I keep coming back to this subreddit. Since I was 15, I always looked for new experiences, but more succinctly, more ways to escape. I've been to rehab 6 times, and I found an AA home group that is awesome. What I've learned about people who seek drugs is that they are creative, sensitive and unique. Often a little different, and that can be hard. To everyone here, embrace what makes you different and use that unique energy to contribute to life. Everyone here has something special. Addicts and alcoholics are by far and away the coolest people I've ever met. Love you all. Just wanted to offer encouragement to anyone struggling with anxiety and depression. Know that we usually aren't able to see ourselves the way others see us. If we could, we'd probably feel a lot better about ourselves.

Hi. I’m on iPhone, sorry guys.

I’m 18. I mainly drink, ofc that za, but I just need to get this off my chest, since I’m so shamed out about it.

So last night, I got drunk, and me and a friend somehow ended up outside looking for a buyer. There are hella tweakers plus people we know that are on the streets close to where I’m staying, so we gave it a shot. Not our first time. But, somehow, we ended up at a strangers apartment. They were older men, maybe late 30s or 40s, and then some chill 21 yr old who tagged along with us (all randoms) Me and my friend ended smoking some dope with one of the older guys, I don’t know why, but I just did. I took way more than she did, and I made some very bad judgment calls. I ended up back at my friends, in the bathroom with the man who gave me the dope, because for some reason I was really feeling him.

We did some things I’m not proud of at all. In my head at the time, I was having fun. Afterwards, I made it seem like I did not give a fuck, like it wasn’t a big deal to me what I did. But honestly, I feel I made the worst decision of my life. I feel like everyone on our streets are going to find out, and I’ll be seen as “easy”. I know I’m bound to run into him again, since I met him so close to where I’m staying, and I don’t ever want to see him again. I feel like I was somehow taken advantage of. I made a fool out of myself, telling him I loved him and other dumb shit like that, being horny and high, because I can’t lie and say I didn’t enjoy it. The entire night, I let everybody know that I was down for what I was gonna do with him, I was even making out with him in front of everyone. I would NEVER do that, I am a quiet mentally ill shy girly girl that keeps to herself. I don’t even like men like that. He even said it himself, it’s the dope that made me like that.

So I don’t know how to feel about the whole thing, except the fact I cannot show my face outside ever again. I got with an old man (forgot to mention he told us it was molly at first, I knew it wasn’t, and that when he told me) who hatfished me, and I still went on with it. I’m a literal disgrace. Also to make things worst, I drunk texted the girl I hella like, calling her rude and telling her we could be friends. Embarrassing. And so sad. Just like my life atm. Please leave me some kind words, don’t judge me too hard.

I have only had them 3 times in two days so I had no withdrawal from them. So would it be fine to only have them once a month in one single day?

Got these edibles and just thought they were crazy strong, but after even like a tiny piece I'm crazy high for like six hours and like trembling and nauseous. They do smell and taste like normal edibles, just stronger. Went through the list of shit edibles are typically laced with and nothing matches what they do to me. Is it physically possible for an edible to be that strong without being laced? Are spice laced edibles a thing?

hi, so yesterday i took like 4 suboxone strips i don’t even know how many mg, i dont count. All i know is i snorted two and took the rest orally. Today i wanted to take 25-30mg of hydrocodone, maybe not sure yet. But does suboxone do anything to prevent getting high on other actual opioids? (i’m a dumbass bare with me)

Help me pleeeeeaaaassseee i don’t want to buy a test kit how should I go about testing Molly I also wanted to know if I mix dxm with mdma will I get serotonin syndrome if I do

i ived it since i think it's the only way to properly take drugs that can be taken by iv-ing it

feels way lighter than 4mmc, don't think i would go back to it if i had a choice between any other stimulant, but it's cheap, you don't have to use it every 30 minutes, even 50 mg is enough to get the desired effect, so kinda happy with the experience, but i would definitely be using 4mmc rn if i had a choice, the moment you enject it into the vein feels like heaven on earth, with a-pvp not so much, feels like a coming panic attack, but you feel like absolutely nothing is going to happen to you, sex on a-pvp is nice and almost like 4mmc, but you can get off track really easily, just to talk to the person about your feelings towards them, or tell something you've been meaning to say for a long time, or, if you have ptsd like my girlfriend and i, you can get lost in the flashbacks, but it feels lighter than usual sober flashbacks, you can talk about it easier, i think i even numbed the pain and finally saw the other side of the situation, forgave them and don't feel as much pain, maybe i will use it recreationally if when i'm sober the ptsd part will stay the same as it feels right now (wearing off the last 60-70 mg dose, waiting for the final, and most importantly, my first oral dose of about 0.05 to kick in, idk if it will do anything to me since 4mmc nasally and orally didn't do much after IV, but my veins definitely need a break (for at least a day)

