I'm new to psychedelics, and primarily hoping that it can help me with ongoing depression and recovering from burnout after years of chronic stress.

I previously took SSRI's which never helped, and am now on prescription amphetamines.

I've tried mushrooms 4 times now, and never had any noticeable effects.

First time was an unknown amount, but estimate about 1 gram. Made into tea, and consumed the wet mushrooms.

Time 2 was liberty caps, probably around 2-3 grams. Again as tea and consumed wet mushrooms.

Time 3 was 1 gram of jedi mind fuck as tea.

Time 4, started with 2 grand of JMF ground up as tea, nothing after an hour so then just ate an additional 2.5g of whole dried mushrooms... So total of 4.5g and nothing. Even closed eyes in a dark room, absolutely nothing.

I've heard SSRI can block the effects, bits it's more than 2 months since I dropped taking them. I also took a few days off of the amphetamines. So the only other things I am taking are vitamins and ashwaganda and lions mane.

My wife tells me I seen in a better mood for a few days after. Less irritable and a bit happier, but personally I don't notice a difference.

Has anyone else this lack of experience. Different doses from multiple sources, so I don't think it's just the batch.

Why might I not be getting any experience and has anyone overcome this?

I wasn't going in with any particular expectations, just open minded to what might happen.

Any advice would be appreciated.

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i have literally searched everywhere for an answer to this. me and my boyfriend did mushys last night and during my speak i swear i saw our literal souls connect above him like i don’t know how to explain it other than that it was his first time having a full on trip due to being on anti-depressants but i’ve searched everywhere to see if anyone has had a similar thing happen also he felt it after wards like he shivered and he said something to me but i was so in shock i wasn’t listening and he didn’t say it but someone relate at all?

Could someone recommend a reliable website to buy psilocybin mushrooms? I intend to start taking microdoses and it is my first time. thank you!

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I can think of more instances where I’ve had amazing trips compared to horrible ones. But when I do, it is so bad, mainly because I get sick. I am anemic, so I know I can be prone to passing out, and unfortunately that’s what happens if I accidentally take the journey too far. For context, yesterday I was having a great time. I took a chocolate that was made with a little over a gram. I was giddy, energetic, and even went on a walk which I enjoyed. I listened and zoned in to music like Wardruna and other similar artists. I love meditating to that music while I’m feeling it. After a few hours, I was on the comedown. I decided to take a small shroom, a different strain that is called “penis envy” (different from the one I took initially that day). It was only one cap and stalk. Within that hour, I began to feel the climb again. That’s usually when I try to meditate, relax, and focus on breathing. But man when I tell you that climb DID NOT stop, I mean it got so intense. Usually everything looks like a painting, but instead when I opened my eyes it was like looking into a bright kaleidoscope. The climb felt so intense that my brain felt like it was on fire. I couldn’t move, because I could tell that if I tried, I’d lose consciousness; in fact I eventually did go in and out of consciousness several times, with my boyfriend giving me water in between, and I finally threw up. Couldn’t help feeling awful because I definitely worried him and ruined his trip for a moment there, but he got me into bed and I was fine after 45 minutes. I’d just like to know how I can prevent this for next time? It always happens when I don’t think I overdid it. Maybe I did? My boyfriend had twice the amount I did and didn’t have that reaction at all. In fact I can’t find a lot of people who have had this happen and understand. I’d just really like to prevent it for next time, so that I don’t have to worry others. One native guy I asked who’s pretty experienced with different plants and fungi said it is my body “purging” bad spirits and energy. Which dont get me wrong I feel so much better afterward, but it’s not a very pleasant experience; it feels like I’m on the verge of death. So enough rambling: how on earth do I keep myself from getting that sick again? Was it something I did wrong?

Had my first mushroom experience last Friday on hillbilly mushrooms and unsure what to think, made lemon tech with my brother in law, one dose of 1.5 grams and then decided to make a a 2 gram dose around 3 hours later ( we both had the exact same amounts ) although I feel like I definitely confronted some personal issues through the trip I've not really had any lasting effects apart from a bit of brain fog. But I am also on SRI's and have heard they can reduce effects.

If anyone would like to hear more about my experience I'm open to share please just ask!

