I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die - ah life is so beautiful, what an amazing creation, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die, I want to die - my goodness look at that mountain, I could look at it forever, I need money, I need money, I need money, I need money, for fucks sake I want to die, I want to die, I need money - it's all so absolutely perfect, where will I live, how will I eat, I need money, I need money, I need money, I want to die, I want to die - I chose to be here wow, I want to live off the land, all the land is owned, I need money, I need money, I need money, I need money, I want to die - it's all just so perfect what a beautiful game this is, I want to die, I can't escape the system without being a part of the system, I'm basically a slave, I want to die, I want to die, I need money, please let me win the lottery, I want to die, I want to die - I'm alive! What an amazing creation this is, I'm running out of money, death is the only option.

Is this my life for the next 60 years? I can recognize it's not me thinking the thoughts but at the same time it's how I feel. I'm tired y'all.

I'd love to discuss the following 🐒

I have started to have no desires to get anywhere or be somebody. Previously before I have worked in the Cannabis industry, I'm a meditation teacher and I was launching a technology company. But I felt the desire to drop away and just let it be.

I now am at the stage where I am listening to Ram everyday and watching it all unfold. It's beautiful.

I'm contemplating and watching the process of becoming nobody so then you can allow God to pour through you.

I know being of service is of importance, but how do you know when that service is from desire or wanting to be recognised or noticed?

Is it just continually watching and then just dropping back into that place again and again?

I desperately want to share it with a friend. I used to have it bookmarked in a YouTube clip but I cannot find it anywhere. Any help is appreciated greatly.

We were near a beach on Maui. I see this older man… short cut white beard, short cut white hair. At first, the man was nondescript… but then my subconscious was like “this is Ram Dass” and it was the biggest OH SHIT moment.

He looked at me, asked if I wanted to go to the beach… and I completely broke down. Violent, uncontrollable weeping. So so so happy to finally be “home” or the “it’s finally over” feels.

I grew up on Maui around the time he was entering into his old age there (1995-2014), and I’m often warmed knowing that it was possible that he and I were near each other at some point, even if I didn’t know it at the time.

Love you, Ram Dass ❤️ thanks for showing up 🙏

I love you with all my heart Ram Dass, I wish I knew you before you left your body, to feel your unconditional love would heal me for many lifetimes

I really like what I’ve been seeing, just need some help. Any good thesis ideas? It’s supposed to be 10 pages and what book should I read first?

Link to live stream: https://eastforest.org/music-for-mushrooms

Music for Mushrooms is a documentary by East Forest described as: "an 82-minute narrative feature film, an ode to the transformative potential of art and introspection in a world aching for healing and connection."

Given East Forest's previous work with Ram Dass, and Ram Dass himself advocating for psychedelics and psilocybin, I thought others here may be interested in this live event.

I have no connection to East Forest. I just wanted to share it here since my journey started with a mushroom trip, which led me to Ram Dass and this subreddit, and then eventually to the work of East Forest. If you haven't heard his 2019 album "East Forest X Ram Dass" I would highly recommend giving it a listen!

Link to album: https://www.ramdass.org/east-forest-x-ram-dass-album/

The more I stay here and the more it’s obvious that I should leave. It feels honestly better to lie to myself to stay in my comfort zone because even if I live in a shithole with literal cockroaches in my apartment, it feels good to stay here and hide from life.

I know for a fact that my life will never start if I stay here, because something in this city blocks me, the energy is disgusting, I don’t wanna see people from my past, I don’t want to live with my sister, I don’t want to live in a shitty hood etc.. Everytime I come back home from work it’s so depressing, having to walk back to this place that haunts me. It contains all my past, even from when my father was here, beating my mom to (almost) death.

How can I stay here?

The only thing that’s gonna make me feel bad, is to leave my mom alone, I love her, I need her, but at the same time I feel like I’m counting on her to make my life easier and that’s why I don’t progress. I’m never going to learn anything if I stay at home and rely on my mother.

My sister is driving me crazy, I really don’t like her and her presence is annoying. I could be more kind and compassionate because that’s what I know would be the best for the world, and for her, and maybe for me, but I don’t care right now, maybe I will when I’ll be far away from her.

