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Birth of an Alter

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Blue Lobster

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This particular alter has always been very against final fusion as a recovery goal and recently she's been asking me to start documenting our conversations but I never knew why until now...

<div class="md"><p>This particular alter has always been very against final fusion as a recovery goal and recently she&#39;s been asking me to start documenting our conversations but I never knew why until now...</p>
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Fusion

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Sick Daze

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Ruse in the Attic

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I’ve been coloring with crayons, taking pictures, erasing the black lines and editing the photos from there. The first one ended up being sort of a “council meeting” and also a choose your own adventure poem. The rest were just fun playing around. I would say to ignore the blue [“text”] in the middle, but i think it’s permanently part of the piece now

<div class="md"><p>I’ve been coloring with crayons, taking pictures, erasing the black lines and editing the photos from there. The first one ended up being sort of a “council meeting” and also a choose your own adventure poem. The rest were just fun playing around. I would say to ignore the blue [“text”] in the middle, but i think it’s permanently part of the piece now</p>
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New texhnique

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As someone who was forced into repeated bestiality for over a decade, where I often was dressed in a black fur costume, drawing graphic depictions of it help me. And I do not sexualize the image of the geisha for purely erotica purposes, the geisha is directly tied to my sexual abuse by my mother and when I draw it that’s what I always depict. I explain this because multiple people have purposely misinterpreted my art to attack me, rather than block me they make posts about me, spam my artworks, and I’ve even been accused of being a sex offender. Over the years whether I write or draw people have always hated it and shamed me because I am not a “perfect” victim, this is something that needs to be talked about even more, especially in DID spaces because years ago posts were made about me and many people were calling me sick and treating me like I was evil. Torture doesn’t make people pretty at all, at all

<div class="md"><p>As someone who was forced into repeated bestiality for over a decade, where I often was dressed in a black fur costume, drawing graphic depictions of it help me. And I do not sexualize the image of the geisha for purely erotica purposes, the geisha is directly tied to my sexual abuse by my mother and when I draw it that’s what I always depict. I explain this because multiple people have purposely misinterpreted my art to attack me, rather than block me they make posts about me, spam my artworks, and I’ve even been accused of being a sex offender. Over the years whether I write or draw people have always hated it and shamed me because I am not a “perfect” victim, this is something that needs to be talked about even more, especially in DID spaces because years ago posts were made about me and many people were calling me sick and treating me like I was evil. Torture doesn’t make people pretty at all, at all</p>
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Let me in (censored and major warning for this one)

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Monday (A Poem about my GF & me struggling with her DID)

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Lost Shadow (A Poem about my GF & me struggling)

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<div class="md"><p>Simple but i like it. Picasso </p>
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Face claim doodle :P 

inverted 

Vampire girl

I’m not sure what is secure anymore. We’ve all varying opinions, but the consensus seems to be a sensation of fear of the unknown and an inability to feel safe where we are. Change is needed. But god, change is so hard. 

<div class="md"><p>I’m not sure what is secure anymore. We’ve all varying opinions, but the consensus seems to be a sensation of fear of the unknown and an inability to feel safe where we are. Change is needed. But god, change is so hard. </p>
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Unexpected journaling about upcoming life changes

Hell Lives Inside Me

Shame

Dissociated Parts

First time sharing on this sub. What does our art make you feel?

I used to draw comics, I hadn't for a long time, but now that we are working together, I'm starting again.
Maybe sometime I will be able to get the others onboard with it, or maybe I will just have to learn how to assert myself..?

This is just freehand on our art diary. 
Panel one: Stephanie - maybe an alter or a gamer prophile is not like an alter for singular people.
Mika asks:, "... Wait, like, when they switch accounts they don't become the other people? The... What?"

Then the ghost of dissociation comes and says that, I, as a whole? Or writing on the wall, don't actually become those people either...

Anyways, tiger says that the graffiti that is written in our brain is nonsense. However much Stephanie tries to explain things... As of the cognitive distortions that we have are completely coherent.

Then the episode ends with tiger being kinda annoyed at her inner mom character, and she asserts that Stephanie has some things incorrect.


