Matthew Pottinger wrote: Assembling dossiers on people has always been a feature of Leninist regimes. But Beijing’s penetration of digital networks worldwide has taken this to a new level. The party compiles dossiers on millions of foreign citizens around the world, using the material it gathers to influence and intimidate, reward and blackmail, flatter and humiliate, divide and conquer. As Bill Evanina’s written testimony today made plain, Beijing has stolen sensitive data sufficient to build a dossier on every American adult—and on many of our children, too, who are fair game under Beijing’s rules of political warfare.

https://nypost.com/2021/08/09/senate-panel-warned-china-has-enough-data-for-dossiers-on-all-americans/

Specifically the Christian faith?

Ritual abuse is real, but the controlled media conceal who's really responsible. Ritual sacrifices and abuse are not Pagan/Satanic, that is a lie meant to shift blame and protect those who are really guilty.

While some evil individuals buy into the narrative pushed by the media and claim to be Pagans while doing ritual abuse, these people are abominations and do not represent true Paganism.

When I got out of college I worked in an occult bookstore in Pittsburgh because I identified at that time as Pagan. I found out that the owner was involved with the Temple of Set. The local priest of that chapter was a dojo owner and bouncer at a bar in Oakland. Long story short, I put up with fucked up shit for a few months until I ragequit after 2 bereaved parents came in asking about how their son died from compounds bought from the owner (I wouldn't sell them) and got reams of criminal harassment for the privilege including false arrest. A bit later I found out from 2 friends in the goth scene that after this priest gave them heroin and coke and they passed out, he went and violently raped their 2 year old son.

A lot later, in about 2000, I visited an occult bookstore in Shadyside, and they confessed to me in hushed tones that they were forced at a Temple of Set event to watch the ritual rape of a child. They were too afraid of the loss of credibility that the Wiccan/neopagan scene would suffer, as well as the connected power structure of the ToS involving authority figures. I suspected that the child was the then 5 year old son of the owner of the bookstore where I worked.

This shit is real, yall. The dismissal of legitimate witnesses as part of a satanic panic is the cover for the real deal. And it's concentrated in the psyop tactics of Michael Aquino, now thankfully deceased, but spread by his followers. And just to keep you abreast of the psyop, Michael Aquino's law firm represents Jim Watkins, aka "Q". The Temple of Set is some fucked. Up. Shit. And there ARE real, legit witnesses from when they were blithely infiltrating the alternative scene in the 90s.

Okay so we're a polyfragmented system and as our communication gets better the more bits and pieces come up and now we suspect we might have been pr*grammed but I can't seem to find anything on it. If anyone can help point us in the right direction we would be so so grateful

going to be honest, this sub seems pretty inactive but it's worth the shot. i'm part of a diagnosed DID system who was born into and raised in a cult. we we're ritually abused and programmed. we are now starting a community for other RA and TBMC survivors. you may find the link here:

https://discord.gg/PzfhYx7xqe

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Does anyone else deal with this? - Shouldn't trigger - scrambling and some type of issue . . . . . .

So I have had these issues off and on a lot of my life for a long while but it has been getting waaaaay worse lately the last 4-5 months especially and since I started seeing my therapist. Also just this time of year is just hard.

Basically everything gets mixed up in my head. As if all my senses are getting processed incorrectly for one and like wires get crossed everything feels scrambled up. Everything is getting mixed up, including how I hear what people say to me and also what I say to others.

Examples (silly examples but you'll get the point of what I mean):

When I go to speak sometimes words come out that are not right at all and completely make no sense, "I need to go to the grocery store." But what comes out is, "I need the blue rocketship." And to me it sometimes doesn't even register that I've spoken incorrectly as it sounds right to me but I can tell by others confused reactions it is messed up. Other times I can definitely tell I messed it up but when I go to correct myself all my corrections mess up too and I can't get the right words out. This happens multiple times a day sometimes.

The same thing happens when conversing with others, but the opposite. When someone is speaking to me I hear it incorrectly, my bf might say for example, "Can you go grab me the bar of soap?" And I return to him with a CD or a movie. Because in my head I heard CD. I very often get accused of not listening, but I listen the whole time. But what other people say sometimes also get scrambled.

