Geez!! I m sick of ppl idk when the hell i developed this inferiority complex...oh wait ig ik since i got a new roommate.. i m just so envious of her every guy i talk to shift to her nd i end up blocking him this has happened just so many times. A weird feeling is developing inside i can't name it i just wanna stay away from everyone. Is there any kinda hole or something i can crawl into?? Ab toh pdhayi bhi nhi horhi😭😭 i m a neet aspirant ab drop nhi lena meko😭 i m so done with everything....nd it's so embarassing to admit all this infront of anyone it's so damn fckin silly

Brain is not getting tired of overthinking😭 yet....

I have a girl bestfriend problem which is confusing me. In the month of November i met her for the first time after a year of best friendship due to consequences and her family restrictions(She was my bestfriend before and friendship was broken but then again we became bestfriends). After the day we met i called her the next day and that was the last time she talked normally with me. Then she stopped using instagram and didn't see any of my texts and didn't reeceive any call. She just ghosted me for around 2 weeks and i tried everyday to reach her but i couldn't. I was tensed and worried about her. My exams were going on and this happened. I was completely blank. One day she received call during her lunch break in college. She talked normally to me like nothing happened and just ignored the whole thing that was going on. She told me her exams were going on and she is going back to hostel and she will call after reaching there. I waited whole day but she didn't. At late night she texted me that she wants to be alone and stay as she want to be. And instagram is wasting her time so she won't use it. Suddenly told me that our talk once in a week is enough and won't necessary to talk everyday. Since then i respected her decision and never told or talked her about anything. Haven't talked to her or called her. I don't know if it happened due to me or other thing. I asked her but she won't say anything. What should i do? Should i wait or talk to her.

I'm trying to get out of rut situation but I end up feeling mentally frozen. I want to face my fears

(16M) for the past few weeks my viewpoint of everything has completely changed and I don't see or feels the things like I used to. There's no feeling of romance or even love for anything for me, even when I think of my girlfriend I don't feel like 'I want to cuddle with her' 'I want to hug her so bad' 'I wanna be with her' and I used to think like this before but now when I think about her it's only about 'fck I've to get her in future in any way possible, I just want to settle down with her(no I'm not a cringe kid, I've been with her long enough to know if I should even think about it) ' I don't think about my relationship romantically anymore I only think about what's gonna happen in futre, the same applies to my other activities too, I can't even do my ding dong, I don't just find corn or girls intresting anymore that way, sure my body responds to it but I don't feel lewd? even when I think of doing it post nut clarity hits me before even doing it like 'you have a girl why are you looking at other women' even when I'm thinking of my family I don't think 'I love my family so much' ' they are so supportive ' I think about 'what are you even doing in life? how are you ever going to repay the love and support your family gave you?' I don't think anything of the present, one part of me is always scolding me for being lazy and not working hard enough for future, I'm seriously concerned because every aspect of my life is turning me into the same thing. Does anyone else feel the same?

