So I've recently come to terms with being transfem, yet it'll take a decent amount of time until I have the chance and courage to officially come out to school/family. nevertheless until then I have started with growing my hair out and trying a better name with my close friends who know.

the thing is: objectively I know that I look comparably good with my beard/moustache in boymode, be it that I personally hate it and want it gone.

I kinda feel like it might be better for me to wait with shaving until I actually have the chance to properly start going entirely girlmode later on, just cause it's more convenient I guess? And I don't need to worry about looking like shit whilst still boyish? ...or is this just the brain worms and I should just finally shave and not make excuses?

Can someone please give me some advice or share their own experience with this? Thankies~, Lillian

today i looked at myself in the mirror and felt really good about myself. I thought I looked really cute. I thought like my body looked nice as well. Granted, the things I love about myself are my femininity. I am naturally pretty feminine in the face, I have long hair and feminine haircut, and I kinda have boobs (and I’m not overweight), so with tight clothing they straight up look like boobs. And I just thought, yeah, I really like myself. I wonder if I would like myself more if I transitioned….but I currently like myself. Maybe I could be a genderfluid guy? That’s not so bad right? I think I’d rather be a girl, but transition sounds like a big headache. And certainly, there’s plenty of parts of being a guy that are nice. Does anyone else feel this way?

I dyed my hair, I like the colors on my hair.

i know that is only a label , but the problem is how i feel ... And that a femboy and a trans girl are almost the same... And i feel like that i never will be a girl no matter what i do. And only wish that i were a cis girl and don't worry about this anymore :(

happy new years. im sorry if you opened reddit expecting a wholesome post or something and youre seeing this because thats ass. im just very tired. i hate my chest and i hate myself. im not a good artist and im not a man and i never will be. im recovering from getting my tonsils out so im starving, in a bunch of pain, and i smell like mould and an old folks home. sensory hell. i just wish that someone loved me enough you know? my mom doesnt my dad doesnt my grandparents dont my friends dont i dont know. im not going to do anything, i just want to. i dont understand why im still here.

Ive felt so shitty recently, my entire body feels so boxy and big and uncomfortable, i lost like all my irl friends so i have no support only i do on reddit. i try to emprove but by the end of the day i feel so shitty. i dont know why but recently all ive felt is gender dysphoria. iim feeling like an imposter among lesbians. i feel so sad that i dont have boobies nor was i born a girl. everytime i wear clothing i eel boxy and fat, i hate this body. also im so shy like i should speak to people but the though tof it scares me. but yeah i just feel like total shit im transfem and my name is maya pretty please help. also what clothing do yall wear to kinda hide the dysphoria

Over 23 weeks on HRT

is something that is not true cuz i never i feel dysphoryc or something like that, i know that my life i had been littes signs but nothing to strong for to say that I wished i were girl... Well one time when i was 14, but im referring to other memories (even in my life in general) I feel like that was wishing i were a girl but i know that aren't true , idk if im faking my memories or something :(

I’m just a guy who’s been wanting to just feel cute for a long time, I dunno if I’m trans or just faking stuff, or just want to feel cute and loved, I can’t experiment with clothing and stuff cuz I’m kinda broke. And I’m scared of telling anyone ik about it cause I care way too much of what other people think. Please tell me what to do, I’m losing my mind cuz I dunno what to do RAAAAAAGHHHH😭😭😭

(Don’t mind the random rage, I do that when I’m stressed)

hi everyone

i want to say a huge thank you to you all. you have been the light of day for me this year, without you I probably wouldn't be alive anymore.

this year has been very hard for all of us, but as a community we will not give up and we will fight till the end.

i wish everyone a happy new year.

thank you all again.

and most importantly

please love yourself.

I like it when someone calls me my and hate it when am dead named. but I don't feel dysphoric when look at my Dick, sure I do feel disgusting but that's different right?

I didn't know he'd react like that. One moment we were watching anime together with my brother and after I told him I've been cutting, he went out to go talk with my mother and the next thing I knew there was screaming. My mama told me and my brother that it was time to go and we drove back. I knew they weren't telling me something but I didn't know that my uncle was delusional, my dad gave me contacts so what was going on. Sure I knew he had some mental problems but I didn't know he was flat out delusional. My mother didn't want to talk about it, and retrospected was pretty obvious. I thought he was in his right mind I didn't know, maybe if I hadn't told him things will be different. I just wish I'd known, and it still feels like it's my fault. I've overheard a conversation between my anti and my other Uncle (her husband) that he's been getting worse. That and I've been suppressing my emotions for a little while now, sometimes I feel like going to cry and then I just push it down. I just wish my Christmas break wouldn't have happened like that,but besides that it was pretty great

Within the past month my mom has dropped what I assume to be hints she knows about me, I however also overthink things all the time and need an outside opinion.

I needed to get new glasses and tried on a bunch of pairs, a lot of them that I liked were more fem leaning (ie: cat eys) the person working the counter said that they were to fem for me, and when we got back in the car my mom basically said that she was sorry they didn't have any colored glasses that were less feminine then I present, which is an odd way of saying that. Just today while we were coming back from picking up the glasses, the topic got on to prom and if I would be taking anyone (some quick background information, I go to a catholic school that doesn't allow freshmen and sophomores to go unless they are taken as the "date" by an upper classmen) I said yeah and that one of my friends asked if they could come, however my mom bought up a point that they may not allow 2 students that they (the school) view as the same gender.

