/r/lostafriend
Support during the end of a friendship - a good friend walks out of your life, they made you upset, etc. Feel free to talk about how your friendships ended, or leave a nice thought for others. It gets better with time.
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Support foror anyone coping with a good friend walking out of their life. It's a lonely feeling.
/r/lostafriend
When my ex friend ghosted me some months ago, it came out of left field. We never had a fight or an argument, there was just a feeling of strangeness in our last interactions.
I was still hopeful that we could work it out and I tried to talk to her but my efforts weren't met with the same kind of energy. Although months passed, I still thought about how it ended from time to time and felt the need for some kind of closure. I finally sent her a text asking why our friendship ended.
Her reply was surprising and not at the same time. She said that she felt unappreciated and decided that feeling secure was more important than anything else. In general, her perspective of our friendship was very different than mine because I felt I always went above and beyond to make her feel safe and happy. And all the while she was thinking such things, she had never said anything to me about her feelings and simply chose to end the relationship.
To be honest, after sending the initial message I regretted it a little. But after receiving her reply, I understood once again that it was already over for our friendship because we must have a fundamental difference in how we see and react to things. I was also able to finally air out my own thoughts and write a farewell message, which was a great relief.
Despite this, if someone ghosted you, I don't know if it's the best course of action to send them a text hoping for closure. Ghosting shows a lack of consideration on their part and it probably is just that. I think managing expectations and thinking what it is you want to get out of the interaction is key.
I was recently ghosted by a friend. This friend is one of those super nice, never offends anyone, people-pleaser people.
We became friends through work and have mutual friends who were colleagues but also from before we knew each other because we both used to work in the same area. She moved away the year before last and came back in the summer to visit her family. She wanted to meet up and we did and everything was normal. We then continued messaging and everything was normal.
I asked her a favour and she enthusiastically agreed to help. It wasn't a huge favour, I just asked for a reference for a job. She was really willing. But then I needed to ask some follow-up details to put on my job application and she just ghosted me. It's hard to explain but she could be a bit weird about personal stuff, and I think she was avoiding having to give me her new address. Our boss said something similar when she needed to forward some things to her. If she'd just said she wasn't comfortable with it, I'd have been fine. It's the only thing I can think of that could have triggered this. It sounds weird, but tbh I think her husband controls her a bit and that's something to do with it.
Instead she just cut me off, unfollowed me on instagram, and stopped messaging. It was my birthday a few weeks after we met up and she didn't message like she usually would. What really hurts, and I know this sounds petty, is that she's posted happy birthday messages on a couple of our colleagues' facebooks since then and they weren't even as close as we were.
I'm really struggling to think what I could have done to deserve this and how someone who has always been seen by everyone as so nice could do something so horrible.
It's her birthday soon and I'm wondering whether I should just send a happy birthday message to let her know there was no need to ghost me. That whatever she was trying to avoid wasn't worth it. At the same time I don't want to look like a mug if she just ignores it.
I just came across my ex-friend’s tik tok post. Yes, for some reason we are still friends on tik tok. My other ex friend commented on it . I immediately scrolled, but it still stung. It’s been almost 7 months since we had a huge falling out. Anyone else going through this right now? Should I just unfollow?
