Hello in new to this I am a anarchy communist so if anyone wants to talk just shoot me a message about anything -ancon hommie

hey comrades i live in a small town and always having trouble finding comrades to work with anyone have advice or ideas how to get in touch with others

I'm just a little frustrated and sad because I finally found my dream therapist (a Marxist psychoanalyst) and he doesn't take insurance and I cannot afford 250 bucks a session. I understand why he doesn't want to take insurance, and his low-cost client spots are filled up. He has a family to take care of, I get it, but god I'm just sad. I feel like I'm making actual progress with him, but this month has been a motherfucker. We've had three months straight of house-guests, and one of my husband and my congregants lost their place and is staying in our spare room for now, when I just desperately want a little peace and privacy. Which is not to say I resent him. He's a lovely guy and very helpful around the house, but one doesn't want to go around weeping like a Victorian ghost in front of someone you're supposed to minister to, you know? (We're Satanists btw, liberation theology focused ones with a focus on Lucifer as a revolutionary) so yeah I'm just sad.

I also feel like I look old and in my industry (I make my money as a prodomme, pastoring we do for free) that's not ideal. I feel bad for how little money I've been making and feel even more unattractive as a result.

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So I'd like to join a party around here when I can (once I'm in uni and after participating in student orgs) but I have a problem: the only party that I supported around here doesn't seem to be active and I kinda doubt it exists anymore and the other that came out of that one supports a party from another country who are transphobic and chauvinists (although the party itself hasn't expressed any transphobic opinion openly like the one they support) so I'd like to know what you think I should do like I feel stressed about this because I fear that in the event of getting into the party if I discuss or say anything they might not like regarding my support for trans people (in the case most of them are transphobic) they might end up expulsing me but I have met two members of the party and one of them is openly pro trans and the other said that he doesn't believe or support everything that the party his party supports says (which imo it's good, these people seem serious about wanting to build a party in my country and they seem to not care so much about what the other party says but idk)

just moved to Bellingham Wa from Portland and literally feel like I’m swimming in a pool of wealthy white liberal garbage. any local like-minded folks?

Feeling alone today after my friend blew me off on our plans without telling me why or communicating with me. I reached out to someone else asking to hang and have gotten no answer. I feel like shit. I’m trying to avoid being around that feeling most of the time, but when I have nothing going on it just seems to be all there is.

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I am desperate to prove I am still alive

Yet what is within is fading out

Maybe like a dying star, the light I’m seeing is only an illusion

Radiation emanating from something that died long ago

I feel nothing most of the time

Not neutral, just a nothingness

An absence of feeling or want

A depression where I once was

Depression too

Or something like that

Sometimes it happens to me that having propaganda being repeated by different people who ik and see often (like my history teacher or my family) and it just ends up overwhelming me, together with my anexiety things just get worse because I have intrusive thoughts about this and if I'm actually doing the right thing and stuff so idk, I may just be overwhelmed and overreacted

Hello comrades. I have a somewhat embarrassing confession. I have Social Anxiety and IBS which means I am mainly a homebody outside of work (which is fine, because I do enjoy staying at home and reading), BUT I am somewhat trapped.

My IBS has been an issue for all my life, but it has become worse with age (almost 40), which has meant that I have had "accidents" more than a few times in the past 2 years. This has only made leaving the house an even more stressful event than in it was in the past.

I have attended my local Socialist Party meetings in the past, but it means I can't eat all day (to try and prevent an accident) and STILL may have an accident, so that seems to be an option. I also need to learn to use a firearm for protection, but due to both Social Anxiety and the aforementioned IBS it makes it difficult to plan for it (I live in a very Liberal state, so the gun laws are restrictive).

I'm considering diapers (even though I find it incredibly embarrassing) and therapy although I don't think I can afford it. I don't know if I would be able to explain my anxiety to a therapist, who may not understand a Leftist/Marxist political lens.

TLDR : Anyone have experience with Social Anxiety and IBS?

That's it.

I won't go into much here, I know as a whole, the past few months have probably worsened things for you, wherever you are, but it is to be expected. Things will probably worsen, but I'm sure we all will be able to rise up to do what is needed!

A shout out to the people who have been trying to keep this subreddit going over the months. I haven't been active here, and probably won't be able to stay active in the near future, but it comforts me knowing that such a space exists, and knowing that people do want to look out for each other, despite the inevitable downward spiral of our lives and the world, the answer is of course in continuing to struggle, to fight where we are, with our comrades, near and far. ^Sorry ^I ^wish ^I ^could ^write ^better

#WE HAVE A WHOLE WORLD TO WIN!

My life is in shambles. I rarely ever have human contact outside of people I text, my co workers, and saying hi to my roommates when they pass me by.

I have a horrible, complicated job that I hate, but I'm desperate for money, even though when I'm there, I think about ending my own life. Not that I will, or that I have a plan to, but it's just so brutal and I hate it so much.

The stupid U.S government totally fucked up any kind of Corona response, and that's really isolated me from my friends also.