I'm 19 years old now. I was the one of the brightest kid in my area and I always gave my parents result. They were always proud of me. I cleared exam and joined one of the best school of india [won't take name for privacy reason]. I was the one of the best guy in school ..good in academics, sports, cocurricular and everything. Life turned out after Covid Came. Actually My eldest sister whom i still love the most got married in 2018. Later we came to know that her husband has an extra marrital affair and he used to beat my sister used to drag her by her hair and all. I was unaware of all this because I used to live in hostel far away from my home (2500km) and they didn't use to tell me anything. After all I was just a 13-14year old kid. I came back at home in Covid and when stayed then found out everything about my sister. How she's being treated in her laws home. She wasn't allowed to use mobile phones. There were time limitations which was used by her 1yr old daughter. Parental locks always on. She can't even talk to anyone even her own home and every call was being recorded. I don't know how she spent complete lockdown in a small room without phone or anything. She must have been through a lot and all i can imagine only. So let's take it very short. After knowing all this I decided to leave one of the best schools in my main year [11th and 12th ] which could have changed my life. I told my parents that waha padhai achhi nahi hoti hai [they still don't know the main reason]. So i left thinking to bring back my sister home but only after few months She poisoned herself leaving her 20days old son and 1.5y old daughter. In this everyone is equally responsible from my parents to She herself. and it happened in 2021 when i was in 11th class. Idk why things affect me late so whole 2021 i was fine jaise kuchh hua hi nahi ho but in 2022 i started to feel her absence. I started to go into depression. I started to soend time alone. All day in a room. Midnight suddenly woke and started to cry and all....not talking much and in 2023 my board came but i couldn't study anything because of depression still i don't know how CBSE passed me with MATHS 27, PHY 23, CHEM23. After board i was sure I'm failing so ran away from home. Whole 2023 went into depression . I started to live alone in delhi and getting panic attacks. Shock..anxiety attack. I used to stay in my room only. Stayed there 4 months but don't even know my neighbors name. Suddenly i used to cry and all of sudden laugh like nothing happened. Went weeks without eating. Suicidal thoughts started coming. I WENT FOR SUICIDE TO JUMP FROM 8TH FLOOR. Almost jump but idk why i just returned. I came back home but didn't work. I took 1 year drop to heal myself with family [they are still unaware of all this] but didn't work. Then in 2024 i gave JEE in family pressure but obviously got 16 and 30 percentile. Papa didn't allow me for CUET as he doesn't know what a cuet is. I went for NDA exam 5 attempt but couldn't clear. Later i had no option left except to get admission in BA in local college where they even don't complete course on time. Now my parents want to go and any constable or group D exam and join it because they want to boast in front of so called society but all i want from them 4 years. Let my graduation complete and i want to sit in graduation level exam and I'll clear it but they don't even wanna listen me. Due to all this every time we use to have argument and fight at home. I'm fed up from this...again i want to die. I wish i was never born. I LITERALLY FAILED AS A BROTHER, STILL TRYING TO PROVE A WORTHY SON and Yeah I don't have friends so ig i failed in that too. Everytime i just get taunt from my parents that Haath se Nikal gaya hai. Baato me nahi hai. Pata nahi kya kya i can't even write but i gave them the best result, unka harek baat manta hu. They think that i enjoy, rupye udata hu, awaragardi karta hu but literally i save their money every possible way and think about them. When i see other kid i think I'm too good but still pheww I'm literally fed up. As a only middle class son I'm tired of carrying everyone's hope and responsibilities. I'm out of energy. I want to sleep. A sleep that can last forever.

I'M DONE

THANK YOU GUYS

A guy friend of mine and I were having a discussion on why only a girl’s past physical life matters so much whereas a guy’s does not.

He told me, “For a girl the future that she will have with the guy matters more and for a guy the past that a girl has matters more.”

So I wanna ask you all is that true like do you all think this way?

Tomorrow's Saraswati Puja, which is also the day when boys and girls in our place hold hands and people don't interrupt.

A few moments ago, when I (M18) told my parents that I'd want to go explore places alone, my parents told me that I should rather go with a girl. Damn, after going through a semester of college (as a day scholar), I realized that I really love to solo travel inside my city. I could've gone with some girl or even my old friends' group, but I really want to travel alone. Nobody will be as fuckin nerdy as me who wants to go to the Science City or to BITM on this day.

I just haven't got anyone to share these precious moments with. Additionally, I really know what my parents did... so it's truly certain that I won't tell them even when I have a gf.

Lastly... you know what? It's just great solo travelling and all, but when the sun sets and the stars shine, I really feel like i just need someone... to say what I feel about the day... the journals just won't hear my stories and get flabbergasted or disgusted by my actions... damn I just want to express to someone who would express it back by the end of the day.

चाँद आज लाल निकला है, क्या चूम के उसके गाल निकला है?
हम तो पागल हैं ही, तू भी अमावस को कमाल निकला है!?
कोई खेल खेल रहा है, या बस पूछने हाल निकला है?
बड़ा मुस्कुरा रहा है, इतना शर्मा रहा है,
तू भी क्या चलने कोई चाल निकला है?

मैंने तो ऐसे ही कहा था, कि तू उसके जैसा है,
तू भी उसके जैसे लेकर, ज़ुल्फों का जाल निकला है,
मैं शक कर रहा हूँ? मैं गलत हूँ?
तू खुद माथे पे लेकर सवाल निकला है!!

चला जा, पगले भोला मत बन!!
बड़ी मुश्किल से उसके बिना ये साल निकला है,
क्या तू बनेगा उसके जैसा?
अमावस को भी कमाल निकला है..!!

