As the title says. We'd been close friends before dating for about a decade prior to the relationship, so I was pretty sure I would be with her the rest of my life. I won't lie our relationship had been rocky for this past month for many reasons, but I'm devastated as I never thought she would do this to me. We had gotten into a fight about a co-worker of hers hitting on her, and I had asked for some space because I was uncomfortable with how she had been handling it. Well we talked again today, and she admitted to me that they slept together the next day after we had the argument (Probably many more times than that. I don't trust her at all anymore). I know its pretty lame, but I broke down in front of her shaking and in tears.

We ended up talking for a long time and I left... only to return to her place an hour later because I'm weak and I wanted to be next to her even if she had just destroyed all my self esteem. Well, she wasn't home either.

Anyways, I'm probably at the lowest point I have ever been in my life, so if anyone has had any similar experiences or methods of coping with something this fucked up let me know. I probably wont be sleeping for a while....

My mother is as tough as nails so she’ll just ignore me and tell me things are my fault. My father is negligent and isn’t really in my life. And my friends are all toxic masculine people that don’t really care to hear my problems or try to talk about it.

For once in my life I just want to feel heard and unload all this garbage off of me.

I discovered with my therapist a while ago (not that I’m looking for therapy), that I’ve been holding everything in my body and just not ever releasing anything into the open and it’s been destroying me from the inside.

It caused me to be suicidal for a bit and I’m starting to feel that retract and I don’t want it to.

My entire life I’ve always just wanted to talk to people And feel heard. And I’ve always felt amazing after a therapy session mainly because I was able to express the real me. I’m never ever able to do that with anyone.

I’m looking for something more long term, I’d love to hear your problems too and talk with each other and develop something. Please just help me.

I had a suicide attempt a month ago and I'm still in treatment. I'm feeling better, but my meds are still fucked up. But I still have this urge to have a "contingency plan" just in case the ideations come back full force. So I found one of my partners guns and took it without their knowledge. And hid it away. And then lied about it-twice- when they noticed it was missing. I feel guilty for keeping it, I feel guilty for lying about it, but it's almost like I crave it. I need to have my escape plan to feel safe? Wtf. What do I do?

My depression has been getting worse lately:((

Well HEY,

I'd call round two again a success , got to talk and listen to some more great people so we're back again!

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For the first time I feel depressed. I just started at a university and can’t make any friends. I’m in my third quarter and no matter how hard I try, nothing. I have no social circle. I dont really talk to my parents and I don’t have family members. For the first time in my life Im starting feel like I don’t want to live anymore.

Me and my ex broke up 3 weeks ago, but as friends who acknowledged that with time and change, we could give it a go again because we both agreed that we had something really special. 2 weeks ago, due to a misunderstanding and me fumbling and making the misunderstanding worse, she blocked me and told me firmly that we are never getting back together.
I'm still so confused and lost. One of the biggest reasons we broke up was she felt she had lost her independence: we had tried going on a break before, but it didn't work because she could never stop herself from coming to me whenever she felt anything. So I don't know whether her saying that was truly due to what I did, or whether she needed a reason to hate me to stop herself from coming back to me. But I'm slowly coming to terms with the reality that no matter what, this means that it is the end. She doesn't want anything to do with me anytime soon, if ever.
I'm not scared that she will find someone better than me. If she really does, then this breakup would have been the right thing. What I am scared of is that she won't find someone better, but will instead settle for someone who she will not feel the same way that I made her feel, because she will never consider me as a future partner again.
I don't think there is any way to get her to see my side of the misunderstanding: any attempt at explaining myself would be met with further resistance. All I want from her is that if she ever does feel one day that there was no one better than me, to not let this misunderstanding stop her from considering me.

hello! i'm happy to listen for a bit, no judgment for whatever you're going through or how you're dealing with it.

i would also be happy to form a long term supportive friendship. i've been told i have older sister energy !!

i'm religious, which we can discuss if you'd like. hope to hear from u :)

This is a vent tbh. If this breaks rules mods can remove. Tw suicide talk

I'm 17, I don't want friends, don't leave the house, don't work or go to school, I'm pretty much useless and spend all day sitting in my bed watching anime and reading books, I only leave to eat dinner or sit on the stairs and do basically what I already do...except on the stairs. I feel very sad about the fact that I care more for things and my one intense interest more than I do for people but i don't go out anyway so who cares.