<div class="md"><p>I used to draw comics, I hadn&#39;t for a long time, but now that we are working together, I&#39;m starting again.
Maybe sometime I will be able to get the others onboard with it, or maybe I will just have to learn how to assert myself..?</p>

<p>This is just freehand on our art diary. 
Panel one: Stephanie - maybe an alter or a gamer prophile is not like an alter for singular people.
Mika asks:, &quot;... Wait, like, when they switch accounts they don&#39;t become the other people? The... What?&quot;</p>

<p>Then the ghost of dissociation comes and says that, I, as a whole? Or writing on the wall, don&#39;t actually become those people either...</p>

<p>Anyways, tiger says that the graffiti that is written in our brain is nonsense. However much Stephanie tries to explain things... As of the cognitive distortions that we have are completely coherent.</p>

<p>Then the episode ends with tiger being kinda annoyed at her inner mom character, and she asserts that Stephanie has some things incorrect.</p>
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113024 gamer accounts 

in no particular order. i can recognize who did a couple by the style/subject matter (and also the ones i did) some are a bit older and some are from very recently

<div class="md"><p>in no particular order. i can recognize who did a couple by the style/subject matter (and also the ones i did) some are a bit older and some are from very recently</p>
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random art from different parts that i found in my camera roll

Whorish daze

we drew a kid in our system how she looks (cw for blood, implied csa)

I have a doll from childhood where the crotch is shattered, I broke it from my playing of re-enactment of rapes, she’s all nice and pretty until you flip her dress and see between her legs she’s in pieces. Funnily ironic, I had to censor cause Reddit is stupid, I always post uncensored on my account though. It’s really annoying, because I liked the nipples and the crotch with cracks but I can’t post it unless I censor it

<div class="md"><p>I have a doll from childhood where the crotch is shattered, I broke it from my playing of re-enactment of rapes, she’s all nice and pretty until you flip her dress and see between her legs she’s in pieces. Funnily ironic, I had to censor cause Reddit is stupid, I always post uncensored on my account though. It’s really annoying, because I liked the nipples and the crotch with cracks but I can’t post it unless I censor it</p>
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That doesn’t hurt anymore (censored)

Thanksgiving

Heaven in a little cage

2024 Compilation

I just edited this video to collect everyone's gameplays and the moments we enjoyed throughout the year 2024 (kinda). It's like a special memory for us since we forget everything... Maybe it can also inspire someone here ! ❤️ - host 

<div class="md"><p>I just edited this video to collect everyone&#39;s gameplays and the moments we enjoyed throughout the year 2024 (kinda). It&#39;s like a special memory for us since we forget everything... Maybe it can also inspire someone here ! ❤️ - host </p>
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Headmates playing video games (CW: The Evil Within, mild violence)

Not much time to ever draw these past few days, not much time for nothing, and I’m so incredibly depressed. If only I could lock myself up in my room for an entire day and just draw, but I can’t right now and it makes me mad

<div class="md"><p>Not much time to ever draw these past few days, not much time for nothing, and I’m so incredibly depressed. If only I could lock myself up in my room for an entire day and just draw, but I can’t right now and it makes me mad</p>
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Watch

my wish

I think??

I intend more layers - there are more details in my other post in the r/painting sub, but I welcome gentle critique/feedback. 

This is also a practice piece, for a bigger piece dedicated to my dying mother -

The one human who *truly* sees 

All of Me.

I think maybe some here might understand, it's a tender thing.

Anyway, is it weird to say, 

I have an eidetic memory, and, I think my DNA remembers being a star, 
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huh?
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🙃🌟🫶

<div class="md"><p>I think??</p>

<p>I intend more layers - there are more details in my other post in the <a href="/r/painting">r/painting</a> sub, but I welcome gentle critique/feedback. </p>

<p>This is also a practice piece, for a bigger piece dedicated to my dying mother -</p>

<p>The one human who <em>truly</em> sees </p>

<p>All of Me.</p>

<p>I think maybe some here might understand, it&#39;s a tender thing.</p>

<p>Anyway, is it weird to say, </p>

<p>I have an eidetic memory, and, I think my DNA remembers being a star, 
.
huh?
.
🙃🌟🫶</p>
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This is my Identity?

How long did you wait to be saved?

Love letter

A safe place for those with Dissociative Identity Disorder to share artwork, "Meet the Alter" drawings, traumatic art, comics, music, stories, videos, things meaningful to their systems, etc. 

<div class="md"><p>A safe place for those with Dissociative Identity Disorder to share artwork, &quot;Meet the Alter&quot; drawings, traumatic art, comics, music, stories, videos, things meaningful to their systems, etc. </p>
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<div class="md"><p>A supportive space for individuals with DID to share their artwork, personal experiences, traumatic art, comics, music, stories, videos, and other meaningful creations. We welcome contributions that reflect the diversity and depth of everyone&#39;s unique experiences.</p>
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Headmates playing video games (CW: The Evil Within, mild violence)