I am tired, drained and brainfucked. I have wasted thousands of hours watching sissy tg porn, and reading in literoitica. It makes me feel aroused for the 15min before the climax, but makes me feel weak, vulnerable, and fucks my confidence throughout the day. It fucked my grades my health, my mental sanity, and the slightest chance i would ever be in a relationship. It made 10+ hours of screentime a regular thing for me. It made me fuck my school, my career, my childhood dream, and now my midsems I watched 7+hrs of porn and sexted with men, pretending to be a slutty woman almost regularly thoughout my exam week. No doubt i scored below average in almost each subject

It gave me Porn Induced Erectile Dysfunction, It gave me Porn Induced Premature Ejaculation I can not even get it standing anymore. For the past year or so, i have ejaculated flaccid 90% of the time

It gave me a masturbation addiction. I have masturbated about 6-10 times a day regularly for the past year. And I MEAN REGULARLY. Not a single day off

I masturbate so much that my cum runs clear. Its 98%water with a minute strand of white in it. My day starts with me opening porn after turning off the alarm, and ends with me cumming first the 11th time making me too tired to stay awake.

ENOUGH IS ENOUGH

I pledge to never tough porn again in my life, atleast until i find a beautiful girl, and find success in all aspects. No more masturbation No more sissy tg porn No more social media, no more hours of brainrot content, I will keep my screentime below 90mins a day.

I am not doing this bcos i am secretly trans, and am purging into transphobic self hate, nor bcos i think nofap will give me levitation powers and make me a chic-magnet. Nor am i doing this bcos i saw some alpha male productivity motivation. I am doing this to stay alive, bcos i don’t think i will have much to live for if this continues. I do not hate myself. This is not a punishment. I already tried it, bit my flesh off my arm, 2 times, and it did nothing.

This is the end of it! No more misery in my life.

I am grateful to find this subreddit, and will post my journal, and my study hours regularly here. Any bother out here going through the same, feel free to dm me. We shall fight this demon together.

Hello all, been checking out this subreddit for a little over 2 weeks, im not entirely sure if my post is suited here as a majority of the posts i read come from people who often take the trans / sissy path, im not questioning my gender but rather my sexual orientation, hoping this post will resonate with others who are struggling like I am.

—————————————————— Back story: 23 male, been watching porn since 2014 but ive been masturbating since 2012. During this time I was a 100% straight having crushes on girls at my school or ones I saw at the local park even though i liked these girls there was never a spark that made me want to go after them.

It didn’t take long for porn to become a daily habit. It was vanilla content, I only watched lesbian which aroused me to the point where I had to rub one out. At this point the idea of a penis didnt arouse me, I thought it was gay to watch straight porn I so stayed away from it although there was one time i watched a girl jerk a guy off because I was curious to see how much sperm would be released, this was back when I hadn’t reached this point in puberty, still I wasn’t aroused by it at all and never returned to the video.

I remember when my family would go out and leave the house to me for a few hours I’d spend my time masturbating 3-6 times to porn, eventually I started to branch out to straight porn, cant say i found it all that exciting but it was good enough until I discovered step-sister / mom roleplay (lesbian & straight). I also started watching girl anal videos, something I thought was completely normal at the time yet exciting & adventurous but it didn’t last long until I craved for something else.

Consumption of these categories plus other vanilla straight categories lasted until early / mid 2019, there was no pulse in my penis, I was struggling to get hard because I had already masturbated that day which didnt help since I had already been thinking weeks before that lesbian & straight porn isn’t that arousing to me but I kept at it because thats all i had desired. One night I decided to give trans (mtf & male) porn a chance.....

I don’t want to say anything too triggering but you are now being warned; if you’re prone to easy relapses please disengage!!!

!!!!!!!!!

This new found category was arousing in every possible way, the thought of a women with a small flaccid penis that was unable to become erect struck me as pure feminine and I’m sure there’s a power dynamic factor that plays a part too.... seeing someone who should be masculine & full of testosterone become so submissive & flowing with oestrogen turned me on, I would get hard instantly just at the sight of a pic. This is pretty much where the issue presents itself, five years later and I’m still aroused by this, nonetheless;

I thought nothing of this until last summer when I began a liking a girl. I would think about her 24/7 for almost a month, you could say it caused a flatline because I had no urges to masturbate or watch porn. When my love flame burnt out I went back to trans porn and questioned my sexuality; do i prefer trans girls over biological or is this a fetish / kink, tried giving straight porn a chance but it wasnt arousing like trans, for context i had never stopped watching straight porn, it was something I’d watch maybe once or twice a month because I felt like seeing a vagina.

