Hi people, hope you are well today- i like the name of this group

There’s this topic of subjectivity and objectivity that is somewhat present in the film. Oh btw spoilers ahead.

The main villain has a god complex. He deems his judgement to be superior to the opinions of others. When he views another being as inferior, it is very clear that he does not consider what they have to say.

From what I can gather, he thinks that his values should be the universal, that his standards of perfection is the only correct standard of beauty.

So yeah. Just some small insight

I deleted reddit a while ago due to some stressful things in my life and I haven't been able to come back here. Things are looking up again!
Hopefully everyone here is doing well!
I'll just be hosting some movie nights. Weekly if I can. On the discord server.

Things just seem to keep getting worse and worse.

I feel so awful. I don't even have energy to explain but if I don't try to let it out I feel I'm gonna kms.

I'm very sick both physically and mentally, and lately things have gotten even worse.

I suffer from severe depression, pmdd, cptsd, chronic pain and fatighe, gastrointestinal issues, and more.

2 weeks ago I went to the hospital to make a test. They made me do a special diet the day before and it really hurted my belly. That plus the rest of the things going on in my life I ended up not sleeping almost anything for the test that night. Maybe half and hour to 2 hours.

I went there and it was really bad. Next day I couldn't sleep. When I stay awake purposely then it's like my body gets in some sort of alert mode and I can't sleep.

Then I took pills to sleep in the proper intervals and doses, but couldn't. Finally after taking the last ones I tried to pick up a tissue and I fainted and hit my head.

From then on, the doctor said not to take any pills for a few days because I may have a concussion. I went home and since I couldn't take any painkillers or muscle relaxants I couldn't sleep from the pain and alert state. My blood pressure was very low and has been very low ever since. My back got so bad I couldnt sleep at all. The days passed and then I can't take the pills because of my low blood preassure. I also had to give up one of the two antidepressants I am taking temporarily because it gives me insomnia. I've gotten so much worse both physically and mentally. Depression has hit me like an extremely heavy sped up train. On top of everything the beside neighbour has started some construction work and the noise it's the worst I've ever heard from a construction. To add to my sickness and sleeping problem. I've also been having a low fever all this time and my throat is sore. But in the ER yesterday they said I don't have any infection.

I am dizzy all day long, I don't have any energy and I live alone, no one to help me.

I only know this guy that heard me talking to my mom on the phone while I was in the bus months ago and offered to help me if I ever needed anything. I called him to pick me up from the doctor the day I fainted and hit my head. Then wrote him again a 5-7days maybe later because I was feeling like I was gonna pass out. I just asked him to stay on the phone and giving him updates but he said to come here and he did.

Two days ago I went to the doctor again to give me a solution to the blood pressure thing because the things I'm already doing are not working (drink loads of water, take salt, take ginger tea). And I can't take tea or coffee because caffeine would give me even more anxiety and would cause insomnia most likely. I need something to up my blood preassure without giving me anxiety, if it exist.

I didn't want to call the guy again and I went on my own completely dizzy and at risk of fainting in the way to the doctor in the bus. No one offered me help and many people looked at me pretty badly.

I arrived to the doctor's office so bad, I couldn't do the line on the front desk so I told the woman. She called the nurse. They left me there waiting alone for a long time and I told them I had to see the doctor it was so important I didn't know if he was going to leave. After a long wait the doctor finally came to see me. He was angry because I was late, but I was with the nurse, what could I do.

I tried to explain him my problems and he finally prescribed me a med for low preassure. I was feeling so bad I didn't know what to do. I called my mom but she wasn't helpful, and I ended up calling this guy again, who didn't seem so happy. In the previous months when I didn't call him almost at all he was always insisting that I call him if I ever need anything. But I think after calling him the 3rd time in two weeks he probably was tired of me. He came anyway. Turns out what the doctor prescribed it's not even manufactured anymore and I had nothing. We went back to the office but no doctors. We went to the ER and there at the end they put me some IV, and did some bloodwork and orine analysis. I told the doctor I needed the medication for blood preassure, he said, first the test. The guy left because it was 21.30h and the test were gonna take an hour. I felt so alone. But also a lot less stressed that I didn't feel like he was there and was annoyed or something. By the comments he made and how he reacted to the things I said I felt like he was there because he told me so but didn't really feel much like it. The doctor didn't give me any prescription until the very end when I told him again and he had forgotten. Then he has prescribed me a very strong drug that should only be taken when the rest fails but I haven't even tried a single drug for blood preassure and shouldn't be taking that. So I'm back to square 0.

In the meanwhile, I don't have any dissability recognised or any benefits or anything because I've been sick for so many years but doctors gaslight me and barely run any tests on me, don't believe me. I've seen so many but they didn't even give me any proof of my visit and I pretty much only have some ER papers from my visits and a few files from doctors from the diseases I've been actually diagnosed with. But from chronic pain and fatighe, they haven't reached a diagnosis so I don't have anything. But I can only like leave my home once every two weeks or so and only can be sitted for 2-3h at a time in the best conditions. It's really awful. And as if it wasn't enough not having anything recognised we are having elections soon and I got selected for vote monitoring and counting duty. If you don't go they send you to jail. But I can't possibly do it. No way.

I was so desperate, I was gonna ask the doctor that I saw for a certificate but he was so angry and in a hurry that didn't even gave me the opportunity, and wouldn't have done it anyway.

So my mom went to the doc from when I was a child. I asked her to send me a picture of the paper before submitting it, and I also thought she would need my authorisation to do so. She said she would. I wrote her a list of all the diseases I have and all the health problems that don't allow me to do the duty.