Looooooong post - be warned I've never been a positive person mind you lol And the pettiest hateful bitch you'll ever meet depending on how rough you screwed me lol But here goes:
Used to know 2 girls, they were what i considered friends after a former childhood "bff" really destroyed my trust in people in general. Didn't have friends or trusted the concept of friendship and just trust in people after that so these girls were really in my mind my first ever "friends". I met them when was i think 17 (25 now) and they made me believe they were my first two ever "real" friends. Well low and behold my gut never really lies to me. After a few years, 6 or 7 to be exact, I honestly hate them. Never thought a year or two would fully taint something going 6 or 7 years strong but there ya go lol They tossed me aside and made me feel like a fan rather than a friend, always too busy to even reply to a single text or message or to ever talk to me first yet not for others, its not like i was sending them posts nonstop or chatting up their ear, some moments all i wanted was a friend really, went to them in my lowest moments and got left on delivered then read for werks, with one of them giving a half assed "ive neen very busy" horseshit while also constantly on social media actively posting reposting and posting about their time out qnd with others. Like youre "busy" we all are were adults i get it - but youre not that busy youre too busy for me because im not even on your radar. The constrat from how we were on my last birthday is night and day, i was having a really rough time becayse birthdays are akways awful for mw i hate them, and they tried their hardest to get me to celebrate and to cheer me up come over wharnot, this year they didnt even send me a shirty happy birthday text. I acc went further than some posts ive seen on reddit and to move on or to stick it to em on my side for piece of mind I decided to thriw out, rip to shreds and break into pieces with a hammer everything they ever gave me, deleted every single text or image from them, and blocked their contacts - the block was more for myself as a final nail in the coffin thing because they had become such ghosts they havent acc truthfully spoken to me in over a year so i just decided to give up and say fuck them qnd stop trying to tslk or reach out and myself look like a clown. Sometimes you have to let people go and part with whatever stuff reminds you of them to allow yourself to move on, for me it was less sole aadness and more sad and angry resentment, everytime i read those clearly bullshit "we love you" messages from the both of them i wanted to punch a wall lol But, hate them, probably always will, I dont do forgive and forget, I'll despise them till the day I die and it honestly feels decent sometimes, I'd rather be honest with my feelings and hate them for hurting me and being shit friends than being delusionally positive and saying "nah peace and love I'll l cherish our memories and wish them the best - fuck that lol
To quote one of my favorite tiktoks - "I'll always hate you bitch, till the day I die, always, always"
Quote credited to Gecko and Fly.
We wrote 2 whole book and other thing w my best friend, D, who I met 10yrs ago. We decided to publish it last october, and thing went downhill.
D was always know it all, often lied to seem to have a better life. When we had an argument she ignored me, I was the one who always had to reach out, but even then we never could talk things trough, cause something sad always happened w her and the topic got averted. Somehow her problems or achievements always had to be bigger. Our friendship always felt uneven, we only met if I was the one travelling to her.
When it came to publishing, all of my suggestions were swepted down from the table, cause "she knows how to do it" and I don't. I pushed a smaller publisher for start, so if we fail, we don't lose that much and can start over more easily. She took that as me "thinking our book is shit and will definitely fail". She wanted to go with a big publisher and pay a yearly sallary amount of money.
She started to say illogical things just to win the argument, everything I said got dissed, so we fell apart. Now she's doing the publishing without me. I feel like I stood up for myself, but still lost. If I gave in to her, I could be a part of it too, but that would have ment giving up my equality. But I feel tormented for being left out.
You haunt me You are with me in every step I take I can’t espace your presence Memories of our past are weighing heavy on my soul
The guilt is consuming me
Berating myself for my mistakes
I got what I deserve
Pure intentions deplorable actions
You were caught in the wake of my hurt
Never meant for this to happen
A train is coming, is it yours? One step further will bring me to god I don’t think my soul can be absolved Oh please forgive me father I’m destined for hell.
I can’t bear it, I’m crumbling under the weight of the pain I inflicted For I bring sorrows to everyone around me Stomping on every pieces of joy that I find Tarnishing their soul
Bleeding heart I watch every ounce of blood drop Until I am drained It already happened, too late I can’t go on, I am sorry I can’t wait for you anymore I am dead to you This hatred was once friendship But it’s gone forever now
I've never posted on Reddit before because ANXIETY, but I felt like this was worth a shot.
At the beginning of 2020, I had a very messy friendship breakup with my oldest and dearest friend.