I’ve been watching trans porn just as long as straight / lesbian porn at this point which reinforces in my mind I’m more attracted to trans women yet I’ve always dreamt of having a biological woman as a wife and subsequently have children.

I will admit the type of trans porn I indulge in is quite strict, i only watch trans girls if they have a small penis and aren’t flat chested, its been this way since I started browsing the trans NSFW sub-reddits in 2020 (which I no longer do because the majority of posts are quite boring and karma farming spam)

Recently ive been watching more straight / lesbian / solo biological girl porn, going almost a week without trans porn twice this month, it puts me in a better mood during the post nut clarity. I’ve also found myself a few times in the middle of my day getting urges to watch biological girls masturbate but I still find my way back to watching trans women where this “spark” ignites.

Hey everyone, sorry if this has been discussed a million times here. I am sure it has and will continue to be. But I was first exposed to a sissy life when I was young, at age 13 when I put my cousins bikini on. Ever since then, 13 years later it has progressively been getting more and more intense. Anyways, I fell into the Bmbi S*** trap 3 years ago or so and went deep. It was bad and super addicting and I was doing crazy changes to my lifestyle that I normally wouldn’t. However it was short lived when I got a gf and stopped cold Turkey. Anyways fast forward to now, 2 years later after I discovered the BS files and 6 months after my ex left me. I have serious intense cravings that are pretty much bipolar in the sense of one min I wanna put on a bikini and put in my breast forms, the next min I stop myself cause I know what it was like before. I thought I could shake it but I can’t. Any advice or guidance would be greatly appreciated! If you need more information or wanna know more details on what I did to feminize myself, feel free to PM! Thank you! Have a great day! And Happy Halloween!

r/AutoMEF

Even on r/askAGP, which is vastly more honest than the mainstream trans narrative (paraphilic-sexuality trangenderism vs female brain transgenderism), very few autogynephiles seem to want to acknowledge a clear trend that may invalidate their autosexual identity. I don't think it does but I do think that it needs to be talked about, especially for those who are inclined towards being sissy.

Please listen and participate so that we can try to get to the male feminization TQ (trauma question). Post your story, ideas and questions if you're so inclined.

Warning: I'm not currently trying to recover. I'm just journaling my psychological experiences in various situations and trying to get to the truth. I'm an apolitical individualist when it comes to trans/sissy issues.

I am new to hypno porn. I really like to watch femdom humiliation hypno videos. Most of the time, when I’m looking for this stuff, I find sissy porn. So few days ago, I began watching sissy porn for the first time. I am not into guys nor am I interested in watching penissen. I only watch it to be humiliated by the girl voice in the video. But people on the internet say that those videos really messed up their sexuality or they say it is addicting or dangerous. Can somebody please explain why it could be dangerous?

https://www.reddit.com/r/TGandSissyRecovery/comments/jag835/how_i_lost_interest_in_it_all/ - I relate to this a lot as someone who engaged with this in a sad low point of my life. I hope I can make it like him.

https://www.reddit.com/user/RecoveryRoad1994/ - this dude decided "fuck this shit" and kicked the addiction while staying positive

I watched trans porn all my life, never ever occured to me that I may want to be the girl. Recently in the past year I was very lonely and anxious. I had lots of feminine hobbies, inspired by female fashion, saving feminine pics etc for a long time but never for the reason of wanting to become that, I was cool wit it.

I had crossdressing urges for months and tried it out 2 times. Then the second time I had weird ass fantasies that fucked me up, similar to sissies. Then I realized that there is something more to this shit and not just dudes casually wearing female clothing. Ever since that I had panic attacks, HOCD, TOCD etc. Can't forgive myself.

It's been a month. I sometimes fapped to trans girls but now I try to stay off porn. No crossdressing urges.

my hopes: when all the bad things happened I was worried about who I was in my life, not in control, I was alone a lot and had escalating porn addiction. So this fetish can't be who I truly am. This can't be right. I also had decrease in anxiety since, though I still obsess all day about TOCD and fear losing myself to fetish. But I had worries abut not being manly enough before this and being single for years.

my worries: I am worried there is no good end out of this. I am either trans (probably not, but TOCD does not reason) or a fetishist and I read posts saying crossdressing urges never go away etc. My biggest fear is that I am repressing my true self and this is why I have all this anxiety. Also, I feel like this all could have been just a phase of me being lost in life and dressing up a few times but I can not move on. I also dont see much success stories and I am so negative I cannot believe them.

