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Is anyone kind of just, being a normal person, not achieving much, and.... Isn't it good enough?

Like I don't see a problem not earning 5 figures by the time I'm 30. But I get a lot of pressure or some adults will say that I will definitely regret if I don't find ways to earn more money now, next time I got no money I need to borrow from my friends etc. I don't earn a lot but I can survive now, I can't afford the lifestyle some of my friends have of course. I put a lot of effort trying to make myself calm and happy and... Isn't that good enough? At least I have a job.

And sometimes people will tell me that oh you'll regret it when you're older. Well because I kinda am depressed so I was like will then I'll just die if no one is there to take care of me ==.

My point is..... Life can be easy, but...... I feel like I get looked down upon for not having a shiny career or getting paid less than 5k. It's not that I don't want a good job, it's just that it's so competitive nowadays, not everyone can be on top, someone has to be in the middle.

I have been experiencing burnout from my work. It has been busy everyday and I don’t even have time for myself. I was thinking of switching industry but my work is just so busy that I barely have time to search for a new job during the weekdays and during the weekend, sometimes I still need to do some work and when im not working I don’t even feel like moving. I’m also worried that if I were to switch industry I would need to take a huge pay cut as I have a lot of commitments.

I have had several breakdowns and sometimes at night I will just cry myself to sleep. I think I should seek some help but should I seek for a counsellor or a psychologist? Also where should I go? I stay in klang valley and I prefer private clinics or hospitals.

It's about my past treatment.

Is it normal to be prescribed Risperidone on first session with psychiatrist? Like it's the very first time I seek treatment, and being assessed and already given Risperidone prescription. I didn't go to KK, just straight to gov psychiatry.

I had social anxiety, and I did cried in the session because I had to talk about my problems that I had been keeping to myself and finally seeking help. I also mentioned that my mother has schizophrenia. I don't have hallucinations.

hello,

I’ve been to therapy before but i stopped going a for two years now mainly i don’t think the therapist really understood my adhd.

I’m wondering if there are any therapists that are specialised in this?

I appreciate any tips!

I am not sure whether I am a candidate to be going to a psychiatrist. Cause I have no clue what is wrong with me but I know there is something not right.

Some part of me thinks that I have a legitimate mental illness, i.e. depression, which plays a role to the thought of there is something wrong with me. But I absolutely have no clue to gauge and idk where to go from here.

I don’t want to go to my current therapist again. Not because she’s not good, she’s okay but I don’t think she is asking the right questions with me and it’s super expensive.

So I want to know people’s experiences in going to a psychiatrist when you have no clue what to do, would the psychiatrist even treat me, what is even the difference between a therapist and a psychiatrist.

Please help, I need guidance on this. Thank you

Update: I’m leaning towards booking a session with humankind and/ telos. Anyone can share their experiences? Are they good?

Anyone here suffering from PMDD and has been or knows where to get diagnosed? I'm scared to go around and check cause I'm scared of rejection 😫

Hey MDD folks,

Has anyone tried ECT to treat TRD (treatment-resistant depression)/MDD and if so, what was your experience like? Did you get better? In terms of memory loss, how bad is it? Did it affect your long-term memory only or short-term memory also?

I'm asking because I've been avoiding ECT for as long as I've known about it. I don't know when my depression (one of the many comorbidities I have but the first to rear its head in my teens) became treatment resistant, but I would like to continue avoiding it if at all possible. I've tried a LOT of things in my healing journey and have endured so much physical and mental pain at this point that I'm truly amazed at the resilience of the human body (and soul). Doesn't make my suffering any less painful but still, just a sidenote (and also a reminder to self) that we are all doing the best we can with the resources available in this country. I could go on a rant about the government, insurance companies and medical gaslighting but I don't want to waste the little energy I have on things I can't change.

Anyway yeah do comment if you've done ECT or had friends/family/colleagues etc who have. Major kudos to you in advance for your bravery.

Hi everyone,

I just started (or rather restarted) Ritalin about a week ago, on the lowest dose 10mg which I cut in half (even 5mg is a lot for me, gives me heart palpitations and can make me manic-I have not been officially diagnosed but a psychiatrist at Pantai once said she thought I might have Bipolar 2, which checks out. Unfortunately I am VERY allergic to Quetiapine and Seroquel.)