I’m just scared also to live in poverty, not having enough money to treat myself, or go to places I wanna go etc. But I guess there’s a solution for everything. I remember Constance, she left Poland by herself, to go to a country she didn’t even know, how brave of her? I feel so bad that I let her down. When I will leave this city and will start to experience loneliness, I will truly feel bad for her out of empathy. Because I will feel what she felt, and if when I move out, I made a friend because I was so lonely, and she makes me happy and then she left me…. I would’ve been sad or depressed for months. I hope you will forgive me Constance, and even if you don’t, I want to tell you that I’m deeply sorry. I’ve always been a bad friend, the problem doesn’t come from you, you’ve been an awesome friend, and I thank you for that, I thank you for accepting me and my way of living with 0 judgment, and I thank you for your kindness. The fact that I reject people just because I’m insecure just shows how self centered I am, and it makes me mad at myself.

I thought about moving out to Toulouse, I don’t know why, but then I thought, you might want to live an unconventional lifestyle before settling down (if you ever settle down). Because I know how I am, the mundane scares me. And I would be so mad at myself in the future when I won’t be able to move, to not have lived the experiences that I wanted to live (living in an ashram, being part of a spiritual community, moving out of my house to have my own place, trusting someone enough to be in a relationship, building strong friendships..).

I think my body is trying to tell me that something is wrong in the way I’m living because I’ve been binging at a level that I never thought I would reach one day. I think the reason why I binge might be because I’m not being present with myself enough, and because I’m not present with myself, I’m not aware that there’s a huge hole in my being, this hole comes from the lack of meaningful relationships, and also from the fact that I’m hiding from the world instead of living in it (out of fear). So binge eating is kind of an alarm that my body sets to tell me “hey, something is wrong, please pay attention to me”. It’s been so hard, and I truly hope one day I will decide to truly heal my relationship with food.

Hey there. I am going to visit a friend soon and I want to show her this Poem by Meher Baba. Since English is not her first language I was hoping to get it translated into spanish so she can fully understand it.

I am posting here, because this community is always so friendly and we all gather in the spirit of Ram Dass, which is who I got that poem from in the first place.

If there are any spanish speakers here, please help me translate this. I would be forever grateful!

Here is the poem:

Love has to spring spontaneously from within. It is in no way amenable to any form of inner or outer force. Love and coercion can never go together. Love can never be forced on anyone. It can be awakened in a person through love itself. Love is essentially self-communicative. Those who do not have it catch it from those who have. True love is unconquerable and irresistible and it goes on gathering power and spreading itself until eventually, it transforms anyone whom it touches.

Hearing Ram Dass talk about Christ and quote the Bible gives the book a whole new meaning for me. I am not a Christian by any means, but his explanations have given me a new found love for Jesus. Alan Watts also does an amazing job at explaining messages in the bible that are often misinterpreted.

I want to read more into the bible, but I feel like reading it raw I don't get the same understanding or context, does anyone have suggestions on a way to read the bible or someone giving a summary of it that would make more sense in the context of the beliefs Ram Dass teaches?

The four seasons often symbolize the cycle of life, deeply ingrained in Western culture. Yet, an inherent fear of death remains. How strange it would be to panic when the leaves change color or to fear the calm crispness of Winter, when it invites us to rest—only for life to begin anew with the arrival of Spring.

Anyway, reflecting on this today after listening to some of Ram Dass's lectures.

What is a word that encapsulates the beauty of the world, the life we lead and the connection we share with all living things on this earth. Tall ask I know, but a word that described that feeling when your looking at a bug, watching a sunset, hearing the laughter of a loved one and just feel this intense sense of connection and gratitude. Thank you 🙏🏻

I've been in therapy for years which has helped a lot, but until I recently discovered Ram Dass, I realised there's so much that regular therapy can't help me with. Is there a type of therapy where traditional methods are combined with spiritual practices too?

Hello all! This is very strange, yesterday I posted about a dream I had just had two nights ago in which Baba Ram Dass appeared and spoke. Now, just last night, I awoke and clearly heard his voice again!

I heard him say:

"Hope is unceasing in the spotless eye of an eternal being."

My interpretation:

So, what does "spotless eye" mean? I think it means 'unclouded'. A spotless eye sees beyond the illusions of Maya, the physical incarnate world, and recognizes that there is no duality, no separation. All Is One. All things are Love and Light, despite how they may appear or feel to us now in our physically incarnate selves.

We are all eternal beings, souls, beyond our physical forms.

So, of course hope is unceasing in the spotless eye of an eternal being; because that being sees that ALL paths lead back to God, Enlightenment, Source—eventually.

Love & Peace to you all.

My shame manifests in the thought form.

I am not worthy and then because I am not worthy I should kill myself.

It's something I've been struggling with for a while.

My mind seems to keep finding new reasons why I am not worthy. Whether it be a mistake I've made, a "flaw", or something I would think would bring upon rejection/not be accepted/socially acceptable.

Could you please help me with this?

