/r/comingout

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A comforting place to share your story about coming out or discuss ways that you could come out, whether you're still in the closet or out in the world, this subreddit will make you feel welcome.

A comforting place to share your story about coming out or discuss ways that you could come out, whether you're still in the closet or out in the world, this subreddit will make you feel welcome.

/r/comingout

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Need help coming out as trans to transphobic mom.

Please help or give tips. Im a trans minor, (17, born female,) and my mom is transphobic. Ive never came out to anyone as trans, and I don't know how to tell my mom. Anyone please help.

2 Comments
2024/10/31
19:30 UTC

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A concerned friend.

Let me preface this by saying I am gay, and not out to most people. Recently I went home for a wedding for a high school friend. After the wedding when we were pretty drunk, a distant friend of mine (who was not drunk) asked me if I had talked to my other friend (who I am much closer to) about anything. She hinted towards something, and my main concern was if he was okay (I have a long history with this friend and helping each other through fun mental health things). She told me he was gay but I could not gauge if she was just full of it. I have put together some pieces however and do think she was telling the truth…

I want to tell him that I know, in a very kind and compassionate way (and if I am wrong then… my bad?). I also want to tell him that this other person is spreading this very personal piece of information about him. Is there anyway I can bring this up that is not insensitive or that is in a loving way.

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2024/10/31
02:39 UTC

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Queer Teen Comes Out After Dad Walks in on Them with Boyfriend

Andrew Gryniewicz didn’t expect to come out to his parents in the summer of 2013, but when his dad walked in on him making out with his high school boyfriend, he had no choice. An awkward and emotional conversation with his parents followed, covering everything from health to religion, leaving Andrew feeling gutted and frustrated. 

After a brief detente, Andrew’s mom reapproached him, this time coming from a place of love and support, reassuring Andrew that they had his back. Thanks to that one moment in time, Andrew now has a thriving relationship with his parents, complete with tequila shots and gin drinks from the local gay bars.

“If I could go back and talk to senior in high school Andrew, while he’s waiting for his mom to come home, I would of course tell him, ‘It’s all going to be okay. Trust the relationship that you have with your parents. Trust that they have your back, and they don’t want anything bad to happen to you.’ And I would want him to know that, ‘You feel terrified right now, but what comes out of this is so beautiful.’”

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2024/10/30
13:46 UTC

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Pansexual

I have been thinking about this for a couple of years and after fooling around with guys and my friend I am confident in saying that I am pansexual I know my mum and dad wouldn’t judge me but I’m still scared to tell them I’m 34 can anyone tell me the best way of doing this

Thank you

3 Comments
2024/10/30
11:11 UTC

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Should I come out for this reason?

Hi! Im 18 years old and actually just turn 18 this month. Actually I tried to come out to my family and friends that I am gay on my birthday but it didnt happen due to feeling of scared. However, I really want to come out because I feel so empty and I feel like Im lost. I wanna show who I really am to my loved ones. As time passed, everything is fine even though my plan to come out didnt happen. However, one of the reason why i want to come out is because I have someone I like and I have the urge to confess me feelings, he is my friend but Im not sure if he also like me romantically (he is straight) so i really not sure what to do I want to confess my feelings for him but if I do that I also need to come out to everyone and imagining what will happen if it didn't work as I want is something I feel really scared. What should I do?

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2024/10/30
10:25 UTC

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A year with my SO dad hasn’t met her yet

  1. Came out to my parents about 6-7 months ago. My mom knew already and took it her own way and stated it was obvious. She’s not that great at being supportive but tries. She’s met my girlfriend a few times. My dad stopped talking to me completely and is slowly starting again (barely). I feel like life is moving on and I am progressing in my relationship but the fact that my dad doesn’t acknowledge and accept my relationship is lowkey embarrassing. My partner is aware and is supportive in the fact that there’s nothing we can do. A lot of people are telling me to have a conversation with him and give me reasons on why this might be hard for him. I just don’t feel the same. I don’t feel like I should have a conversation and spare his feelings on why he should accept his child.
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2024/10/29
21:54 UTC

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Friendly reminder.. We were made to STAND OUT!!🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🥰 it’s alright to be us💞🏳️‍🌈

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2024/10/29
16:35 UTC

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Coming out again at 27

TRIGGER WARNING - SA

This is a complicated and dark story, but I just feel so free and happy right now and just wanna share!!

