t3_uf6eon

A+ summary of common grief experiences due to covid

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Does covid death or any other death happen due karma? Why not everyone gets affected equally?

t3_u6jsyl

"Mark the Million" Covid deaths in US Virtual Vigil

t3_tzf4ow

I'm just writing here so I can let out my feelings and find comfort in others in the same boat. My dad who is 59 got diagnosed with liver cancer in September of 2021. He was very healthy, never smoked, only drank on special occasions, and was very active, mountain biking almost everyday. He went through 2 cycles of chemo and was in his rest period back in March, however he got pain in his chest and went to the hospital. I remember I was driving home from school and  an ambulance passed by, when I arrived home, I found out my dad was in there. about a week in to his stay at the hospital, he got covid. since he is very weak from the chemo  the doctors don't think he can fight it off. so they put him in hospice and informed me about 2 hours ago that I should come see him soon, as they are afraid he might not make it another few days. My mum, my sister and I am sitting beside him in his room. He's sleeping and snoring away so I guess it's good to know he's not in any pain. All of his family except us are in the UK. (we are in Canada) . he was the best dad I could've ever asked for and I feel like my life is spiraling out of control.

<div class="md"><p>I&#39;m just writing here so I can let out my feelings and find comfort in others in the same boat. My dad who is 59 got diagnosed with liver cancer in September of 2021. He was very healthy, never smoked, only drank on special occasions, and was very active, mountain biking almost everyday. He went through 2 cycles of chemo and was in his rest period back in March, however he got pain in his chest and went to the hospital. I remember I was driving home from school and  an ambulance passed by, when I arrived home, I found out my dad was in there. about a week in to his stay at the hospital, he got covid. since he is very weak from the chemo  the doctors don&#39;t think he can fight it off. so they put him in hospice and informed me about 2 hours ago that I should come see him soon, as they are afraid he might not make it another few days. My mum, my sister and I am sitting beside him in his room. He&#39;s sleeping and snoring away so I guess it&#39;s good to know he&#39;s not in any pain. All of his family except us are in the UK. (we are in Canada) . he was the best dad I could&#39;ve ever asked for and I feel like my life is spiraling out of control.</p>
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Losing my dad to cancer and covid

t3_tvp41x

Lost both parents to covid 11 months ago. The world is opening up now and everyone is living a normal life. Time has stopped for me and i find myself almost wishing that the pandemic continues on. It's painful seeing everyone around me visiting families and being happy about the removed restrictions.

Just a message in the void. Thank you for listening.

<div class="md"><p>Lost both parents to covid 11 months ago. The world is opening up now and everyone is living a normal life. Time has stopped for me and i find myself almost wishing that the pandemic continues on. It&#39;s painful seeing everyone around me visiting families and being happy about the removed restrictions.</p>

<p>Just a message in the void. Thank you for listening.</p>
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World opening up has just been...hard

t3_tsr8ur

I lost my dad to covid after he was in an induced coma for a month. In the end, he couldn’t hold on. He passed on the 31/01/21. 

It’s been over a year now but I miss him so much and I feel so alone in my grief at times. I couldn’t even be with him because he was in the USA.  I live in New Zealand, where it wasn’t hit as bad as other places like the states. People here seem sheltered to how bad Covid is. People crack jokes about it, and I hear about Covid every single day. 

I can’t help but feel frustrated and tired because no one around me understands the pain of losing someone so traumatically to Covid. We couldn’t even have a funeral. I’ve had no closure and every day I’m reminded about Covid. Every single day. 

If anyone can relate to me, it would help ease the loneliness even a little bit. 

I miss him so much. I wish I could just call him and he would pick up. I just want him to pick up. But I know he never will. I didn’t even get to say goodbye.

