I noticed a disturbing trend of "simple" people using the term "woke" as a slur. I always understood the concept of "woke" as enlightenment when I heard it. I am the various trolls what they mean by"woke". Only one was capable of responding and he babbled about liberal people. I think his English was sketchy and he was probably a St Petersburg troll.

Personally, I think the whole attacking enlightenment thing came from Russia. They are pretty backwards there.

Doubt me. Criticize me. Cry all you like. It won't change the reality that I'm one of the few people alive who've experienced enlightenment. I'm not fake humble like so many others because I haven't a good reason to be. If you can get over that and genuinely have anything you want to ask or discuss I'll gladly engage with the sincere among you.

I’m laughing at how silly it all is that I suffered as much I did.

I am not enlightened. I did experience it for about a day after heavy meditation and introspection. But it got lost and to be honest, I felt a bit psychotic and it scared me so I’m not trying to get back there yet.

I still dedicate myself to being a better person anyway. And I keep clashing with my boyfriend. It gets to the point where I don’t feel respected. I get mad and I say why I feel so mad even if he’s said sorry. He gets (scared I’m guessing) that I don’t initially accept his apology, freaks out, tries to flip it to me (I shut that down) and calls me names and manipulates me.

I cannot for the life of me see who is wrong, I keep getting convinced I’m not but to be mad at who you love is the domino that starts this all, but then my feeling surrounding lack of general courtesy from him to me are there only after he has fucked up. The fuck ups are all according to him, not purposefully directed at me but mistakes where he doesn’t give me basic courtesy. They can be big and small. And my patience is getting thin. But I also can’t help but feel, what if I just didn’t get mad at the mistakes. We all make mistakes. What if this is my problem, why leave someone I love if I can be better.

But then the ego??? Of me, says well I deserve to be respected and not have my boundaries crossed, mistake or no mistake.

How do you guys look at your relationship clashes and handle things when your emotions take over?

I feel iam slowly letting go of the puer identity. Maybe? But it had been hard as f...k! Now i believe i know why so many people remain puerish.

—I work a job and take on stress and responsabilities.5 years ago i would just quit and get some excuse... Today i feel tempted to do it, but i think in reality i cant avoid stress and responsabilities forever. This fight is getting less intense over the years, and even the Sunday blues look not so sad.

-i have a son. It scared me to death when he was born. I had some hard time interacting with him, cause i felt i was not a good parent and i had more important things to do . I became cold and angry. I was no longer the center of attention and my needs were not so important anynore. Today i would give my life for him, but sometimes i still feel like he is taking my place and peace .

—my wife never eased things for me. She keeps saying to me to grow up and take responsability... To man up. There was a time i felt attacked by her and not respected... But slowly i saw i was just running from my life and being arrogant and self centered i guess. I was not used to take care of others.

These last years had been intense. Getting responsabilities and grow up when you ve been shielded all your life its really messed up and frikin hard. I ve been depressed great part of my life, triggered by the harsh reality of life and feeling unable to cope.

I believe this happens when you are shielded from reality, and there is a lack of true father figure, lack of true teacher of life .

Even today, sometimes i think about running away, find a 20 yo lover, buy a sports car, live in the seashore and be self employed. I recognize this fantasy as escape mechanism.

With this I mean a sudden emotional epiphany which triggered a sudden realisation and caused the release of many emotions/trauma and which 100% surely enlightened you in the sense of complete loss of suffering? I do not mean people who are (think/feel?) Enlightened or close to enlightenment but those that KNOW they are, there is a big difference.

I had a amazingly detailed and long dream last night that I thought I would share (happy for any interpretations ).

It was in four parts:

PART ONE

I was sitting at a bench eating lunch with my husband. As we were eating I remarked that I had made a nice meal for the family using a Daikon radish whilst he was away and that I will try to make it again for him sometime to get his opinion on it (we've had Daikon once before and hated it).

I realised that we were actually sitting in the fruit and vegetable shop that I had bought it in and I pointed to the box that they were in, but the box was almost empty.

PART TWO

I was shopping with my two children (F19, M15), we had just finished an my daughter asked if we could go into a game arcade. She had been looking up some things on the internet about a game she was playing on her nintendo and she said that if she connected the game to the arcade that a special event would occur given where she was at in the game and how she had progressed her characters. My son was fine with hanging around in the arcade for an hour so I agreed and went up to the store operator to pay.

My daughter then ordered a cheeseburger and drink which I thought was odd because we had just eaten but I shrugged and started to pay. The operator then said that they only accept Euros so as the kids went into the arcade I struggled to find Euros in my purse, tipping out all the coins to sieve through them. The operator seemed to be enjoying my anxiety in trying to find the money. Eventually he seemed to not care and I went about trying to find my kids.

