Am I trans?

Hey guys. So, I (17M) have been thinking about this for almost a year now, I believe I'm a transgirl but I still have doubts. For context, I am a son of a single mother and have always had female friends since I was little, making male friends only at 12 and often returning to the gals when the "dude jokes" were too much. So yeah, I've never had much of a male influance. I've always thought about being a girl, the pretty dresses and make-up, the things I thought were feminine. Recently, I came across the trans comunity (I always knew about it but never trully seen it) and I realized how much I relate to their experiences.

Since then, that's kinda all I've been thinking about lately, how I would look in a pretty dress and make-up, being close with the gals in a more similar level, doing girl things and being a girl. My mom thinks I'm just confused due to being exposed to such things during my developing years and says she simply can't see me as a girl - I'm too "boyish" somehow. I understand that most of my time is spent with guys now, but I just can't relate to them sometimes, more often than when I can't relate with girls.

I honestly just want room to explore.

TLDR: I think I'm trans because I don't relate to guys as much as I do with gals.

I by no means am trying to be hurtful, I don't know very much about living with HIV, I know ow it must be hard and I feel for people who do. I am negative to my knowledge I'm trans seeing someone who is positive.

I meet him on grinder, he has been nothing but great, he didn't tell me about his status untill I had already been with him sexually, he takes meds, and knowing this before hand wouldn't have really changed my interest in him but I would have gotten on prep due to my life circumstances I really would struggle if I had to then also treat HIV too. I know I have a responcablity to care for my body and not leave it up to the person who is positive to do that for me. On his grinder he listed his status as negative, as well. Again someone's status being positive isn't a deal breaker for me.

Today thought he just texted me that he was going to go donate plasma- which I thought that was something you couldn't do and googling it - looks like it could put others at risk because taking the meds can make it hard to detect the virus and pass it on to someone else? Is this homophonic based prejudice or is this really a big no no for someone to do?

I plan to get on prep, I'm now worried that maybe he has been as careful with me, either and I am in a bind because I'm worried that this was all too good to be true? I'm also younger than him, I pursued him and I'm totally ok with that and think age difference (as long as their Within legal ages are fine) but I'm worried that maybe I am being Naive?

I'm sorry if I've said anything that triggers any one, I don't believe any one who is living with a positive status to be lies or trying to others infected. I could have just as easy gotten the virus from any number of ways. I don't really have anyone to ask about this right now, in my personal life. I also don't want to out his status by confiding in others. Thank you for reading.

I know this isn't the best place to post this but we're I've posted before I didn't get any responses. I just want other people's take, I am often time naive and sometimes miss things and I just need to know if that's what this sounds like or if it's just me stressing (which it probably is).

I've realized that because of health problems I'll probably never start hrt and I've just had trouble accepting the reality. I've lived a third of my life now as somebody I'm not and learning that I'll have to continue winning this way is just kinda crushing me. I feel like in some way I should still come out but it'll just kinda be a lie. I've already not had the experiences I wish I could've when I was younger, just feels horrible all around. I don't know if it's the right choice to just suppress all my feelings and emotions towards gender but unfortunately it kinda just seems like my reality.

Worst feeling in the world. Someone I was sitting with just sucked the life out of me

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Just cut out my last sister… never thought I’d have to- we were so close… my younger sister is anti-trans, my mom is anti-trans and a racist, and now my older sister just out of the blue decided to invalidate my trauma and hurt. I’ve been cutting people out that make me feel like shit/ don’t respect me or validate my traumas. Including family… the only blood I have left is my dad. The whole family is scattered and I never had a proper family dynamic. My sisters were old enough to live on their own and my dad and mom split when I was born… I’m not letting anyone treat me like shit anymore- I’m at the point where I don’t care

I hate my body so much. It's so overtly masculine to me even after years of HRT. So whenever I meet trans women for the first time I automatically think they're silently judging me or internally laughing at me. Even though I've not had that experience in person and most are very nice to me, many have become friends. But I feel so inadequate, I feel so othered, like I don't belong at all. I want to feel like I belong and like I'm loved and equal. I'm too big compared to everyone else and I feel like an anomaly and it honestly makes me want to die.