I came out as queer when I was 15, it was pretty much immediately obvious to me when that stage of puberty hit me. I am fortunate enough to have grown up in a part of the world where this is completely accepted and normal, so I made no secret of it - I remember going to school one day with a completely new look, my style was an absolute witches brew of all gender expressions and I was very proud.

My best friends were also lgbtq+. We shared an experience that many around us simply couldn't understand, and that gave me a sense of a strong bond. In the following years, those same "friends" subjected me to all sorts of horrible SA. I was severely bullied, emotionally manipulated and gaslighted into thinking they did nothing wrong. They said stuff like "hey, if you didn't feel the vibe, that probably just means you're straight. Don't worry about it!". That is an absolutely brutal thing to say after you've SA'd someone for years. They also accused me of transphobia and homophobia when I confronted them about the abuse, leaving me wondering if I was a bad person.

I still knew deep in my heart that these were misguided and immoral people, so I decided to cut all ties with them. However, the experience left me deeply traumatized. I wanted to get away from anything remotely close to the trauma, and tried to be like everyone else. I have effectively been dating as a straight person until now, and it has never worked out - not even once.

Depression grew stronger over the years, a sense of not fitting in anywhere. I almost forgot who I was in the process, and did a lot of drugs and stuff. This year was particularly rough, and that led me to get on ssri medication and going to therapy. While working on my mental health, it started to dawn on me that while my queer identity and orientation was always obvious to me in theory, I hadn't really been true to myself since before the SA. This was an enormous revelation.

I have now truly started dating as a queer person for the first time, and I feel free. I look forward to what's in store for the future, and I feel proud of myself for finally realizing that the assault will not define who I am anymore.

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2024/10/29
15:55 UTC

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Trying to figure things out

I think I’m bi. However, sometimes when I think about it I get terrible impostor syndrome.

I guess part of it is not knowing what exactly I want from both sexes, but just knowing that both can be really attractive to me.

I’m just generally confused. Like, I’m a fan of Heartstopper, it has helped me to work to accept this. But when I see the bi characters in the show I feel bad, like they are so much more bi than me and like I’m a bad person for considering myself to be bi.

I just wish I could be comfortable with this, and not have this feeling like you need to be this exact way to be bi.

I guess in order to do that I also need to accept myself being bi (among some other things) but I don’t know how.

3 Comments
2024/10/29
00:25 UTC

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I came out to my parents 4 months ago and it’s still awful

I came out to my parents as gay four months ago and I knew it would horrible, but it has been worse than I ever imagined. I’m 24f and have been out to my siblings and friends for a long time, but have found myself refusing to get into a relationship since my parents didn’t know. I’m extremely close to them despite some of our differences - my mom is literally my best friend.

We have been in counseling for three months now and nothing is getting better. She has said awful things to me - that she’s sick to her stomach every time she thinks of it, that I don’t know myself and I’m doing it for attention, and that she will never accept this part of me. My parents are evangelical Christians and believe that I am defying God by “making this choice.”

So, how do I move on? Like I said, they are literally my best friends and I just can’t picture a world where this dynamic is my reality. They said they will never accept me having a female partner and they will love me but not support/love the choices I’m making. They don’t seem to be budging at all and I don’t know how to handle our relationship past this. Any stories of similar situations or just encouraging words would be so helpful.

4 Comments
2024/10/28
18:37 UTC

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coming out to family that you think will be okay with it

i’m pretty sure my parents (or at least my mom) won’t care that i’m queer and i can’t imagine my dad saying shit. but i’m still scared to come out. we’re/are any of you in the same boat? how did you over come that or deal with it? sometimes i feel like such a coward about it.

9 Comments
2024/10/27
19:16 UTC

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partially coming out as aroace advice

hi, I am aro and ace and I have certain agender / enby traits and I want to come out to certain people in my life, but only to a certain extent on a need to know basis, like I do not want to fully come out as aroace.

