I don't have any single person in my life I can confide in and I'm feeling very suicidal. I just want someone I can vent to for a bit please.

This happened a little bit earlier and I still feel bad.

I was stopped at an intersection, waiting for an emergency vehicle to go through as I couldn’t see where the siren was coming from. The car behind me laid on their horn the entire time I waited and then proceeded to honk again after we had started to move.

I got out of my car and started shouting. He got out and approached. The situation ended without us coming to blows. I told him that I’m not trying to start anything but that he needs to control himself. He told me that when I get out of the car, it gives the impression that I’m looking to start a fight. Both of these messages were shouted and extremely vulgar and, for the record, he is right. I should not have gotten out of my car even though he was being obnoxious.

We ended it there and went our separate ways. But I feel so guilty and stupid. What if it had been someone elderly or a new driver and I really scared them? What if it had escalated into a physical altercation and one of us got hurt? What if he assumed I had a weapon and just shot me? I must have looked like such a colossal jackass and I hate to think about what my family or my girlfriend would think to see me like that.

I don’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings and I don’t want to cause anyone any duress. I was just so frustrated with the whole situation. Ultimately, I think that this was the best case scenario but I know I got very very lucky. If a fight had started I would absolutely have been considered the instigator and that could have messed my whole life up.

I just needed to vent about it a little bit because I can’t talk about it to the people in my life. I think that they would worry about me or think less of me because of it.

Title. Just kinda mentally exhausted and need support and someone to listen.

(I really don't want to break any hearts, but I would appreciate it if I could talk to people who are at least 18. I feel like any type of adults would understand what I want to talk about better)

Would anyone like to talk like how I explained in the title? I would really appreciate it if you could, I could seriously use a conversation with a friendly person to process what's going on in my life and mind right now.

I have taken an important step this week regarding women but my head is a jumble at the same time probably because of my recent med changes(psychiatric) and too many responsibilities. I constantly feel dizzy and... mentally out of it? I don't know how to explain but just trying to think about and remember what happened 1 or 2 days ago is so hard, it's like my brain is out of juice. Also, some things I have done during that step about women are bugging me as well.

Thanks

I don't know why I keep attracting men who just want to fool around. I get guys talking to me a lot and later on they bring up their gf or wife. I work a lot of catering events in California and I meet many attractive guys and they actually pick me to talk with and they end up mentioning a gf. Even after some bantering. I assume they just do it for their ego which is sad. It doesn't necessarily hurts me but it annoys me and makes me angry. I don't have much of a social life and I work a lot or do other things. I tried apps and it seems majority is catfish and they don't have plans to meet in person. Or if they do they make it clear is for sex.

There is someone I like at my workplace which yeah, most people say is a bad idea but I don't work a job I really like, it's just a server job at a hotel. Not a career. We got a new boss about 3 months ago and while we started in bad terms, we made up. He always approaches me to talk and teases me. Even said how good looking and young looking he is but he told me later on he is joking. I dunno if he necessarily flirts with me or he acts that way so I do what he says. But some of his comments have been weird, like he borrowed my keycard and returned it and I said how I thought he would lose it and he answered how I will never lose him from my life. Then he gets mad with me making plans with male workers to go gamble. Last week he told me how he doesn't want to see me drinking around him and alcohol is not good for me and I asked him who is he to say that, my dad? He frowned at calling him dad and then I said OK, are you my husband then? He told me not today.

Yesterday he saw me as he was coming in and greeted me and said how nice that I am the first person he sees. He commented on my make-up how beautiful it looks. The guy is in his 50s and he was married for like 13 years or so but divorced within the past 2 years or so. We connect well but I dunno if he is fooling with me.