Hi I’m 18 mtf pre-hrt kind of spiralling rn because Idk where i could possibly go to get a diagnosis in the UK, I live in the south and there is just no options to get diagnosed

I need a diagnosis so i can finally feel secure that i am actually trans and to convince my parents this is something i need to do and not something I’m making up.

On the NHS, my GP told me the wait is now 5-8 years and for some stupid reason I said i didn’t want to be put in the waiting list.

I’ve tried looking at private clinics but they all seem dodgy and I can’t tell which ones are actually professionals.

I feel so powerless that there is absolutely nothing I can do to bring the wait times down or help other trans people in the same situation as me.

The only thing coming out to my parents did for me was make it clear that my parents will “support” me but will hate if i start hrt. That and putting me back in therapy, i think my parents think that if they ignore it long enough then how i feel will go away, I tried that, spoiler alert it didn’t work i still feel hollow and like shit.

I don’t feel like I could possibly feel like myself and feel like I’m actually alive until I start HRT. I want to do it before I go to uni so i don’t have to start another part of my life as someone else, yet it seems impossible until I can get a diagnosis. I don’t know how I’m going to cope having to waste years of my life hoping I can get one, Idk how much longer i can stay this way tbh.

Sorry for my ramblings and getting sidetracked,I just suddenly feel in a really bad place atm. I really just wanted to ask if anyone knew how I could get a diagnosis, NHS(unlikely)or private?

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Someone touched my (49yo MtF) balls today for the first time at least a decade. They'll be removing them soon I hope

I've been married for 20+ years and I'm kinda not dealing well with this fact.

So I’ve been on testosterone for just under a year (FTM) and a lot of the effects of HRT are in full swing. today I got a referral for top surgery from my doctor for but in order to be seen by the surgeon I need to lose some weight for the surgery -approx 20KG

This wouldn’t be a problem and I’ve already lost 10KG in the last few months but since starting T I’ve had an absolutely insatiable appetite. I am always hungry and I feel like I’m eating for 3-4 people

I’ve tried to snack on healthier foods, mainly raw fruit and veg and cereal bars but I just feel hungry all of the time, I tried increasing protein too but still didn’t feel fulfilled to the point my stomach is literally growling

I’ve started working out but I have recurrent dislocation of both knees so most of my exercises have been stationary such as HIIT workouts

My next gender clinic appointment is in 7 months so I’d like to have the weight lost by then but also can’t get any advice from my doctor until then

Any advice from other people with a similar situation to me or have been in the past are able to shed some light on bc the best way to exercise whilst on testosterone, manage a diet where I feel satiated or loose weight in general in the next few months?

Before the transgender community was forcibly placed in the eyes of America society thought it wasn't perfect by no means, much of that time was peaceful. To help inform those that are to young to have been lucky enough to experience it. Celebrities, felt that it would advance their careers by publicly being out and erected the claim that it was to build a better and brighter future for the transgender community but in doing so took very little consideration as to what the negative affects of being so transparent would be.

Now, social media, religiou, politics have seen it fit to project, strawman, and gaslight us to play the expendable ♟️ pond in their evil game of power, wealth, and recognition.

We have been painted as the villain not being able to exercise our human rights of the pursuit for happiness, and our right to exist. I've delt whith it for the proceeding years that followed the acknowledgment of our existence and now exerted for being villainized I am at wit's end, fed up, completely over it.

Please help me to understand the inhumane character that engulfs our nation. Please provide some form of comforting words in the threads of this post. Am I alone in my misery. Am I the only one that is tired of being villainized?... What happened to humanity? And why isn't it getting better?

I fear for my life and I avoid activities that would place me in harms way everyday but I still have to combat public transphobia. I have been even denied romance of a male life long companion. My heart is shattered over this and I can't even bring myself to even consider dating again. Once again, am I alone?...

A vent post because honestly idk who to talk to irl

I'm really young, like still in highschool (FTM) and I've felt like a guy, been going by he/him, telling people since Freshman year. Most people are supportive but for the most part I just feel like I'm crazy most of the time.