I cannot return to my old hobbies. I cannot do art because all the feminine drawings or pictures make me think that's who I truly am. Like I am repressing my old personality and interests. Even reading my diary caused me panic attacks because of feminine interests in them. I don't know who I am. And I cannot forgive myself and go back to old hobbies because I fear if I do I will end up in my perversions again.

Hi, this is quite hard to write to be honest and I do feel quite ashamed. I started masturbating around 13 to vanilla stuff but quickly found joi type videos and enjoyed them I then found some mild femdom stuff and throughout the years it has really gotten worse and progressed to more extreme things which I am not proud of to be honest. I have really been trying to go cold turkey but I find myself giving into my urges as masturbating is really my only form of gratification, I honestly have not really had a proper relationship. I have had sex a few times but they weren’t great experiences and I did find my self going soft to be honest. I really hate this and just want to be normal but I can’t seem to control my self and i don’t really know what to do. I know therapy might help but I’m not currently working and I can’t really afford it right now. I am 23 and feel like I will never be loved or able to have a relationship which actually worries me. I wish I could just be normal and have vanilla sex and be loved and have a relationship, I am also worried this might prevent me from having a family etc, any advice or help would be greatly appreciate

i just want a simple answer to my question, life is going terribly in the last days, even weeks, and i’m falling down in the sissy path every day more, i even ordered a dildo today and i keep watching sissy hypno and captions. But i really don’t know if this is the right thing to do. Should i try to get better, even if i know i will relapse bcs its been years that i try and im tired of it, or should i just give in..

Update: i thought about it and i will try to get better from now on. i accept all advices

Hello, I am new to this subreddit and I love reading all of the motivation and success stories, as well as the brutal honesty. I wanted to come here to share a bit of my story so that maybe you can find some inspiration in it. I will preface that my experience with this brain rotting media is shorter than a lot of the stories on here but I feel like this is the only place I can share. I 19M developed a pretty bad addiction to this porn a few years ago during the pandemic Era and didn't really realize the problems that it was causing me until about 6 months ago. Luckily for me, since I still live with family, I never got into doing anything too physical besides trying to stimulate my prostate. Meaning I never cross-dressed, used sex toys, met with anyone in real life or even chatted with people. But, even without those things the psychological effects it had were enough to set off red flags in my mind. I was constantly thinking about being submissive and pleasing men but everytime the post-nut clarity would hit I would feel ashamed and frankly disgusted with myself and it just kept pulling me back somehow. I felt depressed, worthless, unworthy of love and pathetic because of this porn. But my addiction was so bad that everytime I went to jerk off I would somehow end up falling back down the sissy rabbit hole, it was all I would jerk off too. I have never been gay, done gay things or even thought about men in such a way before this porn which I think just goes too show how destructive this porn really is. Once I realized this, I began attempting to distance myself from sissy hypno, but not porn all together. I think this is what would lead to my many relapses in trying to cure myself. I would only make it a couple days or a week or so before caving and going back. It wasn't until I made a conscious effort to quit porn for a while that a change was made. I quit porn all-together for about a month, gave my mind time to re-decide what I found attractive. After that month I returned to watching porn (far less than I did before) and I had zero want to go back to those videos. It has been a few months now and I have been completely hypno-free and I have never felt better. Being a sissy was never who I was meant to be, I am attracted to women and only women, those thoughts that I had were the effects of a porn addiction run wild. If you are/were strong enough to see the problem as soon as I did QUIT AS SOON AS POSSIBLE!!! Your mind will try to justify reasons to keep going back and the longer you let that happen the deeper it plants its corrupting roots into your brain. I am posting this in hopes that people that have similar situations will feel inspired to quit. I by no means had it worse than many people, and I extend my best wishes to those who are still recovering. Thank you for reading this, it feels nice to get this off my chest and have somewhere to hold me accountable.

So I have found a gf for the first time in 20 yrs. I am super happy and pumped. She looks absolutely stunning and sexy. We are on a long distance, she is super sexual. And when we talk or sext, I can see cum leaking out of my penis without erections. I feel like I have lost erections, after texting I try to masturbate but I rarely get an erection. It feels like my those neurones that control my erections dont get stimulated without Sissy porn and feminization content.