What are some signs to tell if they are misleading?

i’m 22 and i’m hoping i’ll be able to move out with my boyfriend sometime next year, we’re long distance and we’re trying to save up

my parents and i have a very odd relationship. my mom is an alcoholic and is very much emotionally/mentally abusive and was physically abusive when i was a kid. my dad and i have a better relationship, but i also consider him to be emotionally abusive and an enabler for my mom

my sister and i were supposed to move out together, but she ultimately decided she wants to move in with her boyfriend

i’m from california and never considered leaving. mostly because i never thought leaving would ever be an option for me. my boyfriend lives in massachusetts, which i know is really far, but everyone says i should go for at least 6 months. my therapist and psychiatrist strongly believe ill be happier with the move, but how do you restart your life?

i’m leaving everything i know behind, which excites and scares me. soon im going to create an entire new life with new people in a new state, and i have no idea how to start that

how do you begin a new life? what do i need to bring, do and remember?

my main concern is, what do i need to remember if i freak out and regret moving and miss my old life?

Hi, let me know when's your best times to talk and preferred platform, and we can hopefully schedule something. Email is best for me to schedule:

trainsong@tuta.io

I'm 38 in the USA in Pacific time.

Look forward to hearing from you :)

Thomas

I could really use a kind voice.

Things I like

I like hip hop. I like basketball. I like politics. I like podcasts. I like animal books. I like eastern philosophy. I like spirituality

For context, I am not a woman, but I have heard dozens of horror stories regarding periods and childbirth.

Dozens of stories of debilitating cramps, missing out on work, nausea, pain, etc. The worst part is that women are destined to go through periods every 3 weeks for half of their entire lives. It happens as early as 12 years old for crying out loud. Women often suffer 3 weeks monthly and it seems as if there is nothing that can be done. In addition, periods may cause women to be humiliated and mocked. Period mood swings can also impact relationships and make women feel isolated and alone. I've also heard that due to hormonal changes, women only feel 'good' for one week a month.

Also, pregnancy and childbirth are extremely hard/painful and can result in death. Think about the countless bonds broken. Plus, pretty much every other animal doesn't have periods (they reabsorb uterine lining)/painful childbirth/dangerous pregnancies (men too). They seem so privileged compared to women, and it seems as if women's own bodies/evolution actively hate them and want them to suffer as much as possible. I sometimes see posts of women being disgusted by their own biology.

I also feel survivor's guilt for being born as a man. Sometimes when I feel happy or relaxed, I think about how I might not experience those feelings if I was a woman due to periods.

I am so angry at the world. A world where half of the population endures a horrible and painful existence is not okay. I sometimes wonder, is it possible for women to live a life where periods are not a big deal? Is there anything medicine can do? If there is, why aren't we doing it? What can be done? I'm so pissed, justice needs to be served.

that's pretty much it

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1kQhJmvkuX1SDBBIdzLuKMK1ugHKIOUs9/view

Would love your input guys ❤️

Premise 1: The evolution of life on exoplanets or solar system ice moons is a morally significant event.

Premise 2: The possible outcomes of evolution on these celestial bodies are numerous and varied.

Premise 3: The range of possible outcomes in terms of well-being or suffering is extremely large.

Premise 4: Near-future introduction of microbes to planets is likely to result in a sub-optimal or negative outcome for an enormous number of animals eventually emerging from them, leading to widespread suffering.

Conclusion: Therefore, humanity has a moral obligation to exercise restraint and prevent interplanetary and interstellar forward contamination for many years, lest it forfeit its moral justification for continued existence, since the astronomical suffering at stake may never be possible to compensate afterward anymore, as per the trolley problem.

Meanwhile, the space industry globally is still growing exponentially, which is intolerable.

I've with intense daily work for about 2 years and another half year tried to reach out to all official places and people, and went far beyond that, e-mailing over 100.000 individuals, groups, institutions and organizations on this fate-determining issue, and tried the same with about 40 Discord servers and similarly many subreddits, and likely more than twice as many Twitch channels, and yet with minimal success since after all this time, it hasn't come up in the global news, which must change soon.