I'm definitely not passing. I haven't cut my hair, I wear makeup (sometimes masculine, mostly feminine), I wear skirts or dresses, I've never done and don't know if I want to do Testosterone (lots of reasons for this). I have some close Trans friends, but I don't know. I don't think even they take me that seriously. People in my extracurricular frequently forget my pronouns (not at all mad about that, my fault for not having guts to correct them), but also I never get cast as guys in plays or anything despite everyone knowing. And if I tell people I'm gay they just assume I'm a lesbian, which I also hate lesbian jokes and they really get old. No one takes me seriously which I kind of feel like I deserve. My family is also pretty unsupportive. I try doing things like binding or dressing more masculine but then I just feel dumb anyways. I like wearing skirts and makeup still. I kinda want to cut my hair still, but everyone makes me feel like I'll be ugly and regret it if I do.

I don't know anymore lol. I asked my friend to set me up with a guy, and they said he's gay, I said as long as he doesn't mind trans/feminine men I don't really mind and I think it was laughed off. I definitely also feel like my friends who are gay guys don't take me seriously unless they're also FTM (and even some still she/her me). I'm not blaming anyone fs, I understand pronouns are really hard and I don't expect the world to revolve around me. I just think I never got any support and I don't feel like I'm 'actually' trans or anything.

Sorry for the long vent lol just had to spill my guts

tldr is basically just the title

more info, i started college a couple months ago and made a few new friends. one of them is a cis guy and we were with another friend, and he used she/her (im ftm, he/him) when mentioning me but i wasn’t gonna correct him, and then he said something about “if we were trans”. i said “..what do you mean? if?” and he said “OH. oh. never mind” and i said “did you forget i was trans?” and he said yes

im not mad at him or anything because it’s really not his fault, i genuinely look like a girl (long hair, girl clothes). i laughed but it just felt really gross because i was super comfortable with him. im only posting this cause i want to talk about it but talking to cis people about it just makes me feel uncomfortable and angry idk

i’ve also been on T for about a month now and that just for some reason made me feel like i shouldn’t be, like i’ll just look silly and everyone will be weirded out or something cause no one ever seems to know or remember that im trans. i don’t know, i just needed to put my thoughts somewhere.

Hi,

I am a 22 year old trans girl and I don't know what to do about my transition anymore. I've been on HRT for 2.5 years and haven't gotten any real visible changes.

Most of the changes (and even then minimal) come from growing out my hair and taking care of myself better. Seems that my body just hates me and will not change no matter what.

I tried multiple times to present more feminine in public but I always get stares of disgust that just crush my soul and any hope of just being a normal girl... My body still feels wrong and too big, I am unable to afford any surgery and even then the problem is both my face and my body. For face there's FFS, for body not so much....

I have my docs already changed and I'm out but I can tell from the way people interact with me at work (who shouldn't know) that they know...

I just feel utterly lost and hopeless, it constantly feels like I'm screaming at a void to try and get some comfort yet I don't even get that.

Sorry for the huge wall of text

https://www.voicebykylie.com/post/false-vocal-folds-the-unsung-heroes-and-villains-of-trans-voice-training

Im posting a question but theres a very serious situation im in i dont want to die. I have no close support or much help really, i suffer from dysfunctions like evidence based oct (makes tasks difficult and leads to dysfunctions like not seeking life saving needs, self care tasks as well.) And more, importantly. *

well my question is if i could get support for seeking a psychiatrist. I have evidence based ocd with making decisions on doctors, can anyone please help i have so many problems to attend to. I am in danger

As in the title. I am at the beginning of the journey (420 days hrt).I Still hate looking at my face, especially in photos but now it's much better than it was at the begining. I even managed to experience a very short gender euphoria...The problem is I'm not good at make-up yet, I lack many cosmetics. And I don't know anything about choosing clothes (unless they're femboy clothes) And my hair is terrible. That's why I have the impression that every time I post a photo with the question what gender do I look like? People are just trying to be nice... I can't judge my appearance myself, in my opinion I look masculine with an emphasis on androgyny...

tw for internalized transphobia? maybe?