Like I said those 2 were just silly examples. But it literally happens all the time with everyone and everything... especially when I'm trying to speak. All the words get jumbled up and come out like word salad at the worst or like I am unable to speak at all. And I hear what people say incorrectly all the time. But my brain literally changes words they say and I hear something else entirely in my head. This happens all the time.

It also happens with my senses other than hearing. It happens with my visual sense too.

I was driving the other day at night, and I was turning right onto a one-way street. I looked to my left and a car was coming, but I saw them in the left lane. And since I was turning right I could pull into the right lane since they were in the left. As I turned into the right lane, I all the sudden saw them coming for me in MY LANE. I was shocked because they did not switch lanes. So, things are getting flipped around with my vision and processing too. Before that happened my brain/head also felt so fuzzy and I felt a "jolt" followed by a sensation of my brain "being on fire" and I felt very dissociative also. It also felt as if my brain shifted in my head.

Also, scrambling happens in the context of when I'm having flashbacks and trying to explain them my thoughts start to go so fast and get so jumbled and scrambled inside nothing comes out of my mouth right. I also do the saying something and forgetting IMMEDIATELY what I was saying, over and over or what I was doing.

Also, I have this issue with lying. It's like I HAVE to lie. I HAVE to "not talk". It just happens where something inside triggers a "no talk" ordinance. I cannot talk or else something really bad will happen. I get that message from inside somewhere originating in an area in my head in the posterior right hemisphere. And it's weird when this happens because it's like these "commands" or "orders" "go off" inside my headspace wreaking havoc inside causing internal scrambling and the inability to think or speak most thoughts (except for the pre-recorded and "looped" ones) it also prevents me from speaking coherently due to the internal messages that cause the scrambling. Then there are like different factions inside my head that bring about LOUD thoughts and sometimes VERY fast thoughts and commands and voices.

have thought/speech scrambling, all sorts of noise and loud thoughts and FAST thoughts, but all scrambled up to make me appear as if I'm having a mental breakdown or legit mentally ill. Everything that is made to come out of my mouth sounds insane and unbelievable. I sound like a raving lunatic.

More specifically can a teacher request her disciple be removed and forgotten? I think they forgot about me. I was told to play a game and be the last loyal surviving member out of the others. I wonder if I was so good at it they just forgot I was there?

I am writing this to share my experience with two ISSTD therapists and to give others a warning.

I'm from an area with a heavy organized abuse presence. There are several ISSTD therapists in my area, and I was the client of two of them, one who is very, very prominent in the organization. They both caught on to the fact that I was an organized abuse survivor myself very quickly - one deduced it at the second appointment, and one asked me about it during my initial phone contact.

I've now discovered that both of them were reporting on me to my family. A family member would call me soon after appointments with them - not to interrogate me about what happened in therapy and try to subvert the therapists' good intentions like the literature warns about - but to berate me about things I'd just told the therapists and hypnotically suggest that I'd fail in whatever goals I was telling the therapists about. I suspect that at least one of these therapists was intentionally using triggers on me. I know that one of them is dating an organized abuse survivor.

I left both therapists because of their boundary violations, unprofessional and disrespectful conduct towards me, and their failure to help me in my Social Security case. It took a year after leaving the first one, and half a year after leaving the second one, before I started getting memories back of my family's contact with me after therapy sessions referencing the content of the therapy sessions. I'd told both therapists that I had no current contact.

I'm writing to warn anyone who is or thinks they might be an organized abuse survivor about ISSTD/DID/organized abuse therapists.

What does it take to become a member of the ISSTD? Well, it takes... having or working towards licensure in a mental health field, and a membership fee. That's all. They don't screen their members based on whether they'd betray their clients to their abusers. I'm not sure how they even could. It's against a bunch of laws and ethical codes for a therapist to do that, but organized abuse survivors of all people should understand that just because there's a law against something, that doesn't mean no one does it.

What does it take to call yourself a DID or organized abuse specialist? It takes... being a therapist, and calling yourself one. That's it.

Having a mental health credential means that you got a degree, went through an internship, and possibly passed an exam. Many vile, utterly evil people manage to get through those steps.