I do not want to have a family, no kids, itm no QPR even. I identify as greyrose, so I can rarely experience sexual attraction with very specific people once every blue moon which usually leaves me confused, but I have no interest in sexual activity and I really don't want a romantic relationship.

reasons for me not fully wanting to disclose is bad coming out experiences in the past, where I got the well known it is your hormones response and compulsory allo projection. additionally since aroace isn't well known, I also do not want to go through the whole educating and explaining process itm.

my reasoning is mixed, in that I feel the toll on my mental health not being myself, another reason is to create realistic expectations when it comes to my familial status. I don't have many queer or single friends itm, most people are in long term relationships, so I don't have much support for my queer side and can feel a bit lonely at some times.

the people I want to disclose to are not super conservative, but they aren't super open either and not well educated in lgbtqia+ .

I also feel that if it goes okay, I can disclose more depending on the reaction. I would classify me as early middle aged.

anyone has some experiences with a partial coming out? should I probe more before about potential red flags of bigotry, should I better come out directly as aroace?

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2024/10/27
14:47 UTC

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How to come out as genderfluid?

I was thinking maybe casually, by (on agender days, for reference I'm femmeflux) wearing a bracelet or pin with the enby flag and flattening my chest so that anyone who knows or cares, well, knows and cares. Or by telling people I care about individually after a brief questioning on their opinion about trans people.

I think both, I'll tell people individually in private, starting with openly queer friends and ending with unpredictable people such as scout leaders and my other friends when I'm ready to fully socially transition. Or maybe I'll just tell the easiest and best people and casually wear enby colors and wait for anyone who cares to question me. She/her pronouns don't give me dysphoria anyway, they just remind me that I can't/won't call myself that.

Let me know if you are similar and/or have come out as fluid and if so how?

The flair's accuracy is kinda debatable, but I had to choose one haha

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2024/10/26
23:52 UTC

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I’m not too sure about myself

Hi everyone, so basically this is my problem… I am a straight M19 in college and all my life I never questioned my sexuality. But the past year or so I have been casually watching porn revolving around trans woman and sometimes feminine men. I can’t ever picture myself realistically being with someone like that but I think my body is just telling me that it’s arousal and nothing else. Is this something I should be really looking into or am I just confusing myself?

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2024/10/26
23:28 UTC

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A Different Way to "come out"

I began this journey around 21. I never came out, such as say hey I am gay. All I ever did was respond to this question, which we get all the time, including family. Q: Are you dating? A: Yes Q: Who are you dating? A: Greg

That was it. I hated that I had to come out. Straight people were not "coming out". I decided to treat it exactly like they would. Most of the people said great...etc. I knew by their paralanguage and words where they stood better. Of course, there were a select few that further discussions ensued, but I wasn't there to wait for their acceptance. For me, it was more empowering way to disclose this part of my life.