I (19m) still live with my parents, barely passed high school and don't remember anything that I’ve learned. Now I'm at community college, failing every class, can't retain any information,  missing deadlines, getting overwhelmed and I just can't. The worst part is, I have to constantly be reminded about how accomplished my friends and peers are every day. I know that comparison is a joy killer, but the sheer difference in status, accomplishment, and intelligence between myself and every one of my friends is astounding.

For example, my memory and executive functioning is so bad that I can't even remember to grab a towel before taking a shower. I set an alarm to remind myself to grab a towel before taking a shower and I just don't. Then after I'm done with the shower, I make it a mission to grab an entire stack of towels and I forget the instant I step out of the bathroom.

I've tried studying for 6 hours every single day, yet haven't passed a single exam or quiz this semester. I'm going all day Mondays - Thursdays while studying every day and I can't even remember what topic I was studying the previous day. I can't retain any information whatsoever in class, a single math (calculus) assignment (8 - 10 problems) takes me around 2 - 3 hours, and with all of that, my parents are constantly lecturing me about how I'm not trying hard enough.

I've been programming since I was 12, but I still can't understand data structures or remember their names. I’ve never implemented an algorithm, finished anything challenging, or kept up with my peers. My friends are far ahead: one is studying AI models and has built several; the other builds apps, websites, maintains servers, excels in hardware and Arduino, knows multiple languages, and has won coding competitions. After 12 years, I'm still stuck on the basics.

Over the summer and previous years, I had always put a lot of focus into hobbies such as video games, guitar, and skateboarding. Well guess what? I haven't progressed in any of them since starting.

For guitar, I've been playing since I was 14. Can't remember scales after practicing them for months, can't finish a song, can't learn advanced picking techniques, still can't read sheet music, can't make anything of my own, can't stay on beat, etc.

Now if we take a look at my friends abilities and accomplishments, it just genuinely depresses me.

One is at a 4-year university studying cyber security full-time while holding an internship at Apple, and yet still has an unbelievable amount of free time. He doesn't even study yet aces all of his exams. Also he's graduating 2 years early.

The other is applying for medical school at 19. Got straight A's his first two semesters and is taking 5 senior level classes as a sophomore all the while working part time as an EMT.

My friend who didn't go to college is already living comfortably with his girlfriend while working as an electrician making very good money. He's got incredible social skills and charisma, incredible looks, goes to the gym, etc.

Also speaking of social skills, I have none. I physically can't start or hold conversations with people, I kid you not my mind is just completely null and void when speaking to someone. I have nothing to contribute to any conversations between my friends and I. Also I can't make jokes, I've never made a genuine joke that people have laughed at in my life, I know that sounds incredibly unlikely, but it's true.

I don’t want to get into too much detail but I’m dealing with so much stress, I’m worried people are secretly judging me, and on top of that is trying to find a new job and getting rejected because someone found something stupid I did.

Edit: please don’t DM me, I am not looking for private messages rn.

I just lost hope and lost the will to live. I have been like that for 6 years. I feel like Im a ghost to others and im ignored, just surviving the day. I don't know what to do and why im depressed, but im just so depressed and wish that a truck hits me or not to wake up or something.

Hi, I wanted to vent but looked for a subreddit where maybe I can talk to people with similar experiences or just maybe get some support. Im just feeling kind of sad. I’m 19F and my parents are both 63. I have grown up being hyper aware of their age and constantly ruminating on it. All my friends have younger parents and I’m jealous. And right now it’s been hard. My dad is in good health but my mum has severe ocd and has been sick now for coming up on 2 years. We don’t get along but seeing her so sick is hard. I’ve been handling it pretty well for the past couple years but it’s starting to get to me. It just piles on with me worrying about their age. I just feel so sad sometimes. I don’t really know how to deal with these emotions. Idk I just needed to get this out cause I don’t want to put any of my friends in a bad mood. It’s hard man.