I,, struggle to know how to articulate this. but I really really wish I was cis and it's been heavily disrupting my day to day life. I'm a trans guy (? I believe), I've been diagnosed with my countrys equivalent for gender dysphoria for a while now. I've been out as trans for three years now. at first I felt confident in my identity and was really happy about the change but now,,, I feel like any option of identity makes me unhappy. I wanna be a cis girl and wear girlish things and not feel so incredibly depressed.I don't want to transition, I just want my dysphoria to go away. and I don't know what to do it's not because I have some subconscious dislike towards trans people; most of my friends are also trans, and I don't think it's because of some bad experience with men either. I just really wanna look like a girl and dress traditionally feminine. but whenever I do I just want to turn the lights off and hide away from everyone. I also WANT to go by she/her pronouns but when someone actually uses them for me I just want to break down in tears, negatively. I don't know what to call myself or what to do, I've never met anyone who feels like I do.

I'm sorry if this all sounds phrased weirdly, I'm autistic, I struggle with words and sentences.

I got fired from a job and had to move back in with my parents. I haven't come out to more than 4 people and my parents and sister are not among them. They are Morman and very conservative. I've been on HRT for a while and I'm just struggling a lot with dysphoria and my mom constantly talking negatively about trans women that are in the public eye (news and whatnot)

I just need some positivity right now. Anything is appreciated

27 years old & male at birth. Mtf???

I'm pretty sure I'm trans. Every time I read someone's story about their egg cracking I relate to practically everything they say, but there's always a few things that I can't relate to.

I didn't grow up knowing I was woman. I never thought I was born in the wrong body or tried on dresses as a kid. I never had a passing thought about if I could feel beautiful as a woman. I didn't even pick the girl character in games often. But it wasn't like I was chosing to be a boy. It's just what it was. The idea that I could be someone else never even occurred to me.

There were definitely a few signs. Always hated sports and still do (I know sports aren't inherently masc. But it still made me feel separate from the boys around me). It was always easier for me to make friends with girls, and I always felt like I related to them more. And I remember one day my friend told me I was really in touch with my feminine side, and it made me feel really nice. I was happy being a self admitted effeminate boy.

In college I had many lgbtq+ friends, and I realized gender is a spectrum and fluid. It made total sense to me, but it still never seemed like it was something I could do. Not like I didn't want to. I just like never even had a thought about it.

When I would see myself in the mirror, it wouldn't be like I didn't recognize myself, but it didn't feel normal. I would also just think it was weird that I looked the way I did. Every time I looked in the mirror, I felt a little surprised that my reflection was what it was. Maybe that's dysphoria? Idk. Something just felt off

I've been with my partner for a little under 4 years. I don't even remember how or when it started, but I've essentially been a girl in our relationship. Whenever it's just us around, we refer to myself as a girl. I also wear her clothes and underwear a lot. Not sexually, I just like how it feels to wear woman's clothing. The first time I put in makeup, straightened my hair, and put on a skirt, when I looked in the mirror I just felt so warm and nice. It felt like who I wanted to be

Around spring time this year I started going out in public as a woman. I started by going to malls over an hour away from my apartment, but now I regularly go out downtown where I live as a woman.

I'm lucky enough to live in an accpeting place and have cool friends, so them seeing me as a woman never scared me. When I go out when them, I'll be wearing woman's clothes and have make up on. When they ask me my pronouns and preferred name, I'll still say he/him and my brith name even though I don't feel like they fit me anymore. It sort of feels like trying a new name and pronouns is some point that once I cross, everything becomes real. But I feel like I haven't earned that for some reason. Like I'm not trans enough to be trans

I absolutely feel gender euphoria as a woman now, but I don't know if I felt dysphoria as a kid. I felt weird a lot of the time, but I don't know what that meant. Is it enough to just feel euphoria as another gender? The idea of going back to being a boy feels soul crushing, but when it was the only option, I guess I was okay.

I love being a girl, but I don't know if that's enough to mean that I am one

MTF, lesbian, and divorced before I came out to anyone. Every time I start to feel good/sexy about myself, I immediately feel like I am being judged. I feel like I should "Just 'try to be strait' because it would be 'easier '."