If you too combine weed and benzos recreationally (and preferably been doing it for some time now), what's your dosage and how'd you describe the effects when u r in the peak. (e.g. i'm a daily user and i take around 2-4mg xanax and 2/3g, slightly above average but still mid quality, weed; i do my routine throughout my day so it's typical xanax effects smoothing my Ritalin buzz combo w/ coffee and weed's heavy headedness and zoot effect. but at nights i get to push the extremes a bit more and go for stacking instead of taking over time. so combined with weed maybe even more than i intend to smoke everyday (+4g) and given it's 10/12 hrs after intaking ritalin i get super high and tipsy and very little euphoric.) so i have experienced more intense eras with +10g weed and somewhere varying from 5 to 15 mg xanax or equivalent dosage (not equivalent mass) benzos or zolpidem other times but i take breaks and i am aware everyone's tolerance influences the experience but i really wanna know about your routines and experiences.

Does this just happen to me or do you guys experience this to after doing a decent sized line I exhale through my mouth a little cloud of smoke comes out this can’t just be me that this happens to it’s like ripping a vape for .1 of a second it’s not a big ass cloud but definitely enough to see.

I'm just kind of sad. I'm relapsing on heroin soon. I've organised the drugs, I'm waiting for the dealer to get back to me, and in the meantime I've been preparing for safe injecting and harm reduction.

When I used to use I would raw dog - no filter, random spoon, puddle water, no alcohol swab, shooting up in a random back alley, but now, I really want to do this properly. So, I've gone to the needle exchange, bought everything I could need for a safe use, refreshed myself with safe injection and hygiene practises, and I feel adequately prepared to use.

My dealer gave me the harm reduction talk anyway as I am always down for a harm reduction discussion, and they told me not to use alone.

I just don't have anyone. I live in a fairly small place, and none of my friends would ever, ever want to see me inject. I looked up the Never Use Alone, but I don't live in America - I don't even live in the Northern Hemisphere.

I just feel sad that I don't actually have anyone that I feel safe and comfortable and who would feel safe and comfortable to supervise me using. I'm sure I'll work something out, but I'm just feeling the isolation.

so i like to trip. that is what i do in my spare time. that is what i do when i want to re calibrate my brain. but just as the saying goes, "Curiosity kills the cat". kind of applies to me now. So i smoke a lot of weed. so much weed that i got into debt for doing it. now i have taken various other psychedelics like acid and shrooms and i am incredibly thankful that i did so. one substance in particular that i am starting regret now is this insidious substance called datura. i have heard horror stories about it how it makes people go insane and all of those stories were about someone who would eat the plant. so just be on the safe side (or so i thought) i decided to give it a try. i decided to smoke it. i found some plants growing around as it grows abundantly anywhere. i mixed it with my weed and smoked it. i got super stoned. more stoned in general and i liked it. i completely disregarded that i was putting literally a psychoactive poison in my body that will start to do some brain damage in the next days. the first time i did it and got super high, i did it again the second time and i took more datura flower to get the initial kick. yeah, the tolerance was crazy with this one. i did it daily for a week and yeah could feel some sort of high consciousness opening up. and then i decided to stop it altogether but i was probably hooked on it. it gave me a psychosis episode that lasted for a week. i did it again, repeating the same cycle 3 to 4 times and i was convinced that it is a slow poison eating my brain cells. i started to forget valuable information about things that would benefit my life. with the weed i was already quite complacent but adding this stuff just completely put me off track. that is what it feels like. i am 24 and i got the opportunity to get off weed as i have moved to a new location but i still found the weed and it feels like weed is not weed anymore but rather an adulterated form of it or maybe it was laced to begin with. anyway that is not the main issue. i have been smoking weed for the last 5 years almost every day and i suspect weed can truly have any real negative effect on my well being (apart from the legal issue). but this datura stuff just feels like a slow poison that lingered in my brain days after i last took it. truly it felt like a memory wipe but not in a good way. in an evil way. at this point i spent most of my money on weed addiction for who knows what. that is a story for another post but i truly want to take my time off all this and let my brain heal. i am not against weed but yeah i abused it and it got "evil".