I’ve dealt with depression before, bad depression. I’m medicated now and I’m doing well. But the thing is, when I was depressed, I felt nothing. Now I just feel sad. I’m used to dealing with no emotion. But feeling sad is difficult for me. I just want my mum to be better and I wish my parents had me when they were a bit younger. I try not to stress about the future but it’s hard. I’m too emotional. Like whenever my teddy falls out my bed I start spiraling emotional lol.

Fucked up real bad at work this monday and I'm probably going to get unemployed next week. Took fmla but thats not enough I just had to fuck it up💀. applying jobs but I'Ve BEEN applying to jobs so I know how shitty the market is. have an interview at least but I pray I don't fuck it up like I do everything else😵‍💫😭😭. I could really use encouragement is all I'm saying

Hello again it's been awhile. I just need to talk really quick. I am in college and it is a struggle going back and working. I have managed to get my GPA up from a 0.0 to a 1.5 in 2 years but I don't think I am gonna make it to fix GPA before next fall so I will be on academic suspension. Is this a bad thing? Is it okay to feel like I am failing even though I am trying so hard. This is only supposed to be a 2 year college but this is my second year and I am no where close to where I need to be.

hi! i’m here to talk, give advice, or chat and become friends! :)

as the title said, i'm sick for the second time in three weeks and i feel like hot garbage, plus i'm having a chronic pain flare up . would just like some reassurance that i'm not being lazy if i literally can't do my work (and maybe any recipes y'all have for making someone feel better that are pretty easy to make? no pressure if you don't have one tho)

Hi, pretty much as the title says. Recently gone through a breakup and it haunts me everyday. Id also like to hear some motivation for studies because im just struggling to get my ass out of bed/ out my flat

Anything would be appreciated

(F35) Some days I feel great in the morning and then I feel miserable in the evening, today is one of those days. What makes it extra hard is that I promise I’m doing all the right things to feel better but I just can’t stop the tears from coming out, I don’t understand why the pain just doesn’t become less. I’m going to therapy, working out, getting into new hobbies, distracting myself, I mean, I’m a very busy person lol, but yet… his thoughts come to me mind and I’m undone.

It just doesn’t stop, and I’m in SO MUCH PAIN, and it gets odd to tell the same people the same story for 7 weeks lol, I need somebody, anybody, who will want to listen to my sad story, maybe put sense into my brain and remind me that everything will be ok.

Please help me feel less miserable.

Thanks ❤️

Ps. If you’re a dude who thinks that single moms are spoiled milk when it comes to dating, please don’t talk to me, that’s a huge trigger for me

A couple of days ago, I accidentally took an amount of edibles that was too much, which led to a mental breakdown (bad trip) for several hours and some realizations at the end—though it’s a long story I don’t want to get into. (I was on call with people on discord etc. I was scared, nestling against public washrooms private shower stall etc etc freaking out etc) literal first time,,,,,,

Now after 2 days, the effects are gone, but I’m reflecting on my real life and often feel a lot of anger— why is love absent? I just want love. I want to be understood deeply and accepted, to have a safe space to go to, to have a reciprocal and equal connection. I’m even starting to doubt myself, which I think is pathetic and a perspective triggered by negative thoughts. I just want love. Pure love, without any entanglement of sexual attraction or other complicated things. I’m a sociable person (not entirely, it’s complicated but i am open to socializing)

The feelings aren’t caused by the edibles, though the experience heightened my sensitivity and awareness of my body, my needs, and my general state. I mention edibles because I want to emphasize just how unhappy I often feel.

I’m often so angry, and some of the things I contemplated during that trip are connected to this.

I don’t even want to go online anymore. I’m young (18), and I had a chaotic and negative and weird adolescence. For a while, most of my good connections with people were made online. Yet now, I lack friends and connection in my life. I don’t even want to go online because seeing people who have friends and social connections makes me upset and angry (though I try not to let it get to me)

FYI if it matters I am alone in Thailand living in hostels and spent the past few days alone I dont want to share my entire life story it’s so exhausting and saddens me too much to be misunderstood or judged

If you’re available (best if you have experiences with substances and speak Chinese) please DM me or I can reach out to you I want to chat

Anyone out there wants to talk or vent or anything I'm willing to listen and help anyway I can! Every single one of y'all is absolutely amazing and have got this!💙⛄️💙

Please. Speak to me. Let me try.