Prior to this, we had been in each other's lives on and off since we were just four years old. She was my very first friend. We grew apart and had some fights over the years (ugh middle and high school drama), but we always found our way back to each other somehow. By 2017, we were inseparable again. It was a really dark period of my life and I honestly don't know that I would've survived it all without her. We talked for hours every day and just had a lot of fun in each other's company.
Looking back, that all started to change mid-2019. I don't want to rehash everything because 1) I don't think that will help and 2) I'm still not really sure what happened myself.
Long story short, my friend started to distance herself and treat me kind of badly after a disagreement that I thought we resolved. I knew the vibes were off, but I guess I was kind of in denial about it. Several tense months passed where we sort of danced around what was happening. I would ask her to hang out and she would tell me she couldn't because she had to work, but then she'd post pictures of herself with other people on social media. That sort of thing.
I asked once if there was something wrong or if she wanted to talk but she said no and I didn't want to push it because I didn't want it to be happening.
By early 2020, things finally exploded and we had this big confrontation that effectively ended our friendship for good. I was supposed to be maid-of-honor at her wedding that year, but instead I was uninvited and unfriended. What really hurt was that she already had a new friend all lined up to take my place in the wedding party.
In the days following the fight, I practically begged her to meet me in person so that we could talk things through and come to some sort of understanding on the whole thing, but she wasn't interested. She actually agreed to meet me once, but then didn't show up. After a few weeks, she blocked me on all social media and I get it. I was being clingy and needy and begging for any kind of clarification. I thought it would only be for a little while. I'm still blocked to this day.
I certainly wasn't blameless. I knew that then and I know that now. I said a lot of petty stuff because I felt so out of control, anxious, and betrayed. I was passive aggressive during those in-between months when I didn't know where we were as friends. I acted dumb and I really regret it. I really didn't mean any of it.
Still, I walked away from the whole thing feeling sad and confused. I didn't understand, I still don't understand, how she could walk away from our friendship so easily. Wasn't it worth one last conversation at least?
I realize now that she was done with me long before that last fight. I was just the last one to know about it.
It hurt like hell for a long time, but I did eventually feel like I had moved on. I moved to a new city, got a Master's degree, and found a job I really like. I hardly thought about her.
Recently, however, two of my family members passed away in a very short period of time and I found myself thinking about her again. She knew my complicated family dynamics so I wouldn't have to explain anything to her. She would get it. I wished she was there with me at the funeral services instead of my other emotionally unavailable family members. When I got home, I remembered that I had saved some old conversations with her on my computer so I reread them. (Dumb move, I know.)
Now I'm back in that lost friendship grief and it is just as bad as when it just happened. I feel so awful about the entire thing. I realize that I was in a bad place mentally at that point in my life and I regret the part I played in it all.
It is honestly making me so depressed. I can barely function sometimes. I'll be sitting at work or something, feeling fine, and then all of a sudden it will hit me and I'll feel so low that I can't think of anything else.
The thought of it makes me feel so worthless. Like if not even my oldest friend could do it, then I'll never find a close friend willing to put up with all my bullshit.
I've tried journaling, I've talked it through with my therapist and my sister, I've listened to sad music, I've listened to angry music, I've cried it out, I've deleted the conversations from my computer.
But nothing seems to help!!! I know that reaching out is not an option because I need to respect the boundaries she has set, but I feel like that is the only thing I haven't tried. I doubt very much that she would be receptive to it though.
It has been about two months now that I've been going through this.
I think my biggest issue is that she has always come back before. (Though to be fair, I have always been the one to take the first step to reconnect with her.) It has always worked itself out some way or another. I know that is not going to happen this time and it is probably for the best, but I think there is a part of me that will always be hoping. She has been such a constant presence in my life that it seems absolutely unbearable that she is out of it forever now.
Please, any help or encouragement that you can provide would be greatly appreciated. I am really going through it! Thanks!
I'm not saying that I deserved the abuse I received. Not by any means. However, I have come to realize that I did things that are not healthy. Previously (because trust me, I'm over this behavior now) when I loved someone, I would put them on a pedastal and put their needs or desires above my own. I also relied too much on others to fulfill my emotional needs.
