Hi so the past few years I have had a desire to learn a musical instrument or thoughts like man I think it would be cool to play a musical instrument just to be clear. I like Christian worship music and also note I have mild intellectual disability and have had trouble with fine motor skills and muscle tone at least in the past

Now I will give you my history with musical now when I was kid my parents signed me and my other siblings in paino lessons now I have a older brother and a younger sister now my brother did amazing in his piano and still plays piano for his church my sister dosent play Piano but as I’m writing that is playing trumpet for her college band 😃😀 and then there is me I don’t play anything ☹️ now when I did piano lessons as a kid it felt like schoolwork didn’t enjoy it it was hard I constantly needed help that I got from my mom so much so my piano teacher helped me during recite Anyway it wasn’t enjoyable and so I stoped taking lessons after maybe a year and honestly I was fine but one Sunday night at my church it was the Christmas concert and there was one part where my brother and sister played a song now my brother was on piano and my sister was on trumpet me just sitting in the audience now I thought they did a good job but I was wondering what was my instrument maybe piano 🤷‍♂️

Now about sometime in 2019 our church was looking for a Cajon player and we scheduled lessons with a Decan in our church and so me and my sister and I were playing at the same time and now with a few instructional points my sister was able to get it me not so much I tried couldn’t get it even with my brother playing some tunes on the piano during that I did something I don’t recommend anyone else did I compared myself to my sister which if you compare me and her were not even on the same level of knowledge she did band in high school played trumpet my special needs high school didn’t have a band so and I didn’t play Any other instrument besides that and I have tried to get it played with click tracks everything just couldn’t get it and I end up just giving up but I do still have one in my house so yeah plus my sister says I don’t have rythum so yeah

I’ve thought about learning guitar but due to parents telling me it’s hard and for the reasons in the first Paragraph I haven’t Donne any my only experience is as a kid I would sometimes play with it and that I mean mess with knobs and move my finger across the strings going from the big end to small end

So some closing thoughts so when this comes up in my head there is 2 sides 1 side says Jake come on let’s do this you can play for church you can grow your like for music and you will be able to learn music theory and it’s something you can do in your personal time whenever the other side says Ok Jake what instrument 🤷🏻‍♂️ when are you going to pratice 🤷🏻‍♂️ see why be constantly worrying this but yet it pops up in my head all the time WHAT SHOULD I DO ABOUT THIS