I need to have at least four drinks just to get that nitroglycerin in my blood to stop combusting. Going off like cycles in an engine. It doesn’t slow until I get enough alcohol in my blood. But if I tip over that scale that hangs on a knifes edge, I begin to waste the all so few days, months, and years that is put onto our account the day we our born. A debt we can never repay, a fruitless endeavor. And no matter how much you try, you cant seem to ever balance the account. Your are always captive of a violent sea. Swinging violently between powerful storms and silent calms, but never anything in between. Never any true semblance of peace. Mr heart constantly feels like a knocking engine, banging on the walls of its interior with fury until it brings the whole system down. I want to stop. But the is the chaos is so intoxicating. A man will spend a day in hell for an hour in heaven. As an alcoholic you are hunting for that sense of calm. That couple of hours when you truly feel at peace. That moment between being awake and asleep, when everything in this world stands still and for once makes sense. That is and for will ever be our only salvation. But it is not ours to keep, the second we obtain it we are soon flung back into that violent sea of heart palpitations, anxiety, and shakes, until we find our next moment, our next prize. And then like low and high tide the cycle repeats, with no relief in sight.

I (mtf 17) smoked fentanyl for the first time today. ive had alot of opiod experience over the past couple of years but i would apreciate tips on getting to eat again because i already have bullemia and i need tips on how to get apetized again

We all been there - you take a pull off of the milk gallon gravity bong and your coolest friend spills the beans

“Yo I got this pack from D-skalz, and he showed me 10 grand, cash! That dude makes bank!”

Now this thread got me intrigued - how much does the average weed dealer make? What about the supplier (dealers plug)?

I only know how much my guy made, but it wasn’t more than 15k a year. Supplemented with a reg job

Last night i took 250mg of mdma at around 9:00, and topped that with 150mg an hr n 30 later. I was alone. Roll was going good but i was tripping hard. I had so many visuals, the tv had squiggles on it, the roof and walls had weird patterns and i kept seeing human figures and it would creep me tf out but i would just stay calm n happy. At about 11 i started having lines of ket. After the 2nd line it was like i was reborn. I opened my eyes slowly and looked around, i felt so dizzy. My family was in the lounge room and my work team was there too. I was thinking in my head not to talk to them because its just a dream but it looked so real. They started to leave afew at a time, i walked down the hallway and seen this fat blob thing going half way through my basement door. I started to create this whole plot in my head that they were here to kill my family and turn there bodies into carpets and curtains. On the lounge i was constantly seeing my mum n sister laying down with her babies wrapped up, theyd move and talk but when id unravel the blanket there was nothing. I kept searching the whole night for them. I even remember talking to lawnmower n asking if it was my nan and if she died😂 i went to the car mulpitle times because i kept seeing my dad walk to the car even though he’s away. I rang my mum up to pick me up telling her everything and how i thought my sister n nan died. I got in the car and told her about it n she said she thinks i was hallucinating and thinking about it, i really was. Theres way way more that happened but i really cant be fucked

I use very rarely mainly because every time I do coke I feel terrible the whole rest of the day, mainly my stomach feels like it’s inside out and head ache stuff like that not so much mentally more so physically. I did some this evening and I’m regretting it because I know how I’m going to feel, is there any way I can prevent this? Thank you

Hi there I have been taking sublicade for almost 6 months. Started on 300mg now I’m on 100mg for the past like 4 months. If I wanted to do opiates which I kind of do and I’ve been thinking about it for quite some time, would it be possible to do while on the sublicade or would I need to be off of the sublicade to take them. Do I just need to do a massive amount or is it not possible.

Also would I feel a lower dose if I snorted oxy. I don’t want to shoot up. I can get up to like 40mg. I just want to know if that would be enough. Also if I was already on a downer like Xanax would that lower the dosage of oxy needed.

GF and I have some 5-meo-Dipt (foxy) that we plan to take tonight - we are aiming for 10 mg as a first dose because we have never tried it before. We have it in solution and are planning to volumetric dose. Just as we were about to do it I thought maybe a dose (of anything really) in solution might be more potent than the same dose taken orally (because of stomach acid, stomach movement, I don't know?). Does anyone know? We dont want to over do it because I think this is a psych with a wicked dose curve. Advice appreciated!

