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Remember when I wrote to you prior and use to quote song lyrics at the start and/or end...today, just a title for my title

You are a blessing. In every way one could be, and I'm honored, privileged, and breathless just having been bestowed the blessing that is you. What's more-you love me. Every bit as purely, wholly, sincerely, genuinely, honestly, and whimsically as I do you. Our future is coming, and it's you and me. It's always been. It always will be.

You're my first. Not just my first love. You'll be the first hand I've ever held. The first kiss I've ever shared. The first cuddle I've ever embraced, and given. The first love made. The first skin caressed. The first hair I run my hand through. I long for...ache for...hunger for you...

All of you, and all the time. In this life, and any and every other that follows. We traded hearts... we're not together now, but we keep each other's hearts safe, guarded, treasured, and they're a lighthouse...respectively shining and guiding us back to each other. Those lights are eternal. You're where home is, and I can't wait until we build our own.

You're my best friend, my first and true, and only love. Were the keepers of each other's hearts, and so much more. I can't wait until the day we reunited, and I propose to you. I hope you're well, and remember...you're on my mind, and in my heart, each second of every day. Always. I close my eyes and I still hear your voice, see your smile, and it ALMOST feels like you're here...

Almost...I love you exponentially more with each passing moment, each breath, and I live only for you, only to love you, and only to love your love. I look forward to our future, together, husband and husband, and so much more.

I love you 💙💚🧡

Alex

I moved schools in 2015 and that's where I met him. I didn't really pay that much attention to him because I didn't like him like that back then. 2017 was the year that all students had to move on to the next year group (therefore move schools). We didn't go to the same school so we lost contact. Again, I didn't see him as anything more than a friend. After 2017 I'd only seen him once and there was STILL NO ATTRACTION.

But, last year I saw him picking up his brother from school and he looked the exact same but a bit more mature. It was just something about him on that day that I can't get out of my head. After that I saw him one more time. He was walking up the road and I was walking towards him and he waved at me, said hi and smiled. I obviously said hi and smiled back but I was so happy on the inside (I sound so delusional right now but hear me out).

From 2017-2023 I was at a girl school so maybe this might be a reason as to why this is happening?? Also he walks down the same road at a particular time. I used to be able to see him but now that my school finishes 15 mins later I CANT a maybe it's the fact that I haven't seen him in so long that makes me want him even more??

In all honesty I don’t know him that well. I know of him. Maybe I’m yearning for what we (me and him) could be (a power couple🧘🏽‍♀️)

Tbh i just want people to see this and say what they think about it, cause idk.

(My bad if parts of this rant don't make sense😽)

So in my previous relationship in was with someone who had been a victim of SA because of manipulation, and we both knew i was the more conscious of social non-verbal communication and innuendo of other people. Many Times i have been subjected to the case where i knew someone was trying to hit on her, and she was maintaining that i was paranoid and other things like that but i am not, i recognize game. Others times i refused her to go to a party i couldnt attend because i knew the type of people there and i was even less confortable knowing about the recent case of SA by injection of products. Was that toxic ?

So me (23F) amd my boyfriend (21M) are long distance ... we've been friends for 6 years and started dating in August 2022... we'd hung out out in person a couple of times by the time spring came around and he'd come to visit and stay with me for a couple of days...it was our first time ever having like unsupervised time together. We were each other's first kiss only a few months prior and we were both virgins at the time (no this is not about to turn into a sex story but its important for context). So basically we were snuggling and doing our silly little things (not going into detail bc it's irrelevant). But basically we were doing some sexy things and all of a sudden my alarm goes off because it was time for me to take my medication. I have bipolar disorder and he knows how important taking my meds is for me to stay stable so like mid kiss my alarm starts BLARING and i laughed because of the timing and he was like "you want me to get your meds for you?" and i was like "nah I'll take them later" and he just silently got up and i was like "what're you doing" and he was like "setting a timer so you don't forget :)". i IMMEDIATELY burst into tears like and i said "you're setting a timer for me? 🥺" and he was like "yeah your meds are important so you can take them in a little bit :) wouldn't want you to forget" and THAT was the first time i felt truly loved and cared for. My boyfriend is so nice to me he is always so nice to me and when i think of all the small nice things he does for me it makes me so warm. I'm truly so lucky to have a guy like him :')

Me and my girlfriend kissed yesterday. Was it too soon? I’m currently 14 years old. We’ve known each other for 5 years now and our relationship is almost a year old. Too soon?