I’m an avid pot smoker/vaper and have been using marijuana for over 20 years. I have a pretty high tolerance and vape at least once per day. A friend turned me onto micro dosing and I’ve always been curious so I attempted 100mg of Good Teacher. I found the sensation was like weed but not as strong. I was reluctant to try more as I’m nervous about having a crazy trip with hallucinations.

Is the sensation of a higher dose or a stronger mushroom like Blue Meanie similar at all to weed? Is it completely different?

Another newbie question. My first trip with moderate dose is a week ago. I still have this hangover feeling. Slight headache, tense stomach. Can I do something about it with particular nutrition? Workout? Thanks

Is 5 grams too much?

Edit: with outcome.

First experience was 20gr Truffle. Was a very cool kaleidoscope of colours, shapes, animals, dancing. Flashback to my childhood, deep feeling of love for my family, deep connection to my ancestors. Brought back to the births of my children.

But: I felt like absolute garbage the day after. Vomited profusely and constantly. Couldn’t eat or drink water. I was so weak the day after that I could barely walk. Didn’t leave bed for two days. Still weak. Almost negates the whole experience, sadly. Won’t try it again because of this.

Original Post: Hello friends, I will have my first psilocybin experience this week. I will go to a retreat in the Netherlands and be assisted. Any tips to prepare to make sure I get the best out of it ? Or should I just let come what may?

I plan to eat a light breakfast. I have a notebook.

I read I “should have intent” but I’m trying to figure out what that really means because I also want to be realistic.

Thanks !

Had 16 fresh grams of cubensis MacKennaii 4 hours before. Freshman question I know… thank you

disclaimer i’m fairly new to reddit so i hoping i’m doing everything right here

i’ve tried doing a lot of research but everything i seem to come across is only about the people who take massive amounts or “heroic” doses. i haven’t done any hallucinogenic before but i want to try shrooms and have been told by a friend that 2-3 grams is a good amount for my first time. just wanting to know what to expect for something casual like this rather than a big heroic dose

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I've been the trip sitter even though I myself don't have much experience. . . I guess I'm able to be more objective and remember that just as it all started, it'll end as well. Maintaining pure positivity. Acknowledging negativity while misdirecting away from it for those more prideful.

So far I've been successful trip sitting thankfully. I offered to be a lifeline for someone going on their first trip, but I'm afraid of walking in on them having a nightmare situation, and being unable to pull them back, especially while sober myself and unable to catch up. How do control the situation?

Playlists like Psilocybin Vibin (or my modified version Deira Vibin) on spotify have been my go to so far. Artists in particular: Tycho, Lane 8 etc. in that direction What We Do In The Shadows (select episodes) has been my all encompassing comedy .

Hi all, just need to share really... 2nd proper trip this weekend (l also microdose). did 1.5g PE, was a bit scared to do more tbh. Started nice with closed eye visuals and a dream state which disappeared easily enough when opened my eyes. Then saw a clown coming at me, I opened my eyes and the anxiety kicked in. I managed to control it - just - by heading outside repeatedly but just wanted the trip to finish tbh. Last time felt connected to the universe, and like time and space were elastic. This time that didn't happen and can't say enjoyed it really. It brought up a LOT of emotions and realisations about myself. journalled although hadn't expected to do that at all! just went with my instinct. The trip felt 'challenging'. I'm reading about how people enjoy their experiences, but I'm not sure want to do it again. Guess all this is normal? Any thoughts for a relative newbie please? Thank you

Imagine that we went to close the windows of a cousin's house, which is practically near a river and has a large meadow where cows are usually kept. We weren’t looking for mushrooms, but when we arrived, the idea came to us. After five minutes, my cousin walked around the property and called me over, saying he had found some mushrooms. I thought there were just a few, but then I realized the whole field was full of them. We basically picked 150 Psilocybe cubensis mushrooms. There were so many that we didn’t know whether to leave them there or pick them. In the end, I decided to collect them to dry, and we took them with us. I laid them out on newspaper, and we planned to eat a dose at eight in the evening. At that moment, it was 4 PM.

When it was time to eat them, we decided to look online to see how much a personal dose was, and we found it was between 3 and 5 grams, although we weren’t entirely sure. We got a scale, and since the mushrooms were still fresh, as they had only been drying for four hours on the newspaper, we decided that each of us would eat 50 grams of fresh mushrooms, which would roughly equal 5 grams dried—what we thought would be a good dose. We blended them with a little lemon juice and some water, almost like a lemonade. My cousin took the first dose, and then I made mine. However, my brother arrived and said he wanted to try them, so I prepared 30 grams for him in fresh mushrooms.