I'm thinking of just quitting my job, but I need a car and I need to move out.

Life is so overwhelming and I feel like it's way too much to deal with. I feel like if I have to do this much stuff for little to no monetary or emotional compensation, what am I doing at all? I feel like I can barely function, and I'm supposed to do all these other things besides just get through the day and I feel like I can't.

I'm too tired. And if I'm this tired from such a relatively stress-free position as a labor aristocrat in the global North, I must be useless. Everyone else seems to be able to go along and work just fine. But not me.

Living is just a chore.

I’ve made a lot of choices that have hurt other people and left me alienated, ostracized, and driven to alcoholism, only to keep fucking up. I’ve deprived myself of a future I was trying to work towards, of friends, of hope, but I can’t think of anything I deserve more. I’ve become sober the last several months but it’s only made me more clearheaded as to how awful I find myself and the wrongs I’ve made.

At this point I’m struggling to want to stay alive, because I feel I’ve backed myself into a wall that I cannot run away from. I don’t believe the struggle we fight as communists deserves or needs people like me. I feel I can only disappoint over and over and there are others who will always do better than me. At this point, studying theory to grow as a Marxist has been most of what has kept me going the last couple of years, but now I don’t think I’m deserving of the future it can give.

The only thing at this point keeping me from offing myself is the thought of what it would do to my parents, my mom especially. But that feels like it’s overwhelmed more and more each day by how much I hate myself and my choices and where it’s left me. I don’t think I’ve truly been happy the last three years and I can’t see it getting any better. If this is what the rest of my life is going to feel like, then I don’t think I want to keep living it anymore, no matter how pathetic that makes me.

Shes from the Eastern European world and she has dealt with the recent issues. She speaks into the real world with a calm approach. For all comrades worried about future issues id reccomend giving her channel a try on youtube. My header is the channel name.

This is going to be a journey and I'm mostly asking for advice here or validation/critique and to vent please let me know if you have any advice or have experience here. Also probably TW for abuse.

I work at a small, rural, non-profit. Years ago, I approached our local schools and asked, if they had any kids that fell outside of their typical programming, if I could maybe give them some work experience and mentorship (I pay them too). Like, we have vocational programming, and we have honors classes and that kinda thing here, but it's very easy for kids to slip through those cracks and drop out or find themselves without a path at 17-18 (I kind of lived that so hence my attachment to the idea). My first few students to come in were all pretty challenging. Then I got one that was in dire need of counseling and other services. She had endured unspeakable abuse, but was still standing and was a genuinely great kid. I have a son, but I consider her my adopted daughter and our mentor/mentee relationship remains quite strong and she's now attending 4-year college and thriving.

But recently, the school sent me another child that I'm not sure if I'm handling correctly. She won me over on her first day because she notified me right out of the gate that she has GAD and social anxiety - and I told her I'd met a lot of folks with those disorders and asked her why she thought so many people had come to be diagnosed with anxiety disorders and she looked me dead in the face and said "I'm pretty sure it's capitalism."

Any time we talk about holidays or special occasions, she ultimately recounts some harrowing tale about her abuse. She struggles with making friends and trusting people. I let my interns listen to music on a PA system in their work space - almost all of her songs involve suicide or suicide ideation. I don't stop it because I don't want to make an issue of it. I have a few female coworkers I trust that I've tried to get her to develop relationships with too, but she doesn't seem to trust them.

Mainly what I'm asking is: Have you had people in your life discuss physical abuse with you and how have you handled it? Have you worked with "at-risk" youth (this kid has admitted to experimenting with drugs on numerous occasions - I can't say I blame her, but she professes that she's not using currently and I let her know I wouldn't abide hard drug use) and what are some techniques you use to decompress? I find some days her stories hit me particularly hard. How do you advocate for these folks? I also struggle with the fact that when I approach administrators at the school (her current guardians aren't abusive) that they don't take me seriously, or worse yet, assume I'm just trying to make them look bad or that I should just forward this kid to guidance counselors, etc and wash my hands of it.

I think that's the first time I've admitted it. I'm drunk rn as I'm writing this. I down beers and Vodka every day till I can't feel anymore and I don't know what to do. I have a partner waiting for me back home and a family to support me but I can't bear the shame of telling them about my addiction. And I don't want to stop drinking but I want a healthy relationship with it. I don't know what to do

I have been silent for a while comrades. Apologies to that.

I have been a negligent mod, i was suppose to do a www every week but got distracted with my own life, that is okay to do so, we are only human.

Watching the subreddit antiwork essentially shoot itself is a grave sorrow we must endure, however other leftist subs have grown because of it, this was a massive sub reddit nearing around 2 million members, it changed. It started as a anarchist sub about not working but went into unpaid labor and outright showing the hypocrisy of the system we live in.

Its inline again yes but i feel that sub will be attacked. Stay minded comrades of all nations, let this be fuel for the fire.

Us workers have nothing to lose but the chains they put us in