(This is REAL love btw. Not just to act cool in school or anything like that)

I know him for a year now

Is it normal to feel like a rollercoaster. I feel like there is a pattern in how i feel about my boyfriend. And it seems like the cycle is constantly repeating

One time i feel very happy with him, and then slowly over the course of a couple of days, the happines fades, and then I want to be alone while not feeling that I cannot live without him. Then when I have been a few days alone, the happines slowly is comming back.

Months of texting, just for her to say she has a boyfriend. Then she came back a few times saying i was the only one who cared. Asked to talk then ghosted me for over a month. When i asked why would you send personal pictures to me and talk to me if your just gonna leave. Then here comes the new boyfriend threatening me for texting her i miss her. I just want her back, the way things used to be. We would message for hours on end and be laughing the whole time. I want the moments back where we did cute waves in person, the way she smiled. Its all fucked and i want it back, i want her back so bad. 🥹

I (35f) just wanted to share my “oh! So, THIS is what love is!” moment I was so lucky to have back in 2020. It was with my bf (41m).

We had been dating for a few months before we started our relationship in February 2020 and I bought tickets to see The Eagles in AZ that summer. It got rescheduled due to the Covid lockdown. I got the email and was like “oh, it’s on his birthday! Cool!” He bought the flight tickets (we live in TX). He babysat me on the plane like a champ (I’m terrified of heights and petrified of flying). He met my folks when we landed. Everything was great!

Then a few hours before the concert, I pull up the concert tickets to screenshot the bar codes. And then I see the date on the tickets 👀🤦🏽‍♀️ it’s the following year. I immediately tell him, profusely apologize and sulk because those plane tickets and time off of work costed him a lot. His response? He just starts laughing and says “This is hilarious! Let’s find a dive bar with a kitchen!” and gives me such a sweet kiss.

That’s the first time anyone in my life had shown me unhesitating grace when I royally screwed up. It’s my second favorite memory, so far, of us. 💗

So recently, a month or 2 back I met someone and it has changed my life. When we met for the first time it was not very fascinating so I kept ignoring this person but everyone has a soft corner, so I was like let's get it a second go and then it was just magic. I haven't came back after this. We kept on meeting like once every week. and now I crave for her every single day I don't want it to be once a week but once every second. I can't get over it.. even thou it has been a lot of time. I still keep on waiting for her msgs. Looking for excuses to talk to her. I see her when I close my eyes and I want open my eyes seeing her. I am too afraid to lose her and I am also afraid that what if I am loving her more and that might make her feel like I am a creep so trying very hard to maintain a distance as well. I know for sure she loves me back too and we are soulmates but she is also a busy woman has a lot of things to do every day so not entirely sure.

Are there any things I should consider to make our relationship better? some questions that I should ask? or just some acts of love that might be appreciated by her?

In romantic relationships specifically, is it just something that our minds subconsciously do? Is it natural to build that idea of someone, usually in the early stages of a relationship when you don't quite know them well?

After some time I know a lot of people who "loved the idea of someone" can end up disappointed from the reality of who their partner really is.

But is it also possible, that after removing that "idea", to fall in love with the person?

We have been together 3 years and always talk to each other like babies and say random stuff that makes sense to us but I guess is super weird haha

Just a quick experience from my site. My gf and I found each other a while ago, we both didn’t look for someone, as she was still in a „basically dead“ relationship. I personally have to fight with a fairly big level of depression and self hate, and somehow managed to shut up most feelings (good and bad) for a fairly long time of my life for several reasons. Wasn’t really able to be completely happy or to feel sad, just a permanent level of stress. But now that I found the best person I ever met, my feelings are slowly coming back, which is insanely nice, but can also hurt a lot. As we are forced to docking distance for at least a few more years, those feeling are obviously the hardest ones, but we can deal with it as it’s worth it. But one thing I realized is, how miserable my life is currently, looking at my apartment, job and to some degree my social life. I didn’t really notice it before, so technically my girlfriend managed to motivate me to change things up. But every fallback hurts me like crazy, which is new to me. But at the end, I’m happy to feel those feelings, even the really bad ones, as it is far better then the time I had before, and I always have something (someone) to be happy for in the future. Things area heading the right way, but it’s still a long way to go, but going them with my partner, even in distance is worth it. There are many things I want to say about my gf, but it would create an even bigger mess of text then this one, so I will save that for later.