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2024/10/26
17:08 UTC

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coming out to myself

i wrote this really stoned so this is kind of rambley. i don’t know why i feel the need to tell strangers about this and idk if anyone will read this but honestly, this coming out post is mostly for me. ex-philosopher and youtuber Natalie Wynn (Contrapoints) said in her lesbian coming out video that if she didn’t come out now, she might never and she might never accept herself as a lesbian and that’s why im writing this. putting these feelings into words makes them real and makes me confront them. i’m a transsexual (i think nonbinary people are valid, i just think that sex isn’t binary and unchanging and ive taken steps to change/trans aspects of mine), and until i was almost 21, i lived as a femme gay man. i was raised as a boy and the intersection of my dysphoria, heteronormativity and father inflicted abandonment issues is something im only now starting to disentangle. ever since i was little, i felt like a girl. i didn’t have the words for it but i always was drawn towards femininity and women. and when they first started separating the boys and girls in like pe in 1st grade, there was this profound sense of wrongness in being forced to go with the boys. i had a necessity to not only be with the girls but to be one. in elementary school i had crushes on girls irl and in media but i only had crushes on men in games my dad played and things i watched. dante from devil may cry, leon from resident evil, danny in danny phantom, ben and kevin from ben 10 to name a few. but i didn’t have crushes/attraction on any boys that i knew. that didn’t start until 5th grade when i started experiencing a male puberty. testosterone is one hell of a drug that i am so grateful to be off but it raised my libido like crazy suddenly i was sexually attracted to people and a year later in 6th grade i started being attracted to boys too. growing up with mormon extended family and christians all around me, i was taught that my feelings for men was wrong. but deep down i felt like a girl and i felt that being with another girl would solidify that im actually male, in patriarchy having a woman makes you a man. so to feel feminine and because the church focuses so heavily on it, i focused on my sexual attraction to men. i still had crushes on girls but i felt dysphoric about it an because i wasn’t really a guy, i felt that i was inadequate. so i started thinking that i wanted a romantic relationship with a man. in high school i came out as gay and repressed my feelings for women entirely. i thought that because i had sexual desires for men, i must have romantic desires for them too. at the same time, i would joke about how id be bi if i was a girl and when i saw sapphic love in media, not sex, something in me felt fulfilled. i wanted that. i wanted to love and be loved by a woman as a woman. the idea of being an old woman with my loving wife was heaven, but i thought that i wasn’t allowed to have it, not in this life. but because i felt like womanhood was unattainable, that a man would affirm my femininity and my sexual attraction to men, i think i tricked myself into thinking i wanted to be in a relationship with a man. i don’t think i was really attracted to men, i was attracted to their attention. when i finally started to transition, and pass as a cis woman, i looked back at my life and realized that i had been attracted to women the whole time. i identified as bisexual and heteroromantic to dismiss my feelings for women. but then i went on a date with this girl. she was beautiful and smart and talented. and i realized that i could spend the rest of my life with a woman. the reason i didn’t pursue women was because it made me dysphoric and because the thought of being rejection from a woman hurt so much more than rejection from a man. i currently have a serious boyfriend and he’s making me realize that i don’t want this. men are hot but do i want to spend the rest of my life with one?? did i ever?? i didn’t ever consider a relationship with a woman as a valid option for me but i’m realizing it’s the only one. my bf is kinda mean and impatient but even is he was gentle and kind, im realizing i don’t want to be with him or any man romantically. i don’t think i have the capacity to love a man romantically and i don’t know if i ever did. i can love men sexually and platonically but when i wake up in the morning, i want to wake up next to my gf/wife. i want to have a common understanding of womanhood that a man, including my trans bf, can’t really have. i want to come home to my gf after a hard day and let me cook and bake my worries away for her. i want to be able to comfort her when she comes home. being domestic and romantic with a man, especially a volatile one, is making me realize that i can’t keep doing this. i might want to hook up with a guy here or there, but i want to give my heart and my body and my self to a woman. being financially dependent makes it hard to leave though 🙃

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2024/10/26
12:04 UTC

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how do i come out?

background: i’m 15f. my relationship status with this girl is… rocky. i’ve been a lesbian for as long as i’ve known (my first crush was a girl in kindergarten)

i want to come out. there’s so much i need to talk to my parents regarding this girl and i cant. i’m a lesbian. i’ve been a lesbian. i have to tell them today. i have to tell them now im so scared. someone please help me

10 Comments
2024/10/25
20:39 UTC

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How do I tell my parents I think I’m noon binary I came out as gay a year ago and I want to come out as non binary now

I mean non binary

3 Comments
2024/10/25
15:47 UTC

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I need some advice on coming out.

I am a 26 y/o male. I am gay and have been sexually active for about a year now, so I am a bit more sure of my sexuality now.

I come from a country which is not very accepting of anything out of what is considered traditional and especially not gay people. I now live and work abroad, and I am financially independent.

I am very close to my mother and have always been. She has always been there for me and supported me my whole life and has essentially raised me by herself. It has been very difficult coming to terms with my sexuality, and I still have not reconciled this completely. I’ve had a lot of low periods and she has noticed. I haven’t been able to explain why I have been so down and upset to her and have had to make excuses like that work has been hard and stuff. I think she is slowly seeing through this. While in the past she has spoken about when I find a wife, she’s now changed it to when I find a partner. She also I believe is dropping hints, like we were watching a series together where one of the characters finds a hookup through Grindr, and she asked me how he found that guy (why would she ask that if she wasn’t suspecting something?)

For some reason coming back home for the holidays is especially hard for me, and I get so bummed out. I don’t know wheat it is exactly, I’m very masc presenting so I doubt I’d do anything to expose myself, but I still feel bad. Is it because I feel like I am hiding something? Not sure, I’ve reflected on it and can’t really come to a conclusion. All I know is I get this pit in my stomach thinking it’s unfair I have to hide something so defining about myself.

