https://youtu.be/_GgKpRM0zBs?si=BqLYzEyZ7rwrDbkl

I'm interested by this and want to know where to start. I've been looking into stuff like the occult, god, manifestation and reality shifting for ages now but only just found this place

Any advice is welcome

I (16m) have always had some connection to the supernatural and have been drawn to it. My journey is long, and there’s really not a point in describing every nook and cranny of my being, but I will share what has been happening recently. I have had (and continue to have) what I feel to be deep, enriching spiritual experiences. They have helped me to shift my perspective of the world, and to continue on my path of growth. I also experience “mental health issues”, and therapists have speculated that I might have Delusional Disorder (a psychotic disorder where you have delusions, but no other symptoms of schizophrenia) or a Cluster A PD (pseudo-psychotic conditions classified by odd/eccentric thinking & or behavior). I read through the descriptions and some of these feel relatable, but it seems a bit silly to discard all of my experiences as “psychotic” as several have been genuinely beneficial and helpful. Does this mean that I don’t have my own issues and problems? Of course not. I can become caught up in pretty absurd, paranoid ideas and become very fearful and disorganized within my mind. But lots of these thoughts have been transformative and powerful. I suppose the quote goes “The shaman delightfully swims in the same waters the psychotic drowns,” or something like that.

The question is: what do I do to grow? Meditation is difficult, and my best results have been from doing intensive breath work. I feel like lots have the issues of wanting these spiritual experiences (meditation included) to be the equivalent of an angel slapping you across the face, but this is unrealistic. It’s been tough trying to do more “relaxed” and “grounded” meditations, and embracing the subtlety of it all. That’s my rant. Any advice appreciated

you were born here without purpose, you will die with a purpose .....why the fuck are yall stressing yourselves out?

what is the meaning of finding meaning?! we know we are different than animals......if we believe we are so much more powerful, why is the animal kingdom thriving perfectly without human consciousness? there is a sense of difference between "animals" and "humans", but why can't we explain it??? the truth is hard. hard to grasp, and hard to explain.

to make it more simple: animals are ignorant. like some ignorant humans, animals live without the the knowledge of continence after death. they live without any real purpose, but the purpose to survive. what makes survival so important?

nothing. survival is just as important as survival itself. Survival's main purpose it to sustain itself, making survival technically not the purpose for consciousness. consciousness "expands" on this idea of survival and purpose......but for what??

intuition. knowledge itself is infinite, just like the universe itself. the universe and itself collaborate, making the cycle infinite. i can best compare it to yin and yang.

so, that being said, why are we having such a hard time finding peace within ourselves as a society if we are the universe just as much as the universe is us???

mainly, the government. the government and those of higher power have all the power and knowledge before us, therefore can feed us whatever they want to feed us. we are a product of our environment.....and they manipulated our environment without us even realizing it.

they always say the greatest trick they played on humanity is believing God is a "thing" and not "everything". separating God from us was our doom from the start. and it's not our faults. the world is in a constant state of chaos because those who believe God is not here are those who are the most unhappy.

God does not exist because no existence is better than existence. and it is plain, simple truth. existence leads to mortality, and mortality is the separation of self. this universe is God's slow suicide. the existence of God is within everything.....just not the perspective the world has taught you. start believing in yourself, and know everything will be okay, because we are all on the same journey together.

What happens when you approach spirituality from Conspiracysim?

You end up in very deep rabbit holes leading you into more rabbit holes. You cannot approach spirituality this way.

Although the attempt is there to find truth in what has been hidden.. as many of us do know things are hidden.. it is often overanalyzed.. too much weight put on truth being found outward and outward forces hiding things.

It then causes the individual to put more weight on "outside forces have hidden things so I will approach knowledge this way and find what has been hidden and that is my spirituality or awakening or enlightenment"

However in a grounded state you see all religon and philosophies as information to apply within.. thats it.

The idea of outward forces hiding things does not have a place in grounded minds as something to be concerned with. Because spiritual minds know truth is found within.

There really is nothing hidden.. no enemies no conspiracies just how well you apply information within.