Love can bring you bad feelings, but they are worth it

This guy and I may be codependent and I dont know how to stop it. He often asked me how i am every 3 days for straight three months and wants to help me and support me emotionally. He was really very caring and acted like my boyfriend with how much he emotionally supported me but I guess he is undergoing problems right now. It doesnt make me feel well because i seem to be affected by him getting affected which shouldnt be the case.

I guess his constant trying to help me and playing as my doctor, visiting me to the hospital, creating my food diet sheet paid off. He gave extreme effort in helping me and in the end, when he suddenly stopped it. I had to ask him and said hope he's okay but i feel uncomfortable with how extremely bonded we are. He never had to tell me his problems, i will know just by his behavior that he is not okay.

I've place some distance in the timing of our talks and hope this would suffice so that i am me and him is him so that we will not have a shared problem. What are your thoughts on this? I mean his problems shouldnt affect me as much. But why does it feel like i am also having his problems?

He had a partner in the past and i was reminded of the time he will go thru periods of isolating when he and his partner fight. The thing is he also isolates from me. But guess what, when they are okay, he also would seek emotional attention and care from me. Plus, he also emotionally supports me for every problem that I have.

Then, in the past, whenever they fight, he goes to me and will go out of his house to talk to me when he is in the gym or in a coffee shop. He never talks to me with his partner around.

Also, it looks like he has not disclose my existence to his girlfriend and he also did not tell me it was his girlfriend, he told me it wss his room mate lol. I only found out because a mutual guy friend told me that my guy friend told him.

Why would he tell our mutual friend who is not even close to him that it is his girlfriend but when he talks to me, he tells me it's his room mate?

When i confronted him, he told me it was "irrelevant" or sort of saying it was not needed to be told.

This guy and I may be codependent and I dont know how to stop it. He often asked me how i am every 3 days for straight three months and wants to help me and support me emotionally. He was really very caring and acted like my boyfriend with how much he emotionally supported me but I guess he is undergoing problems right now. It doesnt make me feel well because i seem to be affected by him getting affected which shouldnt be the case.

I guess his constant trying to help me and playing as my doctor, visiting me to the hospital, creating my food diet sheet paid off. He gave extreme effort in helping me and in the end, when he suddenly stopped it. I had to ask him and said hope he's okay but i feel uncomfortable with how extremely bonded we are. He never had to tell me his problems, i will know just by his behavior that he is not okay.

I've place some distance in the timing of our talks and hope this would suffice so that i am me and him is him so that we will not have a shared problem. What are your thoughts on this? I mean his problems shouldnt affect me as much. But why does it feel like i am also having his problems?

I am 27M and quite recently I posted here about my first romantic experience:

https://www.reddit.com/r/love/comments/19c4kar/i_am_27m_never_been_in_a_relationship_before_but/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web3x&utm_name=web3xcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button

TLDR; I fell for an Exchange student 22M (Lets call her A) met her through a mutual friend, it was very beautiful and I was indeed very happy about it.....

We went for a trip , explored the city, shared some really sweet moments and memories and then suddenly I came back to life.

Our mutual friend(lets call her B sensed something and she talked to me, she told me that you should talk because she feels something is mutual, and she told me that A has asked her many times to find is I have something for her.... A also asked B and other friends a lot of times what do they think of us being together.

At that moment I was very nervous and didn't have the courage to say anything as I didn't wanted to destroy whatever we had. Also I was very naive as I didn't had experience something like this before.

Things went along until the day arrived where we had to part ways and I left a message for A with B saying that I was super happy to meet her and good luck.

She came to meet me before leaving and I thought it ended in a good note.

After she left I was missing her very much, I used to think about her too much, She used to flash before my eyes randomly. I was experiencing something different altogether, Now I had a very big regret of not coming forward and expressing my feeling and I had to live my life with this regret.

Then one day almost after a month, I head a knock on my door and I was very surprised and shocked to see A standing in front. She was here for a week on Ester break.

I saw her and just froze didn't know what to say, B came running from behind to bring me back to senses, B told me this time you have to get courageous, this is your last chance.

