My period is due in 2 days and I'm feeling too warm to sleep. It really sucks.

How? 😭

I turn into an actual monster. I can’t do that to someone every month. Although it’s muuuuch better with my current meds combo 🤞🏻. I lost a friend bc of things I said. I like her a lot but now that not happening ever. There’s someone else I’ve been talking to for a couple years now I guess. We haven’t officially met. I met her on hinge. She was the only non crazy person I found before I just deleted the app lol that is not for me at all. I’m thinking about finally maybe asking her to get coffee or something. But all I can think about is treating someone the way I treated her over and over. I think about it almost constantly with what feels like a boulder in my chest and stomach. I live alone with my dogs currently which I actually like alot. I’m very introverted. Will not talk to you unless you talk to me first lol But I don’t want to be alone forever. I want soooo badly to be in a hopefully long term relationship with someone. But I really don’t see how that can happen.

I did finally find a therapist I think I’m really gonna like 🤞🏻I have a consult with her soon.

Just need to jot this down. Maybe someone else doesn’t feel as alone anymore. Won’t help me now but maybe in a couple days.

My grandma died and since then I’ve been having the worst pme and pmdd time since I’ve started taking fluoxetine and my brain is starting mental fights with everyone about everything. I’m doing everything I can to fucking breathe through this and just sleep but I can’t. I hate everything and everyone and I’m pretty sure the feeling is mutual. The issue is I’m pretty sure about that even when pmdd leaves me the fuck alone so there’s isn’t even anything calming I can tell myself. Spoke to my therapist about the looming pmdd feeling that hasn’t left me for 7 weeks now and she said I should stay open about it maybe being a good cycle. I dont tend to feel shit because I talk myself into it. I start feeling like shit and then I register I feel like shit. You know those people that itch because others itch? I don’t do that. I never have. And I hate when people tell me I’m supposed to do something that I do already and minimize the symptoms I’m experiencing. Just means I won’t talk about it to that person anymore. Why can’t people just believe me when I tell them there’s something looming. Why even ask when what I say it so unbelievable anyway.

I’m 4 days away from my period and have spent the last 2 days entirely in bed (apart from visits to the bathroom and fridge). Ive managed to get 3 hrs of sleep the last few nights and have woken up drenched in sweat. I’ve taken a rescue Valium prescribed by my doctor— though it’s only really taking the edge off. My boobs are on fire and I’ve never felt this level of exhaustion in my life.

Three more days to bleeding, and I’ve not felt a single thing for the past few days or past week. I cry from time to time when I’m alone but just because I can’t feel anything :) PMDD depression is some thing

i’ve known i have pmdd for a few years now, and i was managing it pretty well up until a few months ago, when some major life changes changed my routines and a lot of my coping mechanisms weren’t there anymore. now the week before my period everything makes me want to cry, i’m constantly blowing up at my family, and after blowing up i crash really hard and get really depressed. i talked to my doctor about it last week hoping to figure out a solution with medication, and she totally blew it off (told me it’s just anxiety), so i’m stuck for a little bit until i can see a different doctor who actually takes me seriously. i can’t keep living like this, it makes me feel awful and i feel terrible for the people around me, so i’m trying to find “natural” remedies / things i can do at home that might make things a little better until i am able to talk to someone about medication. i’ve tried looking at online resources, but i already don’t really consume alcohol or caffeine, and i typically get 7+ hours of sleep a night, so a lot of what i see isn’t super helpful to me. i’m curious if anyone has anything that worked for them that might not be as common of a solution?

Tw: politics (?)

During the US election… feels like some kind of cosmic joke to have them occur at the same time. Just hoping all goes well.

I know meditation isn’t for everyone but I’m an everyday meditator, it never helps me escape pmdd though.

I just found this track and for the first 5 minutes I sobbed. I feel so heard and seen and thought it may help others too.

https://insig.ht/PoHHsOFAeOb

A few months ago I was here and very desperately looking at the posts of people who weren’t sure if they had PMDD or if they were just in bad relationships since their symptoms often revolved around their romantic relationships.

I think it makes sense, considering your partner may be the closest to you, that relationship troubles could arise if you have PMDD or just intense mood swings during the luteal phase. However, I am now in a position where I realise I was desperately trying to forge a pattern where there wasn’t one - even going as far as tracking all mine and my partners previous arguments against my period tracking app.

I think as women and menstruating people we have a big tendency to gaslight ourselves when it comes to relationships. If I’m unhappy/anxious then it must be me, I must be oversensitive, it must be my period, I’m acting so crazy! This isn’t fair on him…

I’m speaking through the lens of my own experience but maybe it is him? Maybe you don’t feel safe in your dynamic, maybe he makes you feel insecure. If so, it makes sense that during your luteal phase you would feel these feelings to the greatest extent. If you genuinely just feel a little irritable with your partner during luteal and then it subsides, fine. But if you’re having explosive arguments that never quite resolve themselves multiples times a month, roughly falling within the luteal phase and then arguments about arguments during follicular … it’s not your PMDD.