Everything was going fine, but after 30 minutes, I started to feel a little dizzy. Since it was my first time experiencing this sensation, I thought it would be like when you smoke weed, something totally normal. However, after those 30 minutes, I started seeing colors incredibly vividly. They were much more intense, so we decided to move to a more comfortable place. At that point, my cousin was beginning to feel the same thing, but my brother only felt a slight dizziness. We decided to go to a spot inside a farmhouse where it was dark, and we sat there for a while. At that moment, we realized we were starting to see things ripple and breathe. We felt like lying down on a bed because it was getting very cold as it was raining. So, we went to my room, which was about 20 meters from where we were. However, when we got to the room, the hallucinations were really starting. I began seeing many stars in the sky and decided to play some music. Twenty minutes later, I felt the urge to pee, and it was like having the best experience of my life while peeing. After that, I looked at myself in the mirror and noticed that my face was melting. At that point, I realized things were getting stronger, but we just laughed and looked at each other’s faces.

After about 10 minutes, we felt like walking because we couldn’t stay indoors, so we decided to walk towards the town, which is about 10 minutes away on foot. However, from the farmhouse to the town, it felt like an eternity. It was as if we walked and walked but never reached the exit of the farm. When we finally made it to the farm's exit, my cousin remembered he had to turn off the lights at his house and close the windows. At that moment, it had stopped raining as if the rain had just ceased all of a sudden. I must say, it was the best experience in the world but also terrifying because his house has cameras, and we were on a trip and couldn’t coordinate our movements to open the door with the keys. That’s when I started to feel the infamous "bad trip." My cousin couldn’t coordinate, and my brother was starting to have hallucinations. At that moment, I was aware of my actions and was only worried that my cousin's father would notice us acting strange on the cameras. All of this was running through my mind because I was thinking that I could get into trouble. But we managed to close the house and walked away towards the town. By this point, it was practically 10 PM.

At this point, all three of us felt extremely high. My cousin didn’t know what was happening around him and could only follow me. As we walked through the town, we felt like people were watching us, but there was no one around—everything was closed. However, in our minds, we saw people staring at us from the windows, so we decided to walk to a solitary road. As we walked along that road, it felt like entering a world from the movie Avatar. I was just thinking about getting to a spot I knew about 2 kilometers down the road, where we could sit and be surrounded by nature with no people around. As we walked, my cousin drifted further from reality and didn’t know who he was. He asked questions like, “Are we real?” and “Where are we?” At that point, I felt like I was leaving this dimension. My brother was still somewhat grounded and only worried that someone might see us like this, but he was also having intense hallucinations. He said he saw many shooting stars in the sky.

Eventually, we reached the spot where we wanted to sit. At this moment, my cousin didn’t know who he was. I tried talking to him and asking questions, but he responded like a robot or someone who didn’t exist. He was saying random things and kept wanting to stand up and sit back down. I played some music, and it felt like I could see the music—I don’t know how to explain it, but in my mind, the music had a shape. We all fell silent, and I tried to start a conversation, but none of us could talk properly. Then we all sat in complete silence. I told them to look at the ground, close their eyes, and we began to speak telepathically. It was as if we could see each other with our eyes closed and talk. If I asked a question in my mind, they would answer with a whisper.

At that moment, I was worried because my cousin didn’t know who he was and was saying nonsense. I felt the bad trip returning, so I thought of making myself vomit to feel better and help them vomit as well. I managed to throw up, but the effect didn’t go away. In my mind, I told myself it was just my imagination, and I looked at the sky. I saw shapes and animals flying in the sky. It looked like the sky was a grid, like we were trapped in a world of lies, something like the Matrix. I began to see giant figures in the sky, like huge people. I didn’t feel fear, but I knew it was something I couldn’t describe. It felt like I was floating in another galaxy.

My cousin and brother wanted to stand up and go look at a bridge in front of us, and that’s when I got scared. I told them to hold my hand and not get up. I was afraid they might jump into the river that was in front of us. At that moment, I called my girlfriend and told her we were tripping. She had already had a similar experience, and she told us that it would pass, that we would feel it come down, but that it might come back up again. We stayed in that spot for two hours, and at 1 AM, I felt we needed to leave the darkness and return to town. I took both of them by the hand, and my brother kept looking at the sky, saying he wanted to touch it. He said he saw a huge UFO and many shooting stars, and that the UFO was going to take the three of us.