During the first 2 days she was indeed acting very weird with me, During an hiking trip she was a little flirty... She was also very jealous to see me and B spending time together.

B then decided to set a plan for us to talk to each other and when I just started to speak A told me that there nothing..

I just respected this and went away, but I had so many unanswered questions!!!!

Anyways I am not at all mad at her, she may be mad at me. She just stopped talking to me and I think she has just deleted me from her life.

But for me I will preserve this forever in a corner of my heart, I still have dreams about her, her voice and images still flash in my mind at least once or twice per day. It's almost a month now but this still continues. I still feel I became a little selfish and this destroyed everything.

I was in love for the first time in my life, for the first time I felt self confidence, For the first time I felt sense of being in moment !!!!

I will cherish these moments forever and will still continue to be a person who, even mildly was liked!!!

I read stories here about how people meet each other. If the story is sad, I try to support the person, if it’s funny, then I’m happy for them and congratulate them, even though I haven’t had a relationship or a hint of one yet. I'm 25 and I'm looking for a Girl for a serious relationship and building a family in the future, but so far the relationship is somehow passing me by😄. I’m talking to a good friend, she’s married, and when I look at her and her husband, I’m happy and sad at the same time because she deserves such a husband, and I’m sad because I’m not sure if I’ll get the same happiness?🥲 I decided to write because I want to speak out. P.S thanks for reading

Now I’m not saying her being clingy beside me when we are together is a bad thing at all, however she’s the type to come follow me back up the elevator to the room after I ‘forget’ my wallet. I want to put rose pedals on the floor leading to the bed she’s hopelessly romantic and I kinda dig it. Context is she’s from FL (im from Toronto) we are going to Ottawa for a concert thats on her bucket list so she’s excited.

She wouldn’t feel comfortable waiting in the lobby or outside without me.

What’s a good way to have her not come back up stairs? Should be only like 5 minutes. Maybe I’m over thinking it. Any suggestions?

I can feel my heart starting to beat

It had been a while without feeling this

I don't know what that is, I think they call them butterflies

It's been a long time and I can't stop looking at him

Beautiful lips, a spectacular face, dark brown eyes, baby face

Polo shirt and jeans

What a beautiful angel, believe me, that was the truth

He hands me a single red rose effortlessly with a cigarette on the other

His hand touches me and leads me to dance

I was crazy about the way he looked at me

But I'm scared and I don't want to fall in love

I ask him if he is a Tapatio and he smiles

And says “I’m 100 percent Tapatio at your service, princess”

My eyes light up and I tell him I knew it

The smile reaches my eyes

He practically yells, “yoouuu're beeautifuul” with an emphasis on the two words

And my heart flutters

This is my definition of a man

He is the guy of my dreams

We start signing to eachother like newylweds

His cologne smells so good and his shampoo

The finest of the FINEST

Beautiful and clean soul

But I know it will end soon

Too good to be truth because it is

I have to go back to a completely different world and maybe I don't belong in his

He is so posh, perfect, sweet and innocent

His family will probably never approve of me for being from the north and they will assume

I have "loose morals"

but if they only knew I am so innocent- virgin even

My whole father's family lives in Mexico

My cousin is in politics in Mexico. The last name always helps me but it hurts

but I am tired of trying so hard to be liked and prove myself to them

I have more values and morals than all of them put together

I'll go back to US and try to forget him

But I try and I can't forget him

I don't feel like I belong here either

He was my person

Wish we could have gone against society

And I try to replace him with others here

but they're nothing like him

He is from a completely different world

Where love is pure and free to give and nothing expected in return

If I go on a date here, They will usually ask me to go back to their place

I say no and never hear from them

His love was pure

We didn't have to have sex to know we wanted to be together forever

He would never asked me to his place alone

He respected me and worshiped the ground I walked on

He is old fashioned like me

From a different era

That was why I fell for him

and it is like looking for a needle in a haystack for someone like that here

He is all I ever wanted

I try to act like I am into the opposite- guys with tattoos

I am maybe in a sexy way but that is not my type.

I lie to myself to keep myself from remembering him

It is his FACE I see at night and I start to cry

because he will always be the purest angel I've ever seen in my life.

How can I call anything beautiful unless its the sight of him

I fell in love with him

and I continue on this journey to try to forget him but it is so difficult when nothing comes close to him

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I tell him many times that I feel like crying because I feel so much love and passion and joy for him in my heart that it gets very overwhelming that I feel the need to cry. Not a sad cry, a happy cry!