What are your favorite songs about drugs? Do you guys have certain songs you like for certain drugs? For example, my favorite song about addiction is "Using Again" my favorite song to listen to on downers is Klonopin by Vic Mensa, my favorite songs to rip lines too are Whitebouse Road for coke & for speed (which I've moved on from) was Hands on the Wheel

genuine question. inb4: i don't do drugs and have never done them besides taking mdma once at a concert and smoking weed a couple of times.

once i smoked with people who i know for sure have access to a shit ton of drugs and are (or were) active users. idk why i've done it really but they invited me so i said yolo and did it. it was fine at first even though i panicked a little because i have anxiety and i always think i'm gonna have a bad trip (i did most of the time i smoked so i always assumed weed just works on me that way) but the first minutes everything was just funny to me. then i started feeling like i was in a video game and the graphics were like 10fps, the time was really fucking slow and i was walking super slow even though i felt like i was running. then i had a literal out of body experience where i saw myself in third person and i felt like i was spectating myself like in some kind of video game. i felt my heart beating and my lungs fill with air but not getting enough of it. eventually i started panicking so bad that i searched ways how to lower the effects of weed and i threw up three times. my "tripsitter" was a guy who smoked with me, he took care of me (while his friend was selling drugs next to us😭), talked with me to keep me busy and walked me home. at home i had to deal with my parents so i panicked even more, told them i was really tired, wobbled to my room, threw up three more times and went to sleep. i woke up the next day feeling alright but dehydrated. i never smoked again and cut ties with these people.

another time i'm not sure if i got laced but i went on a date with a guy who i know now is known to take advantage of women and he also sold and did drugs. he gave me some wine in a cup, i didn't look at him when he was pouring it as he covered what he was doing with his back. i drank like half of the cup and immediately got super drunk, like the whole room was spinning around me. i didn't drink much before in my life (i was 15 at the time) but i don't think you can get so fucked up from that little alcohol. i don't remember much from that day after i drank the wine besides us kissing. some time after that day he tried to sexually assault me. i drank the same wine a lot of times and it never had these effects.

So I told my friend to drink before the coke because I've heard drinking alcohol after doing coke makes u not feel the drunk feeling as much. But he forgot and already did a few lines, is it still cool to drink or she he just drink tomorrow.

Do you build a tolerance to promethazine? Even if only taking 10mg every other day? It always helps for sleep, but last night I took it and I felt like I still couldn’t and usually when I take it even if I’m shaking and hallucinating from sleep deprivation , one tablet gets rid of it ALL. But last night it didn’t? Do I have a tolerance?

Weed and liquor is a hell of a combination. I admit I've overdone it for a little while but these demons are damn near unbearable. I wonder what other substances would get me so high or put a good halt to these voices in my head.

Hi, I took 1.5 mg of Xanax this morning around 9. It is around 3pm where I am and I’m wanting to take some codeine for pain relief. I would only be taking 60-90 mg of codeine. Would it be okay to take it now or should I wait a bit longer? I have a pretty high tolerance when it comes to the codeine and somewhat high tolerance to Xanax. Thanks!

Hey hey, I was wondering who you guys think could be considered the worst drug addict in history for a fun project im doing! What did they do and what is their story? Share your stories!

I took like a few xanax 6 or smthg and I feel nothing tolorance and all but is there a way to make the feeling stronger

Hello drugs community. I've got two bags of 1k morning glory seeds, but theyre both at least a year or two, maybe even three years old. are these even worth trying? I've done them quite a few times before, it's always kind of a guessing game with these things but I've found 1k always produces at least some effects, if not a truly beautiful experience. However given the age of the product, I'm not sure it's worth trying for the potential nausea.

The way I prepare them is to throw the seeds in a smoothie, and let the blender chop them up into little pieces. This means consuming whole seed, which I'm used to, the LSA nausea is not fun but if you can smoke enough herb and get past it, damn it's gorgeous.

