I was just remembering a time when I had a bunch of plants in pots growing on my window sill. The pots didn't have any soil in them, I just kept the plant's roots soaked in water fortified with liquid Miracle Grow mixed in. The only things the plants needed to create a living thing were water, air, some chemicals like nitrogen and whatnot in the Miracle Grow, and sunlight. They broke down and re-assembled those molecules to make a living plant. So, a bunch of lifeless molecules from those three things came together and transformed into a living and growing plant. That's the case with pretty all plants though. They create a living thing out of lifeless matter.

Imagine a world where every action, from the mundane to the extraordinary, is meticulously logged in an ever-expanding personal database. This statistical ledger would reveal the number of times you’ve sneezed, the countless cups of coffee consumed, and the precise tally of skipped heartbeats during heartwarming moments. It would chronicle every kind word spoken and each thoughtless remark uttered, painting a comprehensive portrait of your life's journey. Such a record might provoke introspection, prompting you to celebrate your triumphs and confront your missteps. The numbers could serve as a catalyst for personal growth, encouraging you to embrace gratitude for life's small pleasures and strive for a more balanced future. In essence, these statistics would transform into a mirror, reflecting not only the sum of your experiences but also the intricate mosaic of who you are becoming.

is this just another example of a stim rant or are some points valid?

obviously, everything did not come from me originally but it’s mostly my thoughts, some things I’ve heard that has touched me & never left my mind. Most of it is coming from how I think but can’t act out in words irl. No one will probably read, anyway I got all Es at school so I woke up looked at it and felt pretty good

I’m going through a mental health crisis and I don’t know how to express my feelings and thoughts so I spent 11 hours writing about how my mind works and I want you to read it. Please don’t think I’m crazy. I just can’t get words out with my mind

Suicide carried off many; drink and the devil took care of the rest. We’re all theory and no action.

It’s time to break the cycle of repeated mistakes and pain - taking action is my only hope.

although it will seem difficult, the reward will be great.

We are the authors of ourselves.

I want to see you, I want you to see me, I don’t want to be an ant - you know, I mean we go through life with our antennas bouncing off of one another, continuously on ant autopilot with nothing really human required of us. Stop. Go. Walk here. Drive there. All action basically for survival. I want real human moments. I want to see you. I want you to see me. I don't want to be an ant, you know?

I've been kind of on zombie auto-pilot lately, I don't feel like an ant in my head, but I guess I probably look like one. It's kind of like D.H. Lawrence had this idea of two people meeting on a road. And instead of just passing and glancing away, they decide to accept what he calls "the confrontation between their souls." My interpretation of this would be meeting of two soul mates interwoven by .. ‘fate, destiny, divine intervention..?) I refuse to believe life has no meaning. Purpose is beautiful I’ve got the benefit in this reality of a consistent perspective. What is your consistent perspective?

It's mostly just me dealing with a lot of people who are exposing me to information and ideas that seem vaguely familiar, but, at the same time, it's all very alien to me. I'm not in an objective, rational world. Like I've been flying around high on multiple substances for years.. This is the most in myself and in my thoughts that I've been so far; introspectively learning in my mind is hard. I’m trying. I don't know it’s weird too, because it's not like a fixed state, it's more like this whole spectrum of awareness.

We seem to think we're so limited by the world and the confines, but we're really just creating them.

You keep trying to figure it out, but it seems like now that you know that what you're doing is dreaming, you can do whatever you want to. Wake up

You're dreaming, but you're awake. - You have so many options, and that's what life is about. Opportunities come and go, you have one more good one left until it’s too late.

I would rather participate at life then write a hundred stories - Thomas Mann

You cannot understand life and live life simultaneously; it’s flowing always. a life well lived is a life worth living. isolation is prison, connection is key.

Love your loved ones.

It’s short. But it’s beautiful and it’s awful, life’s a balance and it always will be. Why do they say history repeats itself? At one point in this world - earth was on hell over a 100 years ago. We live a blessed life today. The same principles apply to how lite is experienced to every one of us, ups & downs, constantly meeting in the middle.

People aren’t always fortunate to experience the good side of the ‘balance’ when they’re physically here, i just pray whoever is out there; whoever ‘made’ us or whatever happens after death that when we leave this earth; don’t make us suffer if you didn’t let us enjoy life. The point I’m making - show kindness ro strangers & be compassionate to strangers. Everyone deserves a second chance at life.

the low taper fade

What if you're the main player in this whole thing and everyone else is just programmed to make this feel real?