I feel like everyone else I see or know who is trans gets to a point where they either pass most of the time, comfortable in their body most of the time, or the holy grail of both. For myself I have neither, with the biggest priority being my own comfort of course. I’ve had great results on HRT but unfortunately my underlying structure from AMAB puberty is just too masculine and broad to ever look female. I feel like no amount of surgeries will ever make me feel ok and worst of all I have nobody to turn to because people who probably just turn out unlucky like me just end up hiding and never talk about it never find a solution to enjoy their lives.

Hi all :)

I'm (21M) a trans guy who will begin medically transitioning in about 2 days. My relationship of 7 years has recently ended due to my coming out, as my ex girlfriend identifies as a lesbian and we are no longer romantically compatible. This has obviously brought on a lot of difficult change in my life, and one of these issues I am having trouble adjusting to is the idea of entering the dating scene.

My ex and I met in highschool and, even throughout our few break-ups, we hadn't dated or sought out other people. Due to this, I am completely inexperienced in the dating scene. I'm really interested in dating other guys as a guy myself— it's an experience that would be extremely validating as I've always kind of fantasized about being in an mlm relationship pre-transition. I obviously need more time to heal before moving forward with dating, but I have a lot of dating-related questions for trans guys.

Is it hard finding other trans guys on dating apps? And what are the best queer dating apps?
I do online school and don't go to clubs or anything because I'm not a party person and don't drink, so my best shot will probably be through dating apps.
Also, how can I avoid chasers/how should I go about chatting with cis guys? I'm pretty hesitant to seek out cis men as I feel that I won't be taken seriously by them as a guy, and I worry about the safety aspect of that.

Any and all tips/shared experiences would be super helpful, thank you. :)

Hey everyone,

I’m feeling really down right now and could use some support. I’m an FTM guy and gay, currently living in Oklahoma. I’ve been hiding my identity from my family, which has been really hard. Recently, I went out of town to attend Pride, hoping for some much-needed celebration and community, but things didn’t go as planned.

While I was out, someone reached out to me online, and the conversation quickly turned nasty. They called me disgusting, made really hurtful comments, and it completely ruined the trip for me. I tried standing up for myself, but the whole situation left me feeling horrible and alone.

I’ve been keeping so much of myself hidden, and this experience just amplified those feelings of isolation. I don’t know how to move forward after such a disappointing trip that was supposed to be a happy experience. Has anyone else been through something similar? How do you cope when you’re already hiding so much from the people in your life?

Please note: I’d prefer not to get recommendations for therapy. I’m unable to access it, and it hasn’t been very helpful for me in the past.

Any support or advice would mean a lot right now. Thanks.

Sorry for anyone who goes through the pain of reading this lol. I feel so stuck rn.

Today I met with my GP with my parents who don’t believe I’m trans. Tbh at this point even idk if im trans.

Before we left my dad told me that he and my mum will love me and support me no matter what, and im so grateful for that. But he also told me he doesn’t think Ive thought it through, when i have i just find it so hard to talk about so it seems like I haven’t. He asked me whether I’d thought about the surgery and I said i’m still not sure because some people don’t do that. He asked me what about my family and i said of course i want one but I’m not sure how it will work. He told me he finds it really confusing how i still like girls and people won’t want to be with me. He thinks if I get a girlfriend now pre-transition then these feelings might go away.

He and my mum don’t want me starting hormones any time soon, but I don’t know how im gonna cope like this. I can maybe put this stuff out of my mind for a couple of hours if i really try but the feelings always come back. I’ll see a picture of Vi from Arcane and I’ll just feel so sad and angry that I’m not her and i can never be anything like her

He said he doesn’t think I understand the effect this has on him and my mum, i ask how i can make it easier for them and he says i cant we just have to get me support. I can’t say that I’m unhappy because then my parents say they worry they haven’t been good parents which isn’t the case but they never believe me when i tell them that

After we had this conversation I felt quite ill and went to the bathroom. I’m not sure what happened it may have been a panic attack or i might just be being dramatic. I suddenly got really thirsty and hot, then breathing really heavily, for some reason the left hand half of my left arm started tingling, im not really sure what it was