I've also got san pedro powder (i believe 50g) and im wondering if i should add any of that in, and if so how much, if anyone has any experience with that.

All I've consumed so far today (it's 4:55pm, i woke at 10:15am) was about 2g psilocybe mushrooms, and some raspberry arizona iced tea around 11am. I also have a naturally strong tolerance to serotonergics, always have, so that 2g only had a light effect on me (they were also old and weak (white not blue) mushrooms).

Does anyone have experience with old seeds or mixing LSA with mescaline?

Side note; I have vast experience with hallucinogens (and drugs overall) primarily with 1p-lsd, 4-aco-dmt, real mushrooms, and amanita muscaria (which I also have on deck in case things get too weird and I need to chill out, along with klonopin and flexeril and kratom if at all necessary). However, mescaline has eluded me all these years. I've never done it before. Again, the package I have is probably a year old, actually 2 because it got held up in customs for like an entire year.

Is any of this worth doing?

I know all illegal drugs can be laced with fentanyl but what illegal drugs are laced with it the most and which are laced the least? Based in Northeastern America.

I’ll go first. I think weed and Xanax is the goat combo. It’s relatively safe because they both impact different areas of the brain so no potential dangerous interactions. And also it will make you completely zen and tranquil with no worries whatsoever. I have anxiety so that fees amazing for me. What do yall think is a good drug combo? Not condoning mixing substances, but if you were to what would be the best and safest combo in your opinion?

I'm planning on doing one with ket, what else can i put in a nasal spray?

Also how do i avoid having my product turn brown or get contaminated?

I do not really do drugs in general anymore, haven’t really for probably 6 months or so at this point, but I am 4 months away from turning 18 so I’m wondering if I could’ve screwed anything up that I should be looking out for 😭

I did MDMA twice, spaced a week apart from each other, right around when I turned 17 (~80mg each time), and it definitely had a very perceptible negative after effect for a couple weeks. just wondering if this is enough to pay extra attention to, or if there’s any solid ways to repair damage done.

Definitely super irresponsible on my part, and I generally am more proactive about my health in general now 🙏 anyways thanks

I have adhd and when I first started taking adderall it was like a miracle for me. I was doing really well in school and getting all my stuff done. But I’ve been taking it everyday at 30mg xr for almost 2 years and it hardly does a thing for me except make me numb. I actually just ended up failing my entire 3rd year of university because it doesn’t work, and I’ve also been dealing with depression and SO much stress. If I take a break from it over the summer, will it start working like it used to? I don’t want to increase the dosage any higher :/

I went to a rave with my friends, we bought xtc pills. Our plug said it had 250mg MDMA in it. I live in the Netherlands and we can test drugs for free here. There were no other substances in the pill and only 125mg mdma.

When we went to the rave I started with a 1/2 pill. I didn’t feel anything for one and a half our. I did feel really anxious though. Because I didn’t feel anything I decided to taak 1/4 of the pill. After 30 minutes I started feeling really bad and agitated. I started shivering really hard and it felt like my brain couldn’t comprehend the world anymore. I could only look at the ground, when I looked up it felt like my brain would explode. A lot of people were helping me, but nothing really worked. I had never felt this bad in my life. To this day I feel steel anxious if I thinks about it.

After another one and a half our it was gone, I still had a good high for 30 minutes after that.

Does someone know why this happened? My friends had the same pills and they took way more without any problems.

After this I have taken mdma on 2 more occasions, but only really small doses and the same thing happened but not as bad as the first time.

I want to start this off by saying everyone is different.. my husband and my experience may not be yours. I also don’t care to hear negative feedback, I’m an adult, did research and chose my path.

For starters, both my husband and I are on SSRIs I take lamotrigine, fluoxetine and trazodone. My husband takes Seroquel, Prozac and trazodone. I’m aware of the risk of SS. (Serotonin syndrome) We both skipped all out meds for 3 days before our trip.