It's been 8days since we are in relationship. Idk what to do, I am cooked mate. I have stopped watching my those brainrot content for 1month( I repalsed twice).

Shame is holding you back from progress. The key is to accept all that you have done, wether that be posting yourself online, just watching porn or whatever it may have been. Because, it will make this easier for you and the past has already happened and there is nothing you can do to change that, so you just need to accept it. And I know that sucks, but once you accept the past it will suck way less.

In my old post I wrote about feeling really bad about my photos still being up on reddit, and me having anxiety attacks because of it. While yea knowing they'll be there forever is still kinda annoying, having come to terms with it has made me feel way better.

Shame plays a huge part in this fetish and is the main thing making it so strong. We who have had this fetish get turned on by humiliation and feelings of shame. So, dont let this be a source of shame for you.

1. Accept that you've watched it.
2. Tell yourself that you can keep doing that if you want too.

Yeah you read that right. You don't have to stop! (I found that way of thinking makes it harder for me). But you want to stop. So, why do you want to stop? What are your reasons? Feeling shame is not a good reason. That is counterintuitive because it makes this fetish more shameful and therefore more powerful.

Wanting better mental health and sexual health (like needing less stimulation to get turned on = better sex irl) are both great reasons for wanting to stop. Feelings of shame are not.

Hey, friends.

I am frustrated because I can't seem to find a good strategy around this. I am either abstaining for some time and then lose control and spend the whole day watching and sexting with people online, or I try to accept this part of me and watch it in small doses, but the time spent watching always escalates.

It feels like self-harm, I feel anxious and sad afterwards. I feel that if I can manage it, and use it when I deliberately decided to, I would feel fine. It is the sudden compulsion that makes me frustrated.

I am curious if anyone here had success with some strategies othen than full abstinence.

Does anybody have like a masculine hypnosis? A reverse sissy hypnosis? I really do think somebody should make a ton of files like this. Look at the stuff sissy hypno does, for example, a memorable catchphrase that shows up throughout the video accompanied by an attention grabbing sound like a snap, background noise, sensory overload with imagery, words, audio, a spiral, or whatever, that makes it so that you cant look away.

I don't care if this sounds manipulative, because that's what hypnosis is, and that's how it works.

Currently struggling with some very strong urges and felt the need to write out my thoughts and feelings around it.

Ive been going strong for a couple days, and honestly feeling great. Until I got triggered, of course. The triggers was >!an audio of gay porn used as a meme on instagram!< and it made me want to relapse. Over the last thirty minutes Ive been fighting the desire to relapse and it has been easier than usual due to a mindset change.

Porn is a demon, it lives inside you. These “urges” are not actual sexual desire, but instead the demon saying “Im hungry”. Heres the good part, as you deny an urge you are starving the demon. The longer you starve it, the easier it gets. You have to separate genuine sexual desire from the demon being hungry.

Sure, giving in would feel good. It would release the feeling for a while. But the demon will get hungry again. Its better to starve it out now than to let it grow and get more difficult due to your feeding. Using porn will only increase your desire for more porn.

So, take pride and joy in denying an urge, you are starving the demon, you are proving your strength over it.

Walk with God, starve the demon, and love yourself. Wallowing over quitting will only make it harder.

For context, I am a 21M and I’ve been addicted to porn and masturbation for basically as long as I can remember. The content I was watching escalated throughout middle school, and I first found sissy porn when I was around 15.

Ever since I discovered this I’ve never liked it whatsoever. I tried things when I was um younger like anti-sissy hypno, and just trying to abstain from looking at it, but nothing really worked. However I could kind of ignore it,move on once I was done, and I still saw myself as straight. This persisted until I developed HOCD in my junior year of high school. It completely destroyed me. I would constantly be doing compulsions, ruminating I’m my room, and I would stay up all night pacing around the downstairs area of my house. Every day I awaited the moment where I could actually fall asleep I was so mentally exhausted.

Eventually my parents learned about it, and after a long time of suffering they scheduled me with a therapist. She didn’t specialize in OCD, but rather just sexuality and gender. I had some preconceived notions about queer people before this, and I’m glad she was able to teach me about sexuality and gender. I mentioned OCD sometimes to her, but she never fully acknowledged that I had it. Rather she just asked why I thought I had it, and listened to my concerns. But most importantly, she was someone I felt comfortable talking to about. After I while I was talking to her more and more about life, and I felt a lot better at the end of our time together. I wasn’t experiencing these intrusive thoughts anymore, and I felt like I did before I had OCD.