In Billy Carsons eyes he is an expert on religion and philosophy "information" he associates with spirituality as he uncovers ancient mysteries. Yet in truth he is not grounded enough to be someone to seen as an authority in spirituality. In knowlegde sure. Yet not always the case with him.

While he spends his time seeking truth in this vs that nonsense looking for truth in his rsbbit holes he has lost sight that truth in an outward sense can only be found where correlations meet.

But more important. All he really has "found" is information more true or less than others.

I've had this idea recently that God and Satan have changed places somehow. That Satanists in today's world are nice and kind, and that Christians love to exert power. Even when young, there was a hard edge to church, a self worship of cis/het supremacy akin to darwinism. And was thinking, if God gave himself in Jesus form, then Satan and God would switched realms. This satisfies that he died for our sins, to protect us. Those who worship "God" by being monsters end up in the sky. This would explain ufo weirdness in its relationship with kabala and religion. That the good is in the ground, and evil in the sky. Am I crazy?

Hi all, I am 16F and I am going to try to put this as simply as possible. Despite my age I feel like I might have awakened something deep inside of me. Considering my age most people would think that this is a unique coming-of-age experience, but the fact that I'm questioning all of the above mentioned in the title it seems highly unlikely. I was diagnosed with ADHD at a young age (5-7, can't remember) which may contribute to some part of this little 'crisis.' Here are my thoughts (apologies for such a long post lol):

Why I think I could be experiencing enlightenment and/or a spiritual awakening- I have an extremely fast processing speed, and I feel like I understand everything on a very large scale. However, I'm still stuck questioning everything, I crave knowledge (in spite of questioning even the existence of knowledge itself). I want to learn and understand everything even though I know it's not possible. To add on to this, I can make connections between things that other people wouldn't even consider. I firmly, FIRMLY believe that EVERYTHING is connected. I feel a sense of connection with everything around me, like I am the world and universe and everything all at once. I've knocked on classroom doors and it felt like I was making physical contact with myself. I feel like I am the floor that I am walking on, I feel like I AM everything. I no longer care what other people think of me, I can't change that and there's no reason to try. A while back I have had that "impending doom" feeling for days and weeks on end, like I was dying a slow death. It made me anxious, and it still does sometimes, but I relish in the emotions I feel knowing that they'll pass sooner or later. I'm able to consider that I might be wrong, that the things I believe might be wrong, but also that what I'm feeling is real and my reality. Sometimes I don't even feel like a human being, I despise having a body. I don't depend on others for comfort or reassurance, that's what my brain is for anyways. My intuition is stronger, I have thought things that people around me have repeated like they're reading my mind, I have thought about things that I'd like to happen and they have happened.

As compared to delusion and mental illness- My feelings do not cause me great distress, maybe some stress since my thoughts are always all over the place and so so loud, but that's how it is with everything in my life. Like I said, I'm able to recognize that I may be wrong and I have not stopped questioning things. I only believe firmly because in this because I am feeling it so strongly and it is everything that I am.

Honest opinions appreciated. Thank you to those who read all the way through...

I split up with my fiancée a few months ago after we lived together for almost 2 years. I was able to leave all to easily. I rehomed our dog and sat in an empty home and felt very sad, but relieved. I'm not sad anymore, but I'm kind of blank. While we were together, I had a very strong sense of spirituality - I felt connected to basically all of you. Something was definitely still missing. I keep seeing this theme theory of a shift happening and the key being love. I realized this morning that I did not actually feel that sort of connection with her. In fact, I don't have that connection with anyone or anything. I can remember at times loving things in the past: lifting, gaming, friends, dogs, etc. Horrifyingly, I don't have a single thing or person that I love. This would probably attribute to the sink hole I've felt in me for as long as I can remember. Help please

for some reason, something has formed in my mind . a series of questions answers and thoughts keeped coming up regarding the true nature of things. don't know how to start..so i just will

-God's way : top to bottom,all potentials, timeless and limitless, the struggle and sacrifice of creation/separation from within.

-Lucifer's way: bottom to up phenomenon , made of parts,matter,self identification .

