Did it ever go that far that it was torture?

I [M29] ordered my girlfriend [F21] a new vibrator and I have been super excited for it to get here and to watch her try it. We have been celebrating Locktober this month so I wanted to get her something new to try to help her with it. And she never really liked the last vibe I got her.

This new one looks a lot different than the other ones she has and I was looking forward to seeing her in action with it. So it finally came yesterday and I surprised her with it when she came home from work. She was very excited about it and definitely wanted to try it.

A little while later she asked me if I wanted to ruin my orgasm for her. So far this month I have only had one orgasm and it was also ruined so I was very excited to cum again and agreed. I'm so sensitive and so after about a minute I was so close and had such a frustrating ruined orgasm with her watching next to me on the couch. I cleaned up my mess like a good boy. She later told me that she almost gagged watching me with the cum! It made me feel so humiliated.

I assumed she wanted to try her toy next and she did but she really surprised me. She can get shy when I'm watching her play so she didn't want that to happen at all and really wanted to enjoy trying it for the first time.

So she made me start playing a video game on the couch while she laid in the bed behind me and tried out her new toy I just got her. I was not allowed to watch. I was leaning in so much desperately trying to listen to her play.

I was so disappointed because I couldn't hear the buzz of the vibrator on her pussy at all. She was under a blanket so it was mostly muffled. But eventually she started very lightly moaning and it made me squirm so much and I immediately became rock hard.

I asked if she was liking it and she pretty much told me to shut up in a nice way so I apologized and remained silent and distractingly played my game.

Eventually she started moaning again and it was driving me crazy. I felt so denied. Her moans got heavier and heavier and I was wishing so much I could watch her play. It sounded like the vibe felt so good.

Then I heard her cum so intensely. It made me sooo jealous since I was just ruined right before. I looked over at her thinking she was done but she told me later she was still actively cumming when I looked at her. I did apologize for peeking.

Eventually she said, "I'm going to get a second one just because I can." This made me squirm so hard and made me even more jealous. Very shortly she did start moaning heavier and heavier than before and then came so much harder for the second time. I've never felt so denied and jealous. She was so very satisfied and I was so rock hard and horny still.

Later when we were discussing it she mentioned to me that she feels like she is the man in our sex life. This made me squirm so much and I felt very emasculated hearing that from her and then agreeing with her. She also said this might be her favorite vibe now and that made me even more jealous! I wish I could have watched her enjoy it so badly. It sounded like she loved it.

She is very much loving the control and being in charge of my orgasms. She is loving giving me ruined orgasms and leaving me with blue balls more and more. I have been getting a lot better at giving her oral and can now make her cum from it.

I am very excited for where our sexual future is headed! I am hoping for less and less PIV as she will hopefully start to see vaginal orgasms as less and less important and ultimately eventually shifting us to a pussyfree relationship.