I will move till I break free......

I'm at 100+ days and have seemed to regress. I started boxing again, sparring again and had all the benefits. However these past few days I felt horrible. I have anxiety again, I'm tentative to spar and am extremely horny. I feel like I should relapse but don't want to give up all the past days progress. My mindset was amazing a few days ago but now I seem to have self doubt in regards to boxing and seem to have lost my growth mindset and self belief.

Please help guys.

I'm 21 years old and I've never been in a relationship or kissed, I've never had such feelings before quitting porn

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I am 6 months into recovery. It's been a long and drawn out process over multiple years. And today for the first time in while I got hit with some insanely strong urges.

It could have been a relapse. But I've learned and grown. Finding ways to distract yourself, distancing yourself from your phone, refocusing. It all helps.

I'm trying not to be condescending. I'm not trying to act like I am better than anyone. I failed and relapsed for years. But it is always possible to beat.

Hope girls are welcome here :P

I know theres alot of advice on this but I feel mine is hyper specific. For the record I have adhd, and I'm also hypersexual so I don't even really masturbate only when I'm aroused. I feel a pulse and my brain is just like "its go time" so i start doing it. Matter of fact I think I'm on the asexual spectrum but that's not the point..

Ive failed nofap so many times cause of this and its very exhausting, and at the end I feel so ashamed. What do you do late at night when its time to go to bed and you're only with yourself and your thoughts?? i'm a minor so I don't have the luxury to get up and just take a walk or cook or something at 12 am LOL. I'm sick of being controlled by my body instead of the other way around :/

(Specifically quiet things since the only other people in my house is my tired mom and my two year old sister lmao)

I’ll be back in 1 year and update if I made it.

Yep, I have lost the war. I lost to the same mistake, bringing my phone to the bathroom once again. Started watching soft porn and edging two days in a row, the second day was the final of my act. Soo why did I started again bringing my phone to the bathroom even if I said that i wouldnt and would use alternatives? Well my Switch is now basically useless, I have finished the one and only game on it (PAC-MAN WORLD re-PAC, would reccomend, fun game) and because of that I brought my phone, got triggered and the restvi history. On the 20th day I have fallen. The funny thing is I dont feel guilt, psychological pain, regret or even this feeling of beaing a loser. Why? I think the streak is the reason, the way I approached, the way I imagined it to my self like a war, when I think about it, its been a long time since I had long streak like this(for me).

I feel proud, its been a heck of a long time since I made a streak over 10 days. The best thing is that I can learn from this (even when I had to learn this many times ago) and overcome what I have to. Soo, now Im going to use a rubber band, gonna wear it everytime with me so that I can hit myself with it when I have urges, ultimately not needing to bring my phone anymore. Also gonna leave a watch in my bathroom so another reason for not bringing my phone.

What does all of this mean???

Hell, Im starting the war again.

PS: I dont want to post anymore how many days I have conquered, because I just dont want to care anymore about all of this, I think that would be a better approach in getting rid of this addiction. But I will redeem myself by posting everyday until beating my streak, so I didnt post on the 19th day, on 20th relapsed, 21. Maybe post when Im feeling urges and thats it.

Not much to say, but it was a huge boredom because it was the winter break, tomorrow is the first day of school of the second term, and now I'll either start to make the reports by day reports or monthly report, I'll think about it.

Day report: xx/xx/xx or xxxx report

Monthly report: xth month report

It’s day 8. The benifits that I’ve seen so far completely outweigh the joy I get from faping. I’ve grown .25 inches in my penis since I started. But to measure I had to get hard so I looked at boobs and then measured. I didn’t even beat my meat I just looked at boobs to get bricked but after I measured I noticed the tiniest bit of jizz on my tip. This doesn’t count as fapping does it?

Are there any hard rules about nofap ?

So basically the problem is my mind not my phone I don't watch porn I don't need anything Masterbation just my mind and I don't have a job I don't have anything to focus on the only habit I have is somkeing and yeah I somk since I was 14 and now I'm 19 and I can't stop anything bad in my life I really need help and i can't go to therapy.

I have been watching porn/hentai since almost 10 years now. I always used PMO as a stress reliever since I had a really crappy teenhood (bullying and family problems) and never saw a problem with it cuz, well, I was a teenage boy.

