Hello, this is my first time posting here. I am not diagnosed as autistic, nor do I claim to be. Unfortunately, I live in Africa, where it’s nearly impossible to get an accurate diagnosis. Most psychologists here still have very outdated and stereotypical views of autism.

My question is: do any of you feel (or have felt) the need to "hibernate" during every holiday or vacation you got in high school or university? Personally, I’m still in college, but I’ve been working for a year and a half, which means I’ve had very little to no breaks. I find it so hard not being able to recharge.

The only reason I’ve managed to hold on so far is because of external factors, like my office being closed or taking leave for a month by pretending I had a national exam to prepare for. Since July 15, I’ve been back to work, and after almost six months straight, my brain and body are struggling to keep up with the rhythm.

Luckily, I’ve been able to take a two-week paid leave because of my marriage. My husband is very understanding and kind, and he doesn’t expect a big vacation. Instead, he lets me rest, which for me means doing absolutely nothing—literally nothing. That’s the only way I can recharge.

My concern is that I might not always be so lucky. I’m scared that in the future, I won’t be able to stop working right when I’m about to reach my breaking point. I’m also afraid I won’t be able to hold a job for more than six months. Keep in mind, I’ve been working from home for the last six months, which I thought would solve my problem, but it hasn’t.

it‘s the same with sprays. a year or so ago one appeared in our toilet and I had to fucking pee into the bathtub because I couldn‘t breathe. it „vanished“ after a couple of days.

I can‘t wait to live alone. two more weeks, then I don‘t have to deal with shit like surprise perfume assault anymore.

I have been going through an existential crisis about my diagnosis, whether or not I can ever be anything more than that, and what I can actuallty accomplish , and this sub I think is digging into that anxiety. So I am not sure it is best to stick around

Everyone here needs one of these. I mean it. I thrifted a new one yesterday for 10 dollars and it's so nice. I feel pressed and secured and I can turn my fan on and feel cold then the blanket makes me warm and it's soft and my computer is on the end of my bed so I can wear it on my shoulders while I work by folding it in half and then when I wake up in the morning I feel like Rock Lee when he fights Gara. It's perfect and I'm so glad I got it for cheap. I'm gonna go to bed now eeven though it's still light out and it's not entirely because of depression. Yay for heavy blanket!