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I’m on T gel and I’m the last few months I have had more problems getting it refilled than I ever have before in my life. I’ve been on HRT for seven years, and this year I will use my 30 day supply, run out and then have the pharmacy send for authorization, it gets denied, my doctor says they sent it. Repeat.

When I ask why they say “because it’s a controlled substance.” I was out for almost a month in October and now I’m going on almost a week this time. It’s every month now, they just won’t refill until my next appointment which is always more than thirty days apart.

I was under the impression they wrote me a 90 day supply this time, and my pharmacist said that they did, but when the time came it was only 30 and I’m SOL trying to get in touch with my doctor to extend it.

I’ve seen this problem with a few people lately, what is going on? Does anybody know? My doctors office just keeping ignoring the fact that I’m being taken off and on such a “serious” medication and I feel terrible from it, I’ve got a headache right now.

I don’t know what to do anymore to get anybody to listen to me.

I’m starting testosterone tmrw after a year of wanting to get on it for so long is there anything I should know? I’m getting shots btw, is there anything major that happens on the first days or going on so?

For a little context, I am almost 6 months on testosterone cypionate (200mg/mL), I started out on 0.25mg per week and I was wondering, since I started on a low dose, I feel it didn't grow as rapid as it would if I started out on a higher dose?

If that makes sense.

Doesn't the starting dose matter for growth since when you start t, that's when it grows the fastest?

I feel like my bottom growth could have grown more if I started on a higher dose. ): I'm almost 2 months on my new 0.50mg dose, I have noticed a lot of growth from my first couple months to now, but I'm just wondering if anyone has linked low starting doses to small dicks? Or if starting doses really matter or are important for growth.

i just saw a whole ass article on why gender dysphoria is a joke supported by statistics, research, graphs and all that.

they basically said GD and homosexuality is "unnatural" and it's caused by sexual trauma, etc. they then started yapping about how homosexual people are prone to AIDS and how their sex lives are generally dirty (???).

i could see it's trash --the stance was biased from the get go and the "sources" were superficial at best --but it truly terrifies me that these people will carry on genuinely believing that they actually know shit about queer people. it's way worse than ignorance.

it's NOT the first time i saw shit like that, certainly won't be the last.

the other day, i came across an openly transgender woman on tv (which is an unlikely occurrence in South Korea) talking about her experience being trans and how she had a hard time coming out to everyone around her. i got intrigued and searched her video up on yt.

guess what i saw on the comment section! self-proclaimed psychology PhD's yapping about how she's just a "soft man" and it's just because she "doesn't love herself" (WHICH IS INSANE because they claimed it's a QUOTE from another transgender woman).

some said that if trans people have the right to exist then the people around them have the right to reject them (??!!), which is quite a popular stance in South Korea apparently. that line i've seen in other places too.

it's truly a hard time to exist. i can't even imagine what women and POC had to go through in their worst times of oppression.

i have yet to come out to my family and friends, but i know i'm not gonna "beg" for their acceptance. i'm not pregnant, i didn't lose money in illegal activities, i didn't accidentally push my cat out of the window. i have no reason to be sorry or scared or beg for their forgiveness.

they either love me or they don't. as simple as that.

i can keep up with ignorance --there's always room for information. but those who think they know ANYTHING about queer people from a handful of conservative news articles and a couple of christian blog posts?

bottom line? fuck transphobia. don't listen to the hateful shit on the internet. always do elaborate research before you register stuff into your brain as facts.

don't let them tell YOU who YOU are, cuz promise me, they don't know shit.

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title says it all, im really happy with the progress im seeing ^__^ im about a month on T, i wouldnt say its super big but the change is noticeable. i can pull the hood back maybe a quarter inch or so?

i notice changes whenever i feel "pressure" down there, im rlly fortunate it hasnt been sensitive or overstimulating as some have experienced! for me, it feels like i'm turned on or how it feels if i applied pressure. its weird at times cuz i'll just be chilling then feel that....ig cis men also deal with that so hooray im experiencing a common man thing haha.

the first week, i experienced itchiness and a lot of discharge. i would simply wipe using baby wipes and it went away on its own. another thing is i haven't experienced any dryness or pain during sex either, my diet does consist of a good amount of fiber + fermented foods like kimchi, sauerkraut, and sourdough bread-i heard it helps but i havent really looked into it?

just wanting to document my progress + also help other ppl who are wondering what its like!