alright the point is datura. now will i be able to recover from this or am i fucked? any tips on how to get better? it feels like i am slowly regaining consciousness. my memory is slowly returning. and also one thing i noted that my whole reality just shifted not in an good way or maybe i am not able to process this or maybe i am just thinking too much. just wanted to get this off my mind and share this with someone who can understand this.

Hello everyone. I’m a 20-year-old male struggling with severe anxiety disorders, depression, panic attacks, and sleep disturbances. I only manage to sleep around 2 hours a day after long attempts to fall asleep and often stay awake for more than 24 hours. I’ve already tried many medications like Quetiapine, Sertraline, Mirtazapine, Zopiclone, and Zolpidem. None of them really worked, except for Mirtazapine, but it was discontinued due to significant weight gain. (I understand these medications take time to work—I went through this process with my doctors and switched medications when one didn’t work.)

I’ve spent a total of six months in psychiatric hospitals, three of which were in closed wards. My panic attacks are becoming more frequent and intense. In the hospital, I was often given 2 mg of Lorazepam as an acute measure, which usually helped to some extent. I’ve had these issues since I was 14 years old. I’m honestly at my limit and just want the panic attacks to subside or to be able to sleep properly.

I’ve already switched psychiatrists three times. I asked two of them if I could eventually be prescribed benzodiazepines as a rescue medication—maybe with a strict limit, like 20 pills per month, to prove I don’t intend to abuse them. My current psychiatrist says such prescriptions are forbidden, even though that’s not true, and another simply refused to consider it.

Does anyone know how I can actually get a prescription? I’m feeling extremely desperate and even considering alternative ways to obtain them.

Ok im 28 year old male. long story short. Im feeling shit. I wanna quit my benzo addiction i take 5mg diazepam almost Daily for past 3 years not regulery but it happens, i do take concerta sometimes mostly nights. I dont know why. I love the feeling of it. So my sleep its chaos. I do have gambling addiction too and sex addiction. Its alot i dont know what to do. I have many preskription of ssri to anti anxitey and sleep. Fuck i dont know what to do😔

So, I took 80mg oxy (feel nothing) an one Klonopin. The thing is, I want to get fcked up and I wonder if it's safer to take more Klonopin or Oxy (3 pills of 20g oxy + 10 naloxone). I will abuse either of them

So I took 2400mg of pain o soma today, felt pretty good after a beer. I know the tolerance shoots up super fast. So I’m wondering when I can enjoy another 1000mg-2000mg without them being weak

the only thing I have available right now other than DXM is these codeine pills the main ingredient is Dihydrocodeine phosphate 30mg in 12 tablets and these other ingredients I don’t know about methylephedrine hydrochloride 50mg Chlorpheniramine maleate 8mg Anhydrous Caffeine 90mg (in 12 tablets)

I usually take 30 tablets and it gets me high but not too high that I can’t function. I used to take 15 tablets and it would make me high but my tolerance has increased significantly since then . But I was just wondering if the other ingredients in the tablets okay? and how much should I take?

how to find dlrs near me, did telegram cancelled that feature or i just don’t know to use the app, btw don’t hit me up offering me shipping or something not interested, subreddit seems to be full of bots

So im a fucking aussie and trying some new shit. For me weed dealing is the way. I love weed and even better selling it. I need you guys to teach me the basics of selling weed, and the basic terms like mix, eighth, ounce, oz, strains, that shit. How to obtain weed(like wtf do I even ask the dealer).

i have 2 "Acetaminophen and Hydrocodone Bitartrate 325 mg / 5 mg" and 1 "Tramadol Hydrochloride 50 mg" (pills), prescribed from an operation i had, but i saved a few pills knowing they can be a little silly.. however i do take various other substances such as muscle relaxers / spasmolytics, i read they can interact with one another and id rather not have that happen on a first try. should i wait until everything else is out of my system? or is it too little to even try doing anything?