-Satan / Lucifer is real and the ruler of earth but God is eternal-

among the angels that God has created Satan is the most special , his rebellion against God was certainly God's intention. and is not evil from Gods perspective .

there is an allegory to explain things to come:

a soul of a man came knocking at heaven doors, God then asks him: who is there? the soul answers: it is "I" but not allowed to come in . only when the soul realised and answered: it is only you (God) that is there, the soul allowed into heaven .

such was Satan's rebellion and the reason he was expelled from heaven , he dared to say 'I' and have his own way. an illusion. the earth,objective and the physical have been created in that way and is ,Satan's kingdom, everything in it says "I". separated and alien to underlying subjective . and so is all modern science and medicine for that matter.

• Adam and Eve, Satan , Jesus and evolution -

at the garden of Eden, the fruit of the tree of knowledge is given to humanity by Satan, because what is to be perceived as separate ego, ultimately comes from the thinking , dissecting mind,it is a battle ground for what falsely claims to be the real ,and everything else that makes that even possible, but seen as "nothing but..".

as seen by evidence in a development of an individual, and corresponds to the of evolution humanity. the scenes of self travels up , from the stomach, lungs, mouth to be behind the eyes .. Christ or the third eye consciousness .. that was Satan's whole purpose...

oh man .. i think my autism is at play here ,, i better stop here,, there is too much more ,, but all just words enjoy if you do

For the record on my spiritual path. I have gotten to focus 12 on gateway tapes, I remote view daily with 10-30% accuracy depending on the day. I see and predict things that will happen in my day to day very often. This is phone calls and small things and large things.

This is so you’re aware of my current situation and so one of you can make this make sense to me or it’s just a dream.

I had a lucid dream. I was hiking with my gf and had a group/tour with a guide and a ton of people. Probably 10-20 people. We were just having a regular hike. We then see the moon in the daytime as you normally can with a super clear sky depending on what cycle the moon is. It proceeds to accelerate its orbit around the earth by a magnitude of 50x-100xthe speed and kept getting faster. It kept shaking the earth due to this. Everyone was freaking out. Birds going nuts. People getting hurt.

We went into a cave for shelter. Just on the outer side of it. A quick flash of light covering the sky and the entire planet was teleported to a place with 2 moon one of them being massive from the surface of earth. And a blue and orange sun very close together.

Everyone tries to get back to their cars because the phones are all dead like an EMP and then I wake up.

Now I must say that the tech the moon was using was similar to the big commercial plane that disappeared with the 3 balls spinning around it. I felt I knew this for a fact during the dream.

Let me know what yall think. Questions comments concerns.

No I don’t do drugs.

“As I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I take a look at my life and realize there's nothin' left 'Cause I've been blastin' and laughin' so long that Even my momma thinks that my mind is gone But I ain't never crossed a man that didn't deserve it Me be treated like a punk, you know that's unheard of You better watch how you talkin' and where you walkin' Or you and your homies might be lined in chalk I really hate to trip, but I gotta loc As they croak, I see myself in the pistol smoke Fool, I'm the kinda G the little homies wanna be like On my knees in the night, sayin' prayers in the streetlight Been spendin' most their lives Livin' in a gangsta's paradise Been spendin' most their lives Livin' in a gangsta's paradise Keep spendin' most our lives Livin' in a gangsta's paradise Keep spendin' most our lives Livin' in a gangsta's paradise Look at the situation they got me facing I can't live a normal life, I was raised by the street So I gotta be down with the hood team Too much television watchin', got me chasing dreams I'm a educated fool with money on my mind Got my ten in my hand and a gleam in my eye I'm a loc'd out gangsta, set trippin' banger And my homies is down, so don't arouse my anger Fool, death ain't nothin' but a heart beat away I'm livin' life do or die, what can I say? I'm 23 now but will I live to see 24? The way things is going I don't know Tell me why are we so blind to see That the ones we hurt are you and me? Been spendin' most their lives Livin' in a gangsta's paradise Been spendin' most their lives Livin' in a gangsta's paradise Keep spendin' most our lives Livin' in a gangsta's paradise Keep spendin' most our lives Livin' in a gangsta's paradise Power and the money, money and the power Minute after minute, hour after hour Everybody's runnin', but half of them ain't lookin' It's going on in the kitchen, but I don't know what's cookin' They say I gotta learn, but nobody's here to teach me If they can't understand it, how can they reach me? I guess they can't, I guess they won't I guess they front, that's why I know my life is out of luck, fool Been spendin' most their lives Livin' in a gangsta's paradise Been spendin' most their lives Livin' in a gangsta's paradise Keep spendin' most our lives Livin' in a gangsta's paradise Keep spendin' most our lives Livin' in a gangsta's paradise Tell me why are we so blind to see That the ones we hurt are you and me? Tell me why are we so blind to see That the ones we hurt are you and me?”