I think I’m finally ready to start living the way I’ve seen myself since I was probably 11-12 can’t really remember. I’m 31 now and had been thinking oh I waited to long what’s the point? But I’m tired I don’t want to pretend anymore. Im already more masculine and present as a man and I known in my heart that I am, but I’m so uncomfortable in my body. I’m wanting to get on hrt as soon as possible.. I live in FL right now and that’s a whole other problem in its self. I was going to go through planned parenthood but they’re not taking new patients again which kinda let me down a bit because last time I had called they were, this was before august. Now I’ve decided to use FOLX and heard good things about them.. it’s just the total amount of money I have to drop at first to get it going it’s kind of a lot. My insurance isn’t going to start until the 1st of the year. Which I’m sure it will come faster than I realize.. it’s just I’m ready to get started and wanted to let this out. Not many people know yet. And it’s going to be an interesting ride thats for sure. If you’re still reading thanks for that. I’m done rambling. -Alexx

Am I supposed to inject in the exact hole each time?

I inject T on my leg and It's my third shot today and I do hv a bruise on the same area (don't know how I got it but it wasn't from doing shots) right now it feels like I can barely walk but it doesn't hurt(?). It feels more like every muscle and flesh I hv there is stretching.

Try to shake them every minutes or so bc that's the only way for it to not make me feel like I'm loosing my leg.

Anyone experienced this before?

I've been openly trans for about 6 years now, a little over. For a long time in the beginning, and a while before fully coming out (outside a small group of people) I questioned myself a lot. Over the last 4 years i was really solid in who i was. But the past 5 months have been horrible. I went from working in a small space as a behind the counter cook to working retail and customer service in a large store. Im yet to start T and do not pass what-so-ever, so im constantly called things like "ma'am" "madam" "dear" and its really just been fucking with my head and making me question myself. I've only ever had 2 trans friends. 1 has completely detransitioned last month and the other started T 1or2 years ago and is working on saving for surgeries last we talked. I'd talk to him but we just haven't been close in years and i don't want to bother him now that he's started college. I feel like im behind and i should be doing better in terms of transitioning, but i also feel like i should just give up now since its been 6 years and i couldn't possibly appear more feminine than i do right now. I feel like if i cut my hair short again it would help, but i have a round face and feel like i look dumb with shorter hair. I've had a lot of back and forth mentally recently, and i know its common to doubt yourself but i just feel really alone. If anyone else reads this has ways they cope with the doubt, or just advice that'd be really helpful. Thanks everyone ♡

This is just a nice thing I learned today, so my grandma is an old Japanese lady, doesn’t understand english pronouns for the life of her and she gave up trying a long time ago, and I mean she just kind of uses whatever pronoun she feels like for whoever, they’re all the same to her so she usually switches between she and he for everyone and everything lmao and always has, so what pronouns she uses for me means absolutely nothing. I haven’t tried to explain to her that I’m trans because I just assumed she wouldn’t get it, but my mom a while back said something to me that made it sound like she had told my grandma. I’ve been medically transitioning and so I didn’t know if it would be shocking to her when I start becoming cis passing, my voice is deepening and all that. I didn’t know for sure if she knew about me or not, but today I was talking to my sister and asked her if our grandma knew, and apparently yes because I guess a little while ago she just said to my sister “OP a boy, you know?” Which like wow this old asian lady can understand it but not my dad😭 I couldn’t give less of a shit what pronouns she uses for me because she can’t get that right for anyone, I’m happy to know that she knows I’m a boy and thinks of me as that

Just wanted to share this because I think it’s kinda interesting. For context, prior to testosterone I considered myself bisexual. Now, after 4 years of T, I think I might be asexual biromantic. Which is crazy because I’ve never considered it. Now that I’ve had top surgery and am in a better place in life I’ve realized that sex isn’t something I really want. This doesn’t stem from a discomfort with my body, it’s just a preference. I’m actually very comfortable with my body especially now with top surgery. I feel complete. I still definitely want a relationship of some sort one day, but I can do without sex. If my partner really needs it, then im alright with it because I consider it a way to show I love them, but to me it would be on the same level as helping with laundry or cooking them a nice meal. Something I do to show love, but not something I necessarily derive sexual pleasure from.

Not sure how this “happened” but I figured I’d share this since I’ve seen other guys here lament a possible loss of asexuality and I just wanted to give an example of the opposite happening lmao.