Again I’m entirely speaking through my own experience as someone who still has extreme mood swings during my luteal phase but it’s so so much more manageable now I’m not with this person. I actually thought I had a hypersensitivity to caffeine and cut out coffee but I was in actuality just constantly anxious.

I hope this helps someone and saves you some time. Sometimes we just need to back ourselves and our experience even if we’re used to absorbing all the blame around our own emotions - if you’re constantly being made to feel ‘I’m too much’ ‘I’m crazy’ ‘I’m too sensitive, too emotional etc’ then maybe this is more about your self trust than anything else. Not trying to de validate anyone’s experience or PMDD, but wanting to spread awareness that it isn’t an excuse to stay in a shitty situation.

I've been on three months of trying different birth controls and it has been hell. I finally found something that does not make me miserable, and I feel as normal as I did before I tried a million different things. The past two cycles, though, I have still been a mess the few days before my period 'would' be, if I were to have it naturally. I thought the last one was due to some other factors, which I think it was because I was just as much of a mess when I stopped BC to have my period. Now I'm having the same sort of thing happen, and I guess it is better than my usual symptoms not on BC, but it is still such a pain. I thought all this trial and error would bring me to something that made things feel better, and now I am not so confident. Does birth control help any of your symptoms?

If I suddenly find myself with persistent s*icidal thoughts randomly and then I go check my tracking app LO AND BEHOLD its always either say 18 or day 17 of my cycle. The depression, anxiety, sense of worthlessness and feeling that life is meaningless will persistent until I get my period, but it definitely peaks around day 18. It's so predictable but it doesn't make it any better knowing WHY the thoughts are there. I guess the only consolation is that I know it will pass and I'll feel somewhat normal in about 10 days, but that's about it. What would be the hormonal reason for day 18 being so horrible? Is there some kind of surge around this time? Disclaimer: I am not actually going to KMS.

for the past maybe 2 years, i've noticed that near my period I had more drastic emotional episodes and I felt that pmdd could be the reason. I went to a clinic and explained the symptoms in which I was then given a low dosage of lexapro that I haven't taken yet (a bit scared of the negative side effects and trial periods). recently, I feel like its been getting hard to deal with differentiating real emotional reactions vs pmdd emotions. I do acknowledge that my pmdd emotions are all related to underlying thoughts I have but sometimes it feels so intense and sudden that I cant tell if I am having a normal reaction or if its a pmdd episode. just the other day, a conflict arose from someone I have been seeing in which I went to bed feeling like a bad person and this morning I went from being okay-ish to feeling like such a bad person who is pathetic & going no where, abandoned and lonely even though I was doing fine before last night. I have several things I am grateful for and friends/family that care about me but suddenly its like my head is in the cloud and I cant see the sun. does anyone else feel this way? (also my next predicted cycle is 10 days away and I feel like normally I feel heightened emotions a bit closer to the start of my period) thank you!

What is it about this disorder that makes me wanna be mean ?? It's like I can feel all the sense leave my body and the crash out starts taking over me like venom.
Hate it here

21F here's what Birth control I've tried to manage my PMDD with in order (All continuous)

Kyleena IUD, Yaz, Slynd, Daysee , Apri, Yasmin

I get sterilized on Nov 19th so I'm mostly just looking for something that doesn't make me angry, fatigued or depressed. And preferably doesn't give me low libido or any other sexual dysfunction like dryness, etc. while trying to keep the PMDD demon at bay.

I've tried Prozac but the insomnia is insane. I have a severe brain injury, so Antidepressants are really hard for me to take cause I need L-tryptophan to get my brain to make serotonin. Living with Serotonin Sickness is hell.

Hi, I just started Slynd a week ago. The first few days were fine, but the last few days I've felt increasingly anxious and uneasy which makes my depression worse. I decided to start back on hormonal bc because I'm starting perimenopause and the hormonal fluctuations have made 85% of my cycle very, very bad AND my cycles have shortened to 23-24 days. The antidepressant I was on for a very long time became completely ineffective. Anyway, for those of you who found success controlling your PMDD symptoms with hormonal bc, how long did it take to see those improvements and did you have some rough patches in the beginning? And with my provider's direction I will be taking the bc continuously.