It wasn't that my self-worth was tied to other people's view of me or anything. Amazingly in spite of all I've been through (lifetime of trauma exacerbated by toxic friendship), I don't have self-esteem issues. I just wanted someone to love and appreciate me, like I love and appreciate others, because that's a nice feeling. Also I know what it's like to have someone make you feel like you don't matter to them, and I never wanted someone in my life to feel that way.
Now I've decided the only person ever getting up on that pedastal is me. And no one is allowed up there with me. This is a healthy boundary that I've established. My friends are important, and I will absolutely support them in whatever way I can. And I know they'll do the same for me. But I'm not putting anyone else's needs above mine again. Someone has to take care of and prioritize me, and that's not anyone's responsibility but mine. I'm giving myself the love I want and deserve. And it's a pretty amazing feeling.
Seriously, this is torturous. I have a best friend who randomly decided to believe some wild story about me out of the blue and completely ghost me. I would never ever treat someone like this and it’s driving me crazy. I’m pregnant and have had a really hard season and this is just such a strange way to deal with conflict. I’ve tried to call her like 10 times. How do I not ruminate and have so much resentment for someone who just dropped me out of the blue?
My ex-best friend has an avoidant personality… not diagnosed but observed through her strong independence, lack of expressiveness on the emotional front and lack of friends whom she shares her life with (most of her friendships are activities-based friendships).
Our friendship ended on terms where the reasons given were really murky and vague. Admittedly, I was emotional too because of my own life events and I had wanted to rely on her for support. I didn’t know she had things on her plate as well because she didn’t share whenever I checked in with her. And I was blocked on all fronts… I’d like to know:
Genuinely curious for my own knowledge
I read that it takes 6 months thereabouts and honestly for me, I’ve largely processed and learnt from it. Starting to get my life together and detaching myself from the friendship. But it’s scary because once I do that to anyone, it’ll mean that they mean little. Don’t really want that to happen but I know my friend needs a long time
Wanted to know because
I want to be a better friend when/if she comes back (there has been signs, especially from a mutual friend who mentioned she’ll tell me personally on a meetup that I wasn’t invited to)
I hope the friendship can strengthen after conflict, which is possible after reading other Reddit posts
Just venting, maybe there is someone here with the same questions/situation.
A while ago I had an argument with someone I used to consider one of my closest friends. After the argument, I asked him if we could still be friends. He said we would talk about it eventually. When this didn’t happen, I asked him about it again. He started to leave my messages on seen, even when I said that I feel like shit if he ghosts me. Next day I couldn’t take it anymore, I sent him one last message that it was clear that we couldn’t be friends anymore, that it didn’t work like this anymore. And this remained unanswered until this day. I eventually unfollowed him on the very few social media we have. He still has my number and he knows my address. I just feel like shit that I don’t deserve an answer. I know he is an avoidant person but still I am like WTF? I have the tendency to “overcare” when I like to be around someone. So this is not the first time something like this happens. I really try to give my friends the space they need, I know that I sound like a crazy ass stalker, but I don’t think I am. I don’t really know what to do know. I just kinda wanna know how he is feeling. My gut kinda tells me that he is relieved I am gone…
Kati Morton's video is probably the most genuine account I have come across on YouTube regarding friendship break-ups and a resource I revisit again and again.
If you are struggling to understand why the friendship ended, whether you are the problem or how to move past the experience and learn what you can, this video may help you to find some meaningful answers.
Below are a couple of questions from the video that I like to ask myself during the grieving process:
When did the friendship start?
Would we be friends if we met now?
