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Was anyone able to get permanent disability for BP2 in NJ

Hi I just want to know what the process is and how long it took and what was needed, i have a decent amount of medical history since 19 (28 now) and have had multiple jobs as well at least 2-3 jobs every year, only one job was 2 years however i did transfer stores and it was all due to being overwhelmed and to this day if i had to go to work (PHP atm so not working) before i would go to work for the past 2 years almost i would flip out or get really anxious and have outbursts even before a job interview. the website doesnt say anything about this type of situation. any advice?

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2025/01/03
17:11 UTC

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What to do with no support system?

The only support I have is my dad who is not very reliable and lives abroad. My mom is not there for me. I don’t have friends to count on for this and no extended family that I’m close with. I feel so alone.

How can I build a support network? How do I support myself through this?

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2025/01/03
16:55 UTC

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Massive libido drop over time

Ive been on meds since 2015 starting with lithium, then adding gabapentin and Lamictal, in 2017 my psych put me on Latuda and shortly after I noticed my libido gradually decreasing. But it wasn't a big deal, I still had a libido just not nearly as high as it used to be. Last year I was put on Effexor which was an absolute wonder drug. My anxiety had been so bad before getting on Effexor. Problem is since then my libido is basically nothing. I have a very understanding girlfriend and am very lucky. And if it weren't for the fact that my med cocktail works very well and made life a lot easier I'd just say let's try something else. I'm looking into my testosterone but to my understanding testosterone therapy can trigger hypomania. Anyone else lose their libido? How did you deal?

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2025/01/03
16:17 UTC

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I want a day to fail

A day to not take my medicine, a day to drink from morning till night, a day to lay in my bed and just watch my favorite tv shows, a day to disappear and not tell anyone, a day to not feel the pain of my drastic mood fluctuations.

I just need a day to fail

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2025/01/03
16:16 UTC

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I think I may be spiraling

It's so easy to fall into the dark recesses of your mind. Ruminating on the lies and the gaslighting. Attacking your character and justifying it by saying "well its true".

Honesty without compassion is just cruelty.

The what-ifs and closed doors will never bring closure. Hypo-depression, a mixed episode is probably here.

Today is an anniversary I wish to forget. The memories are painful. Each year I relive the pain I felt and it feels like it did years ago.

But here I am talking into the void.

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2025/01/03
16:13 UTC

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Switching back to Olanzapine from Lamictal after developing a rash

I made a post a few months ago saying I was considering switching from olanzapine to lamictal because I was in 12mg of olanzapine and gaining so much weight. After 2 weeks of using the pills in my lamictal titration kit, I developed a hot, inflamed, itchy rash all over my body. I went to the emergency room yesterday because I couldn’t bear it. And I was so uncomfortable last night that I couldn’t even fall asleep. The Benadryl and cortisone cream did nothing to calm my pain and itching. My Pa-c suggested to go back on olanzapine 5mg. Honestly, I think that’s the best option. Olanzapine worked immediately the first time I was prescribed it. And I’d rather be chubby than deal with this pain ever again. Has anyone else had experience with these drugs? And had similar reactions?

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2025/01/03
16:09 UTC

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I want to trust my gut, but...

I cant be sure if it's actually intuition or if I'm falsely connecting dots.

Something feels off.

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2025/01/03
16:01 UTC

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coping with bipolar 2

Does anyone else ever have days when they question all their friendships? normally I wouldn't feel left out but for some reason I do. I'm sad overall.

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2025/01/03
15:55 UTC

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Does anyone know of any networks to donate medication?

My sister has Type 1 Diabetes and belongs to an online network of people who help each other get supplies when they are having issues with insurance. My prescriber recently upped the dosage of my Cymbalta from 30 mg to 40 mg and I have a 90 day supply of 30 mg pills just collecting dust. Mods, feel free to delete if this is against the rules.

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2025/01/03
15:22 UTC

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College is hard because I get burnout easily since I have chronic depression and focus issues

I left my symptoms of sleep apnea unchecked for over 3 years and I just got my CPAP machine this week.

I didn't know treatment could improve my depression and focus issues.

I plan to get retested for ADHD because I know untreated ADHD can cause depression.