I knew we had to leave that place to bring the trip down a little. When I took them by the hand, everything was in total darkness, and I couldn’t see anything, but at the same time, I could see everything. I saw a path, like in the movie The Matrix when Neo goes blind, a path of light. I just held their hands and walked towards that light. We kept walking for about 20 minutes until we reached the light. Then some dogs came out and started biting our legs, but it wasn’t hard at all, more like soft bites, but it still scared me a bit. We kept walking, and when we reached the entrance of the town, I felt the trip was finally coming down. I told them the trip was ending, and as I said that, they felt it too. It was as if I could control them and manipulate their minds. At that moment, everything started to feel really nice. I told them they were very smart people and that I was proud of them, that they would achieve great things.

We went back to the farm, and over the next 20 minutes, the trip started to fade. When we got back to the farm, the sky was beautiful, filled with so many stars that they couldn’t be counted even in 100 years. However, my brother said that we needed to finish the trip where it started. So, we decided to return to the dark spot where the trip had begun, and when we got there, the trip faded even more. I decided I needed to get them to bed. We went back to the house, and they were fully aware of everything now. We just laughed about what had happened and couldn’t find any explanation for what we had seen. It was crazy because when I lay down to sleep, I couldn’t fall asleep for two hours. So many things were running through my mind, and all I could think about was that we live in a simulation, in a world where everything is programmed. Every little thing is put in place to fulfill its role for the rest of its life. I put on some music to relax, and I don’t know what time I eventually fell asleep, but I do

Asked on another community but will ask here too for all the insight I can get)

Hello all, just a quick question, most times I feel it's difficult to experience any obvious effects of psilocybin, especially after eating a large meal. I understand everyone's body is different, but will 1.5g of psilocybin after dinner still have noticeable effects or will it feel like a 100-300mg microdose?

I’ve had numerous experiences where after taking a large dose after eating not even all that large of a meal, hours pass and it seems it never kicks in, or not in the way that I’m hoping for it too. I also metabolize things pretty fast which may be a factor. Personally, I like to experience visual effects, vibrancy and a change in mood where I feel more insightful, relaxed and find things easily humorous,

I just want to know what do you guys think about it and if anyone had a similar experience, using psilocybin with antidepressants. In this case, how was it? Any tips?

I have a bunch of enigma and fatty Jack strains and will be facilitating a spiritual ceremony for a small group of men. Some of these men have not experienced ceremony before and a few have never tried psilocybin.

What are your opinions about mixing these strains across two doses? I am thinking about starting them off with a few grams of fatty jacks and in a couple hours following that up with some enigma.

It will be a safe space with experienced facilitators.

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So I tried microdosing today with my hubs. We tried it in chocolate. I had one small square of chocolate that was made with golden teacher, and I felt like I had taken a few benadryl! I had trouble staying awake, kept drifting in and out of sleep. The benefits were, my mind was totally silent (I have terrible anxiety and am CONSTANTLY overthinking), and all my pain had vanished. I kept relating it to "i feel like a cat." Sprawled out inconveniently across the entire couch, warm and napping all day lol.

My question is, is the total drowsy, drugged feeling normal?

Hello good. 10 days ago I took a 10g dose of psilocybin mushrooms to treat depression that I had been suffering from since March. The depression began as a result of some horrible intrusive thoughts, which came on a loop and trapped me. I wanted to comment a little on the experience and see if any psychonaut or someone who has had experience can guide me. During the trip I saw that my whole life was an illusion, a dream that I had built myself. I accessed some traumatic childhood memory. I felt that we are all made of the same thing, of the same information (as if it were a video game or simulation and we were made of boats). I watched my life go by falling like dominoes and suddenly I died (ego death). I also saw as if no one existed, only me and all this was a projection of me. I also had a conversation where a girl (the therapist who accompanied me) told me that we were in a reality in which there was no meaning or purpose, that we were like trapped in a loop. The following days I felt a great existential emptiness, as if this life had no meaning, which is exactly what I experienced on the trip. The first days after the trip I felt a lot of derealization and strangeness from the world. Now I feel fine...I don't know whether to try a second trip to continue treating depression and OCD (intrusive thoughts) or simply learn to live with them (they are very unpleasant thoughts, although they come much less frequently). Beforehand, say that I don't want to take antidepressants because they didn't work for me and destroyed me on a physical level. Any contribution on the topic of travel and what I experienced would be good for me.