Satguru Sant Rampal Ji Maharaj Ji ke saniddya me 511 va Divya Dharm yagya ka aayojan kiya gaya hai , aap pure pariwar ke saath jarur aaye.

There I said it.

I don’t know if anyone else is here , but whatever you are going through, it will be ok. I don’t know if that’s ram dass message, I apologize if it’s not. Something compelling me to write this .

Hi all!

I'm a filmmaker working on a short animated film. Here's a blurb:

“Embodied” is a short documentary that shares the voices and experiences of terminally ill individuals involved in end-of-life psychedelic experiences. Through experimental animation, participants reflect on lessons illuminated by mortality and share the complex reality of their dying. In the process, they open dialogues around innovative and compassionate deathcare.

You can read a little more at samwsmith.net/embodied

The project is underway with some amazing voices involved in research, legal and underground experiences. I am looking for 1-2 additional participants. This is a platform to speak freely about your end-of-life experience and a chance to celebrate you and your legacy.

Participants, located anywhere in the world, are shipped a microphone. The project involves a 1.5-hour video call interview which will be compensated at $40usd/hr. After our call, we can discuss a possible follow-up if it feels necessary.

The project is animated, so you have the option to remain 100% anonymous if you should choose to.

Ram Ram Ram

Last night I had a dream; I felt drawn to share it here.

I was watching/listening to someone explain a world. They had created a world, and it was vast, infinite, and beautiful. It reminded me of a Creative Minecraft world. They were creating in this world, and I was exploring their world. I found a hallway area of flowing grey water falling all around me, and pooling ankle deep. There were one foot gaps in the falling liquid on the left and right sides of this tunnel. I decided to go through one. I got a message that was something like, "There's nothing over here, silly!"

In this new place, it was a wider open area about 10 feet across and 5 feet wide, all the walls were again still made of this flowing/falling grey water/liquid, pooling ankle deep. There were more gaps/openings on the outer wall also. I saw through another gap, this gap revealed tiny furry stuffed animal type things, that were vibrant mixes of colors like blue, pink, purple. They had small little wigs that looked like Snape's dark hair from Harry Potter.

I kept going further, and noticed a square panel on the floor that wasn't covered in water/liquid. The square panel was an engraved image of Baba Ram Dass' face, when he had long hair and a long beard. I had this knowing that it was locked. Like the panel contained a secret of the world that the being had created. I remember thinking, "Oh wow, I found this secret panel in a round-a-bout way, I almost certainly cannot access this." But to my surprise, I approached it and automatically accessed it; it just showed itself to me. I saw Baba Ram Dass standing up tall, leaning back, with an ecstatic smile of bliss on his face. He was holding the hands of another Baba Ram Dass, who looked lifeless and emotionless, who was sort of hanging on limp-like, also leaning back, but lower. It looked like two people dancing. This image of the two seemed so known to me, like I'd seen it before, like it was obvious what it was in that moment. But I'm not sure now what was obvious about it, only that it felt that way. It was like something I've always known, but only remember rarely.

I heard Baba Ram Dass' voice say a thing that was a mish-mash of something I have heard him quote from Hakuin, "You're coming-and-going is nothing but the voice of the Dharma." Which is a combination of "You're coming-and-going is nowhere but where you are" and "You're singing-and-dancing is nothing but the voice of the Dharma." In that moment, I began laughing ecstatically, and felt bliss. An interesting thing, is that the laughing coming from me sounded exactly like Baba Ram Dass' voice. The bliss was too much for me to sustain for very long, and I awoke. (When writing this all down, I forgot to look at the clock until a bit into writing, and when I did it was 2:42AM! I tend to see bookend numbers like this after especially meaningful experiences.)

Thanks for reading. May your days be blessed.

Been battling with anxiety and depression for a few years now. I pretty much constantly have a little tight feeling in my chest.

I am carrying a lot of trauma from my childhood and a recent relationship with a cluster-b. I’ve been in a lot of situations where I haven’t felt unconditionally loved. My sleep is poor and I quite often have nightmares.

Pretty much the only times I feel completely at peace, and feel like I can completely relax is when I’m high on psychedelics, or high on weed. I can literally feel the beloved embracing me, telling me that everything is ok, that all I have to do is be here in this moment, and that this moment is everything.

I’ve had several ego deaths through psychedelic use, I’ve had my awakening, but yet I constantly live with this knot in my chest.

I’m a big fan of both yoga and meditation, and have sometimes felt inner peace during my practice, but it never lasts for long.

My strongest messages this past 6 months has been to be completely involved in this moment, and this has been something that I work on all of the time, but a lot of the time the knot in my chest keeps me from letting go.