However I was still addicted, and I didn’t discuss this as much with my therapist. Fast forward two and a half years and these thoughts come back. I have some sort of hindsight for how this works but I know this fetish/addiction is the main reason I’m suffering.

And to clarify I’m not homophobic or transphobic. I have a lot of queer friends, including trans people. One of my best friends that I’ve known since the 4th grade is a gay man. I’m also okay with men expressing femininity if they want. Hell, Kurt Cobain is one of my favorite rockstars of all time, and he did it often . I’m not religious either, and even if I was I wouldn’t hate anyone. I don’t even hate people who do indulge in sissy stuff, if that’s what you’re into, that’s great! It just isn’t me, and I feel no joy when I watch this porn. It’s just something I fall into when I’m stressed, sad, or bored. It’s like my brain just craves some sort of pleasure response and takes over. It’s gotten really bad since I moved to University for the first time this fall. It’s gotten to a point where it’s affecting my academics. I finally decided to reach out after I relapsed and wasted a night of studying on pacing and ruminating, just like I used to do. I’m looking forward to talking to someone, but I just need some advice. How do you guys avoid relapsing when you see a trigger? It feels almost impossible to get out of. I apologize for the long post, it’s just that I have been lurking in this subreddit for a long time, and just need help.

TLDR; im a porn addict with HOCD and I need help learning how to stop myself from relapsing when I feel triggered.

why is captions and the hypno so intense ? can someone explain the psychology behind this stuff. i almost feel like my behavious is a self harm thing sometimes. the captions why is it that they are so "strong" to look at why ? if someone have an explenation please share.

I’m on 32 days No Fap. Last time I was about 28 days and relapsed to jerking off while on grindr chats.

I deleted grindr and went on no nap. I was even talking to a few girls, but they all fell through. I also felt some sexual excitement during those times, but nothing happened.

Now, without the girls I’m talking to and grindr being deleted, I just feel numb as if I’m asexual. Like I feel if I went back to the sissy stuff, I’d get fully aroused again, but I avoid the content and the clothes in my closet.

I will say some of my girly music that I listened to that got me in a sissy mode doesn’t get me in sissy mode anymore. I’m able to enjoy the music without sexual arousal or feeling that type of way.

Should I fap again to feel something? Or am I just going through a numbness stage?

I ghosted all of the women I was talking to because I’m emotionally unavailable due to work and other obligations.

Im so tired, i feel like I just threw away a months worth of progress, even though I know thats not how the brain works, and Ive still made progress. But I feel shit. I hate this so much.

Fuck it.

Im not doing this anymore. Where do I see myself in ten years? With this stupid fucking fetish dropped. I want a goddamn wife, I wanna be manly, I wanna be confident. Im getting off this godforsaken website and turning to christ. Im going back to the gym. This slip up has only made my hatred of porn stronger, it has only made my passion for an escape greater. I WILL be free. I WILL be a man. This is what men do, the hard shit that you just gotta do no ifs ands or buts. So fuck it. Im doing it. Starting today I am no longer a sissy, a slut, or whatever degenerate term has been burnt into my brain. I am a man of God. Im so tired of this self pity, Im the only one to blame. I did this. I will get myself out. I may have fallen twice today but I swear on my bloodline I will get back up with the strength of four generations of men who came before me. Im not disgracing them anymore.