He’s very sweet and tells me while he appreciates that, he prefers if I not cry at all.

Oh God, I want to marry him so hard

He gets busy with his life and meanwhile I have not much to do so I come up with many things I feel the need to tell him during the time he is busy and unable to text. Occasionally because of this, I worry my onslaught of messages may annoy him. But today I asked him about it, and he told me he loves when I spam him.. It gave me butterflies, after two years of being together he still gives me butterflies to this day!! I am so happy with him. He is my everything and I truly want to be his wife and be the best wife in the world for him.

LONG BUT WHOLESOME

context: I (29F) have been having a really difficult time of life recently (unemployment, health issues, etc.) and my BF (31M) has also been dealing with similar things. We’ll be together 6 years in July, trust me when I say our potential future kids will have wild stories from us both. We started our relationship non-traditionally; we hooked up the first day we ever met and never really left each other after that night 🤷🏾‍♀️🤣

We now own our own apartment together despite everything going on, I have consistent support from my parents but things are still sort of rocky. Across the board, we hit a roadblock in our relationship for a few months— nothing relationship-ending… just sucky.

Okay, onto the meat of this story.

I had mentioned in our previous relationship chats that I’d like him to take more initiative to do things with me because my love language is quality time (his are touch and gift-giving). Quality time encompasses sex, just normal fun activities, going out on dates or just for walks, etc.

CRY #1: bf woke up in a semi-crappy mood because he was dealing with stomach pain, so I made him tea, rolled him a blunt and sat down with him to show him a new game I found. He told me after I died in a level, “you know, you’re so beautiful when you get excited to show me things.”

LIKE HELLO?! 🥹 my whole face crinkled up like a paper bag and I teared up.

CRY #2: once his tummy was feeling better (and I got him some snacks) I hopped in the shower while he played Diablo on his phone. When I came out— he had rolled up again, put lofi on the tv and iniated 🌶️ time (!!). When I tell you… it was 💥✨🤤, and I cried again while he cuddled me.

CRY #3: I spent some time with him while he started playing the game I showed him; giving him tips and answering questions he had. I’ve been waiting for a game we both can nerd over again since Diablo 4 so I got so happy I paper bagged again.

CRY #4: randomly, bf decided to surprise me by taking me on a 2 mile walk around our neighborhood, smoking and talking about the cool houses we like— a big activity we both love when it’s nice out. the fact that he remembered, and the fact that he took initiative during the walk to point out cool things to me… waterworks.

I’m crying as I type this so that’s #5 😭 I’m gonna marry this man. That is all.

My (24) bf (24M) have been dating since around early august? He’s constantly impressing me and making me believe in love again. Like Love-love. Every time I’m anxious about the future (as I’m an anxious person) he’s so reassuring and gentle with me. I’ve never felt pushed or forced into anything, or into a box or relationship role. Sometimes he’s just the most amazing best friend I’ve ever had and the level we can connect on is so deep and genuine. He’s so understanding and loving and the first time I’ve ever actually felt spoiled and provided for (I’ve always been the provider before). I didn’t think someone like him even existed. I hope he sees this too ;) mmwah

My touch lingers, but so does yours. It feels like we're connected. Joint at the soul. Do you feel it too? I want the best for you, but only if I'm there to witness it. I can feel my eyes glued to you. I shamelessly watch, but you do the same. You make me feel like an object, of course I'll copy and watch over this exhibit. Learn as much as I can. I want to be with you, present. I don't care what role I'm in. Whether lover, sister, friend. This connection, it bolsters. I'm inclined to take a step back, but your eyes are on me. Begging to be exposed to my world. Your want for my insight. It's intoxicating. It's something that goes without saying. I love you. You love me. We'll be this way years down the line. Tied together by a mutual affection and care. Our souls at peace in each other's company

Not sure if anyone will care to read this but it makes me happy to talk about how I (22F) met my boyfriend (22M) and the “invisible string” between us.

So back in July of 2022 I (20F at the time) started working at a local Country club as a dishwasher/line-cook. Within the first few days of working, I had noticed a really good-looking guy (21M at the time) whose name and face felt oddly familiar (this detail is important later on and for the sake of his privacy I’m going to just call him P). With the country club being in a small town, all of us younger kids knew eachother from school and whatnot so I figured that was it.