I mostly have experience with cats. If you have ever lived with a cat, you know that she can at a moment of her choosing become a pretty formidable creature. She is a mammal who has survived on her reflexes and the ability, as necessary, to do real physical harm. She also knows this. She would not be here otherwise.

I do not think they see us as gods. I think they see us as what we are, which is them.

Maybe it's different with dogs. We have been breeding them more actively and for much longer. They might actually, perhaps slightly correctly, see us as their parents now.

I always think to an animal the concepts of parent and God would likely be the same. How often is childbirth and parenthood a theme even for us.

Whatever, I am optimistic. If we survive I think these animals, whom we will keep around, will probably get smarter too. Through contact with us. We are keeping them so social and rewarding their active experience of life. They are aware we are mortal and believe that they can harm us. They will probably, quickly in evolutionary terms, adapt with us into this paradigm of technological civilization

Like they will learn to talk, and start competing for our jobs

I'm saying this to an evolutionist, and like a young earth creationist, or anyone else.

Something absolutely fucking wild is happening to us right now.

What we seem to be encountering in the world is these little periods of physical history, seen from a very subjective perspective, over and over, by this social creature, this new being

Everything around you was here long before you personally can remember. And you also were of course.

Because something, someone, has been born here, is being born here slowly, on this planet, in exactly this way.

Through the purposeful killing of itself with the power wrought from exploring the logics that nature masks. We've literally sought for advantage over our environment and one another to the detriment of individuals but to the benefits of humanity over time. In some real sense humanity has paid a massive price for this technological era. It will continue to pay in human lives and human misery as its unwavering need to dominate will always win out. I'm not just referring to war time advancements in tech. Even here in America our government and corporations have knowingly killed citizens by the thousands of not millions for their greater good. From leaded gasoline, to Suger, to cigarettes to napalm, to designer drugs and pharmaceutical companies to the military, the gun industry, food industry, plastics......this is just off the top of my head. There are hundreds of known storys that build the picture just in the last century. I'm not even mad about it. It's just a trip to think about Today, you will likely ingest more then a few known life shorteners and things that nobody has any idea what the long term effects will be. Enjoy.

A galaxy looks like a supernova , and a supernova looks like a galaxy

came to me while staring at empty candle jars after a power outage.

And if so, what is your takeaway of the movie Wayne's World? Is this movie culturally or historically significant?

I was having a thought today that life feels so fake. Not sure if it's me or the world. Probably a bit of both. Sometimes I feel like everyone in public has this mask of a person they wear and goes through the social customs of the time to get what they're wanting or to get through whatever they're doing to get back home and be their true ungaurded selves. So in a way all these social interactions are actors on a stage. The best, most "bought in" actors reaping the rewards of there excellence in role. It doesn't really matter what you know, and what you can do if you can't figure out your lines.

I'm mad! I'm mad and I LOVE IT! ke ke ke ke ke ke kek

it's like we're like in a supermarket of people and their skirmishes

All right, hear me out. Everybody loves pot, right? Everyone loves gambling, right? So combine the two.

It's a dispensary. You can come in, decide what to buy, and buy it. OR you purchase a token. A gram token, an eighth token, a quarter, a half, an ounce, etc. And you can bet. Win more weed! The draw to win is there, but the house always wins.

I was going to elaborate more, but I got distracted and now I'm about to sleep. Seeya.

And forever I guess is hyperbolic. But literally millions of years. To everyone reading this, that is fucking forever.

And if you ask this innocent creature how that is possible, its answer is that you are how. It survived by being you. And by doing all the things you do.

It doesn't always work out. Except here we all are.

Be unhappy and know the worst?

Call them what you want but getting anxious paranoid or all around just not having the same enjoyable experience that you omcw remember seems to be becoming endlessly more common

Ive seen a lot of people discuss this and my general consensus is that you just arent the same person you once were you may have real underlying anxiety or depression that could be effecting your experience you may have more real world responsibilities which takes away the fun factor from smoking

My question is to those whom have overcome this and are enjoying smoking weed once again how did you do? did you overcome your depression do you take anxiety medications did you lower the amount of responsibility you have did you just wait it out or did you just continue smoking throughout and one day all of a sudden it just came back to you?