Sayonara guys, its been one fuck shit hell of a run. o7

Okay, I just want to tell you about my addiction and how a typical week is for me, or have been the last 1-2 years of this addiction to this hypno stuff. I have been addicted to porn since I was a little kid. and it took over my life at an early age. I had access to a PC and my dad's magazines hidden in the basement. The years kept going, and I was like a preteen or something like that. I found out my dad was using a website to meet/talk to people online with like "sex adds," you can post looking for the "right one," and I was not even a teen, so I started watching porn and chat with people on there.
I can't really remember that much, but I know that was what I did about 10 years ago. I started masturbating more and more; I even started doing it in school bathrooms/locker rooms when no one could see me. I had one kid that my mother's friend used to bring over. and he was kind of weird, but I let him do sexual stuff to me in the in the very early years of my life. I did not know ANYTHING about sex; I just did what I saw on the screen. So almost my whole childhood and teens have still been controlled by porn/sex.
but too fast forwad a bit to where I am at now. I have only been with girls in my teen/adult life. I dont really think about if I'm gay, bi, or whatever. I used to be very worried about that. I don't know why I'm not anymore. But now I want to explain how my last 2..3 years have been. So what I have watched all my life has been all kinds of porn, straight/gay/trans/soft/hard, whatever. Many times every day I watched Sissyhypno as a teen, but maby only a few times it was nothing; really, I didn't think anything of it, and the years went like this, totaly addicted to porn, using it a it a few times a day. But then it creeped into my life, and I got hooked on Sissyhypno/captions. I slowly started watching it more and more.
and now, 2 years later, every time I watch porn, it's that. because I tried to quit so many times only to fail after a few days, relapsing hard to hypnosis for hours and hours. The thing is that I feel free the first days I quit. I enjoy life and 
can feel that it's good for my mental health. but then something just snaps one day and I fall back. and when I fall back, it consumes my whole existence for a day or two. I fill my PC with pictures/videos; I even change my backgrounds to porn Sissy captions on my PC and my phone. I have even ordered stuff before, like clothes, sex toys, and stuff, but managed to not do it for a while now. almost hooked up with random strangers, glad I did not. It TOTALLY consumes my life. It happened a few times that I called in sick because I stayed up all night doing this stuff, only to realize what I was doing in a few hours or days and feel like complete garbage. I don't know what to do about this really. Please pray for me if you can. If you want to ask me anything, feel free. And if you believe in God, I would love to talk to you about this and the forces behind all this.

I used to masturbate watching M2F videos when I was 13 yrs old; never thought if watching a regular porn. This then escalated to Sissy porn, Femboy, Femdom etc. Now the situation got so worse that I dont get enough erections watching Vanilla Porn. I had 3 crush in my 20 year old life, and not of them had loved me back.

I feel that I lack testosterone, but then again I am a gym freak and got a moderately well defined physique. It has been like 7 months that I realised what I have done to my mind. What this genre has done to my mind and life. I once wanted to finger myself, but didnt. I used to regularly read CD stories, Sissy stories, now I dont know if I am stuck forever or not.

I want to be a normal dude, who gets erection watching other females and wants sex from female only. I hate this crappy Femboy, sissy shits. Please guys help me.

I have not masturbated watching Sissy porn for like 1.5 months straight but within the last 4 days I did it twice.
But during that 1.5months it was super tough to ejaculate, I had to use so much force, strength and time that I understood that it was my hand doing the job not my mind.

I hope I will get some help from u all guys.

Yes, you can relax. You are not "feminine," you are a very masculine man, so masculine that you are not concerned about appearing feminine. Unfortunately, such beauty is somewhat not allowed to exist, so you are instead tempting to try to be feminine. Rejoice in your masculinity!

There are many men who are afraid of what they are, but you... embrace your leadership skills, reject sissyhood, become the man you dreamed to be.

So I’ve been doing NoFap, two days on, one day break and then two days back on.

Today is day 2 before my break. I’m on instagram watching a random comedy video and I see this pretty girl wearing a short blouse showing her cleavage. I’m instantly crazy horny. At the end of the video I see her again this time she’s leaning forward so I see even more. I tried to screen record the parts of the video where I saw her so I could masturbate but I couldn’t get clear images of her. This made me come to my senses. Or so I thought.

While I kept trying to get clear images of her I started charging my secret phone so I could sext with this guy that wants to meet me. I gave up on the screen recording and instead went on kik livestream cos there are cute girls on there that I follow….long story short I ended up paying $50 for nudes on Snapchat 🤦‍♂️.

I waited for ages for her to finish her livestream so she could send them to me, all the while this is happening I’m on my laptop flirting with guys in chatrooms, humping my bed. She finally sends me the nudes and they’re sooo hot. But I managed to force myself to not masturbate to them for two reasons: 1) because today isn’t my fap day, and 2) my dick wasn’t fully erect and I’m not gonna allow my dick to cum semi-erect to a woman. FUCK. THAT.

All of this happened around 5pm. For another SIX HOURS I stayed on my laptop flirting with guys “making plans”, humping my bed. So i relapsed.

Did I cum though? No. I still stuck to my 2 days of NoFap. So that’s a win if you ask me.