I don’t think my mother would take it too badly if I told her. She always had this vision of me having children and us being a big family. I have also always wanted children and I know it’s not impossible to have that when you’re gay, but it’s certainly more difficult to do so. I feel so bad to disappoint her, especially since I’m an only child and so the burden on all the dreams she had fall on me. To complicate everything is that she has had multiple health problems in the past couple of years that I have been helping with, so it hasn’t seemed like the best time to come out. These seems to be passing now, so I think I need to consider whether now is the time.

The only other family I have is my father who I am mostly estranged from, though I have to see him from time to time to keep up appearances. I do not think he would be as accepting and do not think he suspects anything. Same with my grandparents. I am afraid that if this does get out, I will besmirch my family’s name, and that’s the last thing I’d wanna do.

I think the fact that I’ve only had a couple of hookups on Grindr and most have resulted in never hearing from them again is also contributing to the feeling of loneliness and hopelessness. I wasn’t expecting finding a relationship immediately, but at least a friend/fwb I thought would be relatively easy to come by.

The problem with all of this is twofold. One I am not sure why I feel so shitty and am lashing out for something that really I don’t need to disclose. I think it’s the fact I’m closeted but I don’t know if that would help or it’s just the fact that I personally haven’t accepted myself. Second if I do decide to come out, I literally have no idea how to go about it and how to start the conversation.

I just feel lost. I’ve felt like that for a while but I think it’s getting worse.

I’d appreciate any advice offered.

2 Comments
2024/10/25
09:43 UTC

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Encouragement

I’m in my mid 30s. I grew up in a religious household. I have out LGBTQ siblings, but yet here I am still not out to my parents. I no longer live near them, and getting to them is sometimes difficult, so I can’t do it in person. I’ve had a partner for a while now who I am going to move in with soon, and I plan on coming out before that. You’d think at this phase in my life it wouldn’t be as big as an issue, but I’m still nervous and struggling to do it. I’m tired of dogging the questions and making up excuses. Some encouragement would be so appreciated!

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2024/10/25
04:23 UTC

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Came out to my mom as asexual this morning and she said "maelin, your 13" and nothing else, what else do I do?

18 Comments
2024/10/25
00:31 UTC

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Should i even come out at this point?

My mom is totally accepting of whatever i do (except terrorism, tax fraud, rape and murder) and my friends from school basically know. I already came out a to 3 friends and one online friend i know for 1 yr (ish??). Everybody is so chill about it, i could bring a partner to the hangout and nobody would gaf. MY FRIENDS ARE LITERALLY SO COOL I COULD MAKE OUT WITH A BOYFRIEND IN THE HALLWAY AND NONE OF THE WOULD CARE. I personally don't think there's a need for that. Bonus message to all the folks who have it worse than me: Stay strong, game is game. Love who you want to. At least know that there's people out there who'd accept you. Go find em. I've already found mine.
(Edit: What's keeping me from coming out is the laziness)

5 Comments
2024/10/24
22:43 UTC

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LAST NIGHT WAS MY BIG NIGHT...🧡🤍🩷

I came out to myself last night.

6 Comments
2024/10/24
19:27 UTC

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Outed again…

(This is a really long story so apologies in advance) Not exactly sure what to do anymore but this happened a couple days ago, I was coming back home from work and my mom was sitting in the living room quietly all by herself (I already knew this was bad news) as I got settled in she told me we needed to have a talk and went right to the point.

She told me that she knew that I had been lying to her and my family about who I had been hanging out with, at this point there was no point in lying so I came clean and told her I had a girlfriend. My mother was calm but clearly unhappy since this wasn’t the first time we had to deal with this situation. So she told me the whole Bible thing, how it’s a sin to be gay and that we’re a Christian family and that I need to be fixed of my problem.

Some time passes and my older sister comes home and she starts yelling at me and bashing me about my sexuality and asking me what’s wrong with me and why do I like making everyone around me suffer. She also called me disgusting once again and said that I need to grow up and find a man and leave my girlfriend. She also said that I was going to be the cause of my parent’s death once again and that I don’t love any of them.

So more time goes by and I get a call from my older brother and he basically says the same thing but also saying that I’m dead to him and that I’m not allowed to call him, his son, or his wife ever again or step foot near his house. He also called me the worst person in the world and said that I was a horrible human being and that I have no heart for making everyone around me suffer and that I’m not a real Christian.