Wednesday we decided to take E, my husband is a lot skinnier then I am, but we both started with a half a pill, at 3pm he took his about an hour before I took mine. About 90 mins after he took his half he was feeling really good, sooo I took a half..

About an hour went by and I could feel like intense butterflies building up, my body was like a warm blanket. I felt good, but wanted to feel great, so we each took another half. Boyyy 30 mins later I was in ROLL HEAVEN.. we blasted music, talked non stop for HOURS, it was really a wonderful experience, his peak lasted a few hours longer then mine, total from the time I popped to the time I felt “let go” was about 9 hours, his lasted about 12. (We also smoked 5 blunts in that time frame and we both smoke cigarettes.

We laid down around 4am and sleep was not happening, we laid in bed for a few hours, and then when our alarm clocks went off to start our day, we got up, 7am. Around 330 that same day on no sleep we decided to each take 10 mg of Adderall. Around 430pm, I was legit feeling like a fucking rockstar. I was so clear minded. I was so happy I had so much butterflies, it was really a beautiful experience.

My husband and I both got off work at 9pm. We came home smoked a couple blunts and took our medicine like normal and slept no problem last night today we woke up around noon and neither one of us was hung over at all. We both slept really well. We both ate really well I kind of feel like I view things from a new light after dosing.

I took my Adderall about an hour ago and I’m currently smoking a blunt while I write this. I’m still feeling wonderful my Adderall hits a little differently today.I’m still feeling wonderful, no hang over, giddy, happy.

My experience with ecstasy while being on SSRI’s was amazing. I’m not writing this post encouraging people who are on SSRIs to go ahead and trip. I’m writing this post because there are very little reviews about people doing drugs while on medication. Everybody is different. And if I can answer potential questions that you may have, I would love to offer my insight.

But from my experience and my husband‘s experience, it was lovely and again we were both aware of the risks and we decided to make a decision for ourselves.

So that’s all I just wanted to come and brag and share my experience with my fellow druggers and I do want you to know that the ones of you who gave me feedback and advice I still very much appreciate you even though I didn’t take your advice.

Stay safe everyone 🙃❤️

Been taking Mirtazapin 7.5 for years now and wanted to go on a rave next week. I am not really experienced in party drugs (amphetamine, mdma, mephdron etc). Are there any concerns regarding my medication or is there a possibility to even die from mixing those two? I would really appreciate an answer!

hey, i was just wondering, i have these nasal sprays with a gas capsule inside of them and on the box it said the gas is nitrogen, it doesn't say nitrous oxyde just nitrogen. do you think it's actually nitrous oxyde and it's just written as nitrogen or can pure nitrogen be used as a propulsive gas? couldn't find any info on that online. thank you

I can't take it anymore and I want to take a safe amount of klonopin that will allow me to forget my existence for a day. I have no tolerance so factor that in. I'm done being a failure and everybody's punching bag, so I just want to not exist for a day. Is there a better substance for this. I have Klonopin, Ativan, gabapentin, and Lunesta.