If I want a divorce every luteal phase do I actually just really want one?? (The rest of the month I feel fine enough, I know we have issues and can work on them but the luteal I literally feel like I can’t stay for another second longer) I feel like I’m constantly gaslighting myself into thinking my hormones are the problem but at what point don’t you just give in and listen to your luteal monster?? Or is this a thing I fixate on and I will just fixate on something else after and still feel just as bad?

Can anyone relate? Advice? Words of wisdom?? 🙏

Hi, this is my first post!

TW: Relationship, Self Image Issues.

I am 19 years old and have PMDD. It has been a very hard year as my symptoms have gotten worse. I have been put on the Mirena Coil by the doctors and I'm also seeking mental health help.

Recently (probably in the last 2 months) I have noticed myself saying things before I can think about what I'm saying.

For example, I told my lovely boyfriend that he should break up with me during an episode, which I really didn't mean. I also told a big secret to a friend that I don't trust all that much. I feel like I am constantly being mean about myself too, which affects my boyfriend and family a lot, as they feel helpless.

Is there any way you guys calm yourself down or help yourself think before your mouth starts to run? I love my friends and boyfriend and I would hate to lose them over PMDD.

Thank you x

You know how you see a really miserable ass post or comment and you think “what incel neck beard did that?” I wonder how many miserable posts and comments across the internet have been made by women struggling with pmdd. I’m restricting phone time like crazy but I went through a phase for a few months where I’d fight with anyone over anything and I realized the urge was always strongest when I was pmsing and basically nonexistent when I’m not. So it’s true what they say I guess, if you see a really awful person online they’re just not happy irl because I know that I’m not

I only really get symptoms when I stop taking my birth control to begin my period, so for three days this week, I was so depressed I skipped all my classes and basically rotted in bed all day.

Then, Friday night, I suddenly felt so energetic that I cleaned my entire apartment & did a week worth of homework in 4 hours. No clue in the moment why I felt so much better. My period had finally come 😭

I swear, does PMDD have a magic forgetting potion it gives you so you lose all hope of ever feeling better in the episode, but magically feel better the moment your body decides to get it’s shit together??

I know it says it's for PMS the company says they can't say it's for PMDD because PMDD is a disease.

But I've been using it for 2 months and can confirm it has helped A LOT. I only take it from day one of luteal through my period not all month and it's worked great.

I noticed a difference and my partner did too, it's nice to feel more like hugs and less like stabs 😂

Feeling really anxious and having intrusive thoughts

It’s like everyone and everything pisses me off especially during PMS i just don’t have the patience to speak to people or be around people I feel like I just need to be alone in my room.

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So naturally I want to divorce my husband and run away to Panama.

I hate the luteal phase so much. One of my best friends just lost his father, and I can’t even bring myself to answer his text messages. He just wants to share memes and chat and I just can’t.

My sister just brought her baby home from the NICU and the most I can do is “heart react” the picture/text.

I haaaaate myself.

TW: Miscarriage

Background… I had a late miscarriage (16 weeks, induction, traumatic). And my baby’s due date is this weekend. AND my cycle starts again in about a week. AND I just caught a virus and super sick. AND I made the mistake of being vulnerable in a political conversation on Reddit and everyone was so mean and hateful when I was just offering a new thought to the mix. Just looking for a reminder that not all strangers are mean. Also I’m new to Reddit- can I filter what I see on my home screen?

Not sure if uterine fibroids are normal nowadays or not or if they're associated with PMDD but a google search ( althought not always accurate) lead me to a few sites that associate the two. Anyway. Just wanted to know how many of us have it. I just saw my transvaginal ultrasound resultd and it turns out I have small firbroids. Thank u. Have a nice( r) day

This month has been so hard. I've been crying a bunch the last couple of days, it's scaring my husband and he doesn't seem to understand. I can't control my appetite, I've been trying to do intermittent fasting and it worked great the first half of the month but now it's just not working and my appetite is ravenous, even though im eating more protein, fiber, and drinking more water. I've been working out as well, and I'm proud of myself for that, but then it just seems to make me more hungry. I'm trying to lose weight but my weight loss has stagnated. My husband has been losing though, and it makes me feel bad. 😂 😭 It's just been really hard, the time change doesn't help and it's been so cloudy and rainy. I haven't been sleeping well either and I'm just ready for this cycle to be over with. Does anyone know what would help with appetite control, weight loss with this condition? Its just so difficult and I don't know what else to do. I just feel like I don't have the willpower and I'm crying typing this.

i'm not screened for autism yet but it's been a long time assumption. is there anyone with autism here that knows what it's like having autism and pmdd? it's severely affecting my relationship. i'm unable to pick up on tone (resulting in him being frustrated with me every month) and i get easily overstimulated and freak out.

also, i have a gyno appointment coming up and i've never brought any of this pmdd stuff up to her so i'm wondering how to bring that up or talk about it with her so that she understands.