Tonight I fucked up my hobby sketchbook by trying to use marker over a sketch and feel deep regret and for the last few hours I've have the urge to show my parents that I'm stressed by throwing out my favorite things and telling them about the fact that I don't want a job or school because I have no aspirations and simply want to be euthanized, i really dont like how my brain and the way i work seems to be really fucked up. I cant do education because i have such a burning anger towards teachers. I know this isnt true but i feel strongly that theyre mostly pedos, cruel sadistic freaks who got bullied in school, cruel sadistic freaks who were bullies in school and people with a desire for power. I want to punch my dad a lot and make him concerned for me and I want to kick and throw things and declare that I'm not speaking to anyone again and actually going through with it. I really want my parents to realise something is wrong because they never do. Around a month ago my mother took me to see a gp about the potential of myself having autism because I've had multiple school staff in the past just assume I have it because of the way I act, and not do much as, due to my age they assume I've already been diagnosed. On the ride home she told me about how much she believes I shouldn't seek a diagnosis even if it would benefit me. I do have to agree with her, if I got diagnosed I'd probably kill myself. My mother insists I should just pray and ill magically loose my struggles.

Anyway, I've just been really fantasising about causing damage to myself and others in order to elicit concern from the people around me. Hurting old friends, teachers, family(but never my brother). I really want to hurt them badly and make them feel forced to do something and worry about if I'm stable or not.

I don't know why because it's an odd desire. I really wish I could just talk to them but we aren't that kind of family.

I just wish I could be listened to, nobody cares to hear me and I don't express my issues because I don't want to be serious with my parents as its uncomfortable. I will never succeed. I have no desire to do anything with my life. No desire to make friends or do anything that doesn't concern my like 2 interests and no interest in contributing.

TW: sexual assault

may 6th, 2023 i was sexually assaulted. i didn’t think i was in a dark place, until i saw my playlists. im goth and generally like rock and 80s music and goth music, but the weeks/months after i was assaulted, i was listening to black and death metal. it’s small, but that was the lowest ive ever been

i’ve been doing good and bad honestly. mentally it’s been fucking rough. lately, reliving it is all i’ve been able to do. there’s been times at work where i randomly remembered it and i had to go to the bathroom to cry and have a small panic attack

i’ve only told two of my friends, no one in my family knows and none of my coworkers know, but they know when ive been crying

this may 6th is my one year reminder and i work on that day. i don’t know if i should take the day off so i can be alone or if i should work so i can be distracted.

how do i cope with something i don’t want to acknowledge?

I'm [32M] from the US, I have a bit more free time than I'd planned and I wanted to spend helping someone else. I'm free to chat for an hour or two, this invitation is open to anyone, man, woman, blue or green, and everyone inbetween, if you need to vent I won't offer judgment or advise unless you ask. I'm willing to answer questions so long as they're respectful and within reasonable comfort.

Talk to me

My family has been hurting me and from 2 days I have been very hurt by them. Not hurting me like intentionally or anything else, but I don't know how to say it...i feel very lonely. Today, I just couldn't stop crying about it... wanted to give up too. There was no call from a family member for me today and I didn't get an invite for food, yesterday and today was a celebration, but did invite others in the family. Also on the other hand I feel that they resent me so much that they don't care about my feelings or let alone my life. It's really sad that I have been very loving to my family and all they do is hurt me. Sorry if this doesn't make sense. Thanks for reading.

Update: They did call me today to come and take food. I got the food and ate it too. They are not so unkind, but I am very sensitive unfortunately.