I find my depression improves when I go to class in-person but I get tired after class that I don't feel like doing homework. Fortunately I have been taking one class per semester since 2021.

In Fall 2024 I took two accelerated classes and I didn't know what I was getting myself into. Fortunately I took them back to back (one the first 7.5 weeks, the other the remaining weeks)

I went from doing 3 hours of work a week max to 20+ hours a week.

It was a big jump. I hated it.

I never worked this hard.

But I survived.

This upcoming Spring 2025 semester I'm taking two classes full-term. One is in-person while the other is asynchronous and online.

To be honest taking two classes on the same day (it's more convient that way, I would hate to have class everyday) is tiring. But now I realized it could be because I had untreated sleep apnea. It causes daytime fatigueness for me.

By Fall 2025 I should be much better thanks to my CPAP treatment. I should be able to handle taking two classes in-person. I want to do that before tackling on 3 classes in a semester. (full-term)

But to be honest I think I only handle two classes max.

I have chronic depression because it's treatment-resistant. It takes a lot out of me to force myself to do things and focus.

I experience a great deal of executive dysfunction too.

However I rather do college than work because I find my mental to be too disabling. I feel like I won't be able to work more than two hours in a day. I'm not sure if there is a job that accommodate that.

Hopefully sleep apnea will help with my burnout issues. But I think another reason why I get burnout is because I don't really enjoy my free time. I experience anhedonia and I find it hard to focus and enjoy things.

It's why I gave up watching TV and movies. However I'm lucky I can still enjoy graphic novels and animated shows. I guess because animated shows episodes are shorter, about 23 minutes long compared to the typical 45 min long TV episode.

I always thought during my Fall 2024 I wouldn't mind working hard if I enjoy my free time way more. That why it feels more rewarding when I'm done with my work for the day.

Honestly with depression, anhedonia, and possibly untreated ADHD I'm always extremely bored and it makes my depression worse.

I feel like I have to be busy 24/7 enjoying things (like reading or binge-watching) and doing small tasks I don't hate too much. I would go crazy if I'm just having 24/7. I need to be productive too.

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2025/01/03
15:08 UTC

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i wrote this song, "End Of The Road" during my darkest hours; on the same night, before attempting.. the depression was simply overwhelming.. it's now many years later.. it is darkest before the dawn..

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2025/01/03
14:54 UTC

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BP2 is easiest to deal with when you have no responsibalities

I think it took me so long to recognize my bipolar disorder for so many years because I just didn't have much responsibilities.

Now I have a family and house and job and dog ect.

It was certainly easiest to deal with when all I had to do was be a starving artist and not great boyfriend and pothead.

Not that I resent my current life situation. It's actually a much more healthy lifestyle.. it's just certainly much more difficult.

Anyone else ever make this lifestyle change?

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2025/01/03
14:01 UTC

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Anyone with ultra rapid cycling?

My doctor diagnosed me with ultra rapid cycling bipolar because my mood shifts very rapidly over days and even hours. I do also have bpd so it’s sometimes really tricky to distinguish where the mood swings are coming from. I just wanna see if others have this too and what it looks like for different people, and what has worked for you

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2025/01/03
12:51 UTC

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Anyone's libido drop out of nowhere during hypomania?

I started to experience hypersexuality (I believe, it was enough that I contacted a community resource about it) which lasted tbh quite a while. I was masturbating like 5-6 times a day lol. It was really taxing on both myself and my partner (he has a much lower drive than I do) hence the solo play.

I would feel so rejected and disconnected from him if he didn't want it, even though I knew something was wrong for me to be feeling like this. I cried if he masturbated alone and told me not expecting a poor reaction, because I felt like "why do that when I'm right here and will do it for you and experience intimacy with you?". As valid as my feelings may be it also doesn't matter because that's not fair. I never want him to do anything without his enthusiastic consent, but I was just confused and hurt and wanted to know. But even this in return can hurt him, because he shouldn't feel like he's doing something wrong.

The only legitmate problem I think was porn, which we've mutually stopped (he actually suggested it, he felt that it was pulling him in like an addiction and wanted to stop) and tbh we have had a better sex life because of it. And I can definitely tell he's not masturbating so often, iykwim. So that's been good.