The depression has hit me the hardest the last year. I know most my life and how was brought up I was taught to suppress my emotions.

When someone says “sit with your emotions” or “feel those present moment emotions”.. what does that look like to one whom has suppressed all emotion his whole life.

Has anyone actually felt their emotions in the moment whatever emotion may have popped up?

I'm here impatient and grasping. Please give me the answer that I want to be true for me, please 👀🙃.

I have no doubt that everything is an illusion (although I prefer the word bullshit), and that the only real goal in life is enlightenment, and that I will inevitably reach it at some point, although this will be faster if I'm surrendered and do the work the universe is encouraging me to do.

A spiritual friend told me I have a good understanding of Anicca (impermanance) but not Anatta (no-self).

This whole thing feels like it has been going on forever. How long does it take to finally get stream entry?

It’s said that if you stare into the sun for so long you’ll go blind. Does this make the sun dangerous? No, but maybe it could represent that it is not meant to be defined to begin with, or if that it is defined, it is by the person looking observing it, leaving its true meaning to be subjective, or unknowable, in its symbolic nature.

On this path, I walk with stress and heavy weight, where once it was filled with joy and inspiration. Like the sun, my motivation, willingness, for life experiences is halted by a desire I have to figure out my own perspective, and to rationalize experience. Sometimes I can speak out, other times I feel I’d rather not. But I believe that these feelings were internal and the experience that came after, weren’t of anything I could even try to explain. It was external.

Since there is an external, and me as an observer of myself being the internal and looking into the external, I came to the conclusion that whatever I look at, looks right back at me. My life in this sense is almost like a half-baked version of the Truman Show. Can’t do anything without the feeling of being judged. I also can’t observe anything without judging it.

From the same hand I had discovered more, I have also discovered the ever lasting pain and suffering that comes with existence. It was Einstein that said “cold is the absence of heat”. For me, its like having someone dangle a piece of gold infront of me, and saying “this is yours, this is what you want”.

I will never be perfect in this way. I don’t believe that through my experience I will be a worthwhile, conscious, moral human being. The future reflects this outlook: soon enough, everything will be automated, wars and conflict will be prevail, and the experiences that humans once used to develop in life as normal human beings will no longer exist. I fear that AI has already infiltrated humanity in irreversible ways.

This future I see has me hoping that I at least am able to die peacefully. This has been my experience which has shaped me this way.

This spiritual path isn’t easy. At times it’s wonderful. I found myself… and that was a profound realisation but it left me with a paradox, there’s 2 realities with one ultimately being an illusion. What’s been hard for me is all the trauma that I’ve suppressed over the years. Having these traumas come out of the subconscious and into the light of awareness is a tough process. All the imprints and conditioning, all the beliefs that are deep down in the recesses of the psyche have come to the light and it’s exhausting. I have to accept this… allow it to happen. No more suppression. I am letting go of the story. There’s 2 levels… the relative level and the absolute level. At the relative level this trauma is real and the healing is real. At the absolute level I am not this trauma, I am not this pain…. I am the awareness that witnesses it all. I have to let these 2 realities coexist so I can integrate and ascend. I hope this helps someone who is going through a similar situation, you may feel heavy but it’s important work. Stay on ! Not many are willing to do this work. It’s definitely no walk in the park, it is essential though and only trodden genuinely but a brave few x

I attended an Ayahuasca retreat this weekend. It was the most beautiful yet scary thing I have experienced.

During the ceremony, my body moved on its own to a yoga position, both feet’s soils touching, and my thumb and middle finger down, palms open. Felt almost like it was instict, like my body moved instinctively into this position. It’s worth noting that I have never practiced yoga !!