Fast forward to October, 2024, I realized I had a problem when I started feeling panic of giving someone my phone in fear that they somehow found any porn in any app I had (be it a web browser, a manga reader, nsfw instagram accs, etc), so I knew I had to do something.

For the remainder of October I tried to reduce PMO no to go all cold turkey all of a sudden until november, using NNN as motivation. I deleted or restricted everything I could that could make me relapse and I got up to day 11 until relapsing. I got a lot of big urges but what kills me is the rationalizing my brain does. I know it´s my brain just playing one on me to get its fix but it worked. For the rest of the year i kept PMO but reducing frequency (instead of doing it everyday, I was down to twice or thrice a week).

The thing is, throughout January I realized I forgot about my resolve to end my addiction and was falling again into my bad habits, so I resolved myself to get through February without PMO, and with that motivation start changing my body too.

The thing is is day 2 and I´m already starting to rationalize it ("PMO is normal", "everybody does it", "as long as I don´t abuse of it I can keep doing it"). I mainly wrote this to vent myself and reaffirm my convictons so, sorry for the rant.

If anyone has any tips for me I would very much appreciate it.

Im really starting to worry and it's making me upset thinking about the negative things about masturbation. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE MOTIVATE ME AS MUCH AS YOU CAN

I've hit 55 days, my longest time on no pmo. Very proud of it but I've been feeling quite horny. I struggle with some serious mental health issues and the frustration of not having mental peace makes me want to jerk off to get the edge off.

Relapsed after 8 days.i was edging a little bit suddenly when i stoped and closed the phone to sleep i **** i think it counts as relapse.i feel ashamed as hell imagining god watching me do this,it will literally make me cry,it’s my highest streak i was fapping once every day but i leveled to once a week i thought it’s my winning this time but as always i lose 😢

At first I’m noticing a plateu, which is weird as when I’ve done no fap before I don’t feel the plateu till a lot longer in

Feeling a little bit more focused 😌

Once I hit day 7 I "WILL" sign up for a 10k run! I want you all to hold me accountable to it!

I’m 30 y/o, male, gay & already in recovery from drugs & alcohol. (Thirty days sober today - yay!) I haven’t looked at porn this whole time. My drug of choice was meth… and with meth came sex. I was having sex with people in exchange for drugs and money - to survive. I come from a good middle class family, I just happened to get the addiction gene. I’ve been in and out of sobriety for years. This time I’m willing to do everything different. I’m avoiding relationships for a while, and with that … no porn.

For me, porn was my first addiction, before any drug or alcohol. I was shown porn from my friends when I was 10, I hadn’t even hit puberty yet… I didn’t know what I was looking at. That confusion along with knowing I was gay and different from the other boys..and being raised in the Bible Belt - I hid my sexuality from everyone until I turned 18. I’ve had periods of sobriety here and there, but porn & validation from men whether sexual or just online (I’m codependent as f**k as well) came in front of my AA program, & I’ve gotten high or drunk again and again.

Today I was at an LGBT AA meeting which used to be my home group. But it was primarily gay men. I saw a porn star there who I may or may not have gotten high with at one point, and it triggered me to want to get high. Instead of being impulsive I prayed to my Higher Power, talked to someone about it, helped another person in recovery… & now instead of giving into porn I’m on Reddit trying to be vulnerable and take action this time in my recovery. I’m tired of relapsing. And I’m powerless over not just drugs and alcohol, but porn as well.

I hope this post helps someone. And I hope to hear back with some tips or advice of how to fight the impulse to give in, I know porn addiction is different than drug or alcohol addiction a little bit but i have a feeling im not the only 12 step program member on this subreddit.

Looking forward to checking this community out on here.

Blessings :)

Having intense withdrawals right now

Touched myself for like 2 min no porn but that’s it does that count as a relapse

Come on lil bro 🤣💀

I've got the house to myself tonight and man the urges are urging. Going to stay strong. Not going to give up. Almost at 2 weeks!!!

Hope everybody is doing ok this weekend. Have a great week. Let's goooooooo

Right now is hard. It's almost 11pm and I can't fall asleep. All the time I'm thinking about watching porn and fapping like I usually would do. Just wanted to share this with you.

Hope I can sleep now.

Good night

Today was pretty easy. Was bussy the whole day and hadn't a chance to think about porn.

I have been there for several years