18M-It’s been a month and some change since she broke up with me and I can’t keep pretending like I’m okay- she left bc she said she wasn’t ready, and now I’m depressed and heartbroken with everyone telling me to “Just move on”. I loved that girl and now she is just gone and I don’t know how to go on when I keep waking up and living every day with a heavy heart waiting on her to come back. I think sometimes about leaving, like as the only way to get out of my own head and because I just don’t see myself getting over this. I don’t know anymore

Anyone else out there who relates to this? I’m an extrovert and get energy from being around people, but I live alone and switched to a career that isolates me from most friends and family. The time spent alone is very difficult for me. I find it hard to find motivation to get chores done without someone around me or talking to me. 

A little about me: 32M, NYC, creative type. Lived internationally, so would love to connect with people from different countries or who are into different cultures. BIPOC, LGBTQIA+ friendly, open about mental health, and progressive. Please be as well!

Being a fellow creative type or artist is a huge plus!

Important disclosure: I can't promise that I have the capacity to commit to a new friendship (which I understand for many comes with certain expectations) but would love to see if there are any others out there who relate to this and would be interested in a chat. 

Fair warning: This is kind of a long, rambly post, but there’s a TL;DR at the bottom if you’d prefer a quick summary.

I’m totally new to all this and just trying to figure things out. This situation definitely involves social skills, so I’m hoping for feedback.

I’m a Christian, so I was looking for a Christian singles Facebook group because I knew some friends who found success there—two of them even married people they met. I couldn’t find the original group I was looking for, but I found another one that seemed like a good fit. This group has a close-knit vibe, focused on building more intentional connections rather than just casual dating. We share updates about our lives, which makes it feel like a small community.

That’s where I noticed this girl. I’m 37, and she’s 39. The first thing I noticed was that she was really pretty, and as I read more of her posts, I realized she had an awesome personality too—funny, smart, and kind. Plus, I knew she was real; she posted pictures with others from the group, and they said she was great.

We had communicated back and forth on a few Facebook posts, so I felt like we matched up well based on our interactions. One day, I posted in the group about recovering from surgery and being stuck in the hospital. Since we share updates about our lives, it felt appropriate. She commented, “If you’re bored, you can DM me.” So I did, and we hit it off.

To be clear, I knew this was long distance from the beginning. I was just excited to connect with someone like her. I didn’t want to rush into anything serious until I was sure we were on the same page about our feelings. I was cautious, wanting to make sure it was obvious that we both liked each other before bringing up anything about a relationship. I thought waiting until it felt 100% clear would avoid any awkwardness.

While I was on vacation, she asked how my vacation was going, so I sent her a selfie of what I was up to. She replied, “Why don’t you have a girlfriend? You seem normal and cute.” I thanked her and opened up about how most girls don’t get to know me like she has. However, she responded that she wasn’t looking to date right now, as she was focusing on herself, but added, “I definitely don’t mind our chats, though.”

That’s when it hit me—I might have misread the situation. I thought we had a connection, but I was now realizing that I had assumed things I shouldn’t have. I understood her hesitation; her last relationship involved a guy who traveled a lot for work and ended up being unfaithful. While I didn’t know for sure if that was a reason for her caution, it made me more forgiving of the situation. Even though I understood, it didn’t make it hurt any less, and I had to dust myself off a bit.

I decided to dial back my efforts, thinking that if she wanted to reach out, great; if not, I’d just enjoy our chats as friends. Recently, though, our conversations picked up again, mostly about funny things in the group. During one conversation, we were both talking about how we didn’t have much experience in dating, and I admitted, “I’ve got zero experience, more experience of what not to do!” I then mentioned that my awkward personality doesn’t exactly translate well online. That’s when she said, “Well, if you were closer, I’d definitely go out with you!”