As the days went on with me working there, I began talking to P more and more. He had worked at this place for several years and was there very frequently and as I started to get longer and longer shifts we would spend much more time together there. It got to the point where if one of our shifts ended before the others’ we would either stay later and help or sit in our cars and wait for the other. Nights we ended our shifts at the same time, we would spend a ridiculous amount of time in the parking lot together. We would sometimes lay on the hood of my car looking at the stars and just talking about any/everything we could or we would sit in P’s truck and smoke weed and take about music we liked, life, etc.

One day it randomly had came into conversation who his older sister was and we figured out that I knew her because my older brother and her had very briefly “dated” in high school (this is a little part of the “invisible string” I mentioned earlier but more to come). We thought it was cool we were connected like that and still carried on as usual. Once it had been a few weeks of working there I started to realize I was mayyybe developing some feelings for him. (I was told it was extremely obvious LOL) Our chef at the time would yell at us in the kitchen mid-service; “HEY STOP FLIRTING WITH EACH OTHER AND GET BACK TO WORK” which lowkey was what finally made me realize that maybe he was right and maybe I did kinda like this guy.

But my other coworker, let’s call him “Bryan” (19M at the time), had told me that he heard P had been planning on going on a date with a server at the country club around that time so I pushed my feelings aside and continued our friendship. For the next couple weeks I forced myself to go on really terrible dates with shitty dudes until I had found out from P himself that his date with the afformentioned server was bad and they did not vibe with eachother at all. THIS WAS MY TIME TO SHINE… kind of lol. I would talk to Bryan and other coworkers every day at work about P and they would all encourage me to tell him how I felt. I’m naturally just so painfully awkward and anxious that I nearly diarrhea’d my pants every time someone brought up the idea. One day though, Bryan agreed to text him and maybe slip my name in to see what he felt and I can’t remember exactly how the conversation went down but it ended up in Bryan telling me that I needed to tell him how I felt because he seemed interested…

Lmk if you would want to hear the rest of what happened up until now, but if not, thanks for reading this far! :)

I’m lost

I broke up with my ex about a year ago. It was for both of our sakes. Things were getting toxic and obsessive, I couldn’t handle it. But I could tell she was getting hurt too, I didn’t want that for her. Her friends kept on telling her that I was breaking up with her so I could play around, but it isn’t true. I loved that girl with my entire life, and even now I still do. I thought that I was over it after all this time, after talking with other people and experiencing different things, but I’m… not? Unhealed wounds still hurt like hell. I don’t want to get back with her, but I do want to talk to her again. Idk, just a vent post ig.

I’ve been trying to figure out love lately. I’m 25 f and I’ve only been in one relationship that lasted about five months. It was really fun and intense but honestly he made my life a lot harder.

That was about three years ago I think but sometimes I find myself missing all of the fun that I had while I was in a relationship. I do a lot of things alone and I know that I don’t need to wait for somebody else to have fun.

I plan dates for myself I go hiking, I like painting I like putting make up on and going out. I’m really disciplined with my money I keep my space clean and have a good to OK relationship with my family I read a lot of personal growth books and I’ve been working on starting my own business for the past year and a half.

It’s when I want to talk and I don’t have anyone to talk to in the moment I start to think of how alone I feel. My parents have their own lives and my friends aren’t the most responsive when it comes to texting and calling.

One of my best friends got in a relationship and it’s hard because he’s one of the only ones I open up to and he’s obviously in the honeymoon phase so I just try to give him space. Another one of my best friends is single too, and I can relate a lot to her and I’m very grateful for that friendship it’s very loving.

Sometimes Ill go downtown or go for a walk to take my mind off of it and put myself out there. I’ll go to matchmaking events or find something on Eventbrite.

Maybe it’s just not my time yet. It just makes me sad so I started reading more about love stories that I can relate to and focusing on the positive, and believing that I can find the one for me, but it’s just disheartening being alone all the time😞

What else can I try?