I am vehemently opposed to the culture in some DID communities that says that the only way you can know you are multiple is to be diagnosed by a "DID expert," however you define that; that you need to obey your therapist; that internal communication, inner world work, and memory work are only to be done under professional supervision; and any other assertion that takes authority away from multiples themselves and puts it in the hands of the likes of the therapists that betrayed me.

Enforcing deference to professional authority DOES NOT BENEFIT US. It benefits the likes of these people. At best, guidelines about only exploring your system with a therapist's supervision are there to cover therapists' butts.

Some systems do find that professionals are valuable parts of their support system. Others don't. I'm not advising that everyone go it alone all the time; other people, whether they're professionals or not, are important for the support of anyone.

But I am advising that all therapists be viewed with extreme wariness. The more they advertise themselves as experts in DID, the more wary I would be of them. I've heard a lot more systems say that they were genuinely helped by non-specialists who took the time to listen and learn than that they were helped by specialists/ISSTD members. And even the best therapist is just a consultant to help you run your life better, not someone who can tell you who you are.

If therapy seems to be actively making you worse, especially if you are an organized abuse survivor, I would take that extremely seriously. Even if they tell you it has to get worse before it gets better, or if they say you're improving but you just can't see it. No one can know what it's like to be you more than you. No one can know what it feels like to have your toe stepped on other than you.

This is a throwaway account. I will not be checking or responding to comments. If I get downvoted or deleted, so be it. I just hope that by posting this, I can help at least one person avoid having what happened to me happen to them.

RANS is carrying out research on ritual abuse survivor's perspectives on research. If you are over 18 and a survivor we would really appreciate your input. The purpose of the research is to gain survivor's views on research and to improve survivor's experiences in future research.

To take part, find out more, or look at our past research - please visit the research section of our website

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TW - mentions possible hospital abuse, RA/MC . . . . . Like my mother was a nurse at the hospital in my Hometown and sometimes she would tell me that I was sick and that I had to go to the hospital and she would take me up stairs to a pediatric unit but I was the only kid ever there aside from 1 child I remember, but we weren't allowed to speak to each other. Mom told me that I had a low grade fever which you are not admitted to the hospital for are you? And you don't stay in a hospital Room all day long 8 to 12 hours for a little low grade fever. I wasn't even sick so I don't understand. I know I was not allowed to leave the hospital Room at all because I was "sick". I basically laid in bed and watched the little mermaid on repeat from what I can remember, that's what they put on the TV.

Is The Little Mermaid commonly used in programming?

I also remember I was all alone and scared and so I kept pushing my call light for the nurse to come in to talk to me because I was lonely and I didn't understand why I was there. I remember the nurses getting frustrated with me and I asked them if I could go play and the play Room across the Hall and they told me I could not because I was too sick to leave my Room. I do remember feeling like something was very wrong. So I snuck out of my Room and walked down the Hall and there were no other children or people in the ward at all. I was all alone aside from a nurse but even then I dont remember them too much either, which is very odd. And I did sneak into the play Room and there was one other child there and I tried to speak to them but they found us and separated us and said we were not allowed to talk to 1 another. The little child also looked very scared and sickly.

Then I have these vague possible memories of being taken down into the morgue of the hospital and there's a big blank spot so I'm not sure what all happened but I know there was a bunch of flashing lights/strobe lights and possibly video cameras I think... maybe, and I'm pretty sure they stuck me into the cooler drawer in the morgue, shut me in there. I think other stuff happened too.

I know I was in a metal crib, I remember I was even smaller in this other memory. I was so scared. My family was no where. I was maybe 2-3 and all alone. It was a metal crib with metal bars and a plastic bubble on top so I couldn't escape. Idk if this was for medical purposes or not. But there was this lady with dark Brown hair who I swear was shape shifting into a different form than just human and she had on a white lab coat and was looking at me without any type of humanity in her eyes at all. And she was writing stuff down on the clipboard. I reached out to her through the bars, crying because I was scared and alone and she looked at me with no emotion in her eyes. Dead. Like my mom did ages 2-4 when she'd been holding me and rocking me and singing to me. I was really happy. Only for me to dissociate and lose time and wake up on the floor to dad hurting me and mom was watching. But no one was home. She would just stare, not even blinking, or moving, hardly even breathing. I reached to her for help too and she did nothing. She was dissociated too I'm sure. Maybe the doctor was too?