Do any of you get anxiety on mushrooms? I constantly feel the feeling of being inadequate and have this intense anxiety that I’m not “good enough” or things like this on my trips with mushrooms.

I don’t get this with anything else. Any suggestions?

I had gone a trip about a year and half ago, the trip itself was good but when it wore off I suddenly felt intense fear and anxiety about some things in life, im not in mood to do anything most times, feeling really depressed, what possibly could've happened to me?

My first trip was back in November 2023. I took 4-6 grams my first time then took more after they started wearing off. I had a friend with me who did as well.

So during the trip, I thought all of reality was the Fibonacci sequence, I thought it was the “rhythm and pattern of life” and that the answer to it was “I AM” (which is a spiritual enlightenment phrase meaning I AM all there is)

During the trip, my surroundings would speak to me, I would have a thought then the video on the TV or song would say exactly what I was thinking, and sometimes it would answer what I was thinking about. I was on social media and it was like comments were responding directly to my thoughts subconsciously. To this day, things like this still happen where I think comments are relating to me, but I understand it’s not, I understand they aren’t actually speaking to me. It’s like a coincidence, or “synchronicity” and so then I thought the Fibonacci sequence was the pattern of synchronicity. There was more to the trip but I’ll leave it out.

To this day I get reminded of the Fibonacci sequence and it pisses me off, because I know it’s just a mathematical sequence and it isn’t actually like this footprint of God that is in everything. Sometimes it also seems like things are subconsciously speaking to me.

What should I do? Should I try taking shrooms again to “reset” this and make myself normal again? Doesn’t seem like a great idea to me. I haven’t heard anyone have a similar experience, that’s why I’m sharing it here. Thanks in advance if anyone can help out.

Ok,

Next week I’m about to do my first mushroom guided(!) session. I know people do this in groups, u can do it privately.. in my case I’m doing it with a friend only ..

I know I’ll get visuals, insights etc.. I’ve done mushrooms in the past but just to experience the high effect and laugh.. Not to look inwards..

I understand it brings up traumas as well which I am looking forward to to deal with and heal.. BUT this friend doesn’t know any of my “personal secrets” and I’m worried I’ll be talking out loud about everthing? Is this what happens during the session? Do u say everything out loud or can u somewhat control it?

Maybe weird question but yeah, I’m doing this for me but I don’t want this friend to find out/know everything about me as well that day. I don’t mind that I’d be crying etc but it’s telling everything out loud that I’m afraid of I guess.. Does that makes sense?

Has anyone macro dosed on psilocybin and their period has gone away afterwords?? I was very regular before, but have struggled with pmdd and hormones for a while now. The first time I macro dosed about 4g of psilocybin and didn’t have a full trip it was mostly a body high, had some of the mental effects but not a true trip! Then few weeks later I macro dosed, brewed into a tea and def had a different experience. It was like I was reborn. I let go of so much stuff. My body experienced so much pain the days after the trip, it felt like I was physically sick and got ran over by a car. Everything hurt from the base of my skull to my lower back.

While I was coming out of the trip I went to bathroom and wiped a few times and there was blood but not a true period. It went away after a few times. That was in the middle of my cycle. Ever since, I’ve thought I was going to get my period, I’ve had mood swings, body feeling like it’s coming, all the pmdd symptoms but no period. And I’m not pregnant.

Anyone else??? I’m freaking out bc I have struggled with hormones for so long and the thought of not getting my period just freaks me out and makes me feel like I’ve messed something up! :( :( help

What is the word on products from this church? Are the sacraments legit? Recently got an order and I’m excited to try them this weekend. Just wanted to know what the word in this group was. Thanks for any kind responses!

Does anyone feel sad next day after trip ?

I had two grams of white teacher and had a great time. Mind you I also had wine at the end of the night. Today I feel super sad…. Has anyone had an experience like this ? I took a MD 500 mg today of Penis Envy in hopes it would help. The other thing is I also drank wine after? Could that mess me up ?