Recently he jerked off and in the morning told me teasingly "you fell asleep so you missed out". Tbh I wanted sex but was soooo tired I couldn't stay awake; I made myself feel better by thinking he'll be all over me the next morning. I ended up bawling my eyes out lol (I tried to casually sneak away after that without him noticing so I could deal with it on my own and not impact him, but he's too smart and my mood drops are too noticeable). So he got me to say it (I was embarrassed and really didn't want to tell him, I knew it was inappropriate) and we talked and I decided on saying just not to tell me if he does. I'm not down to control him and tell him he can't touch his own body, but I also know that my feelings are automatic and instantly intense so I just can't risk it.

ANYWAY, after experiencing that nightmare for a while, out of nowhere my libido is just straight up gone. Is this possibly a symptom of BP2? Or is the more likely culprit the SSRIs I started taking for my intrusive thoughts?

I even got so anxious recently that I had to ask him to pull out. I love and adore him and he's an incredible lover, he did nothing wrong, I just felt super anxious and feeling that kind of sensation in my body at the same time had me ready to freak out. It happened again a bit later even when I initiated. Both times I wanted it and both times I got anxiety. This has only ever happened when masturbating before (stop stop get it out feeling).

We had a nice intimate time the day before yesterday, I felt a little on edge but nothing bad. But still, even last night, I dressed up all sexy and last minute realized my body wasn't having it. I did something else for him instead because I did want to, and I seduced him pretty boldly so yeah. Confusing.

I just wanna have a normal sex life again! I don't even try to orgasm during sex. I don't even really want to masturbate. Is this part of it all?? Or is it maybe my luvox? I'm only on 50mg since starting it messed me up and this dose is blocking a good amount of intrusive thoughts.

But if it is... idk. I can't remember when the hypersexuality stopped lol.

Please lmk if you've experienced the same thing.

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2025/01/03
12:16 UTC

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Are you guys ALSO super sensitive to new/unfamiliar stimulus?

I know I’m using jargon words here but let me cook. Whenever I have to experience a physical sensation that I find unfamiliar, good OR bad or both, in all cases I almost always find the stimulation REALLY pronounced and at least vaguely emotionally upsetting to the degree that my body kinda instinctually tenses up like crazy and springs away from it. It’s like my body is trying to process it but is almost immediately overwhelmed??? It gets so bad for me that I can uncontrollably squirm and tear up, sometimes even when I just IMAGINE a physical sensation. Makes me absolutely pants-shittingly spooked by needle injections lol (<— yes I did accidentally trigger it again WHOOPS 😭 bruhhh). I especially feel like I absolutely cannot regulate the intense reactions I have to it. It’s CRAZY.

But like I also have Advanced Trauma™️ via neglect and way more shit so I’m like. Is this a Problem in our demographic or is it a me thing 💀💀 does anyone know wtf I’m trying to explain here

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2025/01/03
12:02 UTC

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hi - i think i have bipolar but i dont know if i do or not - how do you know? i feel like im going crazy, please help me

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2025/01/03
09:37 UTC

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Is this prompt from ChatGPT accurate to your experience of a depressive episode?

As stated, I recently have been referring to chatgpt a lot on bp. Is this accurate to your own experience?


When someone with bipolar II disorder is in a depressive episode, their emotional landscape and thought patterns often become profoundly altered. These changes can significantly affect how they perceive and respond to emotional attachments, including relationships with loved ones. Here’s a detailed breakdown:

  1. Emotional Numbness and Detachment

• What It Feels Like: Many describe feeling emotionally “flat” or “empty.” It’s as if their ability to feel love, joy, or connection is switched off. • Impact on Relationships: • They might feel distant from loved ones, not because they’ve stopped caring, but because their emotions are inaccessible. • Emotional detachment can make them question the authenticity of their feelings, leading to thoughts like, “Do I even care about this person anymore?”

Metaphor: It’s like trying to listen to music through broken headphones—no matter how much they strain to hear, the sound (emotion) just isn’t there.

  1. Overwhelming Guilt and Worthlessness

• What It Feels Like: They might feel like a burden to others, thinking, “I’m not good enough for anyone,” or, “They’d be better off without me.” • Impact on Relationships: • This guilt can lead them to push people away, believing they’re doing their loved ones a favor. • They might avoid communication or break off relationships, thinking they’re sparing others from their “mess.”