Can anyone relate?

TW mentions pr * gr * mming - Sn * w Wh * te, Sl ** pping B * auty, and Al * ce in W * derl * nd . . . . . . . Has anyone else experienced Sn * w Wh * te pr * gr * mming or Sl ** pping B * auty pr * gr * mming? And if so, how does it manifest for you all? What did they do as far as pr * gr * mming goes if you're comfortable sharing.

I wonder if it is like mine was. I'm new to this all. For me it is like when I get super triggered or hear phrases, even used to be called Sn * w Wh * te as a child... but anyway, when triggered, I get so dissociative that I sleep for sometimes whole days and I will fall asleep over and over, unable to stay awake for anything. This happens at work, at home, while driving, etc.

Also, this is the same as AiW pr * gr * mming? I get sensations as if I'm falling down a r * bbit hole. It is a falling/spinning sensation. Also the phrase, "Go/going down the r * bbit hole." Is triggering to me.

Idk, but I've been insistent since about 4-6 weeks or so that my partner calls me Bunny when I call him Daddy. It came out of no where... And I don't always want him to call me that, only sometimes does it "feel right" like it relates to me.

Could this be a Bunny Part? I also got a bunny onesie around the same time and feel like myself (sometimes) when I wear it. I wore it this morning and I kept wanting to be called Bunny. Is this the same thing?

The 2020 Online Annual Ritual Abuse, Secretive Organizations and Mind Control Conference  August 8 – 9, 2020 

Prices as low as $50 until JULY 8th.

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Speaker’s include: Dr. Laurie Matthew – OBE, Dr Sarah Nelson – Universities of Edinburgh and Dundee, Neil Brick, Kieran Watson (manager with Izzy’s Promise – Dundee, Scotland) and Dr. Randy Noblitt and Pamela Perskin Noblitt.

Presentation on Izzy’s Promise

Izzy’s Promise offers training and consultancy services; Conducts research into causes of ritual abuse and any ways of preventing or relieving the suffering caused by abuse.

https://rans.org.uk/izzys-promise/

Presentation on Ritual Abuse Network Scotland (RANS)

RANS provides information and a safe place to talk for survivors of ritual abuse. https://rans.org.uk/

Research Review Statistics – Dr. Laurie Matthew

In the UK: 1 in 6 children suffer child sexual abuse. 21% of children in local authority care are exposed to suspected or confirmed sexual exploitation every year. RA Research conclusions: Survivors still suffer the backlash of 1980-90’s and the continued discourse around belief, memory and mental illness. The only witnesses to ritual and organized abuse are the abusers and the survivors. Only the survivors will try to tell so the public can learn about it so society needs to listen to them.

Dr Laurie Matthew OBE is founder and Manager of Eighteen And Under an award winning charity providing confidential support services to young people who have been abused. She is also a founder member and advisor to Izzy’s Promise the UK’s leading charity for survivors of organised and ritual abuse and of the Ritual Abuse Network Forum (RANS). She is the author of several books about ritual abuse and the Violence Is Preventable abuse prevention programmes for children and young people. She has over 40 years experience of directly supporting abuse survivors. Her recently published research has included participatory research with adult ritual abuse survivors and participatory research with young survivors of sexual abuse who were unknown to authorities

Dr Sarah Nelson, Universities of Edinburgh and Dundee

In this presentation Sarah makes reflections on belief and disbelief in ritual abuse, and on why backlash theories such as satanic panic and false memory syndrome were so readily believed and are still potent, despite their numerous flaws. She interconnects the disbelief by outsiders including professionals, many media and public with the disbelief and doubts of survivors themselves, and think about the interplay and mutual strengthening which has long taken place. She explains how this a neglected aspect of the discourse of disbelief yet she believes it important and relevant. She discusses the example of interplay of disbelief between survivors themselves and these outsiders in dissociative identify disorder, formerly multiple personality disorder, a condition strongly linked to the experience of the profound trauma of ritual abuse in childhood. She asks whether and how far this circle can be broken in working against ritual abuse in future.