PART THREE

I tried to call my kids but neither of them picked up their mobile. The arcade was huge, it was actually across from the city on an island that a lot of people visited. As I couldn't see them I thought I could jump on a helicopter that was nearby, go to the top of the mountain on the island and then backtrack to meet them as they were coming up the mountain.

I hopped into the helicopter and asked, slightly begging if they could take me up to the top so that I could reconnect with my children. They relented and I hopped in and it immediately took off. We got to the top of the mountain quickly and then started moving over to the other side.

I saw an exhibition that a lot of people visited there, it was called something like 'the monkey in the middle', where a real monkey was trapped with hedges on either side of it and in front and behind it were two humans in knight outfits on horses. The monkey was scared. I felt nothing looking at the scene other than slight disgust at so many people watching over this poor monkey's angst. This real life exhibition was in perpetual motion (ie always running).

As I was absorbed in the exhibition I didn't notice that the helicopter had turned and was making its way back into the city. Alarmed I realised I had missed my opportunity to get back to my kids and now the helicopter continued further into the city so I was further away from them.

PART FOUR

So I buckled up that I would need to walk there and made my way through the city and to the bridge to the island. As I approached the bridge it was currently flooded with water, unable to be passed so I waited for the water to clear and then I made my way onto it. Part way across the bridge I started to worry about whether I would make it fully across by the time that the waters came back.

I noticed one of the hotel trams, these 3x3m glass boxes used by the hotels on the island to ferry guests around and hopped onto one. The attendant on the tram was a little miffed but didn't say anything and we continued at speed across the bridge.

We rounded the first big corner of the island on the first of the main exhibitions came into few. I drew my breath in, surprised at such beauty. Off the coast of the island, in the water was a massive coral rock. It was freeform, illuminated from within in bright white and blue, its internal structure visible to all as if it was under a microscope. It was huge - two train lengths long and 3-4 stories high. People were climbing on it, looking like ants.

We went around the second corner and the premier exhibition, also over the water came into few. This time I swore out aloud and nearly cried. It came in two parts - the first, on the right hand side was a miniature galaxy, filled with millions of lights reflected on the water. It was probably 2-3 stories high and no longer than a train length (but ran longer as it moved away from the island). To its left was a huge wave, perpetually cresting and never falling. The wave was the same size and was bright white and light blue. The scene was so beautiful words could barely describe it.

Thoughts of my children had long ago stripped away from my mind. As I looked in the other direction, back into the island I was mildly annoyed by all the gaudy restaurants and souvenir shops.

DREAM END

Context for interpretation:

1. I am partway through my awakening/enlightment and have been on this journey very deeply for five months now

2. My partner has been throughout all of this incredibly supportive, never wavering

3. My children scoff a little at my journey, are partly embarrased by it and dont show any interest in it themselves. I would love them to, but I know I can't push it on them otherwise they will be turned off completely

What do you think it meant?
My thoughts:

1. The time of me needing my husband's support is coming to an end (where vegetables represents nourishment)
2. In my enlightenment journey I have to be happy of leaving my children behind
3. In my enlightenment journey I cant jump up fast and ahead, but when I take the standard route a faster pathway will come
4. The wave and galaxy felt like a yin-yang representation afterwards (light and dark beauty)
5. I will get there and I will see many beautiful things on my journey

Through out life we use our free will to create vibration through physical acts imagination choosing to feel an emotion etc. when we create or step into a vibration through free will our spiritual mind immediately see vibrations of similar caliber (law of attraction) and we in general bring these vibrations to our being. The catch is the spiritual mind can become inspired by the vibrations like this vibration lets me express myself or this vibration gives me meaning or I should feel guilty for this vibration.

Once inspired the percentage of the spiritual mind that is inspired holds that vibration. Because it is a portion of the total being or mind(that which manifests) it effects that which manifests in your life. Another way to look at it is because it is a section of your being that gives off vibration it brings that vibration into your physical and mental life.

When we run into the shadow or deal with mental illness we are channeling parts of our spiritual mind that are negatively inspired to hold a vibration. When we physically become aware of these vibrations we work them out and get to the bottom of it thus stopping its negative manifestation power.

I feel every opinion I have could be hypocritical. Everything seems like opinions. I know there are facts, like statistics and the like but everything socially seems like opinions. I feel like people just judge immediately and don’t see other people as a person who is complex and may have different motives than the ones they place onto them. I don’t know if people around me currently think that deeply and it kind of scares me. See what I just said was hypocritical. It’s just hard. I don’t enjoy being around a lot of people because it is physically draining. Especially when I have to be around people who I know for a fact think of me as dumb. It’s not that I don’t want them to think that way, it simply sucks to be in their presence. It’s also really sad to see people opening expressing something and being able to see exactly how they think. Again a hypocritical statement. Can I even know anything absolutely? Idk just thinking and wanted some opinions.

I have come to a conclusion I should just stop thinking about this because to me it seems you will never fully understand someone or why they do things. You cannot stop being perceived until you have the luxury of doing so. I still want opinions tho cause I’m curious.