I had a friend who was like an older brother to me bc he was a few years older than me and he gave me advice and stuff. But as of early this year he stoped talking to me. We were friends on vrc so I searched his username and couldn’t find it the only thing I have left of him is his discord burner account. I rlly miss him bc he was one of the only people i actually felt safe with but then he just left completely. The last conversation I remember us having is him getting a girlfriend and he got to be with his little brother again. He said he kinda used me as a coping mechanism because of him losing the ability to see his brother but i actually thought he’d stay. I miss him a lot and don’t know what to do anymore because it feels like I did something wrong. He even took little vr naps with me when i couldn’t sleep. I thought he actually cared. I don’t know what to do anymore.
She is traumatized by me and dont wanna reconnect becayse she hates that pain. I pray that she recieves all those needs that i was unable to give. I want to reconnect but i hate the idea of hurting her again . Our friendships are over that we've never imagined. We considered eachotger as soulmate. I still get a feeling that when i wakeup there will be a long message from my besties name.
I broke up the friendship a few months ago and he accepted it. I told him it was for the best for us to not be friends anymore but that I still loved him. We have had zero contact and he didn’t even congratulate me for my bday. Sometimes I wish he would ask for the friendship back. Also- we have to see each other again, unfortunately, for our graduation in a year and we have a lot of friends (thanks to me btw) in common so we will have to interact in a year ugh. Even though we still have each other on social media we don’t react to each other’s posts but a friend of mine showed me he posted a story where he shows an accomplishment of his. He barely posts anything, unlike me who posts almost daily. Should I like or react in any way to it or should I keep it no contact?
I know now that I've been holding onto an idealized fantasy of her and that our brief and awkward chats between July and September really messed with me mentally. She gave me hope, at least that we could meet after 6 years of practically no contact.
We've never really celebrated a birthday together but one year we sent some messages from the heart to each other. Now she'd never do that again. She told me.
She's still on my mind way too much and a lot of distractions would be good but for now but I don't have them. Those months really messed with me mentally, again.
Anyways, this year I would have liked to wish her a happy birthday despite her clearly not caring in the slightest about mine.
But of course, she left me hanging blocking me only on one social medium and probably deleting my number. I know it would be wrong to reach out because you wanted space. Of course, you can't tell me whether you're just fucking done with me or not. No you have to leave me hanging, again and again.
It just fucking sucks that she could never decide to really make up her mind. Block me everywhere or talk to me but not this half-assed semi-non-communication that you've given me.
Nonetheless, I wished you the best and I'd still wish you a happy birthday... I just really shouldn't:(
hi! i'm in undergrad and i have plans to apply to grad school right after graduation but i've been dealing with a shit ton this semester related to 4 of my closest friends last year made some selfish decisions a few months ago and backstabbed me. none of us argued or said anything rude to each other, but the thought of studying on campus at the libraries fills me with dread because i cannot focus when I see them. I'm getting super behind in my classes and have been trying to only find seats at libraries with cubicles so I can limit my chance of making eye contact with one of them in case they happen to sit near me at a library.
i keep reminding myself that if my grades tank, it's over for grad school and that the rest of this stuff is temporary. but i get so anxious when i think of studying on campus and am not as productive at home - what should i do to self motivate myself?
I want to move on. Truly, I do. We ended the friendship in a way where he didn’t think he did any wrong (even though I explained the reasons) but accepted my friendship break up anyways. It’s been months but now I can’t stop dreaming about him buying me flowers and apologizing. Why???? I want it to stop.
I had my friendship breakup. I've post it on this sub Reddit aswell. I was surfing internet trying to understand my ex bestfriend. So i went deeper into thsi attacthment style. I've understood why my certain small2 gestures bothered her. why her small2 gestures bothered me. We have different fears, which can be triggered from different things that we are aware of. For me in no contact phase i find relief but for her no contact phase is suffering. For anxious people they are constantly looking for answer to feel secured and for us avoidant people we prefer diatance to find answer . in my situation i was fearful avoidant attachment style and ahe was anxious attachment style.
