https://youtu.be/j7UloVDUJ14?si=REhtvif8ULiO2fiM

I loaned a substantial amount of money to my boyfriend a while back. He was going through a difficult time and warned me it might take a long time to pay me back. He got his life together and has really transformed himself. He now has more than enough to pay me back but refuses to because he has the money invested in Crypto and is confident it will multiply in value next year. He says he warned me it might take time to repay me. I'm furious about it, but that isn't doing me much good. I'm working 2 jobs to pay off debt and the second job is dreadfully boring and I'm tired of having no free time. Every time I do a shift at that job, I fume that the money he owes me would be enough that I could quit that job. How do I let go of my anger?

Update: I did some searching online and found a few useful resources: An Illustrated Guide to Stoic Anger Management by Donald Robertson and Of Anger by Seneca. I feel much better. I still think he is wrong to delay paying me back, but I don't feel angry about it. I understand even why his judgement is so wrong, and I can try to work on that.

Stoicism takes the position that the wise man the good man the philosopher is a man who lives in accordance with nature he fears only abdicating his moral responsibility he is not afraid of pain he is not afraid of death he is not afraid of poverty he is not afraid of any of the vicissitudes of the human condition he fears only that he should let himself down and that he should be less than a complete human being

Do not fear the hurt or sorrow. Simply accept that it is apart of life so that we may experience joy and happiness to the fullest. Life is cruel yes but it is also beautiful don't you see. It is all that you can possibly think it is. Experience life to the fullest by enduring and pushing through the sorrow and the grief and simply accepting it instead of running from it so you may reach true enlightenment.