What I really wanted to say was, “The distance doesn’t bother me; you’re great, and I’d love to give this a shot.” Instead, I responded with, “Thanks, that means a lot. Also, summers are great here,” jokingly trying to get her to move here instead of just being honest with my emotions. It was a missed moment, and I regretted not being more upfront about how much I’d be willing to put into this.

Since I couldn’t express everything I wanted to in that moment, I decided to make an AI song to convey what I couldn’t say. I’ve made some AI songs before and shared them with her, and she thought they were great, but those were mostly funny songs based on random moments. This one, though, is more serious and heartfelt. I know this might sound a bit strong to some, but I’m coming from a place of genuine appreciation for what we have—it’s been a while since I’ve felt such an easy connection with someone, and what we have feels unique.

The song reflects just how much her comment—“I’d go out with you if you were closer”—meant to me. It wasn’t just a compliment; it gave me a feeling of hope that maybe I’m not destined to be alone forever. If someone this amazing sees potential in me, then maybe I actually have a shot at a real relationship. This is new territory for me, so I wanted to find a way to show how much she’s helped me open up and grow, and how much I appreciate it.

The song is completely AI-generated—lyrics, vocals, everything. I thought about surprising her with it by saying, “Hey, see if you can guess who the song’s about!” I figure this would make it fun and maybe encourage her to listen to it sooner. Secretly, I’m hoping she’ll hear it, be touched, and maybe realize that long distance could be worth a shot.

The song ends with a line that means a lot to me: “Whether the distance fades or stays the same, I’m grateful that you know my name.” It’s my way of saying I’m thankful for meeting her, no matter what happens.

I think this is a good way to shoot my shot, as it lightens the mood and doesn’t put too much pressure on the situation. It’s my attempt to express my feelings while keeping things fun and casual.

My question: Okay, having heard the backstory and all of that, what’s your take on this whole scenario and what’s going on?

TL;DR: I met an amazing girl in a Christian singles Facebook group. Even though it was long distance, I thought we really hit it off, but I might have misread the situation. After expressing interest, I got shot down. We continued to chat and be friends, but then she said she’d go out with me if it weren’t for the distance. I butchered my response, so I made an AI song to better explain my feelings and want to get the group's opinion on it.

Thanks for reading!

(I’m F19 btw)

I questioned why I barely have friends. Meaningful friends, not temporary ones. My current friends is two, one who is basically having his life falling apart and doesn’t want help even though he needs it. The other is not on the radar at all. Maybe I’m ungrateful? Should I try harder? I don’t know… I just want genuine friends… Is it because I want something that is too unreachable? Is it because I do not give effort? But if I do give effort, will it be a waste of time? But am I overthinking it? Am I self sabotaging myself? Because I had trauma with other friendships where I made an effort but I was left alone in the end. I gave everything and received nothing. That was always the case since middle school. It continued on until now. I am envious with people I follow who go out and they are around my age. While the only time I go out running errands with my parents. I tried to be content that this is normal but there is always a feeling that this is not norma. That small voice always says that this is embarrassing and comparing myself to people who are my age that are better off than me. Am I unlikeable? Unapproachable? Maybe it’s because of my resting bitch face? Maybe it’s my weight? Should I get botox for my eyebrows? Should I lose weight? Will it finally get me to have friends? Will it make me happier? I always have my guard up because it’s a response to what has happened to me in the past. I hate feeling vulnerable… maybe it’s my anxiety that is stopping me? maybe it’s insecurity? maybe it’s fear…? maybe I’m overthinking everything… Is this why I will be alone forever… I don’t know if this is the seasonal depression talking… It’s always during Fall and Winter ever since middle school… Was all my trauma just from middle school… because that’s where everything just fell apart… I should just focus my studies and getting scholarships, internships, bachelors degree in chemistry, my doctorate in pharmacy, and my residency… fuck… maybe I do need a therapist… also the multiple tiktoks/reels about couples are pissing me off…