I have yet to try Medikinet (also 10mg) as I'm not doing well and my sleep schedule is completely effed (and I've also had had chronic insomnia for roughly 20 years) so yeah...being careful about my dosage.

Sunway does not have Concerta, but I read somewhere that it's available in Bangsar? If that's still the case, can someone recommend the clinics/hospitals that prescribe Concerta? I definitely need to be medicated but I also have other comorbidities like MDD (and possible Bipolar 2, and GAD, and CPTSD...lol).

Help much appreciated. 🙏🏻

Does anyone have experiences or know anyone or anything about the Wave Clinic?

Above was a google review but I don't know how to contact this person.

It bothers me that this is one of the only bad reviews and even then they don't dare to reveal anything.

Sorry repost forgot to remove personal info.

Is there any way to get concerta during the weekends, since Johor is changing from Friday to Saturday to from Saturday to Sunday. Will not be available during the weekdays. Any recommendations?

hi. 27F. need opinion. i finally went to see a doctor/psychiatrist at a local semi-gov institution for my problems, today. and i’ve been wondering if not having an insurance will bring me financial issues in this matter. i can still afford around 200-ish a month for this but it dawned on me that maybe my impression is too light after all?

First of all, thank you to everyone who commented in my last post. I read all comments and I'm sincerely grateful for the responses. You guys gave me some hope and help me gather the courage to finally request for leave so I can seek help

I just visited PPUM psychiatry clinic, expecting to be put on a waiting list, because that was what they said. But to my surprise, they got me in almost immediately after looking at my referral letter. I got diagnosed with major depressive disorder and prescribed meds. There are other issues we didn't manage to cover, which I will bring up in my next scheduled appointment.

Psychiatrist asked me why I stopped counselling, I told them it's because I can't afford private services as a student/intern and my free uni counselling only operates during working hours. She wrote me a note kindly asking for my supervisor to excuse me if I have to take leave for therapy.

This is a dilemma I have been struggling with for a month - I need weekly or biweekly therapy, but the only therapy I can afford only operates during working hours. It's the same issue again.

How should I approach this with my supervisor? I don't feel good asking for one leave let alone a weekly/biweekly leave especially since I'm just an intern and I'm worried I will fail my internship. I'm only doing this for health reasons and I wish I didn't have to. Should I just be completely transparent with my supervisor and ask if there is any way we can come to an arrangement that will allow me to work AND attend therapy / psychiatry appointments?

ive been having sleep problems for months now, ever since i got out of a very unhealthy relationship. it's been months now, so im not sure if it's still that relationship that's affecting my sleep ive been falling asleep at like 3-4am because the thoughts in my head are so loud and it's so difficult to control them and i couldnt get any sleep today ive just been thinking about my mental situation, im just not sure what to do im 23 this year now, and feeling pretty aimless and confused about my future while feeling trapped living with my parents, dont have a job, cant find a purpose i feel so lonely, it's so hard to feel like im close to a friend, and it's really difficult for me to maintain friendships so i feel like i dont have anyone close that i can ask for help ive been kinda noticing some of my behaviours lately, like my attention span is pretty much non existent at this point, i can get really forgetful, and focusing on something can be difficult unless it's really engaging. i have been going counselling until recently, because i need to save up money to travel really soon counselling kinda works, but i also need to be consistent which is kinda bad when i dont have a stable income i just dont know if im really in need of getting an actual diagnosis, where do i draw the line? sorry if this doesnt make sense i literally didnt get any sleep also is there anything that can help with my sleeping problems? seems like melatonin isnt as widely available as i thought

does anyone know where to get a diagnosis and treatment or assistance when you suspect you have BPD (borderline personality disorder) and have been suffering since young. i just turned 18, ive went to many psychiatrists and one diagnosed me with autism when i was 12, and i think i was too young to be diagnosed with a personality disorder before 18. i just turned 18 this year and genuinely think what im going through isn’t just an edgy teenager phase and might actually continue to impact further on in life.

i dont know if government hospitals are reliable but i hope they are because im still studying and i dont think ill be able to afford a psych on my own. i can go to my family’s friend but she didnt really help me much when it came to diagnosis but instead pumped me with a bunch of different pills.

pls any suggestions for a safe, secure, reliable psych in the klang valley area?