The road to recovery is not linear. Stay strong and practise the habits however way you can, big or small.

I have been addicted to sissy/femdom porn for almost 10 years now , I have quit other addictions like smoking before, but this addiction seems impossible to quit for me. Right now I'm thinking about leaving it completely.

This has made me wonder , Is it really possible to quit it? or I should forget about it?

I’ve had an issue with hypno for a while and it’s slowly wormed its way into my brain and made me do things I’d have never even considered before.

I’ve tried the nofap route before but each time I’ve reached a point where the urges overcome my willpower and due to the horny state I go straight back to hypno even harder than before.

This time I’m trying to use it purely to rewire my sexuality back to the way it was (get myself horny enough for just photos/imagination to be enough then give my brain the dopamine from that).

I’ve gone 3 days without any sexual activity so far and I was wondering when would be the opportune time to carry on. The relapses previously started around a week to a week and a half into abstaining from anything.

Trigger warning:

So to start I’ve (26) been struggling with a porn addiction for well over a decade, and autogynephillia close to two. I am comfortable with being a straight male and enjoy all the typical male things, sports, hunting, fishing, camping, working on cars, carpentry just to name a few. My story started when I was 8-10 years old. I had two very absent Mormon parents that were always working or when they were home busy doing their own thing. I don’t know for sure but there may be some sexual trauma and definitely religious trauma from my upbringing. Since I was left alone to do my own thing I started fantasizing about wearing panties and being a woman when I saw underwear ads for women in the mail. I started by masturbating to the pictures of women’s underwear in the JCPenney, target ads. I wanted to know what it was like to wear a thong/ panties and fantasized about it. When I was probably around 13-14 I got into porn. At first it started with vanilla stuff and over time it escalated all the way to sissy porn. Then I started buying/stealing panties and anal toys. I was single on and off from 21-24. Then about 2.5 years ago I met the love of my life. She’s truly the best. She was okay with pegging and after I found that out I told her about my struggles with porn and Crossdressing about a 1 1/2 ago. She was very empathetic but didn’t want me wearing panties or anything of that sort. I’ve been through some tough times with her and struggles of relapses. I’ve also struggled to tell her the truth on anything that I may get anxious about. Financials and just withholding the truth for example. I have pushed off therapy but I am hoping to start individual and couples therapy with her soon. The one big thing I struggle to tell her is that even tho I have been doing good for about 3 months with my porn addiction but I’m still struggling with wanting to Crossdress. I have been trying my hardest to not want to but it’s still hard for me. Does anyone have any advice or words of encouragement for me?

I know this is different for everyone, but for me personally, I’m not bothered by the confusion or self doubt but mostly just how time consuming this fetish is and how much less productive I became. I have a loving family, girlfriend (currently long distance), a well paying job and I never experience any trauma that led to this.

I am a straight male and after around 1 year of consuming the sissy hypno content, nothing rly happened to my sexuality. I don’t have interest in man or get arouse by cock, I do not watch sissy porn outside of hypno context and mostly only see hypno as an imagination. I don’t have or plan to get any toys nor do I do anal masturbation or cross dressing. I am still attracted to women and engage in normal sex, and sometimes watch normal porn when masturbating too. Before this addiction to sissy hypno, my previous most viewed category was femdom, So I think for me, it’s that I am addicted to submissive Hypnos with flashy images and commanding feminine voice and it just so happen that most of those content nowadays is sissy hypno.

My life isn’t really “ruined” by this fetish. However, it starts to concern me as I notice I would sometimes avoid social activities with friends and loved ones just to masturbate or spend an absurd amount of free time browsing for pornographic content (mostly sissy hypno), I also developed a habit to only masturbate when high.

I feel like the reason why I am not moving forward is actually due to the fact that this addiction is not impacting my life that much at this point since it never gave me any identity crisis, so I always have that “why not” mindset. I am doing fine at work and maintains a normal amount of social life, but I do see the potential problems these addictions could cause in the future and thus why I am seeking advice to overcome this mindset.

I tried to do no fap and cleared my saved videos but i always seem to relapse after a couple weeks due to the dopamine boost I receive. This is making me very unproductive and reduced my performance in gym and made it almost impossible for me to learn new skills or develope new hobbies in my free time.

I am asking for advice on how I should approach this situation. Should I retry no fap? Or maybe set an amount of time I am allowed to masturbate in a certain period of time. Maybe cut the THC out of sexual pleasure ? Any advice would be appreciated, or just share your stories so they might motivate me.