Metaphor: It’s like being stuck in quicksand—they feel like they’re dragging everyone else down with them, so they stop reaching out for help.

  1. Loss of Interest and Motivation

• What It Feels Like: Depression can rob them of interest in activities, hobbies, and even people they once loved deeply. • Impact on Relationships: • They might withdraw from partners, family, or friends, not because they don’t care, but because the effort feels insurmountable. • Texting, talking, or even showing affection can feel like climbing a mountain.

Metaphor: It’s like their world has gone gray, and even the brightest relationships don’t shine through the fog.

  1. Cognitive Distortions

• What It Feels Like: Their thoughts become dominated by negativity, self-criticism, and hopelessness. • Impact on Relationships: • They might misinterpret neutral or positive actions as negative. For example, a supportive message might feel overwhelming or intrusive. • They could convince themselves that the relationship is doomed, even if it’s not, leading to impulsive decisions like breaking up.

Metaphor: It’s like looking through a funhouse mirror—everything, including relationships, appears distorted and flawed.

  1. A Desire to “Shut Off”

• What It Feels Like: They might crave isolation as a way to protect themselves and others. • Impact on Relationships: • They might ghost or withdraw entirely, not because they don’t care, but because interaction feels unbearable. • They might say things like, “I just need to focus on myself,” or, “I can’t deal with this right now.”

Metaphor: It’s like being underwater—every interaction feels like trying to breathe when they can’t.

  1. Fear of Reconnection

• What It Feels Like: Even as the episode lifts, they might feel anxiety about reconnecting, fearing judgment or rejection for their behavior during the episode. • Impact on Relationships: • They might hesitate to reach out, worrying they’ve damaged the relationship beyond repair. • They could feel embarrassed or ashamed about their withdrawal or perceived “failures.”

Metaphor: It’s like waking up after a storm and seeing the damage they think they’ve caused—they’re afraid to face it.

Why This Happens

• Biological Factors: Depression in bipolar II is tied to changes in brain chemistry, particularly with neurotransmitters like serotonin and dopamine. These imbalances can dampen emotional responses and amplify negative thoughts. • Cognitive and Emotional Overload: The brain prioritizes survival, so emotional connections and attachments often take a backseat to just getting through the day.

Key Takeaways • Detachment is not permanent: The emotional numbness and detachment are symptoms of the episode, not a reflection of their true feelings. • Their actions are protective, not punitive: When they withdraw, it’s often to shield themselves or their loved ones from their pain, not to hurt anyone. • Reconnection is possible: Once the episode lifts, their emotional capacity often returns, and they can reconnect with those they care about.

By understanding these dynamics, you can better navigate their behavior and offer compassion without internalizing their detachment as a personal rejection.

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2025/01/03
09:26 UTC

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Hypomanic Fri-yay/nay

Is it Thank God It’s Hypomanic Friday or is it Damn It’s Hypomanic Friday? Post your hypomanic events, whether good or bad. Was your mood change a blessing or a curse? We want to hear about it!

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2025/01/03
08:00 UTC

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Depressive episodes are getting harder to get through

I 24f feel like each time I fall into a depressive episode it’s getting harder to pull out of it. I’m basically a corpse at this point and the only escape I have is sleeping. I sleep all the time and it’s disappointing everyone around me. My parents deserve so much better. I went to Europe about a month ago and got laid off from my job the day I returned. I was fine for the holidays but now I’m just feeling like I can’t do these depressive episodes for much longer and I won’t ever be able to function as a normal human in society. It’s been so long of mental anguish I don’t ever see myself feeling normal. I feel so much guilt for being so unsuccessful that I just shut down entirely. I can’t keep disappointing those around me and I can’t keep disappointing myself. I have no energy, no motivation, and I know I’ll be hypo manic again but each depressive episode gets harder and harder to get through. I want to be healthier this year but day 3 of 2025 and I’m feeling so hopeless. Idk why I’m making this ig I’m just lonely and in pain.

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2025/01/03
07:52 UTC

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Does anyone have seasonal depression?