We agreed with my gp that i would do some NHS counselling and I’m supposed to hear from them in 3 days but it feels like forever away and I have to be doing stuff now. Everyday, my feelings get worse and harder to ignore, im crying now tbh but what can i do lol. I don’t know how I’m gonna cope being like this for longer, I’m 18 now and i can’t stand the thought of not transitioning by the time I get to uni, i feel like im wasting my life, living as someone else

I’m just so angry and sad at the same time. Why can’t I just have been born a girl, I could’ve been so much better than i am now, im not a bad person or anything, people tell me im very mature for my age, but sometimes i feel like my brain doesn’t work. I always feel like i belong in one of these shows, films or games I’m always watching

My mum and dad say i can talk to them about anything and ik they love me more than life itself and they want to do whats best for me, but what do they expect me to do if they say how much it devastates and upsets them. If im told i will always look like a man because of my build(im not even that masculine on average tbh, there’s definitely a decent chance of me passing at least i hope) or im told if i transition when i move away for uni I’ll “crash and burn”

I feel so lost, like i have everything thought out but whenever it comes to telling my parents i feel stupid and foolish and its like a wake up to reality. Its so hard thinking about something so much and strongly for so long and having these feelings for ages and then being told that I haven’t thought it through enough and im rushing into things and looking for answers in the wrong place. Parts of me just want to be alone so I can be myself without people watching me

I’m not angry at my parents or anything, i just wish there was a way of showing them exactly how i feel so they know that this isn’t something I want to do its, hrt is something i have/need to do. They mean well and they want whats best for me i just don’t know what to do rn, i don’t feel like I can cope anymore. They think transition will make me unhappy, the only thing making me unhappy rn is not being able to transition, always feeling like someone else and never being able to express myself.

To show how angry and stupid im being rn i just mouthed at a bird to shut the f up outside my window, im a mess ig lol

If anyone has the willpower of john wick and read through all this then thank you and any advice would be much appreciated.

Ellie or sm i don’t even know at this point xx

I knew i was doing somethin wrong and YUP, waited for 5 weeks like a FOOL. I DIDNT KNOW I SWEAR

I'm a therapist working w/ a mid-20s client exploring their gender identity. They are considering transitioning MTF. One of the barriers they are concerned about is how they will fare in law school (which they're applying to now). Do you all have any insight into transitioning in law school? How the legal world tends to interact with trans individuals? Other insights that could be helpful for this situation? TIA

Late thirties trans woman who started hormones over a decade ago. Very happy with all the changes, but unfortunately my underlying structure is just too big and I know can’t change. Anytime I’m around most people, especially other queer people, I’m always the biggest one there even at the same height of 5”11. I’ve had friends tell me I’m not very masculine looking anymore, I can look quite feminine or at least andro. I’m actually fine with looking andro, I just want to escape masculinity forever and have some breathing room, but I just can’t see it most of the time, I’m built so damn big, I see it in the size of my wrists next to anyone else, my shadow being huge next to anyone, my head always looking enormous.

I want FFS badly which I know will help and I am also losing weight (70-80 lbs overweight atm) as well as working with a voice coach. But I feel like even FFS and weight loss will never be enough to feel ok, I just wish I could see cis women who were my size but I never do, it would be so reassuring. Even at my lowest weight during transition I still felt this way. And I def don’t pass either, just reinforcing this bodily perception I have of just being a hairless man in a dress. I feel like I’ve never met any trans woman who has my build who has ended up ok. I just want to enjoy life and put this behind me, and feel like myself most of the time, not in tiny glimmers and random fleeting moments.

I'm afab and have been on T for nearly 2 years. I really want get to a hysterectomy so I can stop taking T. My PCP won't approve my procedure until I turn 25. I'm 24 now so it's that not long but my dysphoria is so bad recently I don't know if I can wait that long. I see a therapist for my dysphoria but it il be a couple weeks before my session. I feel sad because I'm passing too much as a man and I'm nonbinary. I miss fitting in at women's spaces but I don't feel welcome anymore there