“[l]” Need someone to vent and be vented to about feelings of anxiety and hating yourself. I take medications for anxiety but I still can’t sleep because the voices won’t go away

I’ll try to keep it short or else my crackhead brain will just rant on…. Putting it up here first…. I’m a loser and a fuck up who couldn’t keep a good woman in my life when things were good. Worst when it got bad I steadily let it get worse. So I heartedly accept having to live with this… crawling. Yearning to fight for the missing part of my soul… And I’m a fighter! I don’t give up and never want to….

It’s different this time around because she expressed clearly her boundaries “AS Friends” is where she’d like to label us as she needs black and white clear convictions. No sex and nothing relationship type. And she’ll always be there for me . Normally I don’t roll over easily, not ever,

But I’m really coming into perspective and am well aware of house much I hurt her and how many lines I crossed along with much she gave herself to me. So at the very least I will put my soul into repeating her not only as the wonder she is but her wishes and boundaries.

I die inside day by day her I miss her voice, her touch , Her big brown eyes . And the warm knowing her presses always near. So I don’t wanna to contact everyone emotional swing I go through, and ranting dumb shit because I can’t say how I really feel. She’s been doing so much better and I’m sinking lower and lower day by day know that I can’t be selfish and the best way I can help is to let her thrive

We meet up for a movie few days ago and it like first day when I met her, joyful to say the least, hugged goodbye but I still really never wanted to let go. I felt my convictions confirmed when she had told me she’s meeting up people at.concert venue. Something wed always do together.

I had good news today and the only person I can think of or even want to tell is her. But I’m too emotional and know I’ll break… this is never like me . But this Time around it ain’t about me . Tell me I’m doing right by her. I’d sufffer lifetimes if it means her happiness . I will always love her i wont stop and if this is my punishment, ill live with it for her ......Some one . Anyone

All I have is my shitty job! I have no girlfriend, No friends and I’m living at the city that I hate so much! I’ve been working on myself a lot by going to college and it getting overwhelming and I still have to take several classes and I’m not even sure I’m gonna graduate….! I hate myself to extreme level because of my fucking autism and I push myself into becoming more social and accepting myself and going to the gym and eating better but that lead to no where because I still doesn’t have the social life that I desire!

I even tried therapy but I hate it and it was garbage and I tried different one like four times and they just gave me some generic advice! I really hate my fucking life so much because I’m gonna be stuck at my shitty ass job to pay some fucking bills and it making me lose more sanity!

A lot going through my head that I just need to talk about.

Contrary to my account I’m not looking for anything nsfw/fwb or boyfriend. I just need an interesting casual conversation with a man with a kind soothing voice, think of ephemeral rift. Hack I even tried to commission a voice call from him but he said he doesn’t accept commissions. 😩 My 30th birthday is in few days please make me less sad I beg you!!! I need someone interesting to voice call so Fking bad!! I tried to commission every artist I found interesting on instacrack but they all said they don’t do voice call 😞😞😞😞😞💔💔

Names Quinn I'm from Canada I'd love to listen to you, any age or gender :)

Hello! 👋 Just reaching out if anyone needs any help with anything don't hesitate to reach out! Happy to help any way that I can. 😊

Hey everyone, I hope you are all doing well. I'm feeling some guilt.

A bunch of days ago, I was on r/teenagers, and I came across a lonely person on there, and I offered to be his friend. I looked on his post history and I could tell how lonely he was, he posted on friendship-related subreddits asking for a friend and no one replied, and I couldn't help but feel bad for him.

The reason why I'm feeling guilty is because I found out he was 25 and on a subreddit meant for teens, and I reacted and stopped speaking to him. I feel guilty because I feel like I've done nothing but contribute more to his loneliness. It could be possible that his desperation for a friend led to him going to that sub in the first place, from what I can see.

I don't know if I should mention the person's username or not, but if I could, I'd do so and ask for people here to send him messages of emotional support or something. I honestly don't know if I'm right or wrong in this situation, because seeing anyone suffer from loneliness and have no one to turn to just breaks my heart.

I'd like to know your thoughts on this complex situation. Thanks for reading, you beautiful human beings.