I (25M) consider myself a loving, caring, supporting, emotionally mature and loyal person. I have so many qualities, a good career and in general I'm considered attractive. I recently got out of a relationship with someone who ended up not being a very good person. They lied to me, manipulated me and betrayed me. Am I stupid for having hope and believing that a loving, fulfilling, loyal and supportive relationship is possible? | loved being in a relationship, even if it was with the wrong person. Nonetheless, I feel like the people around me tend to be quite shallow when it comes to dating. I don't want to be hurt again, but l'd rather be hurt than losing hope for the life that I envision. What are your thoughts? :)

I’m currently going through this, been a few days since she told me she’s leaving and that she needs to grow, she said we will get back together and we will get married and we will have that future we talked about, but when I text her, she ignores me for hours, I look back at our texts and messages from the day before and everything seemed so good she was sending me love memes, like saying how she loves me and can’t wait to go camping. I can’t wrap my head around it, she treats me so cold through texts but the very few in person interactions we’ve had she makes me feel like there’s hope, like saying we will have our future, but when I say wait for me she says she can’t make any promises but that she wants us to get back together and have that future and that it’s what she wants and if it’s what I want to it’ll happen, and it is 100 % what I want, I wished she could’ve talked to me and told me how she was feeling so we could’ve fixed things, but she just out of the blue decided to leave, she says it’s not easy but I don’t see her shed a tear at all while I can’t seem to stop thinking of her and crying here and there it hurts so bad. She keeps telling me this isn’t the end that we’re not over, but yet she can’t promise me anything, I wish her answer wasn’t to just up and leave, she’ll FaceTime me and say she wants to watch our show with me because it was our show and she’d like to keep watching it with me, but then the next day I ask if she wants to watch it and she says maybe she doesn’t know if she’ll be busy, and I’m like busy before bed?? We watched shows before bed all the time, and it’s just I get she has things she’s doing but like it’s the way she says it, it feels like she wants to just say no, but if you say you still love me and want to continue watching our shows together then why act like that when I ask? she had told me we were gonna hang out still, and talk still, and she wants to go on camping this summer, that it’s not a question about if but when we have kids. That she wants my last name, but then she’s at her cousins and she never messaged me or answer me. And I asked her to just tell me if all that was a lie and she says no, so I ask why she treats me so coldly but tells me these beautiful things and she gets upset and says she doesn’t know or she just says she won’t answer that. Idk if I should hold on to the hope that we’ll come back to each other or if I should just leave her alone and not think of her because I don’t want to meet other people and start over, I just can’t, I can’t forget her voice, I can’t forget her face, her little mannerisms and funny quirks god, I just can’t. 💔

Sorry for all the jumbled up thoughts, I feel like my world is collapsing, especially since she was my world and my purpose.

It's been so long since the last time we spoke. So long since our chapter ended. I know you're still struggling with your mental health, but i really hope you feel better soon. Worry for you always eats away at my heart. How are you? How has life been treating you? How's work? How's your family? So many mundane questions that I'm dying to know the answers to. Or maybe I'm just dying to hear you speak to me. As clichéd as it sounds, I really do miss the sound of your voice and laughter. Your sweet smile, your lame jokes, your tendency of mixing up all 3 languages that we both know while talking to me. I miss the way we could talk for hours on end about anything and everything under the sun, be it any current socio-political topic or stuff like "ugh you won't believe what my mom has been up to these days". Everything was so easy with you when we were friends. How did falling in love change things so much? Of course things changed for me too. But somewhere in my heart, you still feel so familiar. So much like home. It breaks my heart to think that you don't feel the same way about me anymore. It breaks my heart to know that, despite trying so hard, you couldn't truly love me. It's funny actually, given the fact that you were interested in me first.

But it's okay, y'know. I forgive you. I forgive you for not being able to love me. I forgive you for breaking my heart in your confusion and pain. I forgive you for the harsh things you said to me the last day we spoke to each other. I forgive you because I cannot remain angry with you forever. How can I, when I love you so much? I love you so much and I don't know what to do with all of this love. That's the real tragedy.

M20 F19. My gf has trouble sleeping at night so I looked for ways to make it easier for her. We talk every night on the phone and when it’s time to lay down she cant seem to get her brain to shut down and I’ll usually be passed out an hour before she can actually fall asleep. Jokingly I said “what if I read you a bed time story” she said that was kinda corny and laughed but I continued to do it anyways. I read her Snow White and when I finished I asked “how was that😂”. I didn’t get any response. She was out cold. So for the past 2 weeks I’ve been reading to her. She is currently asleep right now :) I just got reading her pinnochio❤️