Hope to get this place rolling, especially this is such a contenious topic.

A few days ago i was watching a Youtube video that got recommended by the algorithm. It was a streamer who cross dressed after his viewers asked him to do it. So then he did it and he looked really hot. that severely triggered my agp.

So now i can't stop thinking about putting on make up and dressing myself in female clothing. It's driving me mad. However, i don't want to do it. Because it contradicts with my male self, who prefers to live a simple life and dislikes overconsumption of products. I also want to maintain my facial hair because everyone is used to me looking like that.

But now i have this female persona who comes barging in after years of being dormant (my last serious trigger was around 5 years ago). And now i feel conflicted and don't know what to do. I want to keep a balance between my masculine and my feminine needs, but i don't want to go into the shopaholic frenzy i went through when i had my last trigger.

This is just a rant, i don't really expect an answer. I think i'll find a solution somehow. So far roleplaying as women in video games have kept my sanity in check. With this recent trigger however, i feel the need for something more.

I transitioned over 20 years ago strictly bc of AGP and couldn’t be happier with my decision. I would love to make friends/chat with others like me. I know I can’t be the only one…

I cannot suppress these feelings anymore. I would like to have chat with those who chose transition.

Hello

Yeah, so basically, guys, when I discovered there are more people like me, I was happy. Later, I became sad again because there is no cure. There is no one way of dealing with it. For me, it is difficult because I experience a lot of gender dysphoria as well as autogynephilia. So, there isn't a 100% real answer for me whether to transition or not. Yet, for everyone reading this who feels the same way, believe me, you are not alone. You are not doing something bad. Your fantasies don't hurt anyone.

Don't forget that you can live a happy life. When you think that there is so much pressure, just take a break and don't read anything about autogynephilia for a while. You are not alone.

There is a stigma around the word AGP or Autogynephilia. When we look at the Greek origin of the word, it's literal translation is Love for one self as a woman. How could that be perceived as negative? Or how did it become such a weaponized term thats dehumanizing a group of individuals who have an internal sexual target, that isn't of their own volition? I'm looking for an individual to speak openly about their Autogynephilia in a way that helps others to better understand what it is and how it manifests. I'm also interested in exploring how this may have affected the personal relationships you've cultivated throughout the years. Along with a deeper understanding of how it is impacting your mental health. I feel like the more people are aware of it, the better care we can offer. Kindly reach out to me here if you have any questions, or if you would like more details. I look forward to your feedback and hearing back from anyone soon.

Regards

My Husband (38) told me he was bisexual. He's spent his entire life thinking he was bisexual, but he was adamant that he wasn't sexually attracted to males. I stumbled upon AGP about two weeks ago and asked if that more accurately describes how he feels and he said it is. He's had sex (he's a bottom) with males and trans people. We've talked about this and had 3somes with other men together. I put makeup on him and we went out together, I put clothing in his Amazon cart and he never bought the stuff. I peg him and he wears lingerie while I'm doing it. The trouble is, I feel like I've been a driving force for him in exploring this side and he gives little to no feedback about any of it other than to say he appreciates me. The trouble is, I am confused. Like, VERY confused. After talking about AGP and him saying that was an epiphany for him (and me), he also revealed that he has had these fantasies about being a girl since he was very young and has these fantasies daily. I had no clue it was this often. I'm feeling like I don't know who he is, because perhaps he doesn't know himself. I want to be supportive (and feel I have been), but I also am strictly heterosexual. I do not want to be with a woman. Been down that road, it's not for me. So, where does that leave me? I'm struggling with feeling safe and with trusting him because he hasn't been open with me. How do I support him while also protecting myself?

*Edit- I just wanted to say a heartfelt thank you to everyone here for your support and insight. You have all made a positive difference for two people trying to navigate their lives through this together.