A couple more hours go by and my sister comes back with my mom and they both talk to me and try again to convince me that I’m wrong and that what I’m feeling isn’t right, they say I can be saved and if I tried better with my appearance and if I gave a man a chance then stay away from these “certain people” then I could be saved. I told them that I didn’t want to change but I still wanted to maintain my faith and relationship with God and still be a Christian but according to them it can’t happen.

That’s when my mom started crying again and so my sister grabbed a cup of water that was nearby and threw it a me and tried hitting me a couple of times but my mom stopped her before she could actually hit me. My sister told me I was lucky that our mom was there cause if she wasn’t then she would have knocked my teeth in. And of course that’s when my father came back from work and once he saw all of this and heard about everything that was going on he basically yelled and screamed at me at my face and said the same thing that everyone has said to me and threatened to kick me out the house if this continues and that I must end my relationship with my girlfriend.

A couple days have passed I haven’t heard from my brother at all, my sister is somewhat talking to me but she says the same thing and always tries convincing me to change for them and for God. My mom is constantly showing me Christian things as well and also trying to convince me to change the “errors of my ways” but none of them understand that I still have my faith in God. That I still love him and will never turn my back on him but that I still want to be with my girlfriend too. Why can’t I be a Christian and have a girlfriend??

It’s an extremely long read but any advice would be greatly appreciated, i’m just in desperate need of help and of advice.

5 Comments
2024/10/24
14:06 UTC

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nervous about coming out to mom even though ive been openly queer since i was like 8 years old

using the silly little reddit account i made 2 weeks ago again bc it suddenly occurred to me that i really feel the need to come out to my mom and i am so so nerve wracked about it now so much so that i am posting about it on reddit of all places. feels like im 12 again lol

my mom is super duper supportive of all lgbtq+ matters, a complete ally, basically honorary queer imo, shes just super against her kids having romantic interests (but not really but yeah really but not really. shes a grandma and a mother in law man obviously she is not reeeally against it but she ISSSS i SWEARRRR) and as far as she is aware rn, sexuality-wise i am a completely sex and romance averse 0% attraction aroace

backstory time! i somehow didnt really realize gay ppl existed as a child despite the fact that in retrospect there were tons of them around me and their lgbtq identities were not even remotely concealed lmao. but when i got really into scratch (the coding site) in like 2015 or whatever, their lgbtq psa and support project things they made so much of made me discover the lgbtq+ community and i was instantly involved ofc. immediately grabbed the labels of lesbian, asexual, and gender questioning there was not even a moment of delay bwhahaha. i dont feel like i ever even came out it just eventually became common knowledge for the ppl around me by the time i was like 11. also around then: "conclusively" realized i was nonbinary and felt the need for the first time ever to come out! twas absolutely crazy and horrifying but turned out fine... i made a slideshow explaining what nonbinary meant and what it meant to me for my mom and shes been learning more and more ever since ofc. she was very accepting initially especially cause she already had trans ppl in her life and family before then anywayz. there has been a variety of strife betwixt us on the subject from her ignorance over time but she has done nothing but grow<3 she used to treat my gender like "girl but with gender neutral pronounce and purple hair.. chosen name sounds like a nickname for deadname so idc easy peasy" but the next time i came out genderwise after that was as a gay trans man who used a masculine name veeery different from my deadname so it was sort of a slap in the face to allat and she was NOT pleased abt it at the time (again bc of the anti dating thing actually... she just did not want me dating boys lmao) but she denies that now and is so apologetic that i experienced that from my side lol. i probably came out abt my gender like 50 thousand times over the past 5 years because as a teenager i am just learning new things abt myself everyday but as of today i am simply just genderqueer because my gender is extremely complex and highly influenced by my autism! my mom is probably my most number 1 perfect understander of my extremely specific gender at this point so weve come along way clearly. if any of you cared which you dont but this is my post so i get to decide what i share. sexualitywise the last time i came out i was probs 13 going on 14 and i freshly identified as aroace prior to any of my extreme indepth exploration of that aspect of my identity. this made my mom very happy of course bc it means she dont have to worry about any of that but as it turns out i am actually extremely extremely lesbian. i am still aroace yes just on a very complex sect of the spectrum and i dont feel like i am lying when i say that i am aroace to her! but i have not yet admitted that it is drastically different to what i thought when i was 13 and feel genuinely horrible and ashamed and terrible and evil for continuing to misrepresent myself like this just for my convenience. it feels like a crime on the aroace community and myself and my mom teehee <3 but i am genuinely horrified at the thought of telling her the truth. kind of funny though u must admit. but ive been concealing the truth that i do have interest in nonplatonic connection for like 3 years now basically and i have recently (half an hour ago) been overcome with the intense feeling that i NEED to tell her NEOWW. i cant spend the oncoming age 17 hiding this bro i feel like i will be far too grown for this shit and also like if i end up finding a relationship beforee i tell her that is gonna make it 10 times worse and i WANNAA find a relationship, man so i just have to get this done already but i am petrified help pls i cant even follow protocol "google how to come out wikihow" like i did when i was little bc i already know allat man my situation is odd + strange grrrrr!!!!