After further research, this Yoga position is known as “Baddha Konasana” for the feet and “Shuni Mudra” for the hands. Apparently my higher self was guiding me to stay grounded while receiving higher insights, to stay patient, and experience a spiritual awakening while keeping me grounded so I would not get overwhelmed. Or that’s what I read. Is this true ? Am I understanding this correctly?

Once this happened, I immediately felt like I was connected to something, to a higher being of light. It showed me dark places of myself, even how I am paying karma because of my bad actions in a past life, etc… this is just a summary, as I am really new to the spiritual world.

But what does the yoga pose mean really ? Is this common?

Edit: it’s worth noting that as someone who has never done yoga, I felt really uncomfortable on this position as I am not a flexible person. I tried moving my body and felt a “higher consciousness” was connected to me and telling me: “No, you stay this way, this is the way if you want to receive what you seek.”

after writing to an AI, I've realized that "pantheism" or "panpsychism" comes closest to describing my beliefs.

I've always felt that my body is not truly me; it's just an organic vessel capable of transmitting and receiving consciousness. I believe the sole purpose of our existence is that the universe is trying to understand itself. It has created us to facilitate this understanding. We craft the illusion of identity and separation from the universe as we inhabit these physical bodies, but in reality, we are all connected to the same universal consciousness.

Many of these ideas resonate with concepts from Buddhism, particularly the cycle of reincarnation. We keep living through new experiences to further the universe's understanding. When we learn enough about ourselves as part of this singular consciousness, we achieve enlightenment, rejoining the oneness and shedding the illusion of individuality.

The concepts of parallel universes and the holographic universe also make more sense within this framework. Our reality and universe aren't fundamentally physical; they are manifestations of consciousness. Consciousness is the only true existence; everything else is an illusion.

I wanted to share why I've come to these conclusions, hoping to connect with others who might share or challenge these thoughts. I'm eager to explore and discuss how this perspective can deepen our understanding of existence and our place within it.

When you are scorned, blamed and called all kinds of nasty names that means you brought the second person within which will blame and beat you up every time. If not it will suggest that it's somebody else's fault. Don't fall for this trap of a second person, this treacherous friend of dualistic state, an egoic-mind, false self, second person which got you into trouble in the first place, never that ONE.

"He-she who blames others has a long way to go on his-her journey. He-she who blames him-herself is half way there. He-she who blames no one, no-thing, no circumstance, has arrived."

Meaning no second person within, only ONE.

Random little wisdom I figured I’d share

One I AM decree/affirmation brings forth one Ascension Spark within the individual articulating it. One consciously verbalized WE ARE decree/affirmation can bring forth innumerable Ascension Sparks- only limited to the imagination/intention of the one decreeing. How much more powerful, then, if a group verbalizes these together, intending to raise Collective Consciousness? If you resonate with the one or more of the following decrees/affirmations, then I invite you to add your power to uplift the collective here:

WE ARE THE MIGHTY CONSUMING FLAME OF DIVINE LOVE THAT TRANSMUTES ALL HUMAN DISCORD, REPLACING IT WITH INFINITE PEACE AND PERFECTION WITH ETERNAL GROWTH.

WE ARE THE GOLDEN RAY OF ILLUMINATION SWEEPING ACROSS THE EARTH AWAKENING HEARTS AND MINDS TO THEIR DIVINE POTENTIAL.

WE ARE THE OMNIPRESENT OMNIPOTENT PRESENCE OF DIVINE LOVE FILLING ALL SPACE, LIFTING ALL CREATION INTO ONENESS AND HARMONY.

I want go home. Source granted me health and happiness but this fucking sucks, I'm sick of playing the fool. I'm sick of having trust forced down my throat, I have tortured and fully induced every ducking fuck. I don't think it's fair that my higerself goes on awsome adventures and leaves it until the last minute for this incarnation to bare the brunt of every fucked up decision I've made, and now I have to reverse this sinking ship with an insurmountable amount of pain. You ashole. I don't get to have the memories of your days within absolute bliss. I vote for respawns. You don't get to shove it on a veiled version of yourself once you decide the odds are in your favor. Fuck you btw.