Dr Sarah Nelson (Universities of Edinburgh and Dundee) has written and presented widely for decades on sexual abuse issues. Her research and publications include the voices of young survivors, critiques of current child protection systems, community prevention, ritual and organised abuse, media representations of abuse cases, and adult survivors’ experiences of mental and physical health services. She has also been a professional adviser to the Scottish Government and Scottish Parliament. Her book Tackling Child Sexual Abuse: Radical approaches to prevention, protection and support (Policy Press, UK and University of Chicago press, USA)) was published in 2016.

Misinformation Campaigns Against Survivors – Neil Brick

Child and ritual abuse survivors and their advocates have been attacked by misinformation campaigns the last several years. These campaigns use various harassment and propaganda techniques to distort the research and silence the efforts of those who are working to help trauma survivors and rape victims. These techniques will be compared to past and present public campaigns that have distorted information and used unethical tactics to manipulate public opinion. Propaganda and suggestion techniques used will be discussed and analyzed.

Neil Brick is a survivor of ritual abuse and mind control. His work continues to educate the public about child abuse, trauma and ritual abuse crimes. His child abuse and ritual abuse newsletter S.M.A.R.T. https://ritualabuse.us has been published for over 25 years. http://neilbrick.com

Presentation on Izzy’s Promise – Kieran Watson

Kieran Watson is a manager with Izzy’s Promise – Dundee, Scotland.

Izzy’s Promise and the importance of a physical non denominational and regulated service for RA survivors.

Izzy’s Promise offers training and consultancy services; Conducts research into causes of ritual abuse and any ways of preventing or relieving the suffering caused by abuse; recruits and trains volunteers to work towards supporting survivors of ritual/organised abuse and those who support them; and networks with other agencies. https://rans.org.uk/izzys-promise/

Presentation on Ritual Abuse Network Scotland (RANS) – Clare Barrie

RANS provides information and a safe place to talk for survivors of ritual abuse. https://rans.org.uk/

Questions about Ritual Abuse Network Scotland (RANS) and Izzy’s Promise.

Extreme Abuse Survivors, Social Security Benefits, and Ethical Practice – Dr. Randy Noblitt and Pamela Perskin Noblitt

Many trauma survivors have debilitating psychological and physical symptoms that prevent them from maintaining gainful employment. For these individuals the Social Security Administration has programs that can play a critical role in providing for clients’ basic survival needs and autonomy. Unfortunately, the rules that govern this process are complex and confusing. Further, an important contributing factor in SSA denials is that survivors’ health care providers are often unfamiliar with SSA’s requirements which include documentation of symptoms and the limitations they impose along with professional opinions that correspond to Social Security’s definition of disability. This workshop is intended to provide an introduction to SSA requirements for healthcare providers.

Randy Noblitt is a clinical psychologist and professor of clinical psychology at the California School of Professional Psychology (CSPP) at Alliant International University, Los Angeles. He is the principle author of Navigating Social Security Disability Programs: A Handbook for Clinicians and Advocates (2020) as well as Cult and Ritual Abuse: Narratives, Evidence and Healing Approaches, 3rd Edition (2014). He is the co-editor and a contributor to Ritual Abuse in the Twenty-first Century: Psychological, Forensic, Social and Political Considerations (2008).

Pamela Perskin Noblitt is a non-attorney claimants representative for individuals applying for SSDI and SSI benefits. She is in independent private practice in Los Angeles County, California. She is co-author of Navigating Social Security Disability Programs: A Handbook for Clinicians and Advocates (2020) as well as Cult and Ritual Abuse: Narratives, Evidence and Healing Approaches, 3rd Edition (2014). She is the co-editor of Ritual Abuse in the Twenty-first Century: Psychological, Forensic, Social and Political Considerations (2008).

Anyone have any advice on finding reports about missing children beyond the normal missing persons websites, which to me don’t seem to be reporting everything. Or databases that give reports on children found either alive or dead?