- आर्यन कुशवाहा

like i know none of that breed? im talkin...5'8 ish ya like super tall? where are yall bro fking show up

Samjh nahi aa raha kya karu

This feeling of getting older is itching me so much, lots of responsibilities have to be taken and moat importantly take care of my parents who are getting older. The excitement around bdays don't excite me any longer. Can't express my current feeling. No such social groups where I can hang out pretty much introverted causing more anxiety inside me. Grateful to universe for supporting ✨️ 🙏

Ohk so 2 days ago I was walking with a friend (my other friends left there own ways) so we were kinda alone so this girl is kinda really friendly and even I consider her a good friend. So this friend of mine wanted to share the new gossip she got to know from her sources. She said that chutiya (just a made up name ) is having crush or feelings for a girl let's call her alina (again made up). Twist is this chutiya guy is a friend of mine and I know everything about him so I said that the news she got is not true coz I know he have crush on some other girl. So she got curious and asked me which department is she from? who is she? and blab blab and i said that it's chutiya's secret and I can't let it out (I don't know I just don't want to betray those who trust me) but I can assure it's not alina. So this girl lives in hostel but to get the information she followed me to the university gate but I didn't tell her. Now she didn't talk to me in 2 days and so to lighten up the mood I send her a text "wanna check out a girl" and sends a instagram reel of a real pookie girl (another guy friend send me that coz the reel was mesmerizing). So she saw that and asked me if it was intended to her or if I shared it to wrong person then I said that it was intended and she just says "She is cute" and done then she said that she felt sad for the previous day and all and shared a real where salman khan roast a guy for being proud of his height which is god gifted and he didn't put any efforts into. Now I feel kinda bad. She is/was a real good friend and now I feel like I don't know her anymore.

Taken from a source :)

It can be something to get off your chest, it can be an achievement or something that you're proud of yourself for, it can be something funny, or just something simple that you just felt like sharing

Idk I saw this really cute waist chain on Amazon which had like a sun and moon design and thought it would go well with my saree but now that I'm thinking about it I'm not sure. My mom allowed it as well, but she's kind of a fashionista type who goes over the top sometimes so I'm not sure I trust her completely. This is my 10th farewell. Thoughts?

Even poorer Africans are mogging us brutally. I'm 182 cm - and sometimes I wonder if I'd be taller, had I eaten meat every single day, growing up, instead of only twice a week. 😭 Protein and B¹² deficiency is so real. I feel so much stronger and active, after realising this and fulfilling those needs now.

was dying to post this

I have a friend. I kind of have feelings for that person. I don't know. Like I do but I don't want to reciprocate and sometimes I feel like, no I don't. I have this friend since primary school. And that person is tbh, great and always supports me. Other people in our circle also make jokes and tease us. But we laugh it off or act like fuming cause we kind of hate it. But deep down, I kinda feel like we both know it, everyone around us know it, but we just don't.. all the time when someone references them around me, I think about that person and I stare at them too. I usually talk to them once in 2 days or sometimes not at all in a week. How should I deal with this? Also, I don't wanna get in a relationship.

I got into my dream college, and it's been hell. I'm away from my friends who kept me sane and made me feel good.

Now I look around and see people with everything I've ever wanted- a family that doesn't hate them, enough money to not have to work while in college, and looking good.

I have none of that. I'm currently working 2 different jobs, attending regular college, waking up at 4:30 in the morning to manage it all. I'm not even that interested in my second job, but I'm indecisive about quitting because money.

Money this money that, it's all about money. If anyone tells you money doesn't matter, they didn't starve themselves to get to the end of the month. I walk around, I see nice bikes, cars, even just books or pens or diaries, but I can't buy anything.

And to top it all off, I'm hideous. I can try to get my physique in good condition, but that would require me giving time for it. Well I don't have any when I'm either working or too exhausted to go for a run. And even that wouldn't fix my face, would it? And I've got scars on my limbs.

And just when I started saving up, a friend's mom fell ill and at this point I've given him almost all my savings for her surgery. I don't regret it, don't get me wrong, but I'm gonna have to make more money to be able to afford anything I want.

Idk what my gf sees in me. I'm not attractive or whatever. I have so many issues. And I'm not even rich. In more than 2 years of our relationship, all she demanded was for me to visit her (we're long distance), but I can't even afford that. It's just pathetic.

All I can do is keep going until I either get out of this or everything crashes down on me.

Hi y'all, I need help. You are probably thinking smth else, but what I'm asking is also hard. In a few days, it's my dad's birthday. He will be turning 46. I dont have any gift in mind. What should I gift him? I need suggestions. Please help me.