I’ve been on testosterone for one month!! Four weeks!! 30 whole days!! One month guys one whole month!!!

hey ftm reddit, i just need to know if others felt this way too. i started AndroGel November 19th. i felt really good and very excited about it at first. i read up on on everyone’s experiences with their transition saying how quick they started noticing changes within weeks like vocal cords hurting, sore muscles, etcc. however, i’ve gotten nothing. at most i pee more and i stink. sex feels slightly different. but im super self conscious now, i cant go out without my binder at all and ive stopped wearing my favorite clothes. i feel super depressed and my boyfriend has to help me apply my gel. i feel like shit and i cant tell if its from my mental illness or if its from the crushing need to be myself and enjoy my transition. i didnt know where tho put this, if its in the wrong spot please lmk. thank you for reading 🙏

Like the title says, I wanna ask about any s3x drive increase when starting T. I’m about 3 months in (2 pumps gel) and am insaaanelyy h0rny lol. Like I have to get off at least once a day or it drives me crazy. Also I’m h0rny 90% of the time. My girl can only do sm lmao plus her s3x drive is lower than mine is. I just wanna know if you guys experienced anything similar/how you dealt with it. Before T, I was of average horniness I think? Idrk maybe a little lower, I’m on an SNRI. I know it’ll die down at some point but it’s been such a huge switch up that I don’t even know how to deal, it’s becoming inconvenient lmao

does anyone ever accidentally misgender themselves? like when speaking about yourself in third person for whatever reason and use the wrong pronouns or whatever? just an odd thing i noticed i did and was wondering if anyone else does this?

ive read thru the classics that have always circulated around, but are things like the straps at the top floating above your shoulders when you bend down normal, or do u just have any general tips for the signs you have for it working properly?

I bought an XL "Mens Ultimate Compression Chest Binder Tank" off of underworks, and i have about a little over a triple D chest, 5"5, and around 200 pounds; it fit my chest size, but it still has these issues of big "dog tags", and in general the straps being very floaty when i move. i mean, i pulled it down to as far as it can humanly go to make sure it should fit my shoulders and it still does this. my chest doesn't seem intensely compressed either, and while shirts most certainly fit easier and IT IS doing the work of a binder, i'm worried if it got even just a little loser over use or wear, it would become useless to me due to other fitting issues. im on the larger side of the size i ordered, so im worried if i ordered a smaller size it just wouldn't fit/be unsafe.

any other signs this is fitting me wrong, or am i just expecting perfect flatness when its just not possible?
preferably just tips of what to look for that is good would be great, too :]

I'm probably not going back on T again for the rest of my life and I just feel awful about how not masc my body looks especially my butt and I don't know how to accept this and live as a guy when i feel this dysphoric. Like can yall send me pics of guys with the fattest ass or something i need to feel valid oh my god

Do yall have any recommendations for ftm strokers that work with only a small amount of bottom growth? As well as just toys in general that will work thanks in advance! Edit:please do not Dm me asking about what is used currently … while I understand how that could possibly be applicable it is weird to me and I do not wish to discuss that with people I’m only looking for ideas on brands and such so I can do my own research on anything that has been suggested. Thanks!

Hey guys, anyone know of a good jockstrap? I don't a bunch of space infromt, but I want it to look like a normal jockstrap. Additionally, I kind of hate ugly branding on the bands. Any recs?

I'll go first. I had a crush on a girl for a while and we wanted to do the sapphic girls doing makeup pic. At the time I thought I was just gender fluid. I only brought my really fem clothes because I thought it would be good. I wore them as she did my makeup. Once it was done I looked in the mirror and saw a beautiful woman. All of a sudden I had a fucking panic attack and started crying and ran into the bathroom screaming. I kept saying "HOLY SHIT I THINK IM TRANS". It was the first time I ever felt dysphoria like that. I felt bad because she did such a fantastic job on me but that disconnect of my body and face just set it in stone. She unfollowed me a few years later so Idk what she is doing now lol.