So I've learned by now that I was definitely abused as a child and have DID. For how big and intricately detailed our system is, I would not be surprised if we were polyfragmented. Some parts have alluded to specific traumas that seem very ritualistic but I can't tell for sure. I suspect we have been through some pr*gramming as well. Is there a more definitive way to know for sure if this is what happened to us? Or do you have any advice?

Hello everyone, I am a protector/persecutor within this system. I am having a hard time with life in general due to the trauma we face and currently still are facing in our day to day life. We, from the very little memory we have of it, are victims of RA, including pr////mming within the system. Even at 21 we do not have really any friends or people to talk to except abusers due to our lack of social skills which we think is due to trauma in all honesty. Pr////mming has been hell lately when we try to leave and start a new life and just in general, and in all honesty, as the title says, I feel like we were set up to fail at life and im not sure what to do anymore.

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So my “this is the best cult everrrr!” Programming keeps coming up. I’ve been researching magick itself and I think pagans had to hide because of the Catholic and Christian church’s. They tried to wipe them out a zillion times so the magick and groups that formed and survived are....terrifying. I’m starting to heal and it’s like...everyone has wars. Almost all civilizations have had a dark past of slavery, genocide, war, conquering ppl and stealing their shit, religious wars, etc. Like....I get they’re my people and our religion was sacred etc...but like we don’t have to live in underground tunnels and eat _____? Like....it’s so extreme. Is anyone else dealing with this? Trying to fully get all alters on the same page? Like we’re not in a cult anymore....we can be sober. We can say no to sex. We can just openly practice magick. We don’t have to slaughter things and summon terrifying deities for malicious reasons. Like...can’t we just be chill?

Does anyone else get this?

i just uncovered memories of twin programming perpetuated by the freemasons done to myself and someone else. any leads as to what i can do to find information on that?

This is something I rarely ever see. I have conversed with several survivors of RA but none of us seem to know who was actually doing it.

My dad flat out said he was Illuminati. He's said some things I'm not sure are true when trying to threaten me, but I am sure a lot of it is true, because I've seen evidence of it.

One of the ways I hope to defend myself as I open up about what happened is to know who is the enemy. I don't know right now.

Do you guys know who orchestrated your abuse?

My parents abducted my friend when I was about four. I can't find any information about her online.

She saw evidence of other horrific things they had done and my parents weren't convinced she wouldnt tell, so she never went home. I know they killed her but like I said, there is no information whatsoever online so I can't do much about it.

Everywhere I go, I see things that remind me of her and what they did. Little girls with similar faces, those bright orange kids baseball bats...I wish I could save her somehow.

This is kind of a vent post, I guess. I just don't know what to do with all of it. If you guys have had similar experiences, I would love to be here as a person to talk about it with.

I really like it, but I've seen some people complain that it makes too light of cults, kidnapping, etc.

The use of humor in recovering from or explaining the messed up, disconnected worlds we grew up in feels natural to me.

If you don't want to go to mass/church, don't.

If you don't want to wear pastel colors and look for eggs, don't.

If you don't want to see a crucifix and sit in a pew wondering why you're there, don't.

It doesn't make you an evil person if you want to spend this day or this season making the most of it alone. Listen to all parts this early spring and practice self-love.

Some humor here.

There's a thrift store near me where all the female employees wear the same christian head coverings I wore to church in this cult I was in as a young child. I live somewhat near Amish communities so it's not the rarest thing to see around here.

When I first went, I was like oh fuck oh fuck. But I keep going back. I guess to teach myself that there are all different people in the world. And that not everyone is terrible.

Dear girls at the thrift store, you seem nice. Sorry I sort of use our contact as a personal experiment/therapy.

Some of my RA involved Disney movies. Snow White and Fantasia, mostly.

There was a reenactment of the scene in snow white where she's running through the scary forest. Its a blurry memory but I know I was terrified and all the day before I was treated as though I was literally Snow White. Not sure what the purpose was and I can't feel any alters/parts who believe they are a princess but maybe they're there.

Or, did anyone's RA or programming involve Disney movies?

Anyone have any stories to share? I know how personal and humiliating they can be, but anything? please? I am in the process of trying to peice my childhood together and just don't know what to do with myself really. Thanks.