Had a strong AGP phase the second half of last year, which was one of my strongest and longest ones ever, and what propelled me to start posting here and in askAGP. It kinda started to die down around the beginning of this year, and now at this point I have again come back around to the thoughts that my best way forward is to practice habits that reinforce my male self, while not "rewarding" my AGP self.

I'm experienced enough to not "purge" all of my crossdressing stuff because I know some day this will probably be back with full force, and buying new stuff later is a waste of money, but I *mostly* held off from engaging in anything AGP-related for the past 3 weeks, and am going to continue doing so for as long as I can. I will try to mentally reward and nurture the external attraction to OTHER people, real life women.

It's just so hard to do this when you are single and lonely. In order to reward that side of my sexual orientation, it has to occur in the first place with real women I connect with in real life, which I really have always struggled with how to do. Wish me luck I guess, lol.

Edit: btw my altima got wrecked a few weeks ago so I'm no longer a nissanaltimadriver, it's been real 🥲

Hey everybody. Ive been sitting on the sidelines for a very long time. Taking in content, research, papers, people's personal stories, podcasts, etc.

I have a take on this that perhaps is unique to me but drives me a bit insane that it never seems like a possibility or brought up.

I don't actually feel like going on an endless post bc I'm just so tired of the internet. But here goes as short as possible.

When I was little I imagined myself with rly long pretty hair like my girl cousin. This gave me a euphoric rush thru my body. I was probably 7 or 8. I periodically had this thought and would occasionally throw on my mom's dresses when I stayed home from school.

To get to the present day, I really late to autogyneohilia. I am sexually turned on by the idea of being feminized. I am turned in by crossdressing, sissy fetish, having breaths, etc... But I am a masculine man. I'm 35 years old, full beard, a personal trainer and a little under 6 foot.

My childhood was nuts. I was adopted at 2 days old. I grew up as an only child in a hoarded house with two parents who I believe love me and did the best they could, but were desperately struggling to manage their own issues. My mother is extremely anxious, uncertain and full of doubt. She is a hoarder and I grew up in a completely clustered, claustrophobic house. She is also an alcoholic. My father is a Vietnam war veteran with no patience, a ton of rage, a closed mind, narcissistic tendencies and certainly an alcoholic. I went to catholic school w the uniform and all. I grew up in neglect, alcoholism, gaslighting, terror and no direction or boundaries. I also had an undescended testicle that my parents decided never to fix. I was extremely anxious, passive and non confrontational. Not great at team sports. But I had a lot of friends, had quite the imagination, did fine in school and made ppl laugh. I always had friends and girlfriends. But I always felt like a freak. Like someone who could be given away at any second bc of what a weak, broken boy I was.

Why do I say all that? I've always believed that this AGP is caused by my life. My circumstances plus my nature.

I often see auto heterosexuality has almost a quick explanation for sexuality that none of us could have ever done anything about bc it was inborn that way. It simply is what it is from the start.

On the opposite side of the argument I see trans women saying they are woman trapped in a man's body. Basically same idea that this is just something that simply IS and has nothing to do with circumstances, trauma, perception of self, mental health, relationship with parents (masculinity and feminity) and sense of identity, environment, time period, societal expectations, etc..

I have tbh. I believe when I imagined having my cousins pretty hair it was a thought any young boy could have. But it hit me in a powerful way bc it was a fantasy that brought relief BC I believed I was a broken boy. A weak boy. A fraud boy. I thought that bc I wasn't as competitive or aggressive or as interested in sports. Because I was missing a testicle. Bc I was sensitive.

I have massively struggled w drugs and alcohol over the course of my life (no surprise there) and so if theres one thing I know for sure, when something brings relief, you keep doing it. Well this fantasy brings relief.

I also believe things that fire together, wire together. So by the time I went thru puberty and had this fantasy that brought relief, plus a terrible self esteem, plus images of trans porn and the internet, plus gynocomestia developing AND going thru puberty and being drawn to my female classmates. It was a perfect storm of the development of the world's most powerful drug for me. And it is accessible anytime inside myself. I don't need to go to a store to get this. I don't need to drive to the Bronx and put my life at risk to get this. It's inside my mind.