phenylpropanolamine is a sympathomimetic norepinepherine releasing agent present in OTC decongestant formulations. as so, it increases heart rate, blood pressure, alertness, memory, and focus.

it is primarily peripherally acting due to its structure, but still has a slight stimulant effect on the cns.

interestingly enough, it has two unique interactions with adenosinergics, particularly caffeine and theophylline.

we’re all very familiar with caffeine—centrally acting stimulant which exerts its actions through adenosine receptor antagonism. studies have found that phenylpropanolamine significantly increases the concentration of caffeine—a study cited on its wikipedia page says it increases it by 4x, though i can’t really find the full text for the study.

another study also states it decreases theophylline clearance by 50%. theophylline is a minor metabolite of caffeine, and is also an adenosine receptor antagonist.

decided to see it for myself and jesus christ, i am zooted. started with a small dose of both (50mg phenylpropanolamine + iced latte) and i am very awake and alert. don’t feel any euphoriant effects but will continue to experiment with this combination.

try at your own risk because of the very apparent possibility of heart complications

bored af, if anyone is up for sharing experiences, giving advices etc hit me up, can’t seem to find anyone who isn’t asleep…

I have 2 300mg gaba, 2 30mg codeine, and 5 1mg xanax left . I'm not sure what or how I should mix them together. I've hear that everyone says gaba goes good with pretty much anything. but I don't know which combo would be give me the best high. AND YES IK MIXING IS ALWAYS DANGEROUS. Any help would be nice just so I dont die or fuck up my high cause I'm mixing them anyways so I would just love some feedback. no hate much love.

I know someone who is definitely abusing GHB and I am a strong believer of “everything in moderation” however this person believes that there are no drawbacks to abusing GHB as much as they are. I’m talking close to 2-3ml squirts every day, sometimes even 6ml when it’s a night out with friends, but I want to stress that it’s EVERY DAY. In the morning, before work even.

Obviously this cannot be good for their health and as much as I try to tell them I believe they’re going down a very dark and lonely path if they continue. I’d also like to add that when GHB is not readily available they will start craving a drink. So there’s that.

Please help. What are the dangers if they continue with this behaviour? How does long term use of GHB affect an individual? Can they die from this?

I know it's always has helped me, but lately I have been having low blood pressure at night, and I smoke at night, and I've had two times in which I had nausea due to that and both times it was fine until I smoked the last bits

I have to put tobacco bc it's not flower, maybe the tobacco next to the filter is messing with me?

I don't wanna puke again 😭

I am going back to my house with my parents and my friend gave me this fruity pebbles kind of rice krispy edible to help me go to sleep and he said it was 600 mg and i asked how much that was and he said it’s around like 6 dispo hits or 3 puffs from a joint, so am i going to be good when i get home it’s currently 7.

I know this sub revolves around drugs but I’m at a point in my life where I feel like I’m missing something. Are there any natural ways to experience euphoria? I know there are plenty of drugs that can help me with this problem but I don’t trust dealers and I’m extremely paranoid. Does anyone know of any natural ways to experience euphoria, even if it only lasts like 5 minutes?

Planning to take mdma on Saturday with some friends but my tolerance is not totally reset so I was looking for ways to enhance the experience and I found some older post stating that taking piracetam within the same day of mdma is a total booster but I want to hear recent experiences

Could you please share your experience and if you recommend it then how many hours before should I take the piracetam?

Thanks in advance!

I’m curious to know the strength difference and comparison between oxy and heroin from people that have used both. I read that oxy is supposedly 1.5x stronger than morphine which really surprised me. So much how much stronger is heroin? I couldn’t really find any comparison from googling regarding H and oxy.

Hey yall. I’m a former weed smoker and love the action of just smoking in general for some reason. I’m looking into herbal smokes and making my own blends but I’m also wondering about another thing. How likely am I to get addicted to cigarettes if I just puff on them and never inhale. Kinda using them like a cigar to taste them and not even holding the smoke in my mouth for long at all. Really really really do not want to get addicted to nicotine so looking for advice on the matter. Also this would probably be a rare occurrence like once a week so how likely am I to get hooked?

Anyone knows where can i get naloxone right now asap? It is for myself

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