Thank you for reading love and light ✨️

The painful type of acid, may i add. Why is this the price to pay for choosing to be? Tell me, how much pain awaits at the threshold? So much that little you dies. Describe it to me. Be detailed.

I’m not sure if this is the right place for this question, forgive me if it isn’t, but for the past week maybe 2 an odd amount of people even random people that I do not know either thought I was someone they know cause of how much I look like the person or I share the same name as a loved one or friend. Yes I know, every now and then we all come across that, but it’s been happening almost every other day. For example just now this morning, a gentleman came up to me asking if we are hiring, I work security at an apartment complex for the elderly/retired, we chatted for a bit and at the end of our convo we shook hands and exchanged names and he excitedly said that a good friend of his has the same name and he was just on the phone with him. Yesterday, I got to work and my coworker was explaining to me he watching the college game on tv that was in Madison Square Garden he got excited and thought I was doing security there cause one of the security guards looked just like me it freaked him out. Friday, I stopped at the gas station and a gentleman asked if I worked at the hospital cause I looked just like the person he thought I was. Sometime last week before that I was talking to one of the residents here and we exchanged names at the end of the convo and he said I think is brother or some family member shares the same name. I don’t recall exactly but even before that the same thing, either I look like or share the same name as someone. I don’t believe in coincidences, what could this mean? What could the universe be trying to tell me? It’s been happening a little too frequently for it to not mean anything

How do you know someone is enlightened?
They don't tell you...

Things to do for healing.

The ability to say fuck it on a problem or anything i need a solution for helped me alot. I notice I used to get frustrated on alot of things when I am focusing on a problem but the words fuck it like instantly releases tension, worry, and frustration for some reason. and helps my egoic mind shut off and magically at the right time when im ready I receive the answer. Sometimes instantly And it helps me be grounded and relaxed in the present moment and out of my head with an inner knowing that the answer isn't in my head. Praying for guidance and trusting that that guidance on whatever causes the tension helps. It usually comes in inner knowing that i transfer to words. It may be hard to focus and let go of working about the thing but eventually it makes sense. I feel like going to the mind for answers isn't the best thing the best answers come. And practicing self learning acceptance of the present moment that I don't have the answer right now helped.

I learned alot working working marijuana plant spirit and setting intentions and asking for guidance. Marijuana enhances the ability to let go and be grounded and trust. And raises your vibration to enjoy present moment. The plant spirit helps you to relax and trust if yoiu set that intention for guidance. Like w tescher.

Anybody think that's one of the most important skills have? With almost everything in life.

For me enlightenment is :

• understanding that it isn’t a static end state but rather it is an ongoing process.

• it’s as close as your breath, it’s right there with us all the time, just waiting for us to recognize it and welcome it back into our conscious experience.

• Enlightenment is seeing yourself in everything and seeing everything as a part of yourself.

• Enlightenment is being at peace with what is and seeing everything as perfect yet also seeing that there is always more to create, experience, and explore.

• It is being peaceful and content while simultaneously being open and accepting of change.

• It is knowing that you are both the microcosm and the macrocosm and being able to switch your perspective from that of the tiniest subatomic particle to being one with the whole cosmos in a split second.

• Enlightenment is realizing you created this whole universe explicitly so you could play and explore the idea of infinity by creating a vast playground and then creating a tiny piece of yourself and pretending that you are just one of billions of other beings on one of billions of planets.

Now, here’s Tom with the weather …

24 (f) god wear to start! If you see this, I hope you can help make me understand myself more.

My childhood memory isn’t the best, but I do know when I was 9 years old I saw a space documentary and somehow came to the conclusion that I was going to die and so was everyone else in the world. This UPTURNED my universe. I stopped being happy- I couldn’t sleep, everytime I thought about it I would get anxiety attacks. And I still did until I took mushrooms in 2023. After one particular trip, everything came together for me. I realized everything on earth was connected if not the same in some way, dying wasn’t truly a thing, etc. I’ve come to so much peace with the idea of dying now and have so many questions about this newfound spirituality!!

Im wondering if some people are just born more spiritually inclined? I’m not saying mental health and genetics don’t play a large role in who I am; but I also don’t believe many kids think of death haha.

Has anyone ever felt similar ?