TLDR: I’m dying alone and that’s it.

I know no one could give two shits but oh well here I go. I know that when it’s all said and done, when I’m finally dead, no one will care. I’m a lonely, miserable cunt bag who can’t be a decent social person for 5 minutes. No one other than my family loves me, even then its only close family which consists of 7 people max. I know what will happen towards the end of my life. Everyone I know will die or forget me and I die alone. That’s all. I know I won’t make more friends or find a partner. No matter what anyone says, the lines of “everything happens for a reason” or “good things will always come after bad things” are pure lies made by those who are more fortunate. Every time I see people out with people with someone else they are clearly happy and content with, I feel hollow and jelous. I want someone to love me, but I know I don’t deserve it. I’m a horrible person so maybe this is a punishment.

There are many things in my life that I wish were different, but since my childhood I never felt like I was a lucky person with good parents or someone that could enjoy life. Everything I do to try and improve my life seems to never work and I end up just making it worse. I don't see any reasons to stay alive anymore but I'm not brave enough to end it, so I just wish I could stop existing. I'm posting here because I don't want to feel like this and I know I'm not lucky enough to randomly die today. I know there are kind people out there and maybe a kind word could at least stop me from crying again.

Men don't get checked on enough or have enough people care about them, so that's all.

I'm a 26 M and don't know how to progress in life. I've always felt like I'm just not cut out for it.

But I've never been able to keep friends, and the few times in my life I did have friends, (years ago now) they all ended up either hard or soft ghosting me, usually ghosting me amongst themselves while they continue to talk and be friends. It's left me in a position where I constantly think about people who were socially better than myself, and I wonder what they're up to, even though they definitely don't think about me and have most likely even better lives than they did while I knew them, and was able to see it for myself.

I've tried therapy multiple times, I never get anything out of it or feel like the therapist really cares, although I don't do a good job of explaining myself either. Any more therapy has a year-long wait-list, and that's with expensive insurance. My dad died when I was young, and he was an asshole before that. I live with my mom still, who I've never gotten along with or had an emotionally honest conversation with, and I'm nowhere in the universe of financially close enough to be able to move out. This means that every day is extremely stressful for me, at the best of times, and somehow my home is both my default place to be but also my worst.

Several years ago, I met a woman on Reddit who kindly messaged me after reading a sad post of mine, and we became fast friends largely because she was the only person to give me positive reinforcement and kindness, I think. She's a social worker/therapist so she pretty much knew exactly what to say to me, I guess. Over about a year though, I was unhinged enough that she one day cut off all contact with me suddenly, and this destroyed me even further. I was already in a bad place but just got even worse somehow. I felt like she abandoned me, like all my other friends across my life. To be clear, I never threatened her or anything, I just came across as unstable over text chat, because I was.

Over the course of our friendship, she sent me a bunch of, basically, platonic letters of positive encouragement, and those notes are genuinely the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me. Basically telling me about my good qualities she saw in me and that I'm worth it. She also included her phone number in one of the notes, and at another low point about eight months ago, I texted that number with a brief apology for how I treated her. First she lied saying the number wasn't hers, and I said okay, then she texts back saying that she lied because I made her feel unsafe, and that if she ever hears from me again she'll call the cops. I said ok and that I'm sorry I made her feel that way. Then, for the only time so far in my life, I threw up out of stress and grief, the feeling of being abandoned all over again by someone I really trusted, and that had a unique connection with me. I try to keep her out of my mind, but I fail every day, usually first thing in the morning. Even though she hates me, and I think that hatred is undeserved, I genuinely hope she's doing well and helping others, because my experience with her was positive enough that it's somehow still the best thing that's ever happened to me. That feeling combined with the guilt of making the world a darker place is a really potent mood-killer.