My guy best friend of 2 years told me I am just like everyone else to him. He doesn’t care much about me and all but he used to tell me that I am his best friend etc. It hurt me so much I started leaving him on seen from that day. He replied to all my stories , texted me what’s up and didn’t even call me to say sorry. His friend told me he read our chats while others are there and it doesn’t seem like he is sad at all. He told all his friends what he told me and I am not talking to him, last day I made our mutual friend call and him and tell not to talk about me to anyone else and he said they accidentally read it and it’s not him who showed them and to tell me. But still he didn’t apologise or tell me that I am important to him. While my other friend who also kinda left me uploaded a story he asked her if she left me and he also asked her if I am with her one day form other guys account Everyone is saying he ain’t sad not a bit It hurts
Should I talk to him ?
Recently I (32 F) had a falling out with a friend and roommate. We have been on the rocks for over a year and it feels like she says and does things to intentionally hurt me- one night she hit the lowest blow of all time and I said enough, I want you to move out. Well today she moved out, when I saw all her stuff gone I low key felt sad inside but I know it’s for the better, I know there’s no place in my life for her anymore. Right now is just really hard for me it feels like everything in my life is crashing down, I feel like I am losing every friend at the same time, I’m like over the top anxious attachment and having to cut people out of my life over the last month in conjunction with just so many health changes right now - I need to put my health first and quit drinking and the lifestyle I was living just wasn’t going to last much longer. I’ve had to cut friends out because I want to head a different direction and want better things for myself , I’m like at a crossroads- I feel stripped and nothing feels good. I have been sick to my stomach honestly just crippled with anxiety that I can’t manage. This last weekend I went to visit my very best friend who is long distance- we went to a EDM concert (not my thing but I went so she didn’t have to miss out with her friends just because I’m in town), she did Molly and I honestly hated her on it. She was not who I know her to be, she didn’t care about me, left me alone, was dismissive, and I felt like she didn’t care I was there. My fear of abandonment hit deep and I called her out for how she was treating me. I hated feeling like nothing and like a burden. It was just one of those moments where I’m thinking “we are too old for this sh*t”. I ended up leaving her with her friends and went back to her place alone, feeling so low and alone. We spent the next day together and everything was fine, but didn’t talk about what happened. leaving her today and getting on my flight I wanted to cry, because it’s been awhile since i feel like i have had a real friend, she’s the one who knows my heart best and my biggest support. I need her- especially right now going through health challenges and life changes where I feel stripped. But I need a healthy friend more than ever right now, and the way she treated me that night didn’t feel healthy. It felt really bad. I feel like I’m losing her too. I know we all have our flaws and I am not perfect. I could have handled the situation better that night, but I can’t deny how low it made me feel. I’m just in a lot of stress from all of it happening and I’m stuck here feeling the most empty and lonely I’ve felt in a decade , crying but I have to remember that this is what I want and need , that change most often times isn’t comfortable. I’m just in the thick of it. I feel like I’m losing the most important person in my life now.
I lost my best friend of 15 years because she didn't think it was worth saving our friendship. We did everything together. We lived together, threw parties, cried together, raised a dog together, joked about being an old married couple. We threw this giant Halloween party every year for the last 7 years. This year my bf and I had our own party. It was terrible. A good amount of people showed up and seemed to have a good time, but it wasn't the same. She wasn't there. I'm go through bouts of anger and loneliness and now I just want to isolate myself from everyone. I'm just numb and have no one to talk to about it.
Today he unfriended me completely after I added him back weeks ago to reconnect. So strange. I apologized, cried and sent voice notes on snapchat that he even saved. He never said a word. Im sure he felt so hurt after countless unfriending/adding bc of me reacting towards his leave to another state.