If you're really an addict, porn isn't your problem. Porn is the solution you came up with to deal with your problems. You have used porn to solve your problems, it helped for a time, but now the solution of porn no longer works for you.

An alcoholic's problem isn't alcohol, it's their solution. Same with heroine addicts, love addicts, sex addicts, codependent addicts, food addicts, relationship addicts, workaholics, etc.

So here are some questions to reflect on, that are more about the things that lead up to your sexually acting out.

Do I feel guilty when I stand up for myself?

Do I have an overdeveloped sense of responsibility?

How many of my choices are made out of fear or obligation?

Do I compare my insides to other peoples outsides?

Do I do a lot of comparing in general?

Do I feel I need to regulate everyone's emotions around me to feel safe?

Do I rely on myself or do I rely on something greater than myself? How so?

Am I afraid of people and authority figures?

Am I constantly seeking approval from others?

Do I know the difference between love and pity?

Do I know the history of addiction in my family? Do I know that addiction effects every family member both extended and immediate, alive and dead?

How much of my day-to-day decisions are made out of shame? Do I agree with people just to feel safe?

Am I aware that reshaping my opinion so it's easier for a person to hear is a form of manipulation?

Do I do nice things to seek out some reward back from the people I help or to get some reward from God?

Do I avoid confrontation?

Whenever I make a decision or take an action, do I start to think about the people who disagree with it?

Say you've gone through this sub and saw all these posts about "Sissy Hypnosis," and because of how horrible these stories sound to you you are glad you've never tried it yourself, or have you? In reality, any pornography, and 100% especially especially sissy pornography is hypnotizing you every time you view it.

I can attest first hand as somebody who never looked at sissy hypnosis, the habit cycle I got in of watching regular sissy content and doing anal PMO was hypnotic, it used to be that every time I was tempted I was instantly entranced.

This porn gets you hypnotized quick, you could argue that any addiction is comparable to being hypnotized, but the facts are: 1, sissy videos are inherently more taboo than other things, leading to higher dopamine levels and excitement when viewing it, and 2, when we watch them we want to be the sissy. For example, we may find ourselves thinking "I wish I had that toy, I wish I had that cage, I wish I could do that" ect ect.

This completely goes over the fact that sissy captions are a thing. I used to look at sissy hentai a lot and I would read every single word on the page, sometimes even twice, a lot of the times images had captions that were basically an attempt at hypnotizing you, a lot of affirmations and "I want to be this,""make me this," nonesense.

If you look at this from a societal lens, a lot of people are hypnotized to all sorts of things. There are evil evil people in this world who get payed to design advertisements, and they often take a page out of hypnosis's book when designing these ads. If you are somebody who listens to a diverse variety of music, you may even notice that listening to the pop station on the radio FEELS like being hypnotized. If you know what it feels like to be entranced, you know its very hard to put your mind on something else in that moment. Your rational mind is simply turned off and done deal. Just think about how this effects the way people think on a day to day basis, 24/7.

Moral of the story, if you haven't actually listened to sissy hypnosis, but you still look at sissy porn, you have still been hypnotized as badly if not worse.

I see so many of you asking what to do in posts following relapses, hating yourselves for liking this type of porn, questioning your sexuality, etc.

First and foremost, I would just like to say, if you’re a man and you like anal play, that does not make you gay. You have a prostate, your g-spot is literally in your ass. That’s not your fault, and if it feels good, then you should be able to explore that avenue.

Some of you absolutely sound like you’re bi/bi curious, and that’s okay.

On the topic of relapses and hating yourselves; white knuckling (simply avoiding) the porn isn’t going to help you. A lot of you have addictions. And regardless of whether or not it’s porn, meth, heroin, alcohol, etc; it’s still. An. Addiction.

You can try to avoid it all you like, but that will not solve your problems.

You need therapy to address the underlying issues, to help you find healthy coping mechanisms, and to find better ways to manage your time and energy.

If you are that desperate for help, then get the proper help. Alongside that, get an accountability app, and have someone trusted as your accountability partner.

It’s a long, tough road to recovery, but you have to make the decision to work at it, and get the help you need. Otherwise, you’re just going to keep struggling, relapsing, and repeating this cycle.

Please look out for yourselves and take the proper steps. There are resources available for you out there.