I'm AMAB and genderfluid, yet I constantly feel like an invader in queer spaces. Everyone around me even if they're queer seem to make it very apparent that they see me as a man. Telling me I intimidate them due to my deep voice and the vocal fry I have. I get told all the time I'm aggressive even if it isn't hostility and rather my mannerisms/expressiveness. I remember in college I had a large friend group that was pretty diverse in many ways, yet. Somehow I'd be the odd one out regardless when it came to gender, but at the same time treated as if I were a man. The girls making a girls chat separate from ours and only offering me to join after I had said to them it feels like they all see me as a man. It felt more out of pity than genuine inclusion. When I'm at work spaces with queer people it just feels like I'm left off to the side as a cishet man. I constantly feel like an invader. When I dress femininely I truly feel like a wolf in sheep's clothing. People make me feel as if I'm some kind of monster waiting to attack. I'm very apologetically myself a lot and it feels so terrible when I work with kids and upon seeing on my nametag that I have different pronouns or when a kid asks "are you a boy or a girl" and I respond "sometimes" and their parent comes in and ushers them away.

Nobody in my family really respects my sense of gender, my current job has a boss who is transphobic and doesn't understand gender nonbinaries, he even lectured me about wearing a skirt in the shop. It just feels like I'm always going to be an outsider and incapable of fitting in yet I'm being shoved into niches I don't belong. Like a wild horse being broken so others can ride and work it how they want. I look in the mirror and I don't see the androgynous beauty that people claim I have, instead I see this disheveled rat of a man. People constantly tell me I'm sketchy, I look like a criminal, I look like a drug dealer. That's all I see when I look at myself. I'm probably focusing on the negatives but I get insulted more than I get complimented. I constantly wish I could move from my village, go back to college and make new friends, go to the city where there's more to do and more people to connect with, a new country and start over. Yet I genuinely think I'm going to be an outcast everywhere I go whether it be my identity, my ideologies, my nonconformity, or my personality. I feel like I'm too much for everyone but not enough for myself. It is getting so bad that I'm losing all sense of who I am and am struggling to cling to different parts of my identity and it just feels like I have to go back into the closet and conform in order to get any sense of acceptance yet if I can't be who I am and be loved for it, what is the point to continue. I'm tired of hearing "it'll get better, everything will be okay" because it just seems so obviously false considering at this point my entire life has been like this. There's so much more I struggle with but that is all kind of outside of gender stuff so It feels inappropriate to talk about here. But I just needed some place to see if others also feel like a wolf in sheep's clothing to others in queer spaces and also to vent a bunch of my frustration.

TLDR; Being amab makes me feel like an invader in queer and woman social groups and I definitely notice social discrimination and I'm sick of people seeing me as a monster.

I've just recently given myself the patience to realize I'm NB. I've always felt alienated from my body and didn't want to accept that being more than just cis AMAB was part of me, especially because my body and presentation is pretty masc. But due to a number of unfortunate cosmetic situations (alopecia, growing a sick fuckin beard) I've realized I pushed myself into an excessively masc look and just don't feel comfortable. I know gender dysphoria is probably gonna feel like a part of existence, but how I express myself in a way that feels more comfortable in terms of being NB?

so im pretty sure im bigender but i am kinda 'eh' on what to do name wise, for now im going by gabe(Gabriel) which is my legal/masc name, but while i was figuring shit out and thought i was fully female i went by Iris, and Rime is just a cool word that i realized is a banger gender neutral name

im still attached to all of them so i don't really know what to do with them, ill probably change my middle names to those two, but socially i don't really know how multiple names works, if i was gender fluid it would probably be easier but instead it's just like im all three names at the same time

so like if y'all got any advice that'd be helpful uhh help please

Very basic oversimplified break down of My situation check post profile for the full details and everything if you want:

I accidentally shared a message with my parents about wanting therapy and struggling with body hair dysphoria. They reacted supportively—finding me a therapist, buying a razor, and easing up on haircut comments. However, their suggestions, like wearing dresses, feel overwhelming.

I’m struggling with job hunting, limited funds for feminine clothes, and family pressure to find a “real” job, even though I’ve started a small rock-selling business. I feel both fear and excitement about exploring being trans, but I worry about standing out in my conservative town and how HRT might affect my health (POTS and EDS). My biggest concerns are looking like my mom’s side of the family, becoming physically weaker, and feeling isolated. I’m looking for advice on managing dysphoria, handling emotions, and finding out who can prescribe HRT, and I’m leaning toward wanting to transition.

Explanation ends here.

I need help I don’t have therapy for weeks and I’m struggling so much. My dysphoria get worse by the day I can’t look at myself with being disgusted. I wish it would all could be over soon but I’m so overwhelmed. I keep on realizing things daily about myself which is good but also a lot to handle. I realize I’ve been faking to make my parents think I’m fine. I’m want so much but I don’t know if I have the means to accomplish. I wish I didn’t have to be constantly scared of politics. I want to crack my egg be free of my mask but I’m too much of a wimp to do it. I hate my body it so hairy, gross, masculine, and ugly. I want to be myself. I wish I didn’t have to constantly being in a mental war against myself. I don’t want to sob every day from the fact that I am what I am. I would love to just know for certain that I’m trans. I wish I could have a source of euphoria that would last. I wish I could be like all you beautiful people. I wish I could break the mask. I wish I could be my true self and be loved for it.

I really need advice desperately and would love to hear it. Sorry it was so ranty I was crying the entire time.

Fine, I’ll get the patches I want.