Just wanted to say after today i'm not even sad he unfriended me. As if a weight has finally been lifted. I fought so hard to mend us back together but this was finally his decision and will respect that boundary now. So silly looking back at how I was crying yet he was living his big life in a huge new city with new people. Over it I guess. Simply going to work on myself now. Even if he now comes back I dont think I could add him back again. I lose feelings eventually. Just strange why he unfriended me even though he saved the apologies. But it's better to just go on now. :) thank you everyone that gave me heartfelt advice. I'm no longer sad
I remember hearing the character Baymax from the movie Big Hero 6 say this. I thought of it today and it made me cry.
Hang in there, everyone.
Hi! I want to provide some comfort for the people in this thread. It does get better. It's been over a year since I've lost someone that I considered dear to me. At first, I was hurt. Now, I only wish the best for them. Personally, something that's helped me is being authentic and honest with the situation. Sometimes, things happen and it's nobody's fault. People get distant. People outgrow each other. People let each other be and move on with their lives. Or, people just don't click with you like you thought they would. But, It's okay to forgive your former friend for a lot of those things. It's okay to allow yourself to be at peace with the situation. Everyone is experiencing this life. We can all find solace in the idea that we're all just humans on a strange planet...trying to keep it together. Keep moving forward and enjoy life without anything holding you back! Don't stay stuck in the hurt, forever.
I think I just lost a friend. He is a jerk but still, he is my friend and Im sad that I lost him. He and I knew each others since primary school, we didn't talk much at first but as time past, we begin to get closer and closer. Sharing similar interest, playing video games, discussing future but most of it is just playing video games. When I'm in middle school I didn't spend times with him that much cause of I just been transfer to another school. We lived a separated life, having girlfriend, doing school shits, etc. Until high school when covid-19 hit, school closed, I have nothing to do, my current school's friend don't play games that I play or sharing the same interest, so I didn't hang around with them that much. So most of the quarantine, I spend using my time playing games with him. Life was simple, wake up, enter online class then go back to sleep, wake up agian, and play games. Just like that, nothing more nothing less. To be real, Im pretty depressed at the moment, I tried hanging myself, consuming excessive amounts of alcohol, self-harming, etc. Just to keep my mind occupied, from the loneliness and hopelessness I feeling. At that time Im just a suicidal teenager. But he, my friend, just keep me company throughout. Everyday he will call me up to play a game or two before going to sleep. Life is really simple back then. Back then I really wish that my life would cycle like that, just the two of us enjoying games till the end of time. Tbh most of the friend group hate him, I too do hate him. But how could I just let him go. We cried, we laughed, we smiled together. Even though he is an asshole, he is one of my best friend. One of my favorite human being. We played games everyday till the end of high school. I joined college, he didn't. Let just say my time at the uni wasn't my best days, I felt like this isn't what I want, like I don't want to keep going on this path. So I quit, and re-enter with him the next year. Life goes on, the new semester start, we enter class, everything seem going fine, going in a straight line, no scray dark forest a head no thick fog that blind your eyes, just a beautiful day with a clear sky. Life at that point is great, least for me. My friend on other hand, isn't that good. He had an argument with his mother so he decided to come and live with me. At the time Im living in a small apatment that can barely hold two person. The room was small but we somehow made it work. We cook together, do groceries together just living our lives. But living together tend to get in each other ways, we had arguments about lots of thing, about the room, about the bill, about the university, about futures, about life. And he decided to leave. He moves out and go back to lives with his mother, shortly after he quit college cause he felt like it. To be fair, his family does has financial problem. The day he move out, I said to him "Don't be a stranger" as he walk to his mother car and then drive away. He told me that I can still talk with him still, but recently he just unfriend, unfollow me in every social media like we never knew each other. He lied to me, I know that lying is his second nature but still. It hurt. I thought we could still play games with each other like when we were kids. But he just gone, out of my life, out of each other's ways. 14 years of friendship. Gone, just like that. In a blink of an eye.
I guess that's life
Life just..... goes on
I hope that we will cross paths again, dear friend.
Ever been asked:" Why does this friendship mean so much to you?" and not knowing what and how to answer, although you do know what and how to answer?