im 18, ive had a very rough past, not severely bad but enough that includes neglect and abuse. i have problems forming close connections witj friends and have the tendency to push people away. i was diagnosed with autism when i was 12. and now i suspect i have bpd because ive been suffering so much, i seriously am heavily depressed i can’t seem to cope with it all the time without my boyfriend. iguess hes my favorite person. no man has treated me as well as him. every time im away from him or we didn’t spend the whole day together, i feel like dying. i dont look forward to anything besides seeing him and its a problem, i dont have any energy, wherever i go i want to be going with him if not i see no point. i dont know how to deal being like tjis. most of my previous favorite persons were all mostly shitty to me but this one isn’t at all. hes trying his best. idk what to do. i try to find distractions but i keep ending up isolating myself or find myself too depressed to want to do anything else. i was different nefore this. i was fine for a while now since my last fp who made me miserable in 2023. i can never be happy in a relationship. i don’t know what to do with my life, im so ambitious and motivated when im single but when i start being in a relationship or have a fav person, i become insanely dependent and depressed, i dontk mow what to do. irs been like this since i was young, malaysian psychiatrists suck so much and barely any of them helped me feel better, even the one in private clinics. how do i cope with this

I feel like it's not safe for me to drive, especially after I started taking medication, period.

A lot of times I feel sick or have a headache just sitting in the car itself. There are times where the journey is fine but everyone in the car doesn't feel that my driving is okay. I've also been through a few accidents that traumatizes me.

Unfortunately my parents don't understand my concerns, I tried to better the situation myself by taking other modes of transportation or plan to move out but none of that works. Heck I don't even have the remote or keys to enter my house, it's been years and no proper reason to why they couldn't give me at least the remote to the gates.

I know it is necessary to drivr but I can't bring myself to the thought that I might have impulsive thoughts or blank out while driving. I can't even trust myself behind the wheels... I plan to kove somewhere convenient for public transport but it's not doable in the short term. Any advice for the me in the future?

Im about to start work next week for a new admin position and just wondering if anyone else working in the same field could offer some tips or advice to deal with focusing and distractions.

Hope

Hello iam 21 years m,my father n my mom were married in thailand n didnt register their marriage there n i also born there,i automatically didnt get the malaysia nationality,even im doing good in spm many years before i could do ntg since im not malaysian, currently now iam pati here due to overstay,my life past school era was ruined,i cant do college n being forced by my parents to work as hard worker,my dream was shattered to the pieces,my hardwork during school era was wasted,every night i think hoping there was a path so i can escape this n be like all my friends but there was dead end,i cant see my future,hoping ppl here give me some opi on what to do,dont ask me to apply for pr or kerakyatan cause it will never work,i dont know what to do anymore,smtime i think maybe if i commit suicide it will be f better than my life,please give me suggestions what to do

Hi. I'm going to rant again. Sorry if this isn't the right place. I'm not feeling okay. I feel so alone and no one would help me to get out of this dark place. I'm seriously thinking about leaving everything behind and die. The only reason that's stopping me from doing it is my family but my toxic mother only makes things worse. I didn't have good experiences in seeking help, I'm unable to trust anyone after all those trauma. It's probably cuz I'm just 16, my feelings are always invalidated by those around me. I feel like my brain could hardly function like a normal person, everything triggers me yet I need to act like nothing happened. People keep reminding me my parents are having a hard time and I should stop playing the victim. I'm not planning in getting any help, mental illness is deeply stigmatized in this country, there's higher risk on getting called an edgy teenager than getting actual help. Dying sems to be the only option to get out of this endless pain.

I’m currently going to HPUUPM (govt.hospital) to get treated for my ADHD.

I’ve been asking if I could get tested for autism, but I doubt they are going to give me the time for that as they probably wanna prioritise other patients with more serious mental illnesses like depression.

Does anyone know an affordable place I can get tested?

Everytime my mom ask me for help regarding techie stuff i'd always end up being mad or doing it halfheartedly. Now i feel like shit for treating her like that.

She always used to ask me to guide her through shopee payment, bank login, or any other stuff regarding tech but i always somehow end up getting annoyed while helping her and berate her eventhough i know she's scared that something might go wrong or she missclick something.Now she only ask my sister to do anything and only go to me when she's desperate.

Even my sister is fed up because my mom only ask for her help even when i'm always around. I know my mom is scared of me being mad at her and that made me feel useless and pathetic. Idk how i can stop being so hot headed and a piece of shit so i can help her more.