I've had paranoia episodes with weed before. Most notably, being worried there were snipers in the trees outside my house, but also aware of how dumb that is. Ended up maintaining a conversation as I gently rock my head back and forth to make a headshot harder.
But 99% of the time, it just helps me sleep with a touch of anxiety.
Last night I'd hoped into bed after smoking a couple bowls. The store above me has a thin floor, so I can hear them a lot of the time. Last night there was shouting and someone had to be called for reasons I don't know. When this man showed up he was aggressively stomping around and screaming something about "I know what's going on". (this is also after they closed so I did't know why they were there).
At some point I rolled over and my bed creaked. All three people went silent, and walked from three parts of the room converging directly over my bed while mumbling.
At this point I am in a full panic, my body is shaking uncontrollably as I struggle to convince myself this is all just a hyperactive paranoid brain running away with some random thought. But I couldn't. I heard my apartment door open, I saw the light cutting through the crack of my bedroom door disappear and reappear as if someone walked by. I hear noise from my sisters room.
I roll out of bed anticipating those in the store above me to blow a siren or notify the man in my home somehow that I am getting out of bed, but nothing happens. I grab a homemade spear from a year ago (I like making things shut up) and crack my door open to see that my apartment door is closed but unlocked. "I always lock my door, did he pick it"
After clearing every main room in our tiny apartment I stand at her door in my boxes holding my homemade spear only to knock and ask "you sleeping OK?". After hearing "yea" I'm still not convinced, probably has a gun to her head.
I open the door to see my sister curled up in bed looking at me with great concern. I explained that I had heard some things and wanted to make sure she was ok, and apologized for being crazy. She moved passed the weirdness of the situation and told me she was alright and even thanked me for checking on her.
Luckily I noticed that she glanced at the closet while she said this. The intruder is hiding! I jump about a meter so I can see into the closet, fully brandishing my spear. Only to see a bunch of clothes.
I apologize again, lock the apartment door, then laid in bed staring at the lock on the door until I inevitably fell asleep.
TL;DR - heard noises while baked in the night, was certain me and my sister would be killed, jumped around my house half naked with a spear in a full panic. Apologized and went to bed.
Yea Im done smoking weed

i'm currently otw to get some sativa edibles to try this again. in the past, whenever ive taken sativa edibles, i don't feel energetic or euphoric. i just feel a little elevated, not enough to really feel different. should i just take 100mg at once and see if that works?? btw i have a pretty decent tolerance, i smoke about an eighth daily and have been for about 6-8 months

I was watching spider man: across the spider-verse last night while doing bumps of ket throughout and it reminded me of that feeling when your on shrooms or acid watching a movie like Grand Budapest hotel or midnight gospel and your thinking wtf is even happining right now cuz your so lost and it’s so confusing and chaotic but it’s not cuz it’s also so enjoyable and entertaining and fun to watch! Does anyone else ever have that feeling or know any more movies or shows like that?

I'm gonna keep it short.

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Only thing weed does it to create problems for you. Let's see the positive first. Yes, weed puts you in a state of mind where you can see things from another perspective, a perspective that allows you to experience a certain thing while being disconnected from yourself thus seeing things that you normally wouldn't because you're so connected with all this routine and worries and how the world is. Yes, weed often helps you see how you could do better in certain things and often how you're going for the wrong things. Yes, it might help you have an introspection and understand what kind of person you are for others. But.... Question is... does it do anythingelse besides that?

It doesn't, because as said earlier, it disconnects you from yourself and so all these wonderful things it might show you are just not real, it creates an ilusion where there is this perfect way of how things should be, or how you'd like them to be but reality it's completly different. In these illusions you don't take in account the emotions you have in reality, because in that moment, it doesn't matter. All it matters is this "higher being" and how to maintain that feeling. You don't take in account how people really are, and the things they've done, and most importanlly... who YOU are because again, you feel good in that state of mind, you're euphoric, so you create this perfect world. You only think about how things should be and leave the rest of reality out of it.

The moment you realise that reality it's different, it's when you wake up, and realise why you don't talk with certain people, how you feel about certain things how you feel about yourself and why that is. You start remembering how we function, You realise that the things you "understood" in this "higher state of mind" are not achievable, you remember why things are the way they are. And that's reality.

Reality might not be as pink as your illusions, but that's the only thing that's real, and no substance can make any change for you. It can make you see some stuff yes, but on the other side of the balance it throws you off, becasue you start indulging in these illusions, you start beliving them and the moment you wake up... you won't like it, because the rest of the colors start showing up. What happends then? you start getting addicted to this "higher state of mind" you want to live in that state, you start to postpone reality and it's problems, you want to live in the illusion.... guess what... you'll never escape reality, it will wait for you at the end of the road, and you will start from where you left with all the problems you postponed.

So yea, it will show you some stuff but at the cost of leaving reality... plus making you feel like shit. So what good is that? It will only ruin you.

Mark my words, the only changes you can make in life is when you're fully aware of the reality you live in, when despite the way you're feeling you will still make that decision, despite feeling anger or hate towords someone, you will still choose to love.

Keep it real