<div class="md"><p>I lost my dad to covid after he was in an induced coma for a month. In the end, he couldn’t hold on. He passed on the 31/01/21. </p>

<p>It’s been over a year now but I miss him so much and I feel so alone in my grief at times. I couldn’t even be with him because he was in the USA.  I live in New Zealand, where it wasn’t hit as bad as other places like the states. People here seem sheltered to how bad Covid is. People crack jokes about it, and I hear about Covid every single day. </p>

<p>I can’t help but feel frustrated and tired because no one around me understands the pain of losing someone so traumatically to Covid. We couldn’t even have a funeral. I’ve had no closure and every day I’m reminded about Covid. Every single day. </p>

<p>If anyone can relate to me, it would help ease the loneliness even a little bit. </p>

<p>I miss him so much. I wish I could just call him and he would pick up. I just want him to pick up. But I know he never will. I didn’t even get to say goodbye.</p>
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Loss of my Dad

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Free grief support for young adults who have lost a loved on to COVID

t3_tbjlcr

March 10th 2022, marks the 6 month mark of my grandmas death. 

I remember people telling me the grief would become easier to bear, eventually you would think about it less, but when you did think about it, it would be more painful. 

They were wrong and right. 

It’s so much more painful with each passing day, there isn’t a day where I don’t spend at least 20 minutes crying over her death. 

I remember our last call, and even though the doctors said she would be going home that week, she knew. She told me she loved me so much, and she would always be proud of me. And so much more. 

I can never describe to those who don’t experience it, or see it, what intubation looks like, especially when it’s a loved one. 

Seeing her like that still haunts my nightmares. Every night, on the nights I can remember my dreams at least, she appears, and so does her dead body they tried to semi-reconstruct after intubation. 

People still try to ask if she had any underlying conditions, they try to tell me COVID is fake, all that political shit. But it doesn’t change the fact that COVID is real, and COVID took away the one person who will always love me unconditionally. 

I hope there’s an afterlife, because everyday I wish I could see her again, just hear her talk to me one more time. 

6 months and it still hurts more than ever.

<div class="md"><p>March 10th 2022, marks the 6 month mark of my grandmas death. </p>

<p>I remember people telling me the grief would become easier to bear, eventually you would think about it less, but when you did think about it, it would be more painful. </p>

<p>They were wrong and right. </p>

<p>It’s so much more painful with each passing day, there isn’t a day where I don’t spend at least 20 minutes crying over her death. </p>

<p>I remember our last call, and even though the doctors said she would be going home that week, she knew. She told me she loved me so much, and she would always be proud of me. And so much more. </p>

<p>I can never describe to those who don’t experience it, or see it, what intubation looks like, especially when it’s a loved one. </p>

<p>Seeing her like that still haunts my nightmares. Every night, on the nights I can remember my dreams at least, she appears, and so does her dead body they tried to semi-reconstruct after intubation. </p>

<p>People still try to ask if she had any underlying conditions, they try to tell me COVID is fake, all that political shit. But it doesn’t change the fact that COVID is real, and COVID took away the one person who will always love me unconditionally. </p>

<p>I hope there’s an afterlife, because everyday I wish I could see her again, just hear her talk to me one more time. </p>

<p>6 months and it still hurts more than ever.</p>
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It’s been 6 months today.

t3_t5hk45

I lost my Dad, Mark, to Covid on June 30, 2020. It still haunts me that I couldn't be with him. 

On Monday, March 7 at 5:00 PM there will be a virtual vigil to honor and remember our loved ones. It is co-hosted by Marked By COVID and Reimagine. [Marked By COVID](https://www.MarkedByCOVID.com) is the group I started to call for permanent memorials and accountability.

* You can learn more about our work for memorialization by visiting [www.CovidMemorialDay.org](https://www.CovidMemorialDay.org) 
* If you'd like your loved one honored in the vigil, s[ubmit photo of your loved one for the vigil here.](https://www.CovidMemorialDay.org/photos)
* [Register here](https://letsreimagine.org/103965/covid-memorial-day-virtual-vigil?fbclid=IwAR3fEwTS7DuuPV_ee5XLznAP-q0PAw9-_1Cqv11oPHlTb-2txjLYdjksCLU) for the memorial. I hope to see some of you there.