Hi! I’m working in SG but get my Concerta from a doctor in JB, he currently charges RM570 per box of 30. It seems a bit steep but was wondering if anyone else know what the going rate is like and if this pricing is normal?

Thanks!!

Ever since I was born, it feels like I am a mistake. I can't never do things right. I am already a burden to my parents and siblings at a young age. At one point, I searched on Google why am I useless to seek for comfort. I kicked my mom because I don't want to go to kindergarten. I broke my siblings's belongings because I am clueless and aggresive. I cry and moan non stop.

In primary school, all I do is make my friends' lives hard. When I was appointed as class rep, I thought I have power and I make everyone listened to me and make sure they didn't move an inch. They cannot have fun, they cannot move around without my permission. I was a dictator.

In secondary school, I shouted at my friend just because he didn't return someone's ball. I shouted at my friend because he vaped and blow the smoke in front of my face. I hurt my friend's feelings by not being considerate of them. I didn't do a lot of my homework and since my mom is also a teacher at the school, she is the one that had to face the consequences by other teachers. At the end of highschool, someone who I thought was my bestest friend and the closest friend I ever had, talked shit about me to everyone at the school.

In terms of relationships, I already got off to a bad start. In just 3 months, she already said to me that she liked my friend. But I stayed only for me to break up because I can't handle the pain. I got into another relationship in just one month after the break up. And everyone in the school put shit on her because they thought she stole me from my ex. I did nothing to fix that.

Now throughout this relationship, all I do is make mistakes constantly everyday. I left her alone. I didn't stand up for her. I make her jealous. I make her feel guilty for everything that I do. I preach about how I am good but turns out I have been horrible from the start. I preach about how I have changed but I keep on making mistakes again and again.

I am a horrible person. I am toxic. I am shit. I am tired of ruining everything. I want to die. I don't want to live anymore.

I'm pretty sure I have anxiety, c-ptsd and depression. I want to go to UMMC to get a professional diagnosis and anti-depressants, as well as counselling if they offer it. It's been hard trying to cope. I have two referral letters. The problem is, I'm working full time right now, and the psychiatric clinic is only open during working hours. I don't have any leave to take because I'm just an intern. I can only take medical leave, and that requires MC, which I assume I won't be able to get if I'm going there just to make appointment (the last time I went there, they said they can't do walk ins). I've been feeling very down for weeks because help is very inaccessible to me.

I got diagnosed with ADHD at sunway about 4 months ago. She prescribed me Medikinet 20mg, but honestly, I don't really feel any different. At the time, she said that it was the only adhd med available in malaysia (?), but im not sure if that was referring to Medikinet specifically, or methylphenidate in general. Looking at what other people are saying though, it seems like ritalin and concerta are available in Malaysia? Is it worth trying to ask her if i can switch to other meds? Medikinet 20mg is currently about RM10/ pill, too.

i quit my job due to severe depression last march i truly cant function properly, feeling weak and keep taking mc as i cant even get up from my bed "before i got fired, better i quit" that's what i thought at that time

now im out of the matrix and working in fnb field, losing hope of getting back to my old career, i keep questioning my capabilities, almost 30 and i don't have specialised skills...

every online course that I took were only halfway, idk what i actually need to do ? in every interview I keep on lying that i was retrench..

which was true, but that was my second last job not the latest...well I dont even put the latest one in resume cause i only lasted 1 month plus

maybe i dont get the job cause i keep on lying but what should i do?

they said now everyone have depression but they can survive, why not you?

I wanted to meet HUKM's psychiatrist alone due to my mental health worsening and poor family support. I got referral letter that i hid from my family a week ago, i wanted to take a leave where i have to apply 2 weeks early, but got too busy and its hard to find a time to go without my family knowing.

The best time for me to go is in another 3 weeks, but im scared if the referral letter validation will expired. I've asked Dr and one said its 1 week and another one said 1 month. I tried to call and they said 3 months but im not sure if i heard it correctly because of the environment at the time. (I wanted to call again but I can't find time during working hours)

Hi all,

I have a Vyvanse prescription and want to be able to bring my medication with me while I travel to Malaysia (under 3 weeks).

Do I need a special note? Or to declare it a specific way? Thank you!

Hi all, I being the blurcase that I am, forgot to take an mc when I went for checkup. Is any tinyyy chance that I might get the mc if I go back and ask?