So for whatever personal reasons, I've become quite religious this year (Christian - Church of England). Now, the last thing I want is to start any religious/spiritual beliefs arguments. Just need a lil attire advice. Thing is, I have chronic social anxiety at the best of times, but want to attend services. My problem being, as AFAB, I can not tolerate a bra. At all. So what can I wear to church? On the rare occasions I go outside, it's black leggings with a baggy/oversized tee and hoodie and I just try to pretend I don't have these giant fat globules on my chest. I was thinking I could get away with just baggy but smartish shirts? Oh and btw, dresses/skirts are an absolute no no.

Edit: yes I know i mistyped "arguing", but I'm a Reddit noob and can't fix it 🫢

Hello, I am a high-school senior going to graduate in May. I was wondering if any of you had tips on picking out colleges, especially those that friendly towards people of the LGBTQIA+ community. I've been trying my best to figure out what would be good for me, but its helpful to have ideas to bounce off of. If you have any suggestions, please let me know.

hi, im kind of still a baby enby so i have some questions still

so i was raised around a lot of boys and have certain mannerisms that ive picked up in childhood, the problem is i want to be perceived as more fem some days and was wondering if there is sort of an "equivalence guide" for interacting as a more feminine individual (for example, ive noticed boys do the "nod up for recognition, down for respect" upon greeting each other in passing and i was wondering if there's stuff like that i should know for "feminine interactions")

thanks!!

SOOO, about about 2.5 weeks ago, I started taking Spironolactone and (after talking with my cardiologist as I have had heart problems since I was 12) will be starting on estrogen patches soon. That said, I have told everyone who matters to me about my journey, and I am excited for a new chapter of my life. I still plan on being enby and will still feel as such, I just feel more like a woman than I do a man but mostly just in between if that makes sense (still wrapping my head around everything and how I feel but, yeah.)

ANNYWAY, the problem I am having currently, I'll have to lead with a backstory. I took a job that I was not ready for with a company that I didn't really see value in and a workload that was, honestly, overwhelming for anyone. Without getting into too much detail to dox myself, I worked for a property management company and I took up a higher position and got suckered into managing multiple properties by myself. After multiple impossible situations leaving me a very broken person, I had to leave the job.

After much deliberation between myself and my multiple personalities (I jest...mostly,) I moved in with my mother in her home. I have recently started a business and most of the money I would have spent on rent (I help with other bills to keep it fair.) With the business just starting off the ground, I can't afford the time, effort, and money to move out atm.

I DO want to be open with her about my future, and I would like her to not figure out after my body changes as well as my "natural voice" heightening (I will be taking vocal lessons and I will NOT be talking in my lower dude voice just to hide it, that defeats the purpose, I feel. That, or get suspicious and find out with other evidence. I've been hiding the fact that I am taking the Spiro for the testosterone-suppressing features and saying it is for just one of my new heart meds (which isn't a total lie as it has helped to lower my blood pressure.)

That being said, some MORE context (I'm sorry, I'm almost done, and if you've gotten this far, it's too late to scroll down to the tl;dr so keep reading, darn it.) My late eldest uncle has (had? how does it work with that?) a transdaugther. Her mother, I don't think, gets along with her, not that she matters in my context, but the rest of the family seems to not respect her at all. They do things like dead name her, joke about her, refer to her as a him; you know, all the classic pos behaviour and speech of deep-seated Christian hate. It confuses me because my aunt is perfectly fine with me previously being pansexual (I am now asexual after self-reflection and am only a panromantic,) my sister being bisexual, and yes, even her own granddaughter being bisexual, but to her and the rest of the family it would seem that transpeople are simply lying to themselves and everyone else for the hell of it being "oh so trendy" as if trans-hate isn't big with even some members of LGBTQIA+ community.

I wasn't sure (last paragraph, I promise) if my mother felt the same way but she had been accepting of the pan stuff, so hey, maybe I have a shot? Well, not a week after I started taking Spiro, she had mentioned something about my cousin and in referring to her, unabashedly dead-named her and used air quotes when saying "she." So, right now, I am at a loss. I CAN find a place to move and have the money to do so, but I don't exactly want to incur extra expenses at the cost of my business getting off the ground before it even started. I also don't want to keep things from her. I feel like she might not understand, but will at least try to if it was her own sprog transitioning. The still very terrified little child who incurred abuse from my father and my mother didn't do much to protect me when he was alive, let alone keep her own narcissism in check and make every emotion about her. This was very much evident when I said I was changing my name because I didn't want any part of me to be associated with my "father" and she cried and tried to tell me not to because she "picked the name, too," subsequently disregarding what a name change really meant for me both for my cptsd and for my desire to start on estrogen as some point.

What do I do? Do I hide it, or roll the dice and tell her and hope I don't get forced out of the house? What do I say and how do I say it? Do I wait until we're in public or alone at home? I HAD thought about waiting until my sister and her kids come to visit but I don't want to make it a big spectacle either... HALP PLX.

tl;dr I want to tell my mother about taking estrogen but I am afraid her trans-hate might show and I will be forced to find somewhere else to live and it is causing me to have a panic attack. Thanks.

Enby here for about 5 months now. I’ve found I really like skirts. My in-laws who I currently live with have voiced concerns about going outside in public. I have a beard and still look quite male. I know they’re concerned about safety, but I feel they’re more concerned about what the neighbors will think of them, which feels pretty homophobic. I want to be safe, but also the skirts make me feel good. Maybe they also need time to adjust? Idk

I've been playing watch dogs legion and customized this character as much as I could and kinda want to be them is this normal?

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For some context my parents are supportive but I have never actually discussed many lgbtqia+ topics with them. I'm not sure how they would react to me asking for a binder. They might think I'm going two far with socialy transitioning for my age. I also don't know if they would let me get one because they don't want me messing up my back or something. Also if you have any other ways to chest bind that would be appreciated.