I’ve been to therapy, but I don’t think I’ve found a good match yet. For some reason I feel like I want to solve this problem on my own, and that I am the only one that can solve it, but maybe that is naive to think?

Thanks for listening to me, I would appreciate any kind of feedback ❤️

Just needing support and guidance from satsang right now and don’t know where to go.

Does anyone have any experience with someone close to them who has perpetuated a lot of violence (physical/spiritual) in their life but still have love for them? How do you navigate that?

Practically, it is a lot. Self preservation and tending to your own life/needs take priority. But I continue to hold space for this person who has done some things I fundamentally disagree with and would normally not have in my life, because fuck people who harm others, right? However sometimes after conversations with this friend I feel so clear and present even though they have done some things that repulse me and are chaotic and “unskilled” as is often used. And yet there’s still love. It’s really emotional and also confusing to what I feel my morals are. I don’t want to tip into enabling and excusing actions that need to be consequential. I also don’t want to be anyone’s “savior.” But there is a presence of spirit behind our relationship that stays no matter how difficult and messy everything in between gets.

It reminds me of Ram Dass speaking on being Here with inmates on death row, or chaotic beings who almost demand reaction. But still we’re here. I guess I want to hear others’ experiences and whether you felt like those relationships have been something you can keep or generally need to be released. I have mostly felt like this is one I can hold to an extent, but with a lot of distance. It can be intense and a lot. It’s difficult and messy. But Love is also present.

Hi everyone!

So I'm just looking for some advice/ other perspectives.

My family is comprised of a majority of elderly family members and my great-aunt, my maternal grandmother's sister, recently passed back in March and that was quite tough for the family. My great-uncle, her brother, is now in the hospital and my family is again distraught and understandably so.

I learned young in life that death is just a natural part of life and also after listening to Ram Dass' teachings over the past few years, my view of death is evolving. My family is Southern Baptist and believes deeply in Christ. I always think of two things Ram Dass has said:

1. "Death is comfortable"

2. [After someone passes] "Love is now immovable to the winds of time"

I'm not some 'perfect' spiritual person and I don't want my ego to be like 'I'm so evolved/enlightened/awakened that I'm above people feeling attached to something' because that's bullshit. People are grieving, and in a sense, pre-grieving someone and that's valid. I just ultimately feel like because of my beliefs and my age (26) I'm going to be looked at as someone who's just spewing nonsense and doesn't know anything about life.

I would genuinely appreciate any advice for not only how to help them grieve, but also how to help me grow in a situation like this.

Thank you! 🤍

At a new workplace I’m noticing this. People talking to themselves out loud. It irritates me, but I’m fascinated about this irritation. What are your thoughts?

Ram Dass and his teachings entered my life at the perfect time. I am a sophomore in college, and I started reading Be Here Now this semester. But then, while listening to Sit Around the Fire on Spotify, I was angry and I was sad. I was struck with the phrase "I am lost." I feel, really really lost.

And just for some context, I have a support system, a girlfriend I love, therapy every week (though I just switched from my 4-year-old therapist to a new ADHD one), a great mother, etc...  I just can't do it. Well, I can do it, but I can't do it right! "It" meaning... I'm not sure. All of it? Any of it? I have spent so much time reading Ram Dass and learning, really really learning. I think I have something figured out, and then I just don't. I keep getting all these answers and then a wave of questions tenfold. Though, I know the higher we get the harder we fall. But shit, I'm not getting that high and I'm falling pretty hard.

I know this reflects a need for inner work because i am still confused. He tells me that I know, and sometimes I do, but today I don't know. I am lost and I am not understanding his answer just yet. Or, of course, there could be another answer or at least another way to go about it. I am lost career-wise, school-wise, and mentally too.

I'm running out of time to do my homework, to get a job, to decide, to do anything!

EDIT:

Thank you all for the responses, I truly needed some outside perspective and guidance. Today I emailed Campus Ministry for a spiritual chat, I joined a small yoga group, and I reached out to a non-profit I want to volunteer for. I also accepted that I should change my major back to what it was, I was reaching for something unattainable. I had a Philosophy Class this morning, and our discussion inspired me to reach out to my school's service/tools. I wouldn't say everything is easy, I mean it's barely been a whole day yet! Plus, its not supposed to be easy or hard - it just is how it is. But, my perspective has certainly expanded. I am carrying the water and chopping the wood.

If you have anything else to comment please do! I am listening.

I am interested in hearing what you all interpret Maharaji meant by “Love everybody and tell the truth”