Literally what the title is. Just wanted to see how some of you guys figured this out and whether or not I'm severely in denial of just a gender bendy person going through a masc stage. 😵‍💫 Thx! 😊

I’m not sure if I experience some of my dysphoria the same as others and it’s making me really doubt myself sometimes. I’ve always been envious of guys and hate being a girl but I convinced myself for a long time I couldn’t be trans. I’m starting T in like two weeks (!!!!) but I’m nervous because I’m doubting myself some because when I feel bottom dysphoria I just hate what parts I do have I don’t long for something else. Or I know I hate being a girl but I don’t know if I’d like being a guy I’ve never done it so how would I know?? And I hate when people call me she but being called he isn’t especially euphoric I just feel like I don’t count since I look and sound like a girl still :( And even tho sounding like a girl bugs me because I don’t pass, I feel like it’ll be really weird hearing my voice as more masculine. But is it normal to just hate what you do have without longing for something else? I do wish I had a more masculine figure for sure tho. But I really don’t think I’m NB being called they also gives me dysphoria and I would rather look masculine than somewhere more imbetween (I know you can be NB and masculine too but I don’t think that’s me either)

i'm out of T i can't buy it and if i dont use this old bottle i have i have to stay 10 days without it (i have this old bottle i half used a lot of time ago, now...i dont remember when i used it last time.. this is the issue, i dont think it's more than 2 years, is it safer to use it or to not use it? i really dont want my period to come back

i think actually taking my first shot really put things in persepctive for me. suddenly, transitioning is not that idea i am veiwing on myself from the outside- i am the one it in my body. like, sure, i could picture what changes would look like from an outside perspective, but i never truly thought about experiencing them until now.

not to get too heavy or anything, but ive always had some dissociative / avoidant tendencies when it comes to my feelings, but getting my shot today i felt like i was truly present with myself.

Anything transition related is pushed back years, until I can leave my country, but it makes me question if I even want to transition or put up with misgendering for life. Tbh it'd be better if I could be just out and accepted without the need for hormones and surgery, but the majority of people aren't open and tolerating like that imo.

Did anything help the dysphoria pre-everything for you? I just want something to hold onto I guess?

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I was 12 when I first asked for a binder. I've clearly had dysphoria since I was young and would literally cry in public over it and they would know the reason why I was crying. More than one occasion. Even therapists knew. Like this hasn't been a fucking secret or anything.

The only thing was it was manageable for a while now. It's not anymore. I'm 20 now. I'm tired of dealing with dysphoria especially with my chest, it is literally damaged and scarred from all of the binding I've done. I work a physical job so I don't get to bind with a binder and even when I do have a binder I absolutely loathe that fucking thing. I have to use tape a lot of times because of the job but it's permanently damaged my skin. I will never have a normal chest now and dealing with that alone is emotionally taxing. I'm tired of the hassle and the pain.

I was diagnosed with autism when I was was 16 or 17 after a long battle over mental health and struggles in school. I would say a battle with anxiety and depression but I don't believe it was even that, it was just being overwhelmed by everything around me and being undiagnosed for literally the entirety of school. Of course the transition to adulthood wasn't very easy so I'm still struggling and they see that and so they're trying to help with that.

I ALSO would like help with dysphoria. I've come out to them. I don't know what more I have to do to get them to take it seriously. Like I'm not doing this for shits and giggles. I'm not doing it because I casually just "want" to change my gender. I'm doing this because it's painful and HURTS and drives me crazy and impacts my life. I get it's not the same as depression but like???? I don't get what to do to make them understand. Because they're not transphobic it's like they still see it as lesser than all of my other issues.

They're not unwilling to help me. They've said they are. But they put about 1/10th of the energy towards my physical dysphoria as they do towards everything else which is crazy cause like..... Y'all were there when we were at the beach and I sobbed for 2 hours straight when I was 14. Pretty sure I cried every day that whole trip.

I went to pick up my testosterone at the pharmacy today, and after almost blatantly ignoring me after seeing my prescription, she said they were out of stock of the vial and to “think long and hard before starting this” (I’m going into month 6…). She kept giving me weird looks too. She said that it would take a few days for them to restock, but if y’all think she was being dishonest about that part I’ll just go back in tomorrow morning when she (hopefully) won’t be there. Let me know what you guys think.

I’m supposed to do my shot tomorrow but after going to the pharmacy they said they didn’t have anything and what was there was cancelled? For context, my endocrinologist has been dealing with legal trouble after being sued in Texas for prescribing gender affirming health care to minors after the bill from 2023 and I’m just trying to figure out what to do. I don’t receive insurance till next month but I am willing to pay out of pocket. I know Plume and Folx are a thing but I don’t know how that works. There’s two other endocrinologists my doctor recommended me but I’m just afraid the process will take long, especially since tomorrow I’m due for a shot and it’s supposed to be every ten days. Any advice?