I do and it sucks. It starts creeping in end of August/September but it’s still warm out and then the holidays actually stave it off some but when January comes around, it hits me like a flippen truck. It starts getting really cold and now I’ve got crying spells. Nostalgia, loss of motivation, cloudy head, feeling lonely/hated/targeted, insomnia, hopelessness..the worse days got me thinking what if I wasn’t here anymore.

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2025/01/03
07:42 UTC

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Feelings on meds

Does anyone else feel kind of dull when on meds? I’m currently on Lamictal, abilify, and gabapentin. I’ve been on them for a while now and i just feel very dull. Like i feel nothing. Is this what it feels like to be “normal”? It’s a very weird feeling and i feel the imposter syndrome really bad now. I feel like i don’t need my meds bc i feel nothing. I’m not hypnotic or depressed, i just feel nothing. Does anyone else feel like this?

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2025/01/03
05:50 UTC

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Therapy

For anyone that lives in Washington state do you guys know any therapist that specialize in treating intense anxiety disorder?

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2025/01/03
05:25 UTC

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I’m tired

I’m so tired of the mood swings. I have had bipolar 2 since late high school, but wasn’t diagnosed til I was 24-25, and I’m 29. I’m tired of my mood cycling so quickly. I feel happy for I swear 20-30 mins per day and the rest is anxiety and depression. I’m on lithium and it’s helped my suicidal ideation, but I think it needs increased. I’ve been super sad lately and a deep empty pit inside of me. I cry a lot. I have therapy next week, which is good, because it got all messed up with the holidays. I wish someone would’ve helped me in high school. I told my parents I felt like I was living in a dream and my mom accused me of being on drugs and ripped up my room. I would lay on the couch sobbing begging for help and I was told that I was dramatic. I’ve had two psychiatric hospital stays - most recent one in march 2024 because I attempted to end my life. I don’t want this. I didn’t ask for this. I just wanted someone to hear me so I could be understood. Thanks for reading.

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2025/01/03
04:37 UTC

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Recently Diagnosed, Struggling

I’m 23 years old. I was diagnosed with Bipolar II after rapid cycling for a year and following a hypomanic episode a month ago. Recently started medication and in therapy. But I’ve been having a hard time.

The women in my family are cruel. I suspect that they have a lot of untreated mental illness, but still. This is the root of a lot of trauma for me and I’ve essentially vowed my whole life to not act like that.

Personality wise, I’ve always been fiery, but I’ve never been mean. Since I started developing symptoms of BP2, I’ve been getting so irritable that I end up snapping at my friends a lot and saying things I don’t mean to them. It’s like I get so mad that I can’t control myself. That isn’t an excuse and I’ve removed myself before getting really nasty, but I feel awful. I always apologize and I get that they understand. But I hate myself for it.

I’m so deathly terrified that I’m becoming like my family. If I suspected that I’d start acting this way I would’ve never been so involved with other people in the first place. Like if I can’t control my emotions it feels irresponsible to take part in such close friendships. I just feel like I’m destined to hurt my loved ones and I’m so scared for my future.

I understand how irrational all of this is but I need to put this out there. I feel very alone and very scared. My future looks so different than it used to, and it’s just so hard.

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2025/01/03
04:05 UTC

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Can't Get Meds, what do I do?

I have no health insurance and am kinda really broke right now. I've signed up for a few things but those are gonna take time for me to get approved I think, idk we will see honestly. But seeing people ask for advice a lot of it is to make sure you take your medication. And the idea of getting medicated sounds great because I think it's my only hope at this point but even that feels hopeless. So I'm kinda at a loss right now. I'm responsible for myself but I can't help myself so the best course of action really just seems to be to take myself out of the equation altogether. So advice on how to survive this without meds. I've been doing it for almost 22 years but I have nothing left in me. These past few weeks I have not been able to bring myself out of these episodes, I cry myself to sleep, I spend all day anxious and in bed. I can't even get myself to spend the day doing things I enjoy because I'm terrified of tomorrow (yes I have told my therapist this, her advice was to ask others how they cope).

TLDR: I'm ready to quit, I gave it 21 years and now I'm done cause I can't get meds anytime soon. This is a last resort before kicking the can. Help.