sorry i talk like an insane person im 16 and didnt feel like trying to sound put together and articulate im too sleep deprived for that rn man. hope this is still comprehensible! sorry i said the word man like 300 times!

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2024/10/24
12:12 UTC

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I came out

Okay, I didn’t come out recently. I came out 10 years ago. It’s never been a fun subject among my family(religious). They are all fine with it. (Except a few people still) but last night for the first time. My brother and his friends (all straight) were all acting normal about it. I know that’s nothing. But for the first time I felt like i could talk about it and not feel like this huge judgement on me. It was just a fun night where I felt no anxiety about it. And I think that’s progress in my journey. I guess it’s also another gay person who was friends with my brothers friend called me cute infront of anyone and I was fine with it. I know that’s weird just felt nice to feel nothing about it and be open about it.

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2024/10/23
15:30 UTC

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Finished Heartstopper and sad

I just finished season 3 of Heartstopper and am feeling sad. I’m a questioning teenager (a bit bi, a bit aro, and a bit ace) and the show really helped me to feel more normal, and okay with not having it all figured out. It also had some great OCD representation, as someone with OCD. I just felt so seen by the show, so much so that certain scenes brought me to tears because I finally felt seen.

Questioning is so hard and scary but Heartstopper made me feel a little less alone. Seeing someone else discover that they were bi (Nick) really helped me to feel a bit better with it for myself.

Heartstopper has helped me to feel less abnormal for not having it all figured out.

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2024/10/23
13:29 UTC

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Practice?

So im 29(M) and i have for reasons i cant explain, have been absolutely terrified to come out. To anyone. especially my nonhomophobic family. even though i long to tell them, and people closest to me so i can actually date and pursue a partner. which i have never done because of this petrifying fear i have of telling them or anyone close to me. maybe someone can help me practice or give me some advice?

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2024/10/23
12:44 UTC

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What am I? Why is it so complicated?

I have been questioning my sexuality for a few months and there are days where it’s just hard. I know it’s not the “biggest issue” and that other people may have it worse, but it’s a struggle for me.

I’m not even entirely sure what to say. All I know is men and women can be attractive. But I don’t know what that means to me. People say just be unlabeled but then the world tries to put a label on you. But at the same time, I sort of feel like my sexuality can’t be described by a label.

I just feel like the world wants me to be one thing, but I’m another, this strange mix of a bit bi, a bit aromantic and a bit asexual. Sometimes I feel scared that I will never understand this. I’ll get stuck in my own head, and just feel stressed.

And then when I start to think about how I feel, I get terrible impostor syndrome. Like some part of me feels like I’m not “not straight enough”. Which causes me to feel bad for questioning myself.

Watching a show like Heartstopper can help. It can help me feel less abnormal and strange for not being sure.

I’m also scared I’ll never find anyone. I very rarely feel romantic attraction, but really want a partner one day. I’m terrified I’ll be alone.

Why is it so hard? Does it get better? I just want to feel like I am okay with this part of myself.

Edit: something weird happened with the old post so I reposted it

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2024/10/23
12:19 UTC

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I believe I am gay

After many years of not being able to get dates with women in high school. I was in my 20s and I became attracted to men. I'm 37 now and I am ready to explore my Sexuality

2 Comments
2024/10/23
06:31 UTC

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