So am I being paranoid about odd choices for words or do you think my mom is dropping hints? Please help

Whats the purpose of dateing other women at this point, number 1 im pre op pre hrt ,and im forced into a closet situation at this point as i dont really got body to talk to, and my parents are not supportive. so basicaly what lesbian women or bi women cant find me attractive ,and probaly wouldnt want to talk to me anywhys since i'd be more like one of those jock boys (even tho im a girl) number 2 a certain sub which i shall not name has just been in an upwore about trans womens genatalia if thats all people see me as as genitalia and my body is some weird thing to be debated on why would anybody genualy love me. number 3 you migh tsay "hey just go for t4t" i can't. im like the only trans women ive ever known irl like im being serious, i think i know of one but its sombody i basicaly never talked to and is or was in a relationship with my ex friend. so i am starting to feel shitty about this whole love thing is it even possible for me to be loved or is my existence to political aand weird. i wish i could be treated like a cis lesbian there so lucky because they dont discrimanate against eacothers bodied, they get bodies they like. will i ever be treated like a normal women or even as a normal lesbian. i dont know. i just wanted to be treated normaly

Maybe beautiful clothes can help me to feel better.

i mean i have a black skirt and thigh highs, and everytime that i wear them i feel amazing, until the point that i cry or jump of Happiness ... But why? I mean still being clothes anyways, but maybe are more what that, Right?

I've recently been having doubts about it all. I wonder if I'm making myself feel disgusted looking at myself looking masc, and I'm afraid that I'm just clinging to this transfem label for whatever reason.

I just need to put this somewhere. I’m pretty sure I’m trans. I came out to my parents as bi and potentially trans at the end of September and it just went so much worse than I thought it would. I feel like I should count myself lucky considering what others have gone through but it just sucks to not be supported. I have the look in their eyes burned into mine. They saw me as a wounded animal, broken. They went on a tirade on how I would be “leading people on”, that I would be SA’d, and that I would have to sleep with GUYS if I’m bi. (Don’t you think I know that???) Like no matter the reasoning, the day I came out was not the time to be having any sort of conversation like this. It just obliterated my confidence and sent me spiraling. All I really wanted was like a green light, some sort of “I support you”.

I started cutting after that. When my parents found out they asked, and I quote, “is it because you can’t dress trans?”. Like what? God I still hate that phrasing. Dressing trans isn’t a thing I just wanted to dress how I wanted, how I felt comfortable, how I felt seen. 43 days clean from that though. Now it’s just suicidal thoughts.

I’m still living with them and we’ve all been pretending that night didn’t happen. No one has mentioned it since but I still get mad at them whenever I think about it. I spent a month straight trying desperately to get back into the box. Not great for my mental. The past two months have just been a mix of trying to forget, not being able to, then thinking about all the family that I’m going to lose if I ever transition.

I feel like if I just accepted myself I’ll have the strength to go on. Easier said than done. I’m stuck between I need to social transition to accept myself and I need to accept myself to social transition. It’s a real conundrum. In the mean time, I’m too afraid to even get a haircut because I’m scared to tell anyone that I’m trans. I can’t even really say it to myself anymore. When I go out I feel like everyone knows and is staring at me. I feel like a freak. I just want the courage to paint my nails again.

I wish i was born women. thats it i wish i could feel lesbian. it feels wrong my body feels wrong. i cant even be skinny and short. i still have to deal with my parents. eventually imma grow into a tall girl. i dont care if im more pudgy then fat i just wanna feel good in my own skin. i wanna be born a girl. i wish i could tak to women without feeling like an imposter. i wish when talking to other women i didnt feel like an imposter. i wish i could dress like a girl. i wish i could take hrt i wish my parents were supportive. i wish trump never was elected. i wish i didnt have to watch my highschool life waste away. i dont have any friend no support i did i made a mistake and now i have nobody. im lonley. i wish i was born a cis girl. i wish i couldnt grow a thick beard which i can see even when i shave. wish my leg hair was natrualy thinner. what can i do to feel better. i feel ill never find live because wlw will never see im lesbian. im an outcast. i regret my past mistakes. why are all the cooler kids older then me. why cant i be pretty. i feel depressed everyday i wake up teird i stay awake teird i go to sleep teird. i just wanna be a pretty girl. i want boobies, i dont want a dick. i want to feel what cis lesbians feel i want to feel that i crave that i crave to be a women i dont feel lik one i cant even have hrt

Sometimes when i try a ramdon voice traning and start to speak femenine i feel great but when i have get back to my normal voice is like ... You know i can't
(இ﹏இ`｡) and thing like that Are Starting to go in life When i have to take off my skirt or when some call me friend (in Spanish is gendered) And i have a neighbor that always say, "hi my friend (Gendered as boy) [Deadname]" I hate it so much and i feel like i hate him for that but no TΠT

Am I the only person to have this thing? Like, I'm now mostly used to the fact that I'm transitioning to female, and I feel pretty girly most of the time, but when I have to solve a problem I quickly start feeling like a guy, which pisses me off. Is this normal, or am I just cis?

I’ve come out to my parents more times than I can count, I came out initially around 2017. Back then they brushed it off, it hurt me really bad because I could barely tell them without my body choking on the words. I tried again 6 months later and I could barely tell them, they once again ignored me. It’s been like this ever since. It’s gotten to the point where they know that “I think I’m trans” but just ignore me and get mad when I bring it up or want help. I’m now in college and I am transitioning on my own, and I feel so utterly lost. My parents won’t accept me, my friends don’t really see me as a girl, and I’m too cowardly to go out in public in clothes I want. I’m going insane, I can’t take this anymore, if I can’t be a girl soon I’ll stop caring about everything. I just want some help, I feel like I’m practically begging for help but no one is helping. Recently my depression has gotten much worse and I think about hurting myself, but I’m too cowardly to actually do it. I need help, I need someone to tell me what I should do.