Does anyone else feel this way? I believe EVERYTHING in my life has made this. Not simply bc I am a woman trapped or bc I have some ass backwards sexuality pointing back at me.

I'm not knocking others experiences.. I'm more just curious if anyone else thinks or feels this experience because it is truly mine. I don't believe I'd have this unique fetish without this unique circumstances of nature and nurture.

I am 16 male and have no problem conforming to my role as a man. I have no dysphoria and like my body. However, I am aroused by the thought of myself as a woman and advice from transgender forums tells me to transition. I never really had this fetish until I got into transformation p0rn where I picked it up. Is there a way to cure this or is the only way transition?

“He explained that he'd always loved looking at sexy women in lingerie, but he'd come to realize that he didn't want to be with them, he wanted to be them.”

So I am a newly self aware AGP I was assigned male at birth I am weirde out about what sort of Autosexual I am because I don't exactly want to be Phenotypically and Genotypically Want to resemble a woman

Instead I want to look feminine while I want both complete reproductive systems of both sexes

small androgenic looking boobs And nipples if not feminine straight up

I like going feminine most times androfem some times and straight up androgenic sometimes

I am 19

Hi I am a 33 year old male living in NZ. I believe I have autogynephillia, I enjoy dressing up in women's clothes and imagining myself having lesbian s*x. Shein is definitely my favorite shop. I'm 6 feet 2 inches tall and 110 kilograms. I don't like how big I an in comparison to women because I want to look more feminine. But I only want to be feminine during times of arousal. Most people around me know that I crossdress. There are only a couple that know why. I have great support networks in friends and family. I go through phases of gender dysphoria and sometimes I want to transition. I enjoy being a man, I enjoy the clothing, the comfort and standing to pee. But I also love the thrill of being dressed in women's attire. My thoughts of dressing up for arousal have been increasing in intensity and quantity recently and its starting to effect my life. So I started to go to counselor because I want to understand the autogynephilia properly so I can learn to manage the impulse control and discover who I am. Does anyone know of any good reading? Or someone I could speak to? There is very little to zero information or support out there for autogynephilia. I have huge impulse control problems, especially when it comes to money, drugs and crossdressing. Does anyone else have impulse control issues?

i thought i would just laugh at this cute little movie but it was honestly such a terrifying send-up of agp..agp looks so evil and gross i feel like i dont want anything to do with it anymore :(

essentially ive thought for some time that agp was a more "moral" sexual orientation because you dont rudely objectify girls in your mind but like, as the movie shows AGP can still end up producing so much more misery than normal sexuality. ive heard so many girls say how upset they are that their partner is agp but it wasnt until i saw @ basic_chanel (she is the main actress) usually haughty face wetted by tears that i really "got" how much this can crush others..

my hsts arc starts ➡️ now

Thank you u/ohhsocurious for your creations. I don't have artistic abilities or I would help with that. Art in the form of visual or songs and more can help us tell our story on our own terms.

Hi I’m 23 straight W and I have been with my as he said straight 23 M bf for 2 years. After one year at the relationship he told me that he have a strange fetish. He get turned on by imagining he is a sexy girl. He was making a photos in my outfits photoshoot it like he looks like a girl and put them on the internet. Also at the 1,5 year of relationship we didn’t have sex because he didn’t want to. It was strange to me but I was thinking that’s just crossdressing but after we finally started having sex now he told me he started to go out in this clothes, fake ass and tits and after he masturbate. I didn’t see him in this outfits only I saw this photos of him. Is he ATG trans or crd? This thinking about it makes me very sad. I love him for his masculine side and I really want to be with a guy. But if he is a trans woman I’m happy for him but I couldn’t be in a relationship with one :( please help