<div class="md"><p>I lost my Dad, Mark, to Covid on June 30, 2020. It still haunts me that I couldn&#39;t be with him. </p>

<p>On Monday, March 7 at 5:00 PM there will be a virtual vigil to honor and remember our loved ones. It is co-hosted by Marked By COVID and Reimagine. <a href="https://www.MarkedByCOVID.com">Marked By COVID</a> is the group I started to call for permanent memorials and accountability.</p>

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<li>You can learn more about our work for memorialization by visiting <a href="https://www.CovidMemorialDay.org">www.CovidMemorialDay.org</a> </li>
<li>If you&#39;d like your loved one honored in the vigil, s<a href="https://www.CovidMemorialDay.org/photos">ubmit photo of your loved one for the vigil here.</a></li>
<li><a href="https://letsreimagine.org/103965/covid-memorial-day-virtual-vigil?fbclid=IwAR3fEwTS7DuuPV_ee5XLznAP-q0PAw9-_1Cqv11oPHlTb-2txjLYdjksCLU">Register here</a> for the memorial. I hope to see some of you there.</li>
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COVID Memorial Day Virtual Vigil

t3_t1csgx

I lost my dad a few years ago, but this loss hurts much more. This friend was my everything. The death cert says covid, but his family says it definitely wasn't covid. Their reasoning: he just collapsed one day without warning (while doing yard work outside), and that's not a covid symptom. After the collapse, he did live for another 2 weeks or so. Is sudden collapse with no prior symptoms a feature of covid?! What about having a weird/different sounding voice - is that a symptom of covid? (That's what I remember from talking to him 1.5 weeks before he died)

And why, you ask, am I hyperfocused on whether he died of covid? Well, if he did, I believe I might be to blame. I saw him about 3.5 weeks before he died, and hugged him indoors. I tested positive for covid 3 days later and started isolating. I believe I was exposed the night before I saw him. So what if I gave it to him, and this is why he died?

I'm in a really dark place about this, and am feeling obsession and guilt around it. The thing that would be most helpful to me, right now, is anything logical that might help me convince myself I didn't kill my best friend. For example, someone told me the "incubation" period is 24 hours or something. So if I was exposed 12-15 hours before I saw him (we spent about 10 minutes together), maybe the virus wasn't active in me in order to spread yet. That's comforting - but I haven't found enough evidence to back that theory up :( does anyone else know anything?

And yes, maybe obsession and guilt is just a grief coping mechanism, but that's where I am, and I'm looking for anyone who's willing to meet me where I am right now.

<div class="md"><p>I lost my dad a few years ago, but this loss hurts much more. This friend was my everything. The death cert says covid, but his family says it definitely wasn&#39;t covid. Their reasoning: he just collapsed one day without warning (while doing yard work outside), and that&#39;s not a covid symptom. After the collapse, he did live for another 2 weeks or so. Is sudden collapse with no prior symptoms a feature of covid?! What about having a weird/different sounding voice - is that a symptom of covid? (That&#39;s what I remember from talking to him 1.5 weeks before he died)</p>

<p>And why, you ask, am I hyperfocused on whether he died of covid? Well, if he did, I believe I might be to blame. I saw him about 3.5 weeks before he died, and hugged him indoors. I tested positive for covid 3 days later and started isolating. I believe I was exposed the night before I saw him. So what if I gave it to him, and this is why he died?</p>

<p>I&#39;m in a really dark place about this, and am feeling obsession and guilt around it. The thing that would be most helpful to me, right now, is anything logical that might help me convince myself I didn&#39;t kill my best friend. For example, someone told me the &quot;incubation&quot; period is 24 hours or something. So if I was exposed 12-15 hours before I saw him (we spent about 10 minutes together), maybe the virus wasn&#39;t active in me in order to spread yet. That&#39;s comforting - but I haven&#39;t found enough evidence to back that theory up :( does anyone else know anything?</p>

<p>And yes, maybe obsession and guilt is just a grief coping mechanism, but that&#39;s where I am, and I&#39;m looking for anyone who&#39;s willing to meet me where I am right now.</p>
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