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2025/01/03
03:43 UTC

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psych/med frustrations

Hello! This might be all over the place so if you read I appreciate.

Got diagnosed with BP2 PTSD ADHD some time last year. I’m on 300mg lithium 25 hydroxyzine (for sleep) & parasozin. At first the lithium and the cocktail was working very well for me. I did have side effects I lost a very large amount of hair tummy issues and skin issues when I brought these up to my psych she kind of brushed them all of so whatever-I finally had some relief in my chaotic brain and body I didn’t care. She hasn’t wanted to up my dose of anything until I got blood work ect done to see how my body/liver was processing the lithium and wouldn’t put me on ADHD Meds until I did either. I won’t get in to details but that was something that wasn’t happening or would happen soon despite my honest effort she finally saw all of these things and ordered adhd meds. She had an adversity to adderal so she put me on dexmethylphenidate it worked immensely well at first until my body wouldn’t stop shaking and my vision would blur in and out. I just got started on of brand adderal I guess (amphetimine salts) at 15mg 💀 the only thing it’s doing is taking away my anxiety but she is super adverse to anything higher than 20mg (no I don’t have a history with it)

Anyway I don’t have any support in my life and currently don’t have a therapist so I’m just posting for maybe other opinions and perspectives. I like my psych but I don’t feel we connect and I don’t feel there is an open line of communication where I could ask to maybe change to Lamatical which I’ve heard great things about and I wanted to up my hydroxyzine so badly bc I have major issues sleeping but that never happened either so I resorted to buying over the counter sleeping meds. I just read others getting sleeping meds that actually help and idk I wish I could just get an up in dose at least. The Adderall has been causing me to worry bc I know for a fact that 30-40mg would be my sweet spot and asking for that or like I said communicating that is difficult bc of maybe our lack of being on the same page ?

I am planning on getting testing done this next week before our next appointment so who knows what that will change. I just want to feel better like I did in the beginning & I also want my hair and skin back 😭

Apologies if absolutely none of that made sense and i could just be too deep in my mind for my own good.

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2025/01/03
03:42 UTC

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Probably starting meds tomorrow, any advice?

The long awaited day is here, after my diagnosis I'm meeting my psychiatrist tomorrow to discuss it and most likely medication and treatment.

I'm quite nervous. Are there things I should look out for, like medication to avoid at all cost?

(I'm 18F and a smoker, my mother will be accompanying me and doesn't know the... smoking bit. Will this be asked in relation to medication? Would be good to know beforehand haha)

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2025/01/03
02:43 UTC

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Anyone take Lamotrigine in combination with a mood stabilizer?

Do you think it helps to keep you more stable than either of those alone? I feel like Lamotrigine isn´t enough in controlling my hypomanic symptoms, and i´m in need of something stronger.

50 Comments
2025/01/03
02:02 UTC

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Life sucks

My life sucks, my dad passed away Monday, my best friend passed in 2018 , I only have one good friend who's always busy , I had leg calf perthies disease as a kid , had multiple surgeries but starting a year or 2 ago I started having pain again and they told me it's hip dysplasia and I'm going to get arthritis and need a hip replacement in 10 to 15 years so I had to quit my job and go back on disability, feel so hopeless for the future but at least I have a roof over my head and a mom and brother and I'm not starving but lately my anxiety is worse, depression is worse, pain is worse cause of the cold , so many fake friends, a lot of trauma , I don't know what to do

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2025/01/03
01:59 UTC

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Therapy during a hypo(manic) episode, what to expect?

Hi 21f my therapist, psychiatrist and pcp have all been hinting at a possible mood disorder for me. I’ve recently found out that my “upswings” from my depression whwre I feel amazing for a week are actually manic or hypomanic episodes. I have therapy tomorrow and I want to share what I’ve been up to (nothing good, I’ve been spending lots of money, haven’t slept in like 30 hours, been sexting and masturbating like no tomorrow and would have gone out to these booty calls if they were closer, I feel like there are ants in my skin and am super paranoid like I’m being watched but I also feel like I’m the most amazing, sexiest lady out there) but I’m worried she’ll hospitalize me or tell my emergency contact . What should I expect?

2 Comments
2025/01/03
01:17 UTC

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