to do, i feel uggly and sad, do i say anything? Do i shut up? Do i break up with him? I feel like from now on when he sais i'am pretty i won't believe it and will always remember what he said. Uughh part of me wished i had never open that conversation
So I live with my family which is my mom, my grandma, aunt, brother, and sister. The other day my mom found out that i lost my job due to me taking 5 days of bereavement instead of 3 days which is what my job offers. Everyone in the house is blaming it on my girlfriend when she would work the days I missed. So my grandma which is the home owner is kicking out my girlfriend and said she'd kick me out to but can't. Should I move out now before they have the chance to kick me out?
Me and my girlfriend are both 21 btw and neither of us are under a lease
To make it worse, its a country like Poland, Finland, Iceland, or any other country with an extremely complicated language.
If you spent around $400usd on a fancy percussion therapy gun and the company ships you 2 of them in separate packages multiple days apart, what would you do with the second item? Return it to the company? Keep it and sell it? Give it away? “Return” the item and get your money back, but keep the second one? Other?
What Would You Do If During a therapy session, police come in & arrest your therapist?
I'm gonna name them so you don't get confused. Your therapist will be called "Mimi" & the other patient (Not you) will be named Theodore.
They arrested your therapist on charges of Conspiracy to commit murder with another patient of hers named Theodore (Not you) & the victim of the attempted murder was Theodore's wife.
Turns out, Mimi & Theodore were dating & they wanted his wife's life insurance money & to get married without the wife in the picture.
Murder was unsuccessful.
This is based on an indie game I'm making.
by lost assets i mean you can't say "id just find a way back to my house and sell some stuff" Or anything along those lines
(im 19yr my cousin is 13yr) my 13yo cousin used to go to therapy cuz she was battling some mental health issues. I have already struggled with anorexia and bd so i understand what she is going through. i was never open about my mental illnesses only my parents and doctors (and some friends) know abt it but my cousin doesnt know. i think that because of my mental illnesses i knew what to say to her and what not to say. i chose to keep information like her struggles with self harm and food to myself since she was in therapy and i didnt see a reason to tell her mom or dad. Now she told her therapist she didnt need therapy anymore and quit it. she started smoking, vaping, drinking and doing g. i started to get even more worried cuz my older cousin had to go to rehab 6 times cuz of addiction and that left me sm trauma. my grandma almost caught her smoking but she made a story up. everything is getting more intense and she is trying new things and i feel like i should tell her mom but im scared she is gonna hate me and never trust me again. if she never trusts me again it can get worse and no one knows or listens to her. i dont know what to do.
(im 19yr my cousin is 13yr) my 13yo cousin used to go to therapy cuz she was battling some mental health issues. I have already struggled with anorexia and bd so i understand what she is going through. i was never open about my mental illnesses only my parents and doctors (and some friends) know abt it but my cousin doesnt know. i think that because of my mental illnesses i knew what to say to her and what not to say. i chose to keep information like her struggles with self harm and food to myself since she was in therapy and i didnt see a reason to tell her mom or dad. Now she told her therapist she didnt need therapy anymore and quit it. she started smoking, vaping, drinking and doing g. i started to get even more worried cuz my older cousin had to go to rehab 6 times cuz of addiction and that left me sm trauma. my grandma almost caught her smoking but she made a story up. everything is getting more intense and she is trying new things and i feel like i should tell her mom but im scared she is gonna hate me and never trust me again. if she never trusts me again it can get worse and no one knows or listens to her. i dont know what to do.
So the following happened a few months ago. I'm a minor (17f) and my dad had to go to the ER at 6am. We were on our way to my brother's house, so he came to pick me up. Around 8 I called the front desk, terrified because I didn't want to leave the hotel room and all the valuables, while my dad was incapacitated. They were complete dicks, but I was terrified to ask for the manager. I ended up paying for an extra night/afternoon until my brother could get there. Would you have let me stay if I couldn't pay, or would you call CPS? As I said I couldn't leave the valuables in the room, and I was from out of town
Today for the first time since it happened, I walked into the pharmacy that administered my first COVID vaccine back in 2021.
There was nobody there yet I froze when I reached the front. Even though I had been there before, I felt lost & confused.
It’s amazing what your brain does when it experiences traumatic events
😵💫Since you are clueless of what I’m speaking 😝 I received the vaccine at 2:50pm. Stranger woke me up at 4:06pm to when I have a call record to my son. Then I woke up inside an ambulance at 4:59pm experiencing PVCs & Sinus Bradycardia which was still 5 days later at urgent care. Took 9 days to return to feeling normal but due to it I was off unpaid for 2.5months or so.
Lived off my savings
Employer didn’t provide sick hours or COVID hours that were available until 9/30/22. Didn’t get disability or any aid
It was unreal being at that pharmacy once again & not having anyone for support before during or even after
Today for the first time since it happened, I walked into the pharmacy that administered my first COVID vaccine back in 2021.
There was nobody there yet I froze when I reached the front. Even though I had been there before, I felt lost & confused.
It’s amazing what your brain does when it experiences traumatic events
😵💫Since you are clueless of what I’m speaking 😝 I received the vaccine at 2:50pm. Stranger woke me up at 4:06pm to when I have a call record to my son. Then I woke up inside an ambulance at 4:59pm experiencing PVCs & Sinus Bradycardia which was still 5 days later at urgent care. Took 9 days to return to feeling normal but due to it I was off unpaid for 2.5months or so.
Lived off my savings
Employer didn’t provide sick hours or COVID hours that were available until 9/30/22. Didn’t get disability or any aid
It was unreal being at that pharmacy once again & not having anyone for support before during or even after