All the places ive seen this discussion ive never once heard the perspectives of the people who experienced it and overcome it so id love to hear anything you all have to say!

In most of my sessions, I involuntarily end up thinking about philosophic ideas. These ideas often make me rethink my "truths". I often explore content made by people with opposite position in controversial or just random topics and I end up understanding why they think that way. I feel this is empathy in its purest form.

Empathy (Oxford Languages/Google): "The ability to understand and share the feelings of another."

Most of the time this trip makes me question myself, my decisions, my relationships my ideas, etc. But I see this introspective questions as good, and I even keep rethinking this topics while sober for a few the days after the cannabis session.

Also when I smoke I tend to feel motivated regarding various topics like the study of different sciences, entrepreneurship, art, personal growth, etc. Writing while high (and sober too, as I'm doing it now) has really opened my eyes regarding my own thoughts and interests.

Do you guys experience this change of mindset while smoking? What do you use to get there? (Music, online content, specific triggering ideas...) Have you been able to reach it the same way while being sober?

I've often noticed it, and thought it could mean lots of different things. For instance we're seeing the result of favoring a progressive way of thinking in US media, which, I happen to just call forward-thinking. I've never thought much about it. But here we are. If you speed up progress, regardless of how urgent the need for progress is, it's a double yellow line. You have to just adapt to that speed, because you're now behind the car representing all the people who want to go slower, and that's just the way it is. If you slow down progress to such a degree that it offends sensibilities, it's as if you've gone below the speed limit. Now cars are piling up behind you, and you're the Man, who must be rebelled against by the kids and wool-hatted older people.

Also, if you're filtering different data files, which is what I'm doing, some of the data is longer. Wait, what? Oh shit. Yeah, as it turns out... it is possible to be too baked to post, but anyway, hi, how are you? Can you think of other examples?

Hockey would be a lot cooler to watch if the ice was illuminated and they only used black lights. Also the players uniforms would be dayglow.

alright so bare with me for a sec. earth has fusion happening in its core. also, if you think about it, the earth shines. Why do we say our illumination devices at night aren't the earth's light? It's natural, we're a part of nature. And even if you don't consider that, the molten material inside earth would be able to provide light if it was on the surface. There is no reason why earth wouldn't be a star. Face it.

We are so focused on capturing and creating memories that we often forget to "live" and "experience" them.

I am probably dating myself. I recall being in school, and sharing a joint with several other people. It wasn't just the weed, it was sharing the process of getting high, which was a social experience as well as experiential. We would actually have group conversations, it was relaxing, thought provoking, and intimate, at least this is the way I remember. Does this occur anymore?

"Moo moo"

here come cows! Get down!

Look around.

Make sure no one is there, look everywhere

don't want anyone to see, want to break free

of lactose intolerance, that goes with politics

Wait no fuck that's stupid. I am too high, I knew it!

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Not to diminish this tale, but I can't finish it, I fail,

I'm too lazy I'm done, I had my fun,

It was gonna be about a lactose intolerant guy who flies (metaphorically)

to a barn to steal, feel me? Takes a bottle of milk,

he wins, he's so sleek. He swigs and recoils, the milk is spoiled! Tastes like soil!

Joke's on him, he still can't win, because he can't drink milk. What the fuck did I think?

Also: you see, I live in NYC so I have no idea what it's like to pet or even see a

cow. Wow, how exciting.

Okay, I'm done, that was fun writing.

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Holy shit I'm out of practice. Oh also I'm high, I forgot.

Accepting that children possess this quality we call innocence that is not present in teenagers who are also children. What I’m fixing to postulate is that around the age of ten children begin to tap into the “zeitgeist” we could look at it as a psychic system de effect of the developing brain. In a material sense, at 10 it’s likely cultural changes from one’s early childhood begin to set in. Like our subconscious has picked up on the changes in one’s environment that come from changes in culture.

Eating from this I postulate that what we see as innocence is fractured by this new awareness.

Without giving into the weeds on defining “innocence” I feel it’s safe to say innocence is tied to a kind of ignorance.

Idk if I’m just really high or if I came up with a good food combo. It’s basic but: Nutella covered flour tortilla with pomegranate seeds