Well, she didn't send me anything and submitted the paper without asking me first. And then I interrogate her about it, doesn't even let me a copy, and when she finally sends one the paper said that I have chronic psychosis!!!!!!! Which I don't have!!!! FOR FUCK'S SAKE!

The doctor wrote that just because he decided so, even when I have so many diseases that like just one of them would be enough to be excused from the duty, and he had to lie. I really feel so awful. It's like what happens to me it's never recognised. And I really can't allow that paper to backfire. But it has been already submitted by my mother, without my authorisation or anything. Somehow they let her do it. I didn't know that could be done. Don't even know if it's legal.

So basically the doctor and my mother had lied to the state in my name without even asking me first and now what can I do. I can't afford that to backfire to me. I don't have enough time to find and go to a different doctor, nor am I able to do it on my own. My mom and all the vote stuff it's in a different city.

I feel so bad, why the fuck did they have to lie about it? In the other paper my mother wrote in the excuse she said the truth, which is good, but also now what the doctor wrote and what she said doesn't match up. I don't know. I really... I mean how could she do such thing? There were still a few days until the deadline for the excuses, we could have tried something else. Or even go to the ER the day of the vote duty I think would've been better than lie to the state.

And about the guy that came to help me, I feel so torn away. On one hand I feel very greatful because I barely even know him and he has come to help me just because (well, we never know if he had some secondary intentions), but giving him the benefit of the doubt just for helping me.

On the other hand I could feel I was annoying him already and I am most sure he doesn't want me to call him ever again probably.

I feel so awful like, people feeling me like an annoyance, a problem, a burden. I feel so awful.

On top of everything my mom has just told me that she's going to go to work until december in another city 3h drive (but she doesn't drive, she only takes the bus), so she won't be around to help me. All the times I tried to talk to her about everything that has happened, she just, she's terrible to talk to, she doesn't make any sense. It's so difficult to talk to her. If for example you tell her: "what you did about sending that without asking me first was very wrong" she'll be like "I should never had gone to the doctor to ask for it then" and I'm like, it's not that, you had to go and ask but you had to tell me first. Or "I do everything wrong, I better don't do anything at all" like she's so catastrophic, and more. Like you can explain things to her and is as if she's not even listening, like things pass by like neutrinos through her head. I told her it was going to be very difficult for me she being away, because she asked me what did I think about the job, but I asked her if she could help paying for PT then since she'll be having money and she goes like "I better don't take the job". And it's like, I never said that. You have to be constantly monitoring her because she's acting like a child. Like only takes things black and white. And so chaotic. Like if I don't specifically tell her after everything "don't do anything about the job until we've talked" she was capable of just turning it down because of a comment of mine.

I am so depressed and all this harmful interactions with my mother and she making such things behind my back are just making me suicidal again, together with all that's been going on. And I feel so alone.

I have no one. I am dizzy all the day, feeling as if I am going to faint. I'm back on escitalopram, the second antidepressant but I feel so awful about everthing. I am thinking of suicide again. I've been having severe depression for a decade.

I can't handle this anymore, I don't have any physical or mental energy to eat. I never do so but I just want to curl in bed and starve myself to death.

Thinking about this makes my brain hurt. It makes me feel so old. But at the same time I feel like the quarantine was literally yesterday.

I was in the class of 2020. Now a lot of us are about to be 4th years in university and about to graduate again.

Idk what it is, if it’s because I’m inside all day working now or the change in friends etc. but I’m just not as happy. I’m in a great new relationship but even then I feel like I’ve just changed significantly as a person. My really good mindset and positivity has flunked over the past 6 months and my anxiety is starting to come back suddenly with me working again. I just don’t know what to do, and I miss the person I used to be.

Summer break is here! Hopefully everyone will be having a great vacation!

Everything is gonna be wet for the next two days

Is this place still active?

Hello, about a year ago I as in a car accident. Being forced to stay home and recuperate, I also decided to set up a discord server to find community. What I found was a lovely group of friends. Supportive and kind friends who check in and talk with eachother, play games and have a general sense of community. I'm grateful for my online community. They have become a part of my day to day sense of the world. How is this community in the way of kindness and support? I've only just started looking at Reddit as a platform and so far I've found a lot of junk.

A little bit cold. But I know the heat is gonna strike soon.

There’s going to be a debate tournament soon! Hope I’ll do alright

Also, excited for the game night with the treehouse that’s coming up

Finally some vacation time! Gonna play lots of minecraft!

I'm over the moon rn! We had lunch, then Archery, then Starbucks. I missed doing archery and it's nice to do it again with someone. Gotta say though, she's decent at it

I hope you all doing alright. I’m getting busier and busier (thanks a lot college). I wish you all a fantastic day!

Now that I’m in college, I am in absolute awe of my professors and my past teachers. Some of them were doing their Masters courses whilst doing their teaching career. The ones who were helpful to the students were much more respectable to me now, as not only do they do their own things but they still dedicate time for their pupils.

Hopefully we can all further improve our skills in time management just as my professors did in their youth. May we be all masters of managing our time in the near future.

Sorry about the sudden rant. Or I guess it’s just a little story or stuff lol.

got notice from my landlady to pay my due rent bill

It’s been ages since I’ve made something like this. I’m making a paper statue. It’s not even finished and I’m already proud of myself!

I just really need someone to talk to, I have so many thoughts in my head that I need to share with someone.

Things have been hectic for the past few weeks. Now I finally got some relief! Big thanks to that Christmas vacation.

Academics is on break, dating life just started and stopped, seriously thinking about my future career has also started. I gotta the last one soon since I can only afford to shift once.

Hope you fellas are doing okay!