Edit: Thank you guys! I am going to look further into Buddhism. Also the phrase “those who judge do not understand and those who understand don’t judge” really stuck with me. I appreciate all of your comments!!

The only concept of perfection is nothing. I will elaborate nothing in this world makes sense the only thing that makes sense is Nothingness. It is peace. It has infinite potential and has no property to minimize or maximize. This might be a mind rant so consider it to be salt for the mind if not a sour apple sour patch.

Today I had a small panic attack, I saw myself trapped in this body&mind and in this ugly society. I thought of myself just like a rat spinning on a wheel.

So I began panicking and out of nowhere my intuition told me with a very soothing calm and feminine voice “you have to live trough this life for growth, everything is going to be fine, trust god and trust yourself” and I said “yes… you’re right” then closed my eyes and relaxed and I felt a tingling troughout my body like asmr/orgasm that was very intensive and long lasting and my panic attack just disappeared.

I was so out of touch with my intuition and my feelings because of innatentive ADHD and marijuana abuse and today I took meds that allowed me to relax and focus and meditate.

Something that I've found to be very helpful is writing down the quantity of every bad action I do. I have a list in Notes that contains all the bad habits I want to cut off completely, such as swearing, missing prayers, complaining, acting on anger (shouting, sulking), etc. As soon as I do one of these actions, I write it down. I've been doing this since last year, and I've basically completely stopped swearing, I do my prayers on time, and I complain a lot less. By complaining, I'm talking about even the small things like complaining about it raining outside or getting a bit late to work. I have to admit, though, the complaining and anger management has decreased, but there are some spikes at times. Overall, I'm trying to work on these things that I've listed and some other things until I attain the character that I want. I should also mention another thing that I do is something called disonor. How that works is whenever I say I'll do something or I tell someone I will do something and I don't keep my word, I write it down and I have to do 10 good things as a repercussion. I thought maybe this could help some people trying to work on their character.

Nonduality is crazy. Which is a concept

There is no one to attain anything. You are already that which is attained. The only thing you possible can do is be.

The only thing left is to lose identification with what you think you are. Then you realise that you can't lose identification what what you are since you are already that which is attained

Desire Is an illusion because everything is complete. You already have everything you need because you can't have anything other than that which you are. Which is everything.

There is only what's happening, because there can't be anything other than that. It's just one infinite experience of diversity.

You can't attain anything, because you are already that which is attained. It's just completion. Unity and wholeness. Since that is all you can be.

Only thing that's possible is to experience. Because that's all that is. Infinite experience.

Nothing is everything. That's the only way it can be. Because there is no other way to be. Completion and wholeness. That's it.

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I'm curious about the pace of everyone's journey. I have noticed over the last couple of years when I started having epiphanies and putting pieces of THE puzzle together that I almost always go through periods of pretty intense learning & growth, which are always followed by periods where I need to just drop it and "touch grass" because it's so jarring and disorienting. I grasp it as it comes, but I tend to get overwhelmed. I've never talked to anyone about it, so I assume this is at least somewhat common, but I'm curious about your journey. Do you tend to follow my wave-like pattern or do you find that you are on a gentle slope that you can just stay on? The way I think about it is that the "pauses" I go through are just periods of time where I am integrating the knowledge, getting in touch with who I am, etc. I do plenty of meditating during these periods but I do not intentionally seek more. The other interesting part about my experience is that I don't think I choose much. It's like the universe puts new things in front of me, when I'm ready. I don't remember the last time I intentionally searched out something, new ideas/concepts/information whatever you want to call it tend to come to me naturally and then I follow that stretch of the path until I need to find a log to sit on and "recover". I'm genuinely to hear about your path and what the pace of your walk is like. Cheers.

hi i love watching listening to nice kind people talking in an authentic nice kind way guru in the broad sense of the word btw i love how down to earth he is and i don't get bqd vibes from him at all 🐝 uplifting guy 🩷

While i was in the hospital, shortly after an episode of psychosis. I suddenly felt free from everything. No past, no future just present. I remember feeling no emotions, just love and warmth. Its a state of being i wish i could bottle and experience daily.

Im not sure if it was enlightenment or just the calm after the storm. Following my release from the hospital i started my spiritual journey.

Consciousness is a word used a lot by scientists, philosophers and spiritual seekers.

Scientists equate consciousness to sentience/awareness while not all philosophers and spiritual seekers do.

Some philosophers equate consciousness to language/thinking.

It seems that there are many spiritual seekers who use the word consciousness a lot but aren't operating with a clear definition of what exactly they are talking about. This, I believe, is a hinderance to them on their mission to understand themselves.

I believe that to understand our mind we have to clearly differentiate between our awareness, our thoughts and our external experiences. Therefore it's important to be clear when we talk about these things.

So what do you mean when you use the word consciousness?