Both because of my life of social failure and whatever else makes me just not competent like most others, I can't seem to go forward with life at all. I hate any school experience and job I've ever had. I still like the idea of friends but would probably be terrible at actually maintaining friendships and wouldn't want to do it. Somewhat similarly, I'm open to the idea of dating but wouldn't want to date most people because of our discrepancy in experiences, although this will be the least of my problems lol. I remember, years ago at university when I had some friends, the friend I spent the most time with said he doesn't really like me, so much as the idea of me. He meant that I was pretty boring (he wasn't the only friend then to call me boring, they were right then and people would be right now to say the same thing) and didn't contribute much to a group dynamic, but that I was also easy to get along with and do whatever the other person wanted. Now, I don't have any more personality than I used to, but I guess I am a little more cynical and stubborn.

I used to think that all knowledge and experiences make their survivors stronger eventually, but now I just wish I could forget the people I used to know and the awkward experiences and abandonment I've gotten from them. Genuinely forgetting doesn't seem to be an option though. So how do I move forward with a life and at least do the bare minimum to help those around me?

Hey, all you beautiful people. Right now, I'm feeling very sad and lonely at the moment.

This may sound cliche, but I don't have much friends. I looked at myself several times, and questioned why no one would want me, I care so much about the feelings of others, and I comfort people, even people here on Reddit, people I barely even know, but I still help them, because I can't just watch someone suffer and do nothing.

I blame my friendlessness on me being an introvert, and as much as I can be introverted, it really hurts me that I can't make connections with others. Last night, I was crying over this, and over the times where people have hurt me. I even just wanted a hug, and I still do.

I'm feeling very alone right now, and I feel like I won't be having friends because there's not many people in my generation that are like me, kind and compassionate, even if there are good people in my age group, I don't know where or how to find them.

I came here because this sub is like an online home to me, a place where I show love and kindness to others, and I hope that it's shown to me as well.

I appreciate any kindness shown to me, it's really what I need right now. Thank you for reading.

Hey there,

I'd call round one as successful as it could be, got to talk and listen to some great people so we're back at it!

If you need:

To Vent Advise Simply to scream into the abyss Somewhere with no Judgement

My Dm's are open to anyone and everyone that needs to use them, If any opinion or advice is requested it will always be honest and advice with only be given to the extent I'm comfortable with.

I know, I know. I did a bad thing. I’m not proud of it. I just really did like her and it turned out we had liked eachother long before she even had this girlfriend. I just wish I had said something earlier. I didn’t intend to become the other man. It was very “one thing led to another”.

But in short, she chose to stay with her girlfriend and while I’m getting better, I’m still devastated. She and I are still friends. She’s a great person even if she did a not so great thing. But I still really like her and I really don’t know what to do and I’d like to talk to someone about it. I want to get over her, I just am hyperfixated and am having that “what if there’s no one else” feeling and also just the general impatience of not wanting to wait.

This is the second time in a row I’ve been in a situationship that went nowhere. And I just feel like garbage.

Some topics I want to discuss include sexuality and female biology, so it's best if you're OK with those. I can also provide a listening ear and support you back. I AM NOT LOOKING FOR SEXTING PARTNERS. Strictly platonic friendly conversation ONLY. If we hit it off well, I'd love to be friends down the line, but if not, I'm grateful for a listening ear even just this once.

I’m trying to not cry as I type this but I feel like a complete and utter failure in life at this stage. I have no friends. Nobody. I did before but they moved and I moved to a different city. We drifted apart.

I tried making friends here, I really did. But it’s so, so difficult to meet my people here. I feel a disconnect all the time. It’s worse when I crave adventures and feeling alive. I see amazing events so often and my heart aches to go have the time of my life but I have absolutely nobody to go with. These could have been incredible experiences but instead they all turned out to be the saddest disappointment because of how lonely and how much of a loser they made me feel. I tried going alone before but it felt so bad and lonely and it’s just not for me.

You don’t understand how much I want a go to person or persons to call when I hear about that great band touring. How much I just want to feel anticipation and excitement instead of shame and sadness when I see that amazing opportunity. How much I just want my people to hop on these experiences with me that easily.

I’m so tired and sad of feeling this way. But I don’t know what to do. I just miss